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Another Day – Time

I have currently quite a good time to spare for many other things. My business is doing well and i wont hunger – this should be the important part!

Now lets get to the point where i can finally meet my lady!

Somehow the sun is back up and back on 36° degrees when it wants to.

I dont understand the weather here and would really welcome few chemtrails to take out the sun for few hours.

Anyway lets get back to work, a view videos should be alright today.

Wishing you all the badest luck friends! See ya soon.

The others Problems.. – Not just Earths

Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there. It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on […]

How does the „Matrix“ work inside the planets ?

You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is. The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How […]

What is the biggest problem of the people?

In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]

Der Verbieger

Es gab einmal einen Mann, den nannten alle „Der Verbieger“, weil alles was er tat und konnte, war es zu verbiegen. Sei es Gestein oder Stahl, alles konnte er verbiegen, ja sogar sein Haus war verbogen und auch seine nicht existente Frau. Die Dorfbewohner wagten es nicht allein durch das Dorf zu laufen, aus Angst […]

The Cell and Earth

We were 30 kids inside a big cell.

I dont remember how i got there, neither who my parents are. That was very strange.

The cell or lets call it room was shiny white and had no corners, i dont know how to explain it. It looked like a fortified room and there was a door which was only possible to open by voice.

The instructors came in … there was only one and she had white clothes and a mask over her nose.

She started screaming that every hour one kid had to be killed or all would die. She than mentioned that weapons of all kind will be placed to help the execution and left the room.

Some of those kids were merely 8 to 10 years old and had no idea what that meant. They all started to cry and help each other somehow to stop.

A red timer appeared on the wall .. „3:00, 2:59, 2:58, 2:57..“ the clock was ticking ..

„And remember kids, only one will survive, no food or else until you havent killed all of them!“ Said a womans computer voice on the ceiling.

The kids still cry’d and some started to randomly attack each other and bite.

Knifes, scissors and a small axe came up from the underground.

I was 11 years when it happend and it still is fun when i think about it.

I run to the axe and waited in the corner, not knowing what would happen when the timer hits zero.

The others bashed their heads, cut themselves or just randomly went insane and attacked everybody. In the first 3 minutes, half were injured and 10 kids were dead and their corpses were still moving. It was very strange i thought. I expected blood to come out inside that massacer but … all i saw was green liquid.

One of them ran into me, holding a knife and wanting to kill me. I ran away with the axe … i couldnt kill it.

As i tried to tell „HEY STOP IT! EVERYTHING WILL BE OK!“ He still ran.

I stopped and waited for him and was ready to chop his head off.

Suddenly a voice „ALL T-17’s STOP“

And all the kids stopped. Only me and one other was looking scared and shocked.

The woman and a guy walked in. „Kill them all NOW! These are robots and were under a war, if you cant kill them, we will kill you!“

… „I see..“ And rammed the axe into the head of the T-17 cyborg.

….

„Your childhood was fucked up man ..“ said Set.

„And now were fighting off some even more fucked up robot planets which obliterated earth …“ i said..

The humans shot down a ship which was a peace symbol without asking and the robo’s replied with a super nuclear beam which… blew away everything on earths surface.

The blast was incinerated with the suns power. These robo planets had material which withstood and even held pure solar power. In connection with atom bombs and a quantum particle accellerator it amplified the power over 19.000 times.

Dont ask me what kind of might THAT canon got .. We are still fighting and currently try to programme the weapon to our side.

These robots are extremely intelligent … They dont use any troops or army’s … They just built weapons and blow us up before we can train any troops..

Is there any hope?

Not even nuclear weapons work against their „Solatarum – Wall“ That damn material is the heaviest and hardest metal we currently know. Somehow the robots managed to nullify the heavyness and increase the density.

If this goes on… the entire universe will be wiped out by them..

My second time trying DMT ..

So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]

Dangerous Adventures

I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]

COVID 22 – Grey Phase

This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]

Rosty Knifes and Crystal wars

We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]

Smart Zombies – The Maze of Traitors

It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]

Another Shit Day Without Her AND another Car Crash

I shouldnt say it, even though my day was financially great, i dont give a fuck about money and materialistic crap.

If i would have the chance to change all i have in order to get you, i would do it without hesitation!

Im looking forward to our explosive encounter soon my dear..

