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Why you loose Motivation

We all know the problem..

Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping..

Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea?

The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up something, simply because you said it and now it starts to add up. The person you told it will think that they have to give a comment or their opinion about it and mostly its always negative dumb talk. This ruins everything!

Specially family members or near friends who dont have the same goals will tell you how bad your idea is and all your motivation will die out quickly. Its not just a simple sentence „Never tell too much“!

Use it!

The second problem is the inconsistency with the project or the lack of ideas.

The brain and body needs time to adapt to the new game and so it will be often rejected in the first phase, its just like a new videogame.

If you get through the first phase it should be a great way to continue!

Now one of the biggest problems is the lack of ideas … to counter this youll need a plan! A strategy! Without it you will not know how to hold it up and give 100%. Many only follow something when theres a plan and a plan with your goals should be structured, clear and POSSIBLE!

You cant just write „I will rule the world“ and do that in two weeks…

For myself i noticed, writing half an hour new ideas helps alot and gives me more options about what iam going to write. I can only recommend it because sometimes even the most productive doesnt want the map in their head.

And the last thing you should know is that you never should work on your business when you only feel well, because a boss over you will not give a fuck when you feel bad, you will still come to work to not loose your job!

Summary: A written plan with real and managable goals while being consistent and coming with new ideas will only benefit you and your goals.

The key to motivation is to let your soul burn for it without a log! You simply become the fire!

Doubtful Adventures – Moving Forward

After the sudden loss of energy i felt destroyed because i now knew what brought the problems of using blood magic. But yet i didnt knew the whole truth about it… As i was laying on the bloody grass and looking into the sky, i wondered what the village meant before they got killed by […]

Doubtful Adventures – The Price – Part 2

As i saw the village from far away, i wondered how the villagers could turn their heads simultaneously at me and than block me completely from seing further. A couple hundred meters ahead was the village but as i came closer, the picture of the village became blur. I didnt thought much of it but […]

Just another zombie dream

It was a normal night. Eyes closed and hoped to not dream something completely fucked up… I was standing in a long hallway and suddenly someone rushed through a door and yelled at me „WE GOTTA GO NOW, I HAVE TO LEAVE“. I didnt knew if she was meaning me because she looked at me […]

World of nightmare – Close the door, dim the lights!

In the day of 2022, all lights went out and the nightmare came upon from the dark. The calm oceans which were unexplored for more than 96% were unvailed once the dark had taken the world. The governments had no possibility to return electricity due to solar winds which caused an electromagnetical pulse through the […]

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Interval Fasting #3

I wish you all a wonderful, but again much too hot for me, August-Summerday.

Let us talk again about interval fasting. Today part three.

As a small reminder Part One: general introduction to the topic

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/08/17/intervallfasten-1/

Part Two: the most common methods briefly explained

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/08/18/intervallfasten-2/

Who may fast? For whom is it unsuitable? Are there any pitfalls, if so, what are they?

There are always people who want to make their own opinion universally valid for all and generalize the whole thing.

That is far from my mind. I know several diabetics who fast very strictly 16:8 and have considerable success with it, also in the health area. I know of non-diabetics who fast very strictly 16:8 and where nothing happens. Neither weight loss, nor improvement of health, nothing.

This is simply because every body is different, even if anatomically perhaps the same, but even that is not really so. Where one person may already have no gallbladder, the adrenal glands or thyroid gland may not be working the next, and so on.

So you can’t say in general, this or that person must not fast at all, because there are enough methods nowadays, that everybody can find the right one for him – even with medical or therapeutic help.

It is always important that you listen to your body and if it says „stop“ then you stop (for now).

Pregnant women should not, of course, be prepared to diet or fast for a longer period if the gynaecologist or midwife does not advise it. There are also pregnant women who should not gain weight, especially if they already have a very high initial weight. In this case, however, the whole thing is done under medical supervision anyway.

In my experience, breastfeeding is no obstacle if you choose the shorter and simpler fasting methods. Breastfeeding mothers usually only want to lose weight when they notice that the often quoted belief „if you breastfeed, you lose weight all by yourself“ is somehow not true for them. I can sing more than one song about that. Which is why I was already engaged in short-term fasting at the time.

The real problem is often that you don’t listen to yourself and your gut feeling, but always ask others first and they then often, all in all, simply advise against it.

Children and fasting

Most children are slim by nature and very active, so fasting is completely unnecessary.

If you are already overweight at a higher age, you will probably have to see a pediatrician first, who often refers you to a nutritional coach.

I was there with my daughter and fasting for children, is cancelled. Even with overweight. You should try to get back to normal weight by taking more exercise and choosing more nutrients.

Which, for example, does not work at all with my daughter. But you can actually try to create meal breaks in which access to the refrigerator is blocked, as stupid as that sounds. And to take the nightly meal break as a meal break, too. And in the evening, just leave out sweets and nibbles, and not replace them with anything else.

The main problem of most people is not the regular food, but that they constantly put something in their mouth. Sometimes a few nuts here, then a candy bar. With every coffee a few small snacks. At the computer a few salt sticks, while driving a car the sweet thing might lie on the passenger seat.

One thing you can learn from fasting is that constant food is wrong for everyone. Not only dentists and dental assistants pray that probably day by day. Also all the nutrition experts know this.

Eating constantly or constantly „something small“ puts our body under enormous stress. It is practically constantly in working mode and that for years.

At some point, this takes its revenge, not only through overweight.

Especially when you consider that the largest number of people have also given up on simply drinking water. Go to a big beverage market and look around. Sugar everywhere…

Eating less won’t help if I drink two litres of sugar water a day. That would be a trap.

I may not need to count calories and weigh my food, but I should still think about WHAT I eat, WHEN I eat and WHAT I drink!

We have to find back to what our body really needs and that is basically water for adults! Not coloured water with chemicals and sugar or chemical sugar substitutes.

Another pitfall of fasting is to shovel unrestrainedly into oneself during the eating phase, thinking „I’ve earned this or I’m going to indulge myself“.

This may go well for a while, but in fact it’s revenge.

We have to find back to what our body really needs and that is basically water for adult people! Non-colored water with chemicals and sugar or chemical sugar substitutes.

Another pitfall of fasting is to shovel unrestrainedly into oneself during the eating phase, thinking „I’ve earned that or I’ll treat myself to it.

This may go well for a while, but actually takes its revenge by gaining weight instead of losing it.

I’m talking about normal people who are not into extreme sports. A strength athlete or professional athlete has completely different primes and his advisors, who tell him exactly what to eat and when to stop eating.

I assume that these people have no need to read such a blog. After all, I am more likely to read about how these people manage to get to a competitive level in terms of their fat content. I admit that I have never managed any of this. Such a high body fat loss. On the other hand, I’ve never had the desire to do it either.

Since my body weight is normally only 52 kg.

We’ll continue with part four tomorrow.

