Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there.
It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on a small staircase, coming down the street. It was a woman and she smiled as i approached her.
I said hi and asked to tell me where i was, but she didnt said anything except smiling and telling me „Come on, theres a party in my house, we talk there“. She was walking forth and i was caucious and for whatever reason i told her „Before we go, look into my eyes for a second, i have to check you quickly“.
She came in front of me and i looked sharply in her eyes. It was like she knew what i was doing and as i did the trick, i understood why i did it. I was checking if she was human, monster or alien and within two seconds, she was loosing consciousness and started to shake while i watched her. She was a human and nothing unusual was within her body, so i trusted her and we walked as if nothing had happend.
We went a few meters and her house was right next to the street from which we were walking. I just went inside and three other girls and a guy stood inside of it. One guy and a girl left, so i stood there with the others and they introduced themselves but i dont remember their names ..i think one was Lucy and the other girl was Alice but before they finished, the girl asked me what my name was.
I told them, that „the dimension from where i came, they called me „Arslan“, but from myself, i dont prefer any names and lets leave it like that“. They smiled and said „Alright than youre the nameless“. I was okay with that. After that we started to talk and i was wondering which kind of physics and rules were applied to this dimension. But before i asked, i noticed that the house was odly dark and only a few LED-lights were burning on few corners. Neither was there a party.
I stood up and asked to do the glaring trick but the others started running upstairs and i wasnt sure why. They told me to stay downstairs and wait until its over. I wasnt sure what was happening but i wasnt affraid. They did let me do the glare before leaving and none of them were other things than humans. I still walked behind them, i just wanted to see what would happen.
They were running and running upstairs and on each floor, somebody stood still and didnt moved, telling the one to not move until its over. This continued to the third floor and higher, until we stood with a bunch of people on the top of the building.
I saw now what was going on. They told me that they had to face a horde of burning demons every night and that many died because of it. But i was rather surprised because when i looked across the street, everyone was … gone. But the lights were brightly on every corner of the town and the top of every building seemed burned. I wondered why it was always the top but i was going to know shortly.
The people gathered on top, were actually some random people and some were from games i played when i was a kid. They seemed real xD. A few moments later i heard a loud screaming noise coming out from a violett portal.
This noise was caused by burning, one eyed bats which started burning down the entire building. The people started to fight but it was pointless because these bats were just fire. Once inside the flames, everything was reduced to ashes and this explained why the heaven was full of an orange/red fog.
Not all died, but the figures which i knew did. The girls from earlier survived and the portal closed. I stood there, just watching and than i fly’d a bit up and caused the building to collapse to both sided. It was completely burned and soon after i just left, flying around a bit and noticing, that even these people didnt knew the fact that they were souls and not humans…
The reason i didnt died there, was because i was fully aware of myself and my situation.
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Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there. It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on […]
You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is. The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How […]
In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]
Es gab einmal einen Mann, den nannten alle „Der Verbieger“, weil alles was er tat und konnte, war es zu verbiegen. Sei es Gestein oder Stahl, alles konnte er verbiegen, ja sogar sein Haus war verbogen und auch seine nicht existente Frau. Die Dorfbewohner wagten es nicht allein durch das Dorf zu laufen, aus Angst […]
You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is.
The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How far it stretches and how strong it acts upon you, is decided on how much conscioussness you’ve got.
The more you know about it, the more it advances against you and lures into traps of your ego.
It doesnt only exist on earth but on several other planets as well, which are low swinging in frequency. This matrix net eats and consumes negative energy because it is the cheapest and most – energy -consuming – energy available on the planet. You could say its dirty money with no consequences to itself.
The matrix causes people, partners and whatever who is unaware about it, to get negatively fast. And by this i mean every negative emotion and thought. The only way to truly know that the thoughts you talk off your mouth are really YOURS, is to be conscious at all times. It can only manipulate if your on autopilot/ dream alike state of mind.
This being together with the ego – is a super complex system to support itselfs energy supply without your notice. Many people, and with that i mean over 90% the population, dont know about the existence and manipulations on the ethereal levels.
Since the matrix supports negative energy, it supports negative acts from everything that lives on the planet. This means that many who do harm are mostly on top positions and those who like to help and create a better world, meet their end quite fast. This is because the matrix hates love. It cant stand it and because of this fact, it will try to bring lovers apart, partners to fight and many things more. It knows when it succeeds, that its system is working and it can go on like that. But the biggest reason is the negative emotion that can be dragged out of both people who cant see each other and suffer.
When you suffer, you release emotion. When the emotion is bad, it will be consumed and advanced to get more, if your unconscious mind lets it happen. If the emotion is good, it will hurt the matrix.
This invisible thing has a giant construction of helpers on the planet which cant be seen, but be observed when the spirit is outside the body, or the mind outside the cage. In our book, we got in much more detail about it! You should check it out and know what really is out here. Once you get a hold, the world of the living becomes much more boring than usual because you wont want to know whats on your instagram or Facebook but around you! Dive in, to the secrets of your past.
So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]
I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]
Es gab einmal einen Mann, den nannten alle „Der Verbieger“, weil alles was er tat und konnte, war es zu verbiegen.
Sei es Gestein oder Stahl, alles konnte er verbiegen, ja sogar sein Haus war verbogen und auch seine nicht existente Frau.
Die Dorfbewohner wagten es nicht allein durch das Dorf zu laufen, aus Angst das der Verbieger sie auch verbiegt.
Eines Tages jedoch, glaubten die Dorfbewohner den Verbieger übertreffen zu können und so standen sie vor seinem Haus. Sie riefen ihn und so kam er raus .. Hände wie ein Scheunentor und ein deformierter Kopf waren seinen Markenzeichen. Die Bewohner stellten ihm die Aufgabe sich selbst zu verbiegen, jedoch lachte der Verbieger und rannte auf die Bewohner los. Er bog sie mit seiner neuen Technik, dem geradebiegen, sodass alles was im Dorfe verbogen war, wieder gerade gebogen wurde.
Am Ende des Tages war der Verbieger bekannt unter dem Namen „Der Geradebieger“ und wenn jemand nach dem Verbieger fragte, so sollten sie beim Geradebieger fragen.
This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]
We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]
It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]
So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland.
I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again.
The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there..
The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, looked dirty and small but was aggressive, just like the guy who was a cannibal in the documentary i watched few weeks ago. I hoped that it wasnt him because he would drink his own piss and cut off other peoples tongue’s 😂.
Unfortunatly, it was a weirdo and he told us to finish three tasks he was giving. The tasks were very disgusting and disturbing and with each task, the first and second guy went home. The tasks were simple.
The first was to drink blood from an unknown source, but no one was going to it. So we told him to tell us, were he got it from. And he said from the dogs of your second task. So we drank the dog blood quick, but i only sipped it and the scene changed quick to the second task.