Dont loose any hope, we both know that i wont stop chasing 😄

….

Im currently sitting in a acupuncture session with my client who had a serious car accident. He was driving fast and turned a sharp left while crashing into someone else with the back of the car…

So they told me atleast. I cant judge them, but i know how many idiots drive here like that and hope that the other guy is doing well.

I really think that people who drive like idiots and crash into others should die at the spot, rather than taking someone elses life! But hey.. thats just how i feel.

Drive safe out there!

Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]

Watermelon Poisoning

It happens a lot in this country.. Youll buy a watermelon and hope its a really sweat one.

But than it happens.. one bite and after an hour, the symptome’s start to show.

Stomach cramps and pain, dizzyness, sweating and headaches.

Dammit.. got poisoned..

There are no health regulations in this damn country and because if that, many overdose their veggies with chemicals.

Ive had my worst poisoning last year and all i say is .. Ive had enough of melons.. no more!

Its dangerous here with those!

Need a watermelon? Dont buy it here! XD

Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]

Dailylook #1

Warum weiß der eine mehr, der andere weniger übers Leben? Wir sagen es euch, kurz und knapp.

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

Guten Montag Zusammen

Ich weiss das viele den Montag nicht mögen aber bei mir ist jeder Tag gleich.

Ich hab oft dieselbe Routine.

Nur heute war viel mehr los und mein Rücken verkrampfte, darauf kaufte ich unüberlegt eine Kleinigkeit die dagegen helfen sollte.

Stattdessen aber muss ich es morgen mit einer netten Erklärung zurück geben, da es das falsche Mittel war. Man könnte auch sagen „ich wurde übers Ohr gehauen, wobei es meine eigene Unachtsamkeit war“

Soviel zum Montag..

Also Leute, lasst keinen Stress der Welt an eurer Konzentration nagen!

Morgen kommt eine neue Audio Geschichte. Ich komm mit der bisherigen Arbeit sonst einfach nicht hinterher.

Also noch etwas Geduld xD

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

Another Day

Its hot, my eyes hurt and my back crackes on its own..

And now headaches started.

This always happens when i look more than 4 hours a day straight at a screen..somehow my right eye doesnt like that.

And now my cat starts to eat my bags of vitamins..

Better get him out of here! xD

Hows your day? 🙂

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

Wish you all a Great Friday Night!

Party or just relaxing ? Whatever you do, have fun! 🙂

Another Hot Day

Its really hard to go somewhere in this kind of weather.

We have 30° celsius in the shadows and 45 in the sun.

You probably can imagine how a walk for 30 minutes feels outside.

The skin is wet, the hair falls in the eyes and all clothes are soaked …

A blizzard would be nice …

Meanwhile i try to make some new short story’s, maybe with voice or a little video ?

I am not sure yet.

Lets eat and find it out.

Friendly regards to all of you 🙂

Guten Morgen Zusammen

Ich wünsche jeden einen guten Donnerstag!

Lasst euch nicht von euren Zielen abbringen und macht immer weiter!

Sleepy Day’s

Hello everyone,

i hope you guys do well too.

The last days i feel really tired, specially when the sun shines strong.

I wish the weather engeneering/chemtrails back! It made the weather grey and cold 😄

I dont know why i feel like that, maybe a really good sleep would make it up.

A friggin fly woke me up over 15 times and i didnt bother catching it last night..

Have a great day and tell us your day! 🙂

Cocaine

Donate a line and i might be fully awake for the next few hours

€52,00

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

Days of a Corrupt Cop

It was easy to sell someone out.

Gangs and pedophiles came up to cops which had been known as „corrupt“ and „coorporative“ and paid a lot of money to do what they did.

We were five police men in our group and our super visor had an even bigger game going on.

For example, last week we had a raid because someone called us and told „he got weapons and a grenade in his house“.

Unfortunately, it was an old lady which our super visor told us to „take out“. He ordered us to throw a grenade through the window and than to kick the door in and arrest everyone for posession of a weapon. This gave him a silver star on his chest… well done sir.

What kind of asshole do you need to be ?

Well we all have been assholes since no one said „no we dont do it“ because everyone was afraid to loose the job or be the next.

This stuff happend a lot and we were all hated but loved by the gangs …

The next thing was called „the street sell“.