What’s that about? I think, let’s find out a little history on the subject of fasting. Okay?

See you tomorrow then.

Take a look to the previous storys and fasting blogs for more info.

A Killers Diary – Lockdown Problems

Hello humans, As well as you experience right now, nations are under lockdown and many have lost their work. The lockdowns affect many in our society and iam one of them, since i cant get enough bodys to kill and feast on. My pallet is only made from the finest human flesh, but with the […]

Astral travel – does it work again?

Yesterday i was annoyed because of the new years celebration outside my house. I though i understand, i couldnt really sleep but this seemed to helped me out. I wasnt even trying to get out of my body, but luckily i was laying down on my back and i realised that my body was sleeping. […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #2

Applause, applause. Who should pat me, or us, on the back, if not WE ourselves.

First of all, today there is an invitation to the Fasting Motivation Group, which I reopened 2 years ago, because many apps only want to earn money, but do not want the members to get to know each other.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/2100178886865674

Here the link to our motivation group and off you go,

Part 2 of our topic Interval Fasting:

Interval Fasting for Beginners

Yesterday we learned that interval fasting, in general terms, means nothing more than fasting in intervals. In German, this means nothing, nothing to eat at fixed times.

But it doesn’t have to be quite so simple and we start with the explanations, which periods and possibilities are there?

Periods of time / intervals in fasting16:8

This is probably the best known variant, which is propagated by many. Called sixteen to eight.

Sixteen hours not eating is also feasible for beginners if they shift the time window to the night.

Depending on whether one prefers breakfast or dinner, it is advisable to adjust the period accordingly.

During the week I prefer to fast from 7 p.m. to 11 a.m., because first of all I never eat breakfast anyway, I always have not. And then I don’t mind and on the other hand I can still eat together with the children in the evening.

The good thing is that I can drink coffee until 11 a.m. and pretend that there is milk in it with carbohydrate-free almond drink. I don’t like to drink it all black.

Black coffee, unsweetened tea and lots of water are allowed during the fasting phase. As a beginner I wouldn’t look at the type of tea, but as an experienced fasting person I know that you should use herbal tea and not fruit tea. Due to the fact that fruit teas in particular often contain sugar, which is sometimes even added. You can deal with this as soon as fasting has become a part of your body and soul, as a beginner you have other problems.

14 : 10

The less frequently propagated variant, with a longer period of eating, which I personally do not consider as effective, because 14 hours of not eating is not necessarily abnormal.

Here you can change the period of time to the night and then, contrary to what I said yesterday, you should pay attention to WHAT you eat.

The danger here of not achieving any success at all if you do not change your entire lifestyle is very great.

14:10 In my ears it always sounds like „I want to fast, but not really“. And I would recommend this version especially to people who suffer from physical illnesses and take medicine and therefore have to eat something, where it might already be Lent.

17:7, 18:6

the somewhat lengthened versions of 16:8 and suitable for people who want to lose weight quickly, a lot. Trying the long phase of 18 hours in a continuous state will eventually lead to the need to consider WHAT the body needs for nutrients and then supply them to it permanently.

If you want to lose weight in a moderate range, 16:8 is completely sufficient for the beginning.

20:4 „Warrior/Warrior Diet

for me one of the most difficult styles, because here you shouldn’t eat intuitively, but give your body exactly what it needs. Which means that you have to know exactly WHAT your body needs.

Doing 20:4 for a short time may be okay, but in the long run (as with 18:8) there is a danger that you are not supplying your body well enough in terms of nutrients.

Then there is the threat of damage, which you will not immediately recognize as such.

Hair loss due to malnutrition, for example, occurs several weeks AFTER the deficiency! Where you may no longer have any reference to what was there and what exactly is the cause of the hair loss.

5:2

I personally have not tested this version yet, except maybe from time to time involuntarily when I was sick.

Five to two means that I eat normally on five days of my choice and on two days, not consecutive days, I eat nothing at all or take only 500 kcal in the modified form.

This is rather not a method to lose weight, but it can help to relieve the body.

You can safely try the 500 kcal method as a fasting start.

Tomorrow it goes on with WHO can and may fast everything and what pitfalls are there.

UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS – FACTS #1

Here you could now first add all my/our old posts.

This one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/25/warum-steigt-das-bewusstsein-der-menschen-nicht/

or this one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/01/limitierende-glaubenssatze/

Or in principle almost all of them, as I am very often only concerned with consciousness.

But now let’s get it straight again.

Does humanity really want to be „Conscious“?

Does this question really arise? You know what? Do you want to read the truth? Are you even ready and willing to face the truth?

I say the greatest mankind is not ready to see or experience the truth, nor is it capable of dealing with the truth!

The reasons for this are many and varied and are mainly to be found in the spiritual realm!

Read again here: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2018/08/17/bist-du-eine-alte-seele/

Fact is, each of us has his own reasons to incarnate and live on this planet and his own goal. This goal is NOT the goal of the general public nor of the majority. Correspondingly, what each one of us does is not adapted.

Those of us who incarnate here with the goal of helping humanity or even the animals, will accordingly find that achieving this goal seriously can be made difficult by others, because this planet does not consist of light and love. As we have already mentioned many times.

For example here: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/08/08/why-everything-is-love-and-light-is-a-lie/

If you want to know more, you can read our big book.

Small Motivation

Remember!

Whatever you do, theres always an asian who does it better.

Now stop scrolling through instagram or facebook and get up!

Spiritual dangers..

Since i read so much trash about light and love on the internet, i have decided to tell you a few secrets that either only very very few know, or dont want to tell you! It makes me angry if i see people online talking about „the planet will rise to the fifth dimension and […]

Spiritual advances…

So im stuck, unable to move around while my physical body sleeps because something is holding me. I meditated and tried various things to know whats going on but found not much.. The thing i noticed is, when you stop talking about it, it becomes possible again after certain amount of time. The time youre […]

Spiritual Problems ..

Hello everyone, The reason for the absence of spiritual stuff lately, is because the usual stuff isnt working. Well how am i going to explain it.. I cant get out of my body and i try to understand whats causing this problem. Some people said that talking too much about it, can cause this problem […]

Secret Society Secrets – The Three Dots

Welcome to the world of secret society. A world in which a broke person has nothing to do. A world in which only the really rich can enter. Today, i will tell you the beautiful art sight of this world and how we handle the doomed and useless humans in the lower parts of the […]

The Hallway of Eyes – Part 1

A horror house had opened last day and i just wanted to see how it was.

We had nothing much in this town, so it was rather new and i hoped it to be fun.

I was living pretty central and the police patrolled constantly here. Crime was unavailable here and the people were friends with the cops, just how it should be.

One evening after work, i went straight to the horror house. I had no friends because i was busy all the time. So i went alone and after a 15 minute walk down the riverside from town, it was visible.

Some people stood in front of the house and one guy laughed while 2 girls came out totally shocked.