The second one was the most fucked up task. He brought three little puppy’s which he had ripped off the skin of each one, and they were still alive, walking in pain but no screaming. These little guys knew… we had to completely eat them… and so we did for the sake of DMT but … no we actually didnt eat them. We asked ourselves who the fuck this guy was and we didnt needed him at all. So we just threw him off the cliffs near the island were we had the „ceremony“. And since he had no helpers, no one saw nothing. I mean who was that dude and why we needed him and that stupid ceremony right?
The third task was to cut ourselves with the same knives the others had used and no one was doing that. Because i had the dream twice, it switched back and fourth and it showed me that the first time, i did everything and drank the stuff inside the black little vase which was dmt.
This time i didnt do shit and just went to the shrine, drinking it again, but the guy we thrown off was there.. holding the vase in my direction and giving it to me. I drinked …. and nothing happend .. i woke up!
I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]
I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again.
I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on the old mates because ..well ..why not. The cream was tasty and i already had three of them. Besides i was surprised seing them around in such a place but it was more to it than i thought.
Later on we went outside and all hell broke loose.
Out of nowhere, mystic creatures with long nails and swords came like a swarm. They killed and cut up all of the people around. Me and a girl were on our own and had swords ourselves as it seemed. I couldnt see the girls face, neither could i tell who she was but i had a feeling that she might be my wife because she always comes in many forms in my dreams. I remembered the dream and knew that another attack was coming… As the creatures slaughtered everybody, we defended ourselves and cut few of them up as well. The cool part was, that our blades could cut the air and kill from a far distance. So i threw a few slices and got many of them and so did she. The swords were organic … it felt like they were living and the appearance changed colourfully. My two swords were red glowing with a dark background. The girl had a blue and red/dark sword, glowing as well. But we knew that they would break soon because these swords were not held by hand, but it was the hand from those creatures. We had ripped them out of their shoulders.
One creature jumped over a big wall and tried to cut me down, but because i knew the dream, i attacked her first and threw her to the ground. I thought that it might be a woman monster because of the blue appearance and long strange looking hair, but i didnt cared and cut her head along with her arm. There was no reaction, scream or else.
The girl went away, or atleast that was the last time i saw her.
I scene switch happend with a strong wind… i found myself on a mountain, chasing a woman that was running towards a castle. It really looked damn beautyful.. Big trees, the sun shine almost gone and the grass and flowers dancing in the wind, and in front of us, one road to the castle… It seemed magical… the field was shining and glittering in beauty. I really thought i might stay there and just watch, but i needed to chase the woman for a reason. It was very dangerous to just walk towards it but she knew it… The reason why i wanted to stay and watch was because i thought about me and my wife before we came here.. How much time had passed since then, or was it just a blink of an eye? I surely didnt knew.
As i chased her, she stopped and pointed with her finger towards a small mountain looking thing i thought. But it seemed to be a very fast train which lead to the castle. Big train rails were in front of us which circeled across this world. As we approached fast to the train, we noticed that it was covered in a big blanket, letting it look like a mountain. But instead it was a giant mix of a bug, a centaur and a bull. It had two big black tooth in front and it started running fast down the rails from where we came from. I knew that i was already once here and i remembered that i would be dead if i didnt had moved aside. It wouldve trampled me over i thought.
As we saw the giant thing going fast off the area, we went further towards the castle but it was shielded. Another circle ? Or was the castle just imagination? I dont know what happend to the woman but i was standing above ground, flying and looking at the castle. It seemed unreachable. Many big monsters were up ahead and i didnt knew what i was doing there in the first place…
As i looked, my vision gut blurry and i woke up unintended, knowing that its always been you and freedom, who i still chase and know to reach.
Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]
A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?
This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe.
It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a prison planet. After they had created human bodies, they left few of their species on earth and another few on the moon, so they could watch and order command if something wouldnt go as planned. Please note that their plan is created in a time chamber on a different level were time passes by very slow.
After the development of their humaniod species, the modern human, they brought up a money system where one side is poor and their side is rich and wealthy. One cannot exist without the other.
The few left on earth continued the plan until every nation was enslaved and turned to a so called „grey planet“
A grey planet is a fully government controlled world were everything including nature is destroyed and replaced by metal trees and grey looking figures. The rest of the population is killed, tortured or bind to an endless control when you want to walk down the streets. No one is save anymore, everyone is aggressive and dull through the lack of vitamin D. The ones who say something out too loud, will be punished by dead or put to work in the grey mines. The system works automated on a computer and the governments dirty politicians, army, navy and the special forces are trained to take special pills which dull parts of the brain. Shortly said: you become a monkey with enough brain to obey the law, and enough stupidity to never question the law.
The police got killed by the government because they thought that many police men were already secretly against them. So instead a chip or special medication, they got a knock on their office door with poisend coffee or else.
The global population was wiped out with the phone radiation that was installed secretly by every company, which were owned by the governmental rules. They just needed to press a button so all phones either exploded in their faces or caused tumors and brain damage in a week. Sounds crazy ? They had way better tech. and the rest who stood against them got eliminated through operation „Dark Beam“. It was basically a laser with the range of 10 hectare but it only reacted with the heavy metals inside a humans body which the people had through their unhealthy livestyles and heavy chemtrails. It caused heat reaction which boiled you from the inside out… Those days were the last.
This all happend in the COVID-22 phase. Four years after the first global pandemic state. First it was fear, then it was suffer, and in the end it was death and enslavement for nearly the entire population. How did the government survive? Well they built big underground facilities. Deep down safe from radiation and the weapons.
The second waves COVID 19 + 20, were just a warm up to what was coming, trying to vaccinate everybody and kill them without suffering. But it didnt worked and they took the straight head shot but the bullet was going in slow and painful.
COVID 21 was the start of the heavy chem trail rains. They flooded the air and the sun was nearly off for weeks but because they couldnt save themselves from it, they stopped the fouth day. It covered the planet in dust and the people started shooting the cops and burning down governmental buildings. From the time of few days, half the planet was in war. Many didnt knew what to do and killed themselves or went oversee but they got followed by police forces and captured.
Iam telling you this from a base we recaptured that transmitts info to the moon. I dont have time anymore. Oh and iam not human, that is why radiation and heavy metals didnt killed us. We work against the evil forces and currently some of us are located inside an iceberg in the antarctica and inside earth.
When you got the message, burn it! When this gets to their hands, many other realities are screwed. So we hope it found the right one.
The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]
We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose.
They had found a crystal cave and each of those crystals were spending tremendous amount of energy for free. The expeditors saw it as a money mine and claimed the cave for themselves, but it was on our ground and so the people came with the entire village and plundered the cave…
It was soon known around the globe and military forces were coming to reclaim what they took from unknown land. The villagers tried to peacefully solve the situation but before they could speak, they were shot by the white man’s people and taken hostage for killing their expeditioners. Not a single crystal was found after the search through the village..