We did daily position ourselves at random places and controlled everybodys car and if they had their belts on. If someone didnt liked it and got no explanation why he was searched, we offered him to pay us a fee and let them go, while threatening him with the court.

If our colleagues or other cops caught us doing this stuff, it would be over.

We made good money… but it was all filled with bad energy and we gave it to the supervisor.

He suddenly bought a Lambo and screwed too much around. Than he landed in the news and now the government got involved and sent a few guys over to us.

They were asking how he afforded this car and well… we told them everything.

They smiled and walked off.

At a sunday i hear a loud knock on the door.. What was going on?

Suddenly they kick the door open and its the police.

„GET ON THE FUCKING GROUND YOUR UNDER ARREST FOR DRUG DEALING! WE KNOW THAT YOU TOOK THE DRUGS OUT FROM THE SECURE ROOM AND SOLD IT ON THE STREETS!“

Fuck….. the bastard of a super visor had done a deal with the two government agents. He sold our group like we sold him, but only he had enough money to buy his way out of trouble….

After few weeks…

NEWS – Deputy Sheriff under arrest for illegal activity’s! Agents take police station over!

Well…thats what you get for doing this shit for too long.. it seemed that his pay mattered little to the government

And by the way, we captured every pedophile! It was our „eat and bite“ – game.

Now i chill in prison and can smack the tooth out of our super visor, since i never came out again…

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

Das Gelächter IM Flur

Wir zogen vor drei Wochen in ein neues Haus welches auf einem hübschen Stück Land anzusehen war.

Die Atmosphäre war erfrischend und mal etwas anderes als die ständige Stadtluft.

Vor dem Kauf untersuchten wir natürlich das Haus auf Geschehnisse, Tode oder andersweitige paranormale Aktivitäten um einfach gewappnet zu sein.

Unsere dreiköpfige Familie, also ich, mein großer Bruder und meine Mutter waren immer skeptisch was Häuser anbelangte, welche einfach auf dem Land zu einem Billgpreis standen und niemand diese haben wollte.

Nach drei Wochen begannen die ersten Probleme… Mein Bruder berichtete, dass Stimmen aus dem Keller kämen und er Schritte über dem Dachboden hörte.

Natürlich glaubten wir ihm nicht sofort aber in der kommenden Nacht stellten wir eine Kamera entlang des Flur’s.

Als wir am nächsten Morgen die Aufzeichnung sahen, blieb uns beinahe der Atem weg.

Es war unsere Mutter welche ganze drei Stunden, direkt in die Kamera Linse starrte.

Wir sahen uns zu dritt das Video an und auch sie war schockiert und verneinte das sie es war.

War sie ein Schlafwandler? Das dachten wir uns zumindest und testeten dies kommende Nacht.

Wir verschlossen ihr Zimmer, stellten die Kamera erneut auf und legten uns Schlafen.

Auch wir schlossen unsere Zimmer, nur aus reiner Sicherheit.

Kaum betrat und schloss ich mein Zimmer, hämmerte es an meiner Zimmertür.

„KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK, schwesterherz lass mich rein, ich höre stimmen KNOCK KNOCK“

„LASS MICH ENDLICH REIN!!“

Es wurde lauter und plötzlich erhielt ich eine Nachricht auf meinem Handy. Mir lief ein übler Schauder über den Rücken als ich die Nachricht sah: „Mal sehen was heute Nacht mit mom wird, was denkst du?“

Gerade noch hämmerte es an der Tür…Es war also nicht mein Bruder.

Ich rief ihn an. „HEY MACH JA NICHT DEINE ZIMMERTÜR AUF EGAL WAS DU HÖRST! HIER HÄMMERTE ETWAS MIT DEINER STIMME GEGEN MEINE TÜR!!“

Verstutzt sagte er „IRGENDWAS IST IN DIESEM HAUS! wir warten bis morgen und sage Mom noch nichts! Was auch immer hier ist, es wird unwissenden erst später bewusst!“

Somit legten wir das Handy beiseite und schliefen ein.

Am nächsten Morgen öffnete ich meine Zimmertür und mein Bruder stand vor mir.

„Du musst dir die Aufnahme ansehen! JETZT!“

Wir setzten uns ins Wohnzimmer und auch unsere Mutter fragten wir, ob sie denn irgendwas verdächtiges diese Nacht gemerkt habe.