Was it really this creepy? I mean it looked like something for kids and i thought „Well i can go back home“ but hey ..lets try it.. Dont let the 15 minutes be a waste i thought.

I went to the door and it asked for 3$ to enter.

I had no change with me, so i asked the two girls if they could change the twenty dollar bill.

They did..

„Thanks for the change and why are you so exhausted?“ i asked.

„Dont go into the room with the big eye.. you wont come out again..“

Funny i thought and went in.

„Thanks for the advice and good night“ i said.

The door behind me closed loudly.

A fog with flashy lights turned on and started to play music reversed. That sounded creepy!

I went on and right at the hallway were several doors with warnings.

It even had FSK symbols..age restrictions in a horror house? What was the last door than?

It started with age 10 and went to 30 while the horror kept rising.

I slowly walked to every door and opened them one by one. And yes.. no one except me was in this house… It was very strange …right?

The first ten doors were pure boredom.. nothing special except some jump scares which i expected when im honest. A few skeletons and mumies with a mix of a bloody crime scene while the music changed with every door.. The music went darker and darker and yet no one new entered the house.

How long have i been here? Half an hour?

Than something new happend… all doors started to open and a guy with a big chainsaw looked at me..

I started to laugh and he just went to another door and closed it.

Now that was a bit funny.. but still too lame i thought.

And than i noticed the red door with the big eye on it..

The girl from earlier had warned me but.. something was calling me to that door..

A whisper?

Hypnotised i walked towards it.. Mysterious and bad aura was all around ..

I pressed down the handle and pushed forward..

0108 – The House

We were a team of six and our objective was to secure the house from every corner. We didnt knew with what we were dealing with and the situation seemed strange… We secured the villa inside the forest which was told to be a safe house for certain terrorist members, but after discovering that nothing […]

The others Problems.. – Not just Earths

Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there. It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on […]

How does the „Matrix“ work inside the planets ?

You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is. The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How […]

Part 2 on its way!

Good and a Half Day

Since some of us sleep more than 10 hours a day, ill call it a half day..

Time your day right and achieve something! Stop fucking around and do, or atleast admit that youre doing nothing for your dreams!

Stay motivated and do it daily!

Have a good day!

What is the biggest problem of the people?

In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]

My second time trying DMT ..

So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]

Dangerous Adventures

I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]

Death Ears

They laugh ot those who can hear it..

While those who dont, get controlled.

Pointing with fingers „dumb idiots“,

While the real cursed are laughing.

A war will come, just like always,

Wiping the surface while the elite hide in their bunkers,

Waiting to come outside,

To rule the survivors and do the same over again.

COVID 22 – Grey Phase

This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]

Rosty Knifes and Crystal wars

We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]

Smart Zombies – The Maze of Traitors

It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]

The Strong Side Effects of a Smartphone! – Secret TESTS

First, this is a long research with a „client“ who is physically well and did it to himself.

All tests were done from the view of spiritual energy flow and how it attacks the body.

Lets begin.

Our smartphones and computers are special designs to dull our heads and specially our pineal gland with the help of phone radiation.

A smartphone has a square design which gets pin pointed to our face and in the best case, to our forehead when it gets held down while looking at it.

Iam very sure, that a smartphone radiates with more than 3 waves to dull our head. I will later explain why it dulls!

  1. 1. Internet Waves
  2. 2. Radio Waves
  3. 3. Directed Display Energy Wave

We all know the very first and second waves and i want to spare time explaining them.

So i will jump straight to the third!

The directed energy waves are created through something that we cant explain yet. Energetically, its a mix that responds trough the internet and is transferred via phone display, to our brain.

The energy wave activates when you enter the internet and start to look at the phone for quite a time.

The people who are placed under this radiation feel a strong tightness between their eyes. It feels like a pushing hand to the forehead and causes eye pain, aswell headaches and several other body dysfunctions such as: low energy feeling, tiredness, increased pain of any kind AND a very strong feeling to get the phone back to the face! Because the brain will cause a feeling of addiction like heroin patients!

Our client is used to 10-15+ hours daily in front of a display and this is continued over 5 years.

The client feels insane stress, anxiety and a feeling of terror when he cant use the phone! He as well unlearns the movement in real life and looses himself in the internet. This means they loose the urge to do anything in life because they dont know better.

*Note that the upper information is described from our client himself!

And before we forget it, the waves cause a dull- capsulating feeling inside the middle point of the brain. It will feel like a blood rush inside the head which gets bigger and bigger. This may cause cell damage inside the brain!

Note as well that this research is a selfmade program to test radiation.

Whatever the WHO tells you, they lie! And they dont add some info!

*Special info: Underground buildings and constructions are far safer from radiation than on the surface! This is due to the overall radiation which hits people negatively even though they might dont have any phone or else! Negative energy rises fast and it hits our magnetic field which disturbs even the kindest soul. However it is possible to block it!

Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]

Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]

Dailylook #1

Warum weiß der eine mehr, der andere weniger übers Leben? Wir sagen es euch, kurz und knapp.

Need Advice to start a Business?

I will be honest here with you guys.

Starting a business that becomes profitable these days isnt easy, specially when you dont have any new idea’s.

BUT this doesnt mean that it becomes impossible!

I want to tell you how i started my own business while i really didnt knew anything about it.

I want to give you a few words which will definetly help you, when you felt and understood the situation.

We went hard down hill after we came to russia, money wasnt there and i became desperate.

So what did i do to learn and make money?

I was in a situation which were either i succeed or die on the street..

So i started to learn the language quick and somehow managed to learn enough, so no one would bullshit me over anything and all went on and on.

Of course it wasnt easy, but 24 hours a day is enough time to learn a lot when you use it and specially it gets useful when you do it over and over again!

It felt like a movie and it still does.

What i want to tell you is,

How desperate are you to become financially successful?

All my energy went into my current business, my CONCENTRATION went into the business.. And this caused the success!

How much ENERGY do YOU invest in your dream?

YOU HAVE TO VALUE YOUR ENERGY! How much effort did it take you to achieve something?

I specially dont talk about time because we got infinite spiritually! But only a bit on this planet as a body and how your soul will feel inside that body.

So what are you going to do if it starts to feel hungry?

When youre desperate enough and point your energy towards your goal, it WILL ALWAYS become reality!

Dont listen to anybody, specially not to any thoughts and never tell too much!

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

THE WILLINGNESS TO CHANGE

The own habits, towards more efficiency and assertiveness only comes when the pain threshold is reached more than the comfort zone.

Before that, you don’t have to, and I really don’t mean! wait or hope that you will make a serious effort to do something differently.

People don’t change if they are still feeling so well in any way that they find reasons not to make an effort.

This has nothing to do with others either, but with their own mindset, which does not strive for success.

Often unconscious beliefs are also involved.

What I can tell you, if you want to change for the better and nobody wants the same as you do, do it alone.