Where did all the crystals went ? They used hightech to detect the energy radiating from the crystals but still, nothing was found. They had no other choice but to leave.. except when one kid started to say loud „the crystals are inside us“.
This doomed all.. the kid got hit hard in the face and the people started to run.. The military started to shoot and kill everbody, but they wanted to extract the crystals unbroken. Somehow the villagers had eaten the crystals for whatever reason.
After they took a few hostages, they cut them open and extracted the glowing crystals. Very interestingly was what it caused inside their bodys. The crystal was merging with the body, replenishing energy and healing powers. Those crystals were actually alive.
A few hours later many screams were heard but now some gangs started an all out war before they could fully analise the crystals. The biggest question was how they got such big and spiky crystals inside their bodys. A few moments before the tent got blown up by a rocket launcher, the scientists found that the crystals had a connected network and were causing new diseases but the holder of the crystals would not feel anything.
Many died during that time and now we are hiding with the military inside the caves. Our enemy is now a crystals being that cant be shot to death and when it finds a way out of this island, the entire world is doomed. The only way to shut them down is to melt their body with over 2000° celsius and higher.
We had communication to the base and told what happend but they werent believing us and sent another team which was shot from the air.
When we asked the rest of the living villagers on how they got the crystals inside their stomachs, they said that they had no idea about it.
So many questions to this story but not much answers. Whoever gets this message, never come here! We are all dead
There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]
It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team.
We knew that the land of free was beneath us in some closed section, like a portal would show us the way were the world was still intact.
An unknown species of vampires or blood and flesh feasting things had appeared. We assummed that our spy’s became victims to them, but something was odd about the entire incident…
The guy who told us about that world was wearing a black robe and looked like a traitor to me. Everyone believes in his brainwash except three people. But what choice did we had ? It was already late and those freaks were taking the world very fast. No strategic or military force could handle them.
It was one 1am at the market center, we were standing and taking a look to the other buildings, checking if there could be any threat. But it was already too late… they swarmed us from nowhere and first attacked the the civilians. They had no chance.. The heads got ripped out, bones broken and skin torn to pieces. The 10 of us with assault rifles tried to kill them but it was useless against these numbers and impossible to win. We got all seperated at once and many died .. Me, one civilian and another team member got inside the market center. We took the stairs from the closed section, so those freaks couldnt see us. All we were hearing was… screams for help while they got dismantled to pieces. I was about to shoot those who had followed me because of my suspicion that they were bitten.
It seemed to allright and i had no time to think, so i went inside the doors brought me to the second floor, but instead i was underground somehow and i saw how a few managed to escape in here too. We all came together and were relieved that not everybody was dead or infected by now. But the problems were only beginning….
The first problem was THEY KNEW that some had escaped and they knew that we all were down here. When one of them sees you, they tell it their horde and they start to slowly engage with tactics to lure their prey. It was really dangerous.
The second problem was that the catacombs were devided in sections, some had doors and some had traps and other tunnel systems were flooded or destroyed.. probably so safe themselves. But we needed to find the portal to the so called free land.
After a few minutes we heared something loud…The monsters were coming ..or whatever you can call them. They had a grey body, really big and sharp nails and their entire skin was rotting and wrinkled. Some of them seemed to be normal dumb zombies but a vampire was their leader. This thing was the main problem. It could show the dumb zombies how to become smarter and they improved within minutes. But to kill such a thing was merely impossible. Whenever we tried to capture one, it regenerated extremely fast and killed everyone who attacked, as well did the power increase. A vampire who was shot one, became strong as a tank and ripped one of our bases down, but it lost intelligence.
The noise was getting louder and we heared those freaks. They suddenly staring at us from one of the collapsed floors. We knew that we needed to open those doors up fast or we would all die. But instead listening, everybody panicked and ran further inside the catacombs. One stood with me, trying to open a heavy wood door but it wasnt moving at all.
The time we tried to open the door, those things were already inside and started to run after the rest of us. My weapon was unloaded and those things were sensitive to voice and sound. So i took out my katana and run towards two, cutting their heads clean off their shoulders… There was massive blood coming out, a normal human could never have such an amount. The two are dead and werent moving but the rest of maybe 12 saw me and i began to run up the walls and holding on to a little stone outside the wall. The other guy ran away further in.. it was the last time i saw him and the beings started to kick and hit the wooden door with their heads.
What was wrong with them?
Afterwards, i saw the guy with the black robe again! He was here? Why??.. I switched suddenly my perspective and saw how he betrayed all of us by giving wrong directions. He just wanted us to become prey while he was running through the gates. I got lucky and surprised … i never had a live and conscious out of body experience such as this. It seemed that our normal world was fake to every bit.
I flew afterwards the guy and saw the door. It was three wooden doors from my right and the portal was only opening if all the other floors were collapsing soon. It was a sort of magic security system which killed unwanted guests..
After i switched back to my body, i needed to run quickly towards the doors but how would i open them?
At the same moment, i saw the guy with the black robe again, he was standing right to the closed wooden door and took the head of the dead body which i had killed. He placed it in the center and stabbed the head with a knife, afterwards the door opened quick and he went through.
As long as the freaks were distracted at the other door, i jumped straight along the wall and landed infront the door. My jump was loud and the freaks heard me. As the door was closing, i ran inside and pushed it to close. The freaks were hammering loud and i went on.
The guy in the robe was standing there, waiting.. for me ? He had no head to smash against the wall and now was waiting for my ? But that wasnt the case. He looked at me and said „Lets go while theres time“ and he cut his hand and placed it again in the center of the wooden door, but it didnt opened… As i came close, he started to swing at me with his knife but i was the best in close combat. Before he hit me, i hit him in the face, took my katana and cut ofg his legs. He was screaming in pain and i wondered who it was ..behind the mask..
After taking it off, i couldnt believe it… It was the general of the bunker which was destroyed a long time ago, but he was infected and not the same general. I was sure that this being had it planned all along. Either it was the virus or the general was an asshole. I didnt took a chance and cut off his head. He didnt said anything, nor was he trying to stop me from taking his head atleast with his arm or something.
I took his head and did the same with the wooden door. It opened fast and the wooden door behind me was opening, luring in all the infected monsters and collapsing the floor. The last floor, but i forgot to take the head with me .. Damn it.. i would need to open the door somehow and i tried… it wasnt moving… After i sat down and thought what i could do, i saw how the door was opening on its own and green lights came out of there.
I thought i was dreaming .. but there it was.. the portal and land of free.. I stepped through and now iam here, sitting and writing in the lands above the sky’s .. This world was how earth shouldve evolved.. People in love and peace, no war, no disease.. Just pure consciousness about life.
But we on earth.. destroyed everything because of greed.
After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]
You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]
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I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]
Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]
Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]
The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]
The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]
So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]
Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]
Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]
We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]
I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]
There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]
Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]
Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts. Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer. Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut! Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT […]
Attention, danger of triggering. If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you. Keyword, mental health. Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill? What is this actually all about? What is this statement? […]
In the realm of the dead it is appearently common that a being comes after death to guide you in to the light. But this is only a small percentage and depends on ypur believes and what you expect. These beings look shiny and warm and draw your attention away from any questions. They talk […]
Da wir hier derzeit eigentlich keinerlei Input mehr bekommen und das nicht unbedingt motivierend wirkt, sind wir auf Plattformen ausgewichen, auf denen wir Interagieren können mit anderen Menschen. Da unser Blog uns dennoch am Herzen liegt, vergessen wir ihn (noch) nicht ganz und schauen mal, ob es auf WordPress wieder läuft. Was sind Eure Erfahrungen […]
I have currently quite a good time to spare for many other things. My business is doing well and i wont hunger – this should be the important part! Now lets get to the point where i can finally meet my lady! Somehow the sun is back up and back on 36° degrees when it […]
Today a short treatise, which is clearly the most important thing in any kind of fasting at all, discipline. Most of us, who have no or no significant success, say first of all „I don’t know why I don’t lose weight, I do everything right“. And when you start asking questions, you quickly realize that […]
So dear ones, I have accomplished a real „masterpiece“…I have almost completely crashed our blog. The replacement blog has completely disappeared into nirvana. All followers are gone, except for a few from Facebook. But the Email and WordPress followers are actually at 0. That means we have to start all over again. The website is […]
Its me again my dear diary, Today i made new outfits of human skin and organs. I prepared them very well. The blood still drops from them. I couldnt finish two of the dolls, i still need four eyes and the bodies arent enough. I costumise the kill will the outfits and tomorrow is the […]
This is a saying from the chineses monks as i know and this has a deep meaning. If you dont want to repeat yourself, you should think twice about it and only say once. And if someone didnt listen, it will be their problem. It doesnt matter at what discusion it is, just think about […]
We all know the problem.. Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping.. Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea? The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up […]
Today we come to the advantages or disadvantages, if I find some that interval fasting has compared to other types of diet or even diets. Benefits of interval fasting what I personally like best is the fact that you can basically eat everything during the meal breaks, as well as that you don’t have to […]
I wish you a wonderful and hopefully not too hot Sunday morning. THAT would have been my greeting this morning, but you know what? WordPress was of the opinion to delete my finished and saved blog instead of publishing it. Oh guys, I was sooo mad. I had researched and written for over two hours […]
It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist. I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly […]
It was summer and my parents had new jobs in a different city with more income. This meant that i had to change the school and friends again, it was tough but i accepted it and the new house was huge and even had a well. After we got into the house, we were all […]
I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die.
But i found myself in a open cell in hell..
It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because i went down a light tunnel. The hallway was full of screams and fear. Weird noices were coming out in the end of the path.
The walls were from some kind of disgusting looking flesh that hurt you when you came close to it. It wasnt pain what was felt, but it was a horrible feeling which seemed to consume everything.
I stood up and i had no shoes on while i was walking out of my cell and feeling the worst fear you could dream of. Was this place hell? There was nothing that could describe this place, it was truly nightmarish. As i went down the hallway, i saw people screaming in their cells while the doors were open, what was going on? They couldve walked out easily but acted like they were held for eternity here.
Would i stay here forever ? I needed to find a way out and suddenly ..“WELCOME TO HELL, THIS WAY FOR THE MURDERER AND LIVE TAKER ISMAIL SHALAK“
That was my name … i was the murderer and killer of my family, but i only protected myself from these islam-fanatic bastards of a kind! They tried to sell me to a pedophile ring but i managed to escape at a night from home and when i was old enough, i would kill them for what they did. They were brainwashing me and telling me that underage sex would be for my benefit. I liked every bit of cutting their tungs and skin out while they screamed in fear and pain.
„FUCK YOU AND YOUR HELL“ i yelled while i was going backwards to my cell. The being stood there and started running at me but i couldnt move. As it stood before me, three meters high and very muscular and extremely ugly with sharp teeth and a bright smile, it spoke „YOU WILL BE JUDGED BY THE SNIFFER“. And than it hit me so hard in the face that i flew back to my cell, the door closed and i fell to sleep. Surely i would die from a hit such as this, but i only was feeling pain without injury.
As i woke up .. i heard yelling and screaming .. „HELP HEELP HEEEEEELP MEEE PLEASE IM SORRY“. The noise came from the others which were hold by a giant ugly bug that sniffed the cause of their death and which got the punishment for it. The people were held in small cages, naked and full of fear while being tormented by other beasts.
The bug – thing was terrifying itself. A dark coat with bleeding wings and again this red living flesh. The flesh was holding the sinners infront of the judge while it sniffed and told in which tormenter class they would be tortured for eternity.
I was standing on the corner while the red flesh grabbed me and i started to scream in horrible pain and fear. It covered my entire body and caused all pain at once. „THE SINNERS SOUL IS TO BE TORTURED IN THE DEMONS CHAMBER“ said the judge while it sniffed on me. The smell was disgusting and i couldnt say a word because i was screaming in pain.
After my judgement, the flesh threw me down a dark hole while i still was screaming in pain, panick and whatever bad feeling there was. This was going on forever ? Never could i do this? Why did i deserve this?. I was talking to myself while i was tightened to red flesh .. Every second was painfull enough and now these fearful beings were bringing me to the demons chamber .. what on hell was that? How could it get ever worse than this?
„YOU WILL SEE HOW BAD IT WILL GET RIGHT NOW – STUPID HUMAN“ said one being. It was hearing my thoughts ? I couldnt hide my thoughts? How did he hear me ? Or was it pure luck?
I came off the red flesh and got thrown even further down.. A simple hole of blue flesh? Just a really tiny hole made out of organs .. But it wasnt hurting at all .. What was going on? The demons left while i heard them talk something „Will he ever get it ?“.
I didnt understood a word but i needed to climb out the fuck out of here. Maybe they did a mistake and threw me to a wrong spot, this was my chance!
The blue organs were sticking to me the more i try’d to move.. fuck.. i couldnt move easily but i was going up the three meter hole i thought. But instead i was falling further in and started to feel sharp pain at my feat. The blue flesh was turning into something i knew..
It turned into some sort of fluffy hair ?? I was awake and my cat was playing with my foot.. Damn.. was that really a dream? I did kill my parents but that was all good after 30 years. That place was definetly an area to land, when i wouldnt know about it! That was surely a test of skill…? As pain was rising on my entire body ..
„Will he ever get it“ was the last thing that was heard from Ismail Shalak, while he was like the rest, held in a open cell … screaming in pain, hell.