Do not rely on anyone.

Not your partner or your best friend or your children.

It is your life and you can live it only for yourself and for your children, as long as they want it.

You will only be successful with assertiveness and perseverance and consistency and DOING.

Do not expect that others are willing to make the same sacrifices!

But when the success is there, remember that you have baked this cake alone and now no one can take this fact from you.

I wish you a wonderful Sunday.

It has rained heavily and the birds tell us that happily in front of the house.

Until the next blog.

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

HOW TO EFFECTIVELY AVOID GETTING STARTED

It’s not like you don’t tell it over and over and over and over and over again.

It’s not like people don’t listen.

It’s like, you tell it like a record that jumps back again and again and again and again.

My hardest nut to crack is my litany, let me think about it for a moment, about 8 years!!! it has been listened to again and again and again until he FINALLY! actually started to do what I advised him to do year in, year out.

He did not regret it.

But the fears and beliefs were so deep that he did not jump over the gap between wanting and doing for a very, very long time.

About 2-3 years ago, he finally started to do what HE loves and what HE wants and I would say mission completed.

It took me 8 years of persuasion. Eight years!

So, what’s point one in pushing to start?

Wallowing in your own negative beliefs and fears. It’s not exactly our comfort zone, but it’s certainly expanding towards that.

Point two, as I mentioned before, is that we just don’t want to leave our comfort zone. Because „where there’s a will, there’s a way.“ And „if you don’t want to, you don’t want to.“

Point three would be IN the comfort zone, doing everything that keeps you from finally starting, INCLUDING just talking about it and reading about it and watching hours of videos about it instead of finally starting.

Point four, not to find or look for any reasons or motivation. WHY you should finally do it NOW.

Some people might think „yes, what’s 8 years, it’s over fast“.

I can only reply to this, if you don’t know already at the age of 11 what you wanted to become and you are working towards it, you will probably be much older when you realize that the hamster wheel doesn’t make you happy and you prefer to do your own thing and THEN 8 years are a big part of your productive age and for some people it is simply too late!

I can only say it again and again.

Start before it is too late. Nobody lives forever and at some point it is much harder to do what you really wanted to do.

I’ll probably write a few more blogs about it, also how important it is to know why you should do your own thing. Which is not only meant in terms of making money.

Katja.

Weekend Fun – Audio Edition

Ill try my best with the audio editions!

Here you get to the original story:

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/07/20/weekend-fun/

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

My Questions…

I was wondering why humans are as they are.

How can i explain it,

Dont you wonder sometimes why humans or lets say each individual is so limited towards themselves?

We do so much stuff unconsciously and never ask why or how it can be and that is why many fail.

A lot just dont ask themselves these questions which would lead to true understanding, instead they eat what they get and listen what the media and tv tells them.

Ive noticed that yesterday with my parents. It is a real task to tell them anything new because they scream before you finish the sentence.

Its like they never hear what you try to say, strange isnt it? Well… No … i would say that THIS is the REAL mind control agenda in the entire world. While they test their thesis on individuals, they do the same with the bright mass.

They become fearful puppets not for the state or nation, but of their own mind!

The own limitation by closing eyes and ears, eating bullshit from the media, it mixed itself to a pillar of fear for its own existence..

The bright mass.. wants to be ruled and they show it by their behaviour to themselves

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

Schatzi und Ich

Ich sage was,

Schatzi ist einverstanden und sagt was sie denkt,

Ich verstehe es falsch,

Schatzi denkt ich bin blöd,

Ich erkläre was ich meinte,

Sie sagt ich muss nix erklären weil sies weiß,

Ich erkläre trotzdem,

Schatzi und ich vertragen uns sowieso und wissen das der streit unnötig ist,

Wir haben uns sehr lieb,

Wir wundern uns wie es dazu kam,

Wir denken „was fürn scheiss“,

Wir vermissen uns. XD

~ Wir

The Eyes in the Dark

I was sitting in my room while reading a book. It was called „The forbidden Secrets of Mankind“.

It was boring at first until it started to tell about monsters which surrounded us a long time ago and that they feed of energy.

Suddenly a strong wind came up and i went to my window to close it but i noticed two glimmering yellow eyes from the woods, staring at me without blinking.

I got scared and put my glasses on,

It were just 2 old bicycle lamps which reflected the floor light back..

I went to sleep, it was late.

Problems of a long distance Relationship

Having a partner who lives hundred and thousands of miles away for a long time is very hard.

Specially when you cant see each other because some state’s and governments wont allow it..

Thats a pretty stupid and fucked up planet if you ask me… hindering two people to find their luck, while they can be anywhere, anytime around the globe with their privat jets..

It often happens that out of nowhere, we start to have a conflict with our long distance partner about many stupid and useless things.

The reason for this is the distance and frustration. Not knowing WHEN youre going to see him/her.

The more interesting thing is, every conflict dissapears when you start to video chat with your partner. It feels if a conflict never appeared at all.

So do more video chats people! I guarantee you, it will feel better and stress will be solved instantly!

The most problem is that you cant help them at any way if they should have problems or whatever.

Questions appear like „what if he/she get into a car accident and we never hear anymore from each other?“ Or what if…. and so on..

Pretty useless questions of course, because you couldnt change anything at all … only wait and hope.

And one more thing, the black question should never even be in your mind „does my partner fake it or step sides me with another one?“

This question is only to be asked if you really have a strange feeling about it.

If your partner really loves you and you both REALLY FEEL connected to each other – a way will be always open! It always is!

Have a good day friends!

Dark Rituals and Blood ? Part 2

The screen showed five teenagers which were bound on chair and they seemed to cry. Their eyes were bound with tape.

Meanwhile some people started to laugh and under these people, we even saw Bill B., K.P. and many more.

We didnt expect these people to be here. They were neither guarded or secured. It really seemed like a „party“ were everyone was equal and „knew“ each other.

While the people laughed, me and my wife looked each other in the eyes and understood what was going to come.

Those who organised this party went on and gave everyone a mask.

My wife got a cat mask and i got a gorilla mask.. no one would notice us now we thought.

„EVERYBODY … MASKS ON AND ENJOY THE LITTLE TEASER … hahaha“ said the pig mask guy.

Suddenly the people on the screen got tasered by people who wore black robe’s and pig masks.

„WHEN THE PREY SCREAMS, IT GETS TASERED AND WHEN YOU CRY, WE EAT YOU ALL ALIVE“ said one of the black robe guy.

The people started to laugh like it was a commedy show.

It seemed we were the only normal people in this underground building.

No one could go out until the show was over.

My wife got disgusted and needed a bathroom.

„Are you okay? Lets go to a bathroom“ i said.

We both got to a very luxerous bathroom and i waited until she was …. finished with puking.

Bill B. came in.. „I see its your first time here?“

„Yes it is … and our first time to this kind of fun“ i replied.