To begin with, ive had very strange moments in my life without the knowledge that came with spirituality. As i grew, those experiences increased randomly and things happend that i cant talk with anybody at all. After a intense remembering on what happend and whats really going on, me and my wife found us back […]
Its raining over 15 hours now and it doesnt look like stopping.. This was really needed. This year not many trees survived due to heat, it went up to 47° celsius over few weeks and killed many things xD
We were 30 kids inside a big cell. I dont remember how i got there, neither who my parents are. That was very strange. The cell or lets call it room was shiny white and had no corners, i dont know how to explain it. It looked like a fortified room and there was a […]
Later afternoon i went out of the club and needed a toilett quickly. Since i couldnt find anything, i just went around the block. It was full of dirt and an old homeless man was sitting on the street.
I walked further and found the toiletts.
„KEEP IT CLEAN“ – Was standing there.. Not thinking too much, i went straight in but the old man suddenly stood behind me and grabbed my shoulder. His hand was cold and he said „Keep it clean and youre safe!“
Are you threatening me old man ? – i responded quite pissed. And he just left.
I went inside and the room was …really clean.
I looked at the window, scratching my face and took a piss. It all didnt went inside the toilett but who cares. Washed my hands afterwards and through the paper to the trash can but it went outside. I didnt bothered putting it back in.
I looked again in the mirror, smiled and went outside…
The door was locked? I dont remember locking it. Was it the old man? „Hey come on thats not funny, open the door!“ .. no answer. I looked around and noticed a piece of paper in front of the mirror .. „Keep it CLEAN!!!“
I took the paper and threw it to the trash can while i backed up a bit and started kicking the door..
It wasnt moving an inch..
Damn it i was stuck in here.
Suddenly on the wall was written „KEEP IT CLEAN!.!.!.“ again but this time the temperature inside the room was rising… or was i imaginating things? It was really getting seriously hot inside the room. I tried splashing water in my face but there was no more water coming out, instead it was black dirty. Ive panicked but not because of the water coming from the sink, but from the sudden dirt and shit coming out of the toilett and covering the floor in a really bad smell, including my shoes.
I was trying to open the door but it didnt worked at all… the shit was still rising .. „FUUUCK .. What do i do, call the police because someone closed me in?“
I tried calling the cops but my phone wasnt working either ? What the fuck was this room ?
The shit was coming and coming and the smell was insane but what was i going to do? It was already at my knees and i wondered how it didnt sipped through the door.
„HELP HEEELP IM STUCK HERE!“ i yelled at the door, but no responses..
On the ceiling „WE TOLD YOU!“ and i was panicking. Did someone watched me ? This wasnt normal and the heat and smell was going up inside my lungs, i was going to pass out but i couldnt! How could i die like THIS?!
„HEEELP PLEASE IM SORRY IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN“ …
The shit rising stopped .. Three holes appeared in the wall and i was expecting it to suck the room clear but… water started to drip fast. I thought i would die but.. i just passed out.
Now how am i standing here and telling you this when i was supposed to be dead ?
Well… that is simple, i remember i was heavily drunk and i slipped while opening the toilett door. My head crashed against the metal trash can and i went sleeping until someone found me laying on the floor, swimming in a pool of blood. The guy called the police and an ambulance because he thought i was dead…
And now.. well .. gotta go work because i got quite a medical bill to take care of.
Applause, applause. Who should pat me, or us, on the back, if not WE ourselves. First of all, today there is an invitation to the Fasting Motivation Group, which I reopened 2 years ago, because many apps only want to earn money, but do not want the members to get to know each other. https://www.facebook.com/groups/2100178886865674 […]
The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, had already happend once because i was receiving déja-vù’s all the time.
Suddenly a movie started to appear in front of me, showing what i had dreamed before. The movie was shown with every step i did, with every room i visited in my house and with everything my housemembers were saying. It was way more odd than before and i hadnt experienced it on this scale with just „green grass“.
My feelings, specially the negative feelings were enhanced a few level higher. I knew that this was called a „bad trip“ and it was my first time. The feelings changed like a loop and connected fears when i entered a dark room. The time i had smoked it, the lights went out and it was already late. Now here comes the first part: the turned off lights were caused by a very strong fog out of nowhere. I hadnt noticed it, but my body was shaking like never before, it mustve been very cold outside or i was over acting because coldness was a „bad“ feeling too. I went inside and it only got worse than that.
After covering myself warm, the movie in front of me started again. I saw how the fog was penetrating every building on the physical plane and causing a shake of every body. The reason for that was simple i thought… The fog wasnt on the third but forth dimension, the particles were dancing or having a party and whenever someone was inside that party, they would feel shaky, cold and electricity hitting the skin. I saw how weed was acting on the brain when it was consumed too much and too often. I had it done only two times inside two days but it seemed to be really good! 😄
The same thing happend to the brain when someone experienced a psychosis. The very brain cells start to shake in a very uncommon manner, causing micro brain damage over time. Why do they start shaking ? Because they receive a bioelectrical impulse from two sides into the brain cells, causing a short circuit simultaneously to the entire brain or several sections. It feels like a boxer is hitting you constantly on the chin but with way lesser power.
After this short movie, i got another and another, too many to tell but what i knew was: every single movie i had dreamed already once exactly in this manner and nothing was knew except the flashing ghosts.
Now that was the creepiest stuff what happend. As i was typing my wife a text, i started to see monsters left and right. They were flashing like someone was using a camera flash light. One uglier than the other and for a certain time i thought seeing my grandma. She died not long ago and i knew that this house was some sort of a party house for souls for a certain reason. The lights were back but i was still seing them. I told my wife about it and she said that i should ignore it because its either only in my mind or they really stand there. Because i was high, i couldnt really tell and so i did what she said and wait.
I hadnt turned on all the lights because i found it very interesting but these faces combined with a way higher level of fear were just interesting.
Since you can have really good sex on drugs, i thought about the reason why some people say that sex with the wrong partner is dirty and energy disturbing. Well.. i saw why this was the case.
When two people with different energy levels mate with each other, they combine their energy and repell it to the energy – world with energy eating beings. Since the most people do this exercise to just have fun, they dont realise what is happening with the energy and themselves inside. They change energy between each other and disturb their own with bad things such as bad emotions or else, which will be felt after the act. Not only that, beings of a way lower level start to appear and eat this energy while they enhance the negative feelings. Shortly said you loose energy and get bad on top.
But what happens when two resonating souls do that ? They increase in energy and wont get a disturbence. Neither can beings touch or feast of this sort of energy because it is higher in frequency, unreachable.
After all this, i closed my eyes and tried to get out of my body but it wasnt working at all. My eyes were spinning and i thought i was laying down on a capsule or something but my astral body wasnt moving. Was the reason because my physical body was holding it down due to stress ? I didnt knew..
I only knew that all information i was receiving with drugs were either useless or not for this world because it was uncontrollable to pinpoint a direction.
A wonderful and hopefully rainy good morning at a Monday. With us nature finally breathes a sigh of relief, it is fresh and raining really well. I, on the other hand, have to put on my pants and hold my breath, otherwise they just won’t close. So I put myself on the scale and fell […]
There was once a cave in which a titan lived. This titan consumed those who dared entering the cave. Any traveler who crossed that path, never returned.. But there was one… who came out disturbed and who took his own life few hours later… The only sentence he said was .. „It makes rings of […]
There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting..
Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many diseases were wiped out.
A free world of technology, knowledge and consciousness. A world of understandment, love and peace.
The beings during that time were not all humans but many came from different planets to develop their species and take ressources of planets because their own got once destroyed by war with a different planet.
This species was far advanced in every aspect. They had built a planet sized gravity star planet which was a planet just like earth but everything was made with a special metall that was light and very dense at the same time.
They befriended with the stupid ape planet earth and took many apes and animals to their ships. After analysation, they realised that it was possible to recreate a species that was dumb enough to never advance too far and intelligente enough to never attack their owner. However, that was all in the dark so no one knew what was coming towards them.
After the species took form, the very first humanoid and alien alike people were known as Adam and Eve in the garden of god. Better known as „human“. What Adam and Eve didnt knew, was that they got captured from a very far world outside the universe and the memory was wiped clean out.
So they were sent back to earth, told to always love their makers and to never stand against them.
Soon after Adam and Eve, many others came by and built a center of what the world was knowing soon as „Lemuria“ or ancient „Dark Snake“ and Atlantis.
The extraterrestials saw how their project grew in what they wanted, a working and slave class for a special metall on earth.
The world was shining in gold and earth was going a way full of advancement and peace. Animals were taught to behave with humans, super computers were built to identify health and brain functions and no one was working for money but for all the things they stood for. No stress was the motto.
Everything seemed perfect until.. the makers asked for what they came for..
Unknowlingly, many dissapeared and got killed by the weapons of the artificial star. They took all the gold which were collected by the humans. Many stood against their makers but it wasnt helping because they had implented many things into their bodys such as the „mine chip“. This chip would detonate when they act against their makers.
Lost legs, arms and heads came the follwing moon lights. The aliens just laughed at them because the only thing they needed to do was pressing a button and all would be gone. Since the ancient world had no interest in weapons and violence, they got wiped completely..
The aliens plundered the entire planet of their true ressources such as the giant trees, omega rocks and gold… lots of gold. They ruined the worlds history so no one would ever find out what really happend. Placing a few statues and rocks and letting the dumb minds of the weak creatures do the rest of a never ending puzzle… All for the distraction.
But before the world went down, some managed to write it down, that maybe one day, someone would read and know the missing peace of history on earth.
After one day of plundering and killing, they left a few new species and animals on earth but again, without memory and only few things to develop their brains overtime and a chip to extinguish them when the time was right to come back, plundering again.
So it happend .. the white and long finger beings went away, letting earth recover and or selfe destruct while watching them from the moon and implementing a „reincarnation – memory forget“ -machine. So if someone died unconscious, they would die and be reincarnated again in the same slave system to work their asses off again and never understand what their real purpose was after all..
„You dumb apes.. we see you soon, or maybe you all just sleep inside our ship?“ – were the last words written along the walls of the pyramids.
What if we are not humans, but beings from a far different dimension who incarnated into flesh, in order to … … do what we want? – But a species a long time ago managed to trap our memory and delete it for a time as long as we are in this body and our […]
Einen hoffentlich entspannten Start in die neue Woche.
Habt ihr bemerkt, am 10.10. der weltweite Mental Health Day war? Der Tag der geistigen (mentalen) Gesundheit. Dieser Tag wurde eingeführt um darauf hinzuweisen, dass mittlerweile locker jeder dritte Mensch auf diesem Planeten mindestens einmal oder dauerhaft psychische Probleme hat.
Das ursächliche Problem dabei, wird natürlich nicht involviert, nämlich das teilweise weder vorhandene noch ausgeprägte Bewusstsein der Menschen, vor allem im spirituellem Bereich. Wer halt immer noch glaubt dass er Gott ist und andere entsprechend schlecht behandelt, sorgt zum größten Teil dafür dass seine Mitmenschen sich schlecht fühlen.
Wenn deren Frequenz dann angeknackst bzw. niedrig ist, ist es sehr schnell geschehen dass wir psychisch angeschlagen sind. Ich glaube das kennt jeder
Andererseits, was erwarten wir in einer Welt, in der einfach von Menschen alles zerstört und vernichtet wird, als wäre unsere Existenz nur auf negativen Frequenzen und Emotionen aufgebaut. Als lebt die Matrix und unser kollektives Bewusstsein einzig durch Negativität.
Mein Zitat des Tages, deshalb von Mahatma Ghandi:
Die Geschichte lehrt die Menschen,
dass die Geschichte die Menschen nichts lehrt.
Auge um Auge -
und die ganze Welt wird BLIND sein!
Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen.
Das blieb so.
Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben.
Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, wie es ist wenn man durch Menschenmassen läuft und sich unwohl dabei fühlt weil sie auf einen gucken?
Alle glotzen einen an .. aber man bildet sich das wohl ein.
Alleine Schuhe binden war auch nicht immer leicht auf der Straße, wenn sie mal auf gingen. Statt sie zuzubinden hab ich die Schnürsenkel einfach so gelassen wie sie sind. Das sah auch viel cooler aus.
Meine Eltern jammerten immer wieso ich keine Freunde habe, aber sie hatten selbst keine.
Mir passierte mal seltsames.. Ein Mädchen sprach mich auf der Straße an und fragte mich nach einer Nummer die ich nicht besaß.
Das lief ungefähr so.
Mädchen: Hey wie gehts ?
Ich: Schaue verwundert nach links und rechts und auch hinter mich um sicherzustellen, dass sie mit jemandem sprechen muss ausser mir.
„… ja?“ Und kratzte meinen Kopf.
Mädchen: super antwort, hast du lust mit uns was zu essen zu gehen ?
Ich: Nachdem ich fertig war mit umsehen zeigte ich den Finger auf mich welcher auch noch zitterte und sagte „Äh ja ok“
Und als ich gerade mitkommen wollte kam einer ihrer Freundinnen und zerrte sie am Arm mit. Danach gingen beide los und ich dachte ich laufe mit..
Freundin von Mädchen: Du lass mal gut sein, wir müssen jetzt los. Übrigens ist deine Hose beim reden runter gerutscht falls dus immernoch nicht bemerkt hast.
Das war der peinlichste Moment meiner Existenz.. Meine Hose rutschte von selbst runter ohne das ichs bemerkte.. Kein Wunder das die Leute so komisch glotzten.