„Hahaha .. it hasnt even begun, wait until you see the baby’s“ while he washed his hands and smiled.

„We look forward to it!“ i said while starting to laugh myself. Not because of the „fun“ what was going to come, but because a „Bill B.“ talked about killing baby’s and smiling about it.

I asked myself …what if all the bullshit from the internet was true what they said about him?

We would soon see..

Bill left and my wife came out of the bathroom.

It was strange that the womans and mens bathroom were all the same. I mean what idiot doesnt respect privacy?

We left the bathroom and took our masks back on.

„AND THAT IT IS FOR THE TRAILER LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, GO THROUGH THE NEXT GATE TO THE REAL FUN“ the pig guy said.

A big metal door opened behind the screen and everybody went in, as we heird some say „Iam so excited ..we can finally let it loose again“

We wondered what they meant as we walked with the crowd and my wife held my arm.

A loud „DONG … DONG“ … Two paths appeared .. The people followed their lust..

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

The Witch – Another Dream

I slept away and suddenly i stood on a big brench which was blue.

The brench lead to a big tree, which was as well blue.

Than a naked woman with a long tail and long darker hair stood in the end of the brench and looked at me.

This tree and the entire scene was in the middle of nowhere. The background was black and if i would fall, the scene would fall apart i knew.

The woman or as i thought „WITCH!“ asked me „What do you desire the most, that i could give you?“ This question seemed easy because i knew, bringing my wife from the other end of this planet wouldnt work …at all…

So i answered „Ultimate Power“ – Than the tree brought up many other people which were connected to the tree… Lets say they were corrupted and fell to her spell.

She walked towards me slowly while pushing aside the hanging blue body’s. I thought that these might attack me but i wasnt scared and neither did i wanted anything from her.

I decided to fly upwards, so she couldnt reach me.

She understood that she couldnt catch me with her spell, neither had it any effect even if she wouldve catch me.

Her spell was to seduce its prey and wrap them up under a false promise, while the tree did the rest.

She was a witch who posessed the willingless prey…

While i flew away, she screamed loud and looked rather dissapointed.

I woke up …

Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

Dark Rituals And Blood? Part 1

This is our experience inside a „Ritual Party“ or how they say „The Party of High“.

Me and my wife had been inside this forum for few weeks, just to see how this kind of people are and what they actually do.

It was only accessible with a special key which was „BABYJUICE“ but spelled backwards.

This was only attainable from a recommendation trough another guy who’s trust was needed.

They offered and invited us to one of their strict and forbidden party’s, which was held once every two years.

They didnt told us anything about details, but they said „Food and drugs are free“.

We thought that it might be not that bad.

Well… it was worse!

We didnt knew how to cloth ourselves, so i just wore a suit and my wife took her black dress.

We took a taxi to a central place and waited for the „friend“ who waited for us there.

As we arrived, he was standing there and said hi to us and that this coming night will be our best.

„We will now take another drive and the location where we are going, will be underground. So dont worry, no one is going to kidnapp you because many get nervous their first time“ he said smiling.

We thought he was okay, so we got relaxed and got into the fancy car and drove to the location..

….. Meanwhile driving ….

„You said drugs are free too?“ i asked him.

He started laughing and said „Youll gonna love it, it is really fun and even funnier under a special drug“

We didnt bothered to ask more and just sat quiet in the car while looking out the window.

„Try to make friends there, many big names arrive tonight“ he said.

To be honest we didnt bothered about any big name or even if god would arrive there, we just wanted to see what the self claimed „elite“ did to have fun. This was a lifetime chance to see their real faces!

We played along and answered as usual to every question someone asked us. If those people would know for what we are really here, we probably would just dissapear from the earth.

Since my wife is exactly like me, i didnt need to worry about anything bad. She knew what she was doing.

We arrived at a farm but no one was standing there.

„We arrived, please press the button to your left from outside the window“

My wife pressed it and a tunnel opened before us.

„Lets go, we walk the rest“ said the friend who’s name we only knew from the internet…

We got out and didnt knew what to expect.

After we went in, the guy said „go ahead ill be right back“ – so we went in alone but already started to hear musik.

As we walked down, we saw the entrance to the party, a giant head from lucifer which was gloving in red and orange, with a pinky voice asked us „Death or Fun?“

Of course we said fun and than a light point on the wall appeared, so we followed.

We got nervous and werent sure if we should continue because we didnt saw anybody either.

Out of nowhere, the friend appeared and said „lets have fun now“ while started to laugh.

We came to a big area with many people, gentle music and YES we did cloth us right. They all were in suits and it seemed just like a normal evening but nothing seemed special we thought.

I asked Kate, my wife „What do you think? Shall we seperate few meters and take closer looks on whats going on?“ i asked.

„NO! we dont seperate, ive got a bad feeling about whats going to come“ she said.

So we stood together and looked a bit around. We didnt knew anybody but neither wanted to talk too much.

„WELCOME LADIES AND GENTLEMAN TO THIS BLOODY NIGHT OF FUN“ said a man while wearing a pig mask.

It looked creepy…

„WE SHALL CLOSE THE GATES NOW AND BEGIN THE CEREMONY“

The doors and gates closed and a big screen appeared in front of us.

What we saw next was breath taking..

The Search

I drove far abroad in Texas to search my sister who dissapeared a few days ago.

She shouldnt just go without saying something. She said she would go to a park and give a call if she reached it.

Mabye it was new ? I didnt knew anything about it and neither bothered.

Our mom was just sick and bed bound, she had problems with her brain. As she was in her fourty’s, she received a head trauma from my sister and now needed medical assistance.

So i went the same road as she did and landed in an area which seemed to be lost but a lot of broken and rosty cars were nearby.

This didnt seemed like a place for a park. Where the hell did she go?

A sign said „Wel_me to Zoo_and the Fun Place“

What a stupid name i thought. A bigger mansion alike house was right on the road side.

It was totally destroyed, atleast it seemed so. My suspicion went high on what „maybe“ did happen here.

I knew these horror movies were people got kidnapped in underground facilities, maybe i should search somewhere else?

„Helloooooo ??“ „Anything here?“ i said.

And as i was going to leave, and old lady came through a door. „Yes ..WHAT DO YOU WANT HERE?“ she said aggressively.

„I search my sister, she went to a park nearby but is missing, do you know the park?“

„Ahh..ah.. yes i know … follow me“ she said calmy now..

What the hell? She wanted me to follow her downstairs where she came from.

I didnt intended to go down anywhere with anybody, specially not in such area.

„I said park, not downstairs in a rotting house!“

„YOU GODDAMN FOLLOW ME BOY!“

This was the time to leave, but what if this crazy stupid hag actually would bring me to a… underground park? I know this was very stupid to think and i didnt bothered.

„Have a good day …“ i said and left the house.

Suddenly i heard a screaming voice coming from downstairs.