Meine Nervosität war ab da unter dem Boden und jedes mal wenn ich unterwegs sein musste, überprüfte ich ob meine Hosen noch da waren. Wenn ich aber mal bei Besuch unter den Familienmitgliedern im eignen Haus war, überprüfte ich im Bad ob meine Unterhose noch da war.
Meine Probleme nahmen zu.. Ich war mir sicher das Nachts irgendwer im Haus war. Ich hörte Schritte und ein Kratzen neben meinem Zimmer aber war zu ängstlich die Tür zu öffnen. Am nächsten morgen sah ich unsere neue Hauskatze..
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“
Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern schon öfter inkarniert sind. Unsere Vereinbarung mit der geistigen Welt ist, dass wir das „vergessen“ wenn wir neu geboren werden. Allerdings, sind einige von uns nun schon so oft hier, dass man sich schlicht und einfach „irgendwie daran erinnert“, schon mal dagewesen zu sein und einen Großteil der Sachen einfach schon mal erlebt zu haben.
Nun möchte man natürlich auch wissen: „Oh okay. War ich schon hier? Wenn ja, wie oft und als was usw.“
Ich kann hier niemandem erzählen, ob und wie oft er schon inkarniert ist und als was. Das überträfe dann auch meine Fähigkeiten, aber ich kann euch ein…
Mein Kind ist nun Klasse 4 und kam nach Hause und meinte „alles wäre gut“. Man muss dazu sagen, dass Hessen zum Glück keine Maskenpflicht im Unterricht hat, weil dann hätte sie nicht gesagt alles sei gut. Ich wünsche mir dass Hessen dabei bleibt. Lief auch vor den Ferien damit eigentlich ganz gut. Wie sieht […]
Einen wunderschönen und hoffentlich regenreichen guten Morgen zum Montag. Bei uns atmet die Natur nun endlich auf, es ist frisch und regnet wirklich gut. Ich hingegen muss zum Hose anziehen, die Luft anhalten, den sonst geht die einfach mal nicht mehr zu. Ich habe mich also auf die Waage gestellt und bin rückwärts runtergefallen.. denn […]
So currently i lack ideas and need something very new … Last week my grandmother died and the days past extremely fast… Here in this part of russia, the day ends at 18:00 .. because it gets pitch dark outside and the body gets fast sleepy.. reeeeally annoying i can tell! It feels like you […]
Ich habe lange überlegt ob ich Euch mal ein paar Impressionen in Channelings Jenseitskontakte gebe die mir besonders in Erinnerung geblieben sind. Und ich denke ja, warum nicht. Wo fang ich an? Muss ich das nochmal erklären? Im Prinzip sind Jenseitskontakte der teilweise „spontan“ entstandene Kontakt zu den, zum Teil „zufällig“ anwesenden Seelen oder Seelenteilen […]
Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen: Hallo zusammen, In diesem Blog werde ich über meine Erfahrungen berichten und darüber.was geschah, bevor ich auf der Erde inkarnierte. Erstens: Wenn Sie einen Schritt von außen in dieses Universum machen, werden Sie wahrscheinlich und höchstwahrscheinlich Ihr Bewusstseinslevel verlieren. Das bedeutet, dass Sie keine Klarheit darüber haben werden,…
We were in the school cafeteria and the doors got blocked. We panicked not because the police was going to come, but the location changed completely and the walls had a very creepy and bloody dust. We were 3 people including myself. „And what happend next?“ Asked the agent who interrogated us in seperat rooms. […]
Manchmal glaub ich nicht, was ich da sehe. Seht selbst. Der Teller fiel übrigens nicht. Was wars? Frischgebackene Waffeln, die meine Tochter allerdings nach den Fischstäbchen gebacken hatte, in der gleichen Pfanne und das war so widerlich 😆 Es schmeckt so gut, aber stank so nach Fisch, dass Leo am Ende auch verwirrt war.
As i walked straight to the door after pressing down the handle, all other doors closed loudly one after another. This gave me chills and i started to really enjoy it i thought. The room which i was warned by the girls before had been opened… „Scary scary .. not .. its just another hallway“ […]
A horror house had opened last day and i just wanted to see how it was. We had nothing much in this town, so it was rather new and i hoped it to be fun. I was living pretty central and the police patrolled constantly here. Crime was unavailable here and the people were friends […]
Man sieht sie waren fleißig. Das ist die erste und zweite Brut. Dieses Jahr habe ich auch keine kranken oder verletzten gefunden. Heute ist es dunkel draußen. Gestern brannten Feld und Wald, heute regnet es hoffentlich. Einen schönen Start in die neue Woche.
Since some of us sleep more than 10 hours a day, ill call it a half day.. Time your day right and achieve something! Stop fucking around and do, or atleast admit that youre doing nothing for your dreams! Stay motivated and do it daily! Have a good day!
They laugh ot those who can hear it.. While those who dont, get controlled. Pointing with fingers „dumb idiots“, While the real cursed are laughing. A war will come, just like always, Wiping the surface while the elite hide in their bunkers, Waiting to come outside, To rule the survivors and do the same over […]
Just in case you feel like we do and you just hate this planet, here are a few useful mental disorders you can adopt to survive. intentional loss of reality believe into anything that sounds goodbelieve whatever you wanteverything else is of course bullshit acute forget, if it is useful if somebody want to tell […]
I know its more than 50°Celsius. In Englisch its 122 Fahrenheit. My head isnt working in this Kind of weather… Sorry. Nice Sunday for all. Right now, the fire siren is sounding just now. Alarm…I hope nothing bad has happened. But in this heat outside…Conceivable
First, this is a long research with a „client“ who is physically well and did it to himself. All tests were done from the view of spiritual energy flow and how it attacks the body. Lets begin. Our smartphones and computers are special designs to dull our heads and specially our pineal gland with the […]
This place with many others are highly corrupted. What i mean is, that a judge who judges criminals is always paid by the one who wants to win. The more money you give the judge, the higher your chances of winning a case without any problems. These assholes dont even listen to their own rules […]
I shouldnt say it, even though my day was financially great, i dont give a fuck about money and materialistic crap. If i would have the chance to change all i have in order to get you, i would do it without hesitation! Im looking forward to our explosive encounter soon my dear.. Dont loose […]
Applause for myself. Now i feel burned out, because nothing seemed to change in the #consciousness of mankind. And now? The next book „Lucid dreams“ is available and i think im finished with what i was wanted to say to the world. Im ready to go now. In my opinion this Planet will never change, […]
The best way to end a day, is trough meditation and relaxation… why? Well you might not dream bullshit and actually can concentrate to get out of your body. Meditating at night can drastically improve your chances for astral travel and lucid dreaming. Try it out. And good luck. Check out our new book if […]
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Sign your name and bank account info down below and you will be a royal elite member of the club. The „lets eat meat“ and „why im a cunt“ – show will start soon! Get your fork and balls between your ass! .. Cunts!