„ThAT was definetly not just a scream!“ and went back inside.

„What was that scream? Did you got someone down there?“ i asked, as i run down the stairs and pushed the old lady aside.

I broke open the door and… wanted to scream myself but….

There she was …my sister sitting with another ten people and smoking weed and do drugs.

„What the fuck you stupid cow! So you did this all the time in your …special park as you said?“

„Hey brother, nice to see you, dont tell mom okay? And sorry my phone broke down and i couldnt and didnt wanted to talk with anybody, just relax and take a brownie“ – she said laughing.

They were stitting on couches and the room looked very clean and modern. Fancy lights were hanging at the ceiling and the floor looked white and clear…. it was very surprising to see such a room in such an dirty area.

„I’ll take a bite“ i said

„Make yourself comfy and enjoy the upcoming party“ said one guy who looked a bit weird.

A few minutes later i lost consciousness …

„What the hell did you do ? What was in that brownie?“

„Brother, this is how it ends for you“ she said, while laughing.

What was she talking about? Was that really the sister i knew ? The entire situation was odd and i fell on the ground.

A few hours later..

I was bound with tape to a dirty bed and couldnt move at all.

I saw my sister who gave money to the old hag.. What would happen?

„HEY YOU STUPID BITCH – WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?“ i ask loudly and nervous.

And she replied:

„That is what you cunt get for raping and murdering our own mother, you will be tortured by the executioner until you die! Have a great live … pig boy….. and one more thing .. youre the one who received a trauma!“

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

Deathrow Prisoner

Hmmmmmmmm … who are we going to kill today?

„Lets punch through the wall and take a walk“

The deathrow prisoner Speck. Appearently no military force or special unit can stop him.

He comes and goes to our prison like it is a hotel suite.

„How embarressing!! We as the chief and commander of this town cant do anything against him… Damn this Speck! Is there no match for him?!“

Meanwhile he broke out again. It was the seventh time in two days.

The police dont even bother anymore to capture him, since he is coming back on his own. But how can the police react when he smashes the head of a civilian to the ground and rips his head off?

That freak is unstoppable! Bullets cant pierce him, kicks or punchs do even less, and trying to hold him in chains is suicide and he still breaks them like nothing.

Yesterday he went „shopping“ and broke every bone from the cashier. The wall was full of blood and he wrote „HA HA HA HA …PAID“ and after that, he came back to prison, took a piss and with his unwashed hands, he took a guards head and gave him treats to eat.

The guard refused and tried to shoot him but Speck punched a hole in his mouth and put the bag inside… And afterwards took a sleep back in his cell.

We already have tried every damn thing. Special bullets, gas, poison and even drowning. All got killed…the videos are brutal.

We expect some athlets to take him out but most of those martial arts and wrestling guys are useless idiots who cant see how unfair he fights because he wants to have fun.

A week ago, a boxer wanted to fight him. Speck stood behind him and said „Hello mr. Boxer“.

You have to know, Speck is two and a half meters high and probably the same size are his muscles while is agile and fast.

The boxer got intimidated but threw a punch. Unfortunatly no one, not even us counted with the coming surprise.

Speck took a hand granade which he stole from our police station, and rammed it up his throat. The boxer’s body got blown to pieces and blood filled the area. Everyone was shocked.

Except Speck… he was laughing and … started running towards us..

Mein erstes Buch – Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet – Teil 1

Aktuell arbeite ich noch an meinem ersten Buch, welches unter dem Titel „Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet“ erscheinen soll. Es liegt noch ein kleiner Weg vor mir, aber es ist schon fast fertig. Ich überlege noch, ob ich selbst verlege oder verlegen lasse. Ich bin noch ein klein wenig planlos. Zumal mein eigenes Zeitmanagement ja immer von […]

Repetitive Dream – Horror games

Ive had a very crazy dream last night ..which was another repeating dream..that really sucked. This time there was a gang or group and they killed randomly people who stood against them and which tried to run from them. One crazy bitch was running after me and she had a giant knife mixed with a […]

Mein erstes Buch – Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet – Teil 2

Nun ist es geboren. 😉 Und ich freue mich wirklich riesig, dass ich mich dazu durchgerungen habe, meine Gedanken auf Papier zu bringen und dass ich damit vielleicht auch dem ein oder anderen helfen kann. Für Alle, die es interessiert, gibt es hier mein Buch: Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet Ich schreibe darin über die Entstehung unserer […]

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Weekend fun

It was a late afternoon.

I went to a club which had opened new and which seemed to be really good according to some people.

On arrival i noticed some fance cars and a red carped. What was going on ? Was it always like this?

I went in and a lot of people stood there to get a ticket inside. I guess i just came in time and got lucky.

Few „celebs“ were drinking and dancing there too.. It was a rather normal club atmosphere.

One guy was drunk as hell and puked all over himself and a few guests, they werent happy.

It had another two floors and the third was secured and only for „special people“ as the security told.

I saw a group of people which seemed to go to the third floor. I stood behind them and walked as if i was one of them. I just really wanted to see what was on the third floor.

But the guards stopped me.

„Wait youre that guy on the poster at the wall!“

Me ? N- No youve mistaken, thats my twin brother, his name is gofuckyourself – and i ran down to the first floor to the exit.

A guard rammed me off my way and i lost consciousness.

„Five – one, we got the motherfucker who stole money from us last weekend. Not so smart to come a second time to this place ha?“

I woke up in a chair and two police men stood with the guards. I saw how they bribed the two cops.

What happend after?

Well i lost my clothing and nearly few fingers… I cry’d myself out of it and only got big kick to my face.

Im alive, the money is still save.

Next week, ill try the club on the next street… They will have a mask party…

A sunday surprise

It was sunday again.

And yes i didnt really liked that day, because it got very quiet around the building of our office.

I was the ceo of a big company and stood there after saturday to get more work done.

It was late already and i drank my last coffee until… „krrschhh“

It sounded like glas was shattered. But here in the office ? We had nothing glas like stuff around.

I stood up and walked down the dark floor.

„Hello? Anybody still here hiding?“

A door in the end of the building shut itself loudly down – „BAMM“

My heart startet to race. „Hey anybody there?“ while i walked steady towards the door.

A few meters before, it slowly opened with a cracking sound and i heard a broken radio play a song…but it was played backwards.

I felt danger and darkness coming from that room which actually was a bigger room with nothing much in it.

I went in and turned on the lights.. but there was no radio sound anymore …everything seemed clear.

My sight went to a door inside the room which i really was sure, never existed before.

The door shut open and crashed loudly into the wall but stood still without bouncing. This gave me chills down my spine… How in the world did it not bounce ? I was sure it was kicked or rammed open..

I felt that danger from before again, that i should not enter the dark room before me.. It was like the darkness smiled right at me..

I went on and… My face crashed against the wall.

„What the fuck?! The door dissapeared?? Or did it never existed?“ i asked myself while my nose was bleeding.

I went back and closed the door while looking several times back, just to ensure that i wasnt hallucinating things.

After i closed the door slowly.. the radio sound came back again from the door.

I panicked and my heart was racing. Should i open the door again? What is going on? ….I knew the horror movies were the scary part went on and on until a monster appeared to tere the head of the protagonist. I hoped i was just a side character and could leave the building unharmed.

I ran back to my office room and shut the door. I took the phone and called the security which i saw on the security cameras.

„Hey all of you guys, come up here and take your gun, you might need to use it“ i said shaking.

But the guards…they looked at me without reacting.

They looked straight at the camera and the signal got lost. I really got nervous and knew that this wasnt some stuff that i imaginated.

After four hours in my office, i received a call from my wife.

Why did she call me ? She knew i was coming early but not at four in the morning.

„Yes darling?“

„Krrssschsschshs“ ..the same radio sound came out of the phone.

My heart dropped to the floor and in the same moment, something kicked my office door and broke it open…but no one went in.

I took the shotgun which i had stored under my desk for a last standoff with anybody … guess it was the moment of use.

I loaded the gun „Whoever there is, if you dont want your head get shot, you better come out!“ i said loud.

The door stood wide open but it was dark for whatever reason.

I went slowly in .. and „BAFF“ the door shut down behind me and i turned back and shot the door once.

Suddenly the light goes on ..

„SURPRIIISE!!! HAPPY BIRTH DAY!“ – All colleagues were standing in front of me with a big smile and an even bigger cake.

„Boss did you forgot your own birthday?“

What ? I knew the date of my birthday i thought.

„Oh yes …actually i did! Well guys thank you very much!“ said i while still sweating..

Why ?

Because my „colleagues“ had wounds and cuts on their bodys while some of their heads were cut in half..

I stood in shock and pointed my shotgun towards them.

„HEY WHOOW TAKE THE GUN DOWN – WHAT THE HELL?!“

„I see your true faces you little cunts, time to DIE!“

„NO WAIT WE …“

…. BOOM…. …. …. Her stomach got blown away.. ….

„…… had drugged ..your coffeeee…“

„Kssh – Ksh“ – BOOM!

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

How great it feels to kill human’s – From the view of a Monster

We dont live in the shadows as you might think, and neither do we do contracts with humans.

We fool you into the shadows were no one can see you …dissapear.

We eat your bad energy and increase your worthless live with anger but only when you allow it so.

Once we found our prey, we snap its neck but first… lets scare it until we get expected..

My loving method to kill humans is the slow and painful way.

I drag them down to what you call hell, and i bind them on a bloody and dirty chair with excrements from other prey’s… sometimes they pee and sometimes they moan out of pain…

The fear..the hate..the anger…the despair and hopelessness…You fragile imbecile piece of weakness.. all deserved to die.

You would call it insane or crazy, but we … we call it FUN

After the prey drops blood and sweat, we start to put metal spikes under their skin while it gets laughed at, spit and scared even more.

And as soon as they start to walk, or move .. they scream in agony and burning pain…

This sounds … so.. lovely

The more scared it gets, the more orgasms we get from this energy…

The feeling is an electrical sensation which covers the entire area … We like to kill our prey when its ready.

Washed from the blood, cleansed from the wounds and fed with the flesh of previous prey.

First they spit at us and try to hurt but it only makes us stronger and horny, that is our goal.

Than we rape every possible ankle and hurt them even more just to bring the same sensation as before.. ITS A PARTY!!

Shortly before they die, we cleanse them a last time …. and than they glue their back to a table.

„You are free to leave..If you can free your body“ we do say whispering.

No response – „Guess they want to stay“

As we tere every body part into shreds and release the dark energy within.

A final explosion of insanity and illness ..

We call it FUN!

(This story was a made up, no one got kidnapped to hell!)

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place.. Do you feel that too sometimes ? A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]

The dirty building

I was living abroad near the city. The rent was cheap here, but a lot of messy stuff was going on.

My apartment was on the eight floor and two rival gangs divided the area for themselves.

They „nicely“ asked everyone to pay money for their safety. Once they came up to me but i didnt open the door.. There was nothing they could do about it and i made sure to never come late.

These fuckers were only after eight o’clock in these dirty and piss stinking floors… Selling their crap and threatening people …

The police didnt dared to come in this area.. it was cut from the city due to so much crime that they couldnt afford being here.

Even when people jumped out of their window, the ambulance wasnt coming.

I dont even know how this building was still standing .. so much dirt on every corner, the walls were burned or damaged and the pillars which hold it, were already cracked.

This place really needed a makeover but no one bothered and neither had anyone the money to do so.

I was coming late .. I hoped that it wasnt already too late because the gangs always blocked the hallway and the none- working elevator.

It seemed alright i thought. I could even hear some police sirens…maybe it was because of them why everybody left ?

I run upstairs and even the junkies and screams were gone, this was the first time and a bit strange.

Was there up something big or did everyone run away ?

I got to my apartment and the floor was empty too. I opened my quite heavy metal door which was secured digitally on both sides.

I looked at the camera which i had secretly installed at the ceiling above the floor and watched the film.

Nothing happend .. No one was walking around and no sound was recorded either.

The lights went on and off but why was the floor empty ? That never happend before.

„knock KNOCK!!“ „knock KNOCK“- someone was hammering the door.

„What the hell? Why is nothing on camera? Is the camera broken?“

I got really nervous. „knock KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK“

I looked again in the camera, the lights went off. I took my needle baseball bat just to be sure and walked to the door.

First i watched at the door spy but it was dark.

„Who is there? And stop hammering my door i heard you!“ i said loud.

No answer..

„POLICE OPEN UP“

What ? The police? here ?

I opend the door and my heart nearly stopped…

There was no one and the floor was lighten up as always. „What the fuck is going on here?“ i asked myself.

I looked left and right and closed the door.

As soon as i turned my back towards the door, ive got a hit on my back and lost consciousness.

I woke up in the hospital and was handcuffed on the bed.

„Youre awake great. Youre under arrest of drugging the water supply with rat poison and LSD, appearently your plan didnt worked. Youve killed not only the people who lived in the same area but many in the city!“

Fuck… maybe that wasnt a good idea after all

The Mirror House

Few days ago in a hospital …

Four police officers were standing infront of my bed …asking what happend at night in that house..

My body started to shake…

I faded away for the second time. The sisters rushed to my aid … i slept for another half an hour.

After i woke up again, the four police men were gone and only two were left.

I started to tell them what happend that night..

They didnt believed me like in a bad horror film..

It was true i said… That house was full of mirrors and every single one of them brought out loud screams and unhuman voices..

We panicked and tried to run away from there but Kane and Jessica were gone..

I dont remember what happend to them…

The walls of the hospital started to shake and scream like that house.