It happens a lot in this country.. Youll buy a watermelon and hope its a really sweat one. But than it happens.. one bite and after an hour, the symptome’s start to show. Stomach cramps and pain, dizzyness, sweating and headaches. Dammit.. got poisoned.. There are no health regulations in this damn country and because […]
Was meint ihr? Meine Katzen haben Fähigkeiten von denen manch ein Mensch träumt. Sie wissen, wenn ein Mensch nicht viel taugt und knurren ihn an! Schon mehrfach erlebt. Dexter rennt, wenn jemand vor der Haustür steht, hin und ist „Verteidigungsbereit“. Er ist sich also drüber im klaren, dass er hier zu Hause ist und im […]
Having a lot clients out of nowhere… it happens and causes back pain when i lean to much forward for injecting needles. Today i bought a needle matt …or lets say „pain matt“. It burns the hell out of my back, but it really helps. A little advice for anybody with back pain: Get yourself […]
Ich weiss das viele den Montag nicht mögen aber bei mir ist jeder Tag gleich. Ich hab oft dieselbe Routine. Nur heute war viel mehr los und mein Rücken verkrampfte, darauf kaufte ich unüberlegt eine Kleinigkeit die dagegen helfen sollte. Stattdessen aber muss ich es morgen mit einer netten Erklärung zurück geben, da es das […]
Its hot, my eyes hurt and my back crackes on its own.. And now headaches started. This always happens when i look more than 4 hours a day straight at a screen..somehow my right eye doesnt like that. And now my cat starts to eat my bags of vitamins.. Better get him out of here! […]
Okay, let’s talk a little – again – about freedom of expression, of which my personal opinion is: „in principle, my opinion doesn’t matter a damn and no matter what it is, there will always be! really always be someone who will kill or break it immediately and thoroughly. It is really like that. I […]
I will be honest here with you guys. Starting a business that becomes profitable these days isnt easy, specially when you dont have any new idea’s. BUT this doesnt mean that it becomes impossible! I want to tell you how i started my own business while i really didnt knew anything about it. I want […]
The own habits, towards more efficiency and assertiveness only comes when the pain threshold is reached more than the comfort zone. Before that, you don’t have to, and I really don’t mean! wait or hope that you will make a serious effort to do something differently. People don’t change if they are still feeling so […]
It’s not like you don’t tell it over and over and over and over and over again. It’s not like people don’t listen. It’s like, you tell it like a record that jumps back again and again and again and again. My hardest nut to crack is my litany, let me think about it for […]
I was working in two shifts as a security guard in a department store. My shifts were always normal and nothing big happend for over 10 years of work until the clock demon appeared who… Hmphf…. lets start this over.. One night i was walking the usual routine down the hallway. „Keep the Doors shut […]
Ein Visionboard, ist die oft gepriesene grafische Aufbereitung unserer eigenen Vision, unseres Traumes, unserer Ziele. Man könnte faul sein und Fotos suchen und die aufkleben, oder an die Wand kleben, man kann aber auch kreativ sein und seine Ziele aufmalen, oder in Lettern aufkleben, lasst eurer Fantasie freien Lauf. Und wozu das ganze??? Um unser […]
Manchmal denke ich, ich lebe in einer völlig anderen Welt, als die meisten anderen Menschen, die ich kenne. Manchmal beneide ich diese Menschen um ihre Gabe, das Offensichtliche nicht zu sehen und um ihre Ignoranz, das Wesentliche auszublenden. Blind zu sein, auf dem Auge des Mitgefühls. Aber tauschen möchte ich nicht mehr mit ihnen, selbst […]
Hello, My name ist Amy. I love my phone and tablet. I watch it the entire day until the battery runs out and than i start to watch my tablet while my phone recharges. I like my bed and to live there for 10 hours a day. I only stand up when i get hungry […]
I was wondering why humans are as they are. How can i explain it, Dont you wonder sometimes why humans or lets say each individual is so limited towards themselves? We do so much stuff unconsciously and never ask why or how it can be and that is why many fail. A lot just dont […]
Erzähl das, was du vorhast, anderen! Völlig egal wem, am besten ungefragt, jemanden der dich doch ganz bestimmt ganz doll mag – und dann warte ab. Hast Du bis dahin noch an dich geglaubt und das du alles schaffen kannst, dein gegenüber wird das für dich erledigen und danach weisst du warum du nie was […]
Its really hard to go somewhere in this kind of weather. We have 30° celsius in the shadows and 45 in the sun. You probably can imagine how a walk for 30 minutes feels outside. The skin is wet, the hair falls in the eyes and all clothes are soaked … A blizzard would be […]
Ich merke es immer wieder beim Fahren wie gefährlich es ist, wenn die Hälfte der Fahrer ihre Fahrererlaubnis gekauft haben, statt die Prüfungen zu machen. Und ja hier zählt man nur mit Geld als irgendwer oder irgendwas. Daher kann man sich nur mit Geld überall einkaufen. Doch nicht nur sind es Autofahrer welche einem die […]
Ich sage was, Schatzi ist einverstanden und sagt was sie denkt, Ich verstehe es falsch, Schatzi denkt ich bin blöd, Ich erkläre was ich meinte, Sie sagt ich muss nix erklären weil sies weiß, Ich erkläre trotzdem, Schatzi und ich vertragen uns sowieso und wissen das der streit unnötig ist, Wir haben uns sehr lieb, […]
I was sitting in my room while reading a book. It was called „The forbidden Secrets of Mankind“. It was boring at first until it started to tell about monsters which surrounded us a long time ago and that they feed of energy. Suddenly a strong wind came up and i went to my window […]
„beep beep beep“ the alarm clock sounds. ignore „piiiiep piiiieeep piiieeeeep“ shrill screeching of the alarm clock, my heartbeat soaring, that the breathing mask crashes into my face, „DAMNED“ – I shout unabashedly – nobody hears me here anyway. Not only am I awake, I am also directly annoyed and before my morning ration of […]
Having a partner who lives hundred and thousands of miles away for a long time is very hard. Specially when you cant see each other because some state’s and governments wont allow it.. Thats a pretty stupid and fucked up planet if you ask me… hindering two people to find their luck, while they can […]
The screen showed five teenagers which were bound on chair and they seemed to cry. Their eyes were bound with tape. Meanwhile some people started to laugh and under these people, we even saw Bill B., K.P. and many more. We didnt expect these people to be here. They were neither guarded or secured. It […]
Hello everyone, i hope you guys do well too. The last days i feel really tired, specially when the sun shines strong. I wish the weather engeneering/chemtrails back! It made the weather grey and cold 😄 I dont know why i feel like that, maybe a really good sleep would make it up. A friggin […]