My blood pressure went sky high, the room was suddenly empty,

What was going on?? Where are the police men and the nurses??

I covered my head under the blanked and just waited until all was over…

A moment went by…and another….and another…and another… … … the room became quiet.

I turned away the blanked and my heart skipped a beat.

A big mirror was in front of me.. I stood up carefully and slowly walked towards it.

What was the meaning of this??

As i came closer, ive stood before the mirror … It showed me, watching myself in the mirror.

Ive turned fast around and nothing was there.

Ive looked back into the mirror and as i turned around, a hand grabbed me at my shoulder.

My heart stopped….

„Karl its time for your medicine again, come and take it“

Said the nurse who was standing in front of me.

She had a weird smile. Her teeth were spiky ..

SECRETS OF SUCCESS

Some motivation

My dears, are you alive or still dreaming?

Or are you living your dream?

Are you still working to make it come true or are you letting others determine for you what is good for you?

How do these questions sound in your ears? And in your soul?

If you are content to live mediocrely, is it really enough for you to get some alms from the state once a month and live well for one week and not the rest of the month?

Are you happy that child benefit and alimony FULL are credited to your alms, or do you not even notice that your children do not even get this money anymore, because you pay your bills with it!

What if it were different?

Seriously, astral travel and Lucide dreams and so on, spiritual things, are a beautiful escape from reality – but you still wake up every morning in this reality here and you have to live your life.

No matter how little you like it.

Have you already forgotten your dreams?

Which wishes can you actually fulfill for your children?

Only air and love are not enough in the long run. So what are you working on?

What do you create for your fellow man?

Do you help those who can’t help themselves and whom nobody listens to because they have no voice, or do you hide behind your displays and just complain?

Some of you complain about the fact that young people are making Tiktok videos and that this annoys you. But hey, you’ve obviously watched them.

I’m glad that the youth is getting creative. And a lot of videos of young people are very creative and get attention on the net.

Or is it just that you are disturbed by their success and your complaining only serves to distract from your own inactivity?

They say good things come to those who can wait, but they also say „nothing comes from nothing“.

And it’s even more aptly stated, „He who relies on others is relied upon“. Because you can’t seriously expect anyone to do your job for nothing in return.

My girlfriend, with whom I started this blog and facebook page over two years ago and who unfortunately died shortly after, she was in a wheelchair for life. Hardly able to walk more than a few steps, if at all.

In her short life, she has probably done more for others than could ever be made good.

I never once heard her „whine“ or „grumble“! And this although she unfortunately had no family support, nothing…

She will always remain SO in my memory as a fighter in a situation where many others would not have even started to fight at all. Especially people without any physical, severe handicaps.

Many of those I know of in this respect do nothing but complain and grumble. The best thing to do is to get upset about the community without whose help they would have been sitting on the street long ago.

But there’s a saying that when you’re at the bottom, you can only go up.

You want another one? Insight, is the first way to change.

So remember my questions from the beginning! And consider if there aren’t always ways and means to level up your life again!

And if you just start making funny videos and sweeten the day for others. One step always comes after the other!

But you have to take them alone. In the course of the way there are usually people who help you and who are happy to do so.

And suddenly you hear the dreams of your children and remember your own dreams and start to improve your whole life.

Good luck

Katja

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]

Why its impossible to argument with idiots

Many might know this already how pointless it is to talk with dumb people.

Why is it that such people simply wont hear or pretend not to hear what you say?

Well the answer is rather simple..

Its their experience, their believes, their life and what theyve had and got from their parents.

Shortly said: they are unconscious.

You cant wake a dumb person when they got a fog of unconsciousness infront of their heads ..

It is just like in a dream, no one can hit you and scream at your face to finally recognise what is going on… well .. in a dream this is actually possible though..

The live of a person who cant hear the argument of a person who respects the words of the disrespecter, was and never will be bright shining.

Those lives are mostly filled with sadness and pain. And they try to cover it by showing how tough they are and how weak and dumb all the others seem to be.

Iam surrounded by idiots and this is the truth. My parents arent smart and they never were. They only tell us how bad we are and how stupid, but iam conscious.

Someone who is conscious will never be a victim of anything and there is no excuse.

Someone who cant hear the truth about their sad and angry lives is the real looser.

Why am i telling you this?

Because you got the hands over your live! Not any asshole-opinion or dumb sentence from anybody!

Better hold those strings tight and always stand your ground!

But be sure to loose the strings which cut your hands 😉

Hateful lovers 🤣

Hello people,

I want to talk about few people who have nothing better to do than hating other people for what they do.

I think many will understand.

The problem with these people is their small mind.

They either have no experience in the field of which they hate, or they just dont like the person.

Often it is because this sort of mind is simply stupid and it hasnt done any research or anything else. It just hates its own life often and intends to point the negativity towards others, simply because they are weak.

They intend to buzz the red button before the show has even started unfortunatly.

These people will appear like rats from the shadows when you start to become successful, but only in the internet and behind your back.

None of them will ever say what they say in front of your face because some of them know, that it is just stupid.

Mostly their argumentations end with swearings or hate speaches and loud mouthings.

How can you beat these idiots?

Just ignore them and laugh as long as they hold their distance but…

(…If they ever should come to a „kissing range“ at your face, be sure to hit them so hard into their organs, that they consider it as their first spiritual lesson!

Only idiots will learn with punches..

Have a good day 😄

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]

Am i less worth ? – The Floor of Nightmares

I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]

Freedom

How would it be if we dont need to do anything anymore?

Not getting bothered by something nor anyone?

Not constantly to maintain something?

Not to look at your body and be depressed ?

Not to constantly think some useless bullshit which twists your head?

Not to worry about anything or anyone?

Just .. be .. … and do whatever you want and like, without getting bothered by any body function or your annoying neighbour..

How many are pissed about their existence but not because their life is bad, but because they just cant stand anything what is offered with it?

I think there are many.. ive never liked being a fucking human.. it bothered me before i even incarnated here .. if knew that this wouldnt be good

All this useless and dumb activity’s and conversations.. and some of the activity is not even possible because of a fucking wall or border or money gap…its annoying..

And yet im here, writing this and knowing that i might have a final task before WE leave, otherwise i would be long gone.

I really fucking hate this existence of a human, even if i understand the beauty of life and all what is about… but i personally still dont like it.. there is A LOT MORE and A LOT BETTER PLACES than this.

My inner feeling and memory tells me more about this cursed planet and faked free will than anything else.

Once you got to a certain point with certain „enlightenments“ from your „past“ incarnations, you will not give damn anymore about any of this planets bullshit.

… i should try to relax..

Sorry for my language my dear self 🤣

Have a good day xD

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]

Empathy? No way!

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts. Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer. Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut! Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT […]

What is this? Human arrogance…

Attention, danger of triggering. If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you. Keyword, mental health. Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill? What is this actually all about? What is this statement? […]