„Ausser ein Türgeklopfe an meiner Zimmertür nichts, ich habe die Tür aus Angst nicht geöffnet“

‚Sehr gut Mom! Irgendwas stimmt in diesem Haus überhaupt nicht und wir dürfen niemals die Tür öffnen wenn es klopft!

Wir sahen uns das Video an und waren geschockt, leichte Tränen kamen aus meinen Augen… Wir sahen uns drei im Flur stehen…. alle zusammen starren wir für exakt drei Stunden in die Kamera. Aber wir waren dies definitiv nicht!

Je länger wir dies ansahen, desto mehr wurde uns unbehagen.

Wir hatten einen Plan.

Wir packten noch am selben Tag unsere Sachen und verließen das Haus für immer

Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

Dagestan and Criminal Money Mining – Another Day

Hello all.

Its the second day without electricity at work and people start to wonder why and what is going on.

Well they repaired the problem and cut loose all the illegal cabel’s which were connected on the main transformators.

The first one exploded because many people had taken electricity illegally from the city.

To be honest, electro energy is very cheap in russia and everyone could easily afford it but NO, theres always some idiot who wants it for free.

The problem is that the transformator and connector gets overheated and can explode.

So the people thought okay, lets put in a new transformator and cut all illegal idiots right?

Well yes it worked…for 2 hours until the new one exploded too.

Now the police gets involved and investigates what is going on.

A new transformator cant just explode in two hours, specially when all illegals got cut, so whats causing the problem?

There are rumors that a guy is hidden somewhere with big computers and mines money illegally. Here its called „Butterfly money mining“.

I have zero idea what that is and neither how its done but someone told me, that it eats insane energy and it kills transformators.

It has something to do with online currency as i know.

In Dagestan there were few people who got caught and this time it seems to be in our place.

Hopefully he or she gets caught, it disrupted already 24 Shops and more. This mining method can take a whole city’s energy if its overdone.

Did any of you guys know what „Butterfly money mining“ is ?

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

car accident

Yes it happend… my first car accident …today.

I should’ve waited until the mercedes got off the road.. but i let my foot loose of the brake and my car rammed the backside.

The problem is ..that the car was a fucking mercedes… for my luck, nothing much happend.

It couldve ended with alot of money loss, but i managed to talk the guy down, somehow.

My car took the most damage and needs a fix, but who cares about a car which can be taken away by police every moment. The first guy bought it with a loan from the bank and after a history of bullshit and corrupt police, the car ended with us and now the bank wants the car back. XD

Next time i will know for sure.

…or take the bus 😂

Weekend fun

It was a late afternoon.

I went to a club which had opened new and which seemed to be really good according to some people.

On arrival i noticed some fance cars and a red carped. What was going on ? Was it always like this?

I went in and a lot of people stood there to get a ticket inside. I guess i just came in time and got lucky.

Few „celebs“ were drinking and dancing there too.. It was a rather normal club atmosphere.

One guy was drunk as hell and puked all over himself and a few guests, they werent happy.

It had another two floors and the third was secured and only for „special people“ as the security told.

I saw a group of people which seemed to go to the third floor. I stood behind them and walked as if i was one of them. I just really wanted to see what was on the third floor.

But the guards stopped me.

„Wait youre that guy on the poster at the wall!“

Me ? N- No youve mistaken, thats my twin brother, his name is gofuckyourself – and i ran down to the first floor to the exit.

A guard rammed me off my way and i lost consciousness.

„Five – one, we got the motherfucker who stole money from us last weekend. Not so smart to come a second time to this place ha?“

I woke up in a chair and two police men stood with the guards. I saw how they bribed the two cops.

What happend after?

Well i lost my clothing and nearly few fingers… I cry’d myself out of it and only got big kick to my face.

Im alive, the money is still save.

Next week, ill try the club on the next street… They will have a mask party…

Random Frustrations

The distance between you and me is sometimes put aside or ignored… but sometimes it hits me out of nowhere.

Specially when i see couples.. How annoying.. These people got their loved ones around.

And we still wait..

Cant let you wait much longer.

I know everything will go right.

See ya soon my left side. Hold yourself a bit longer.

And know that i love you, even when we fight a bit.

Even the cards said „The reason for your fights and bad feelings, it the distance“

And they really showed it.. Even the cards know how we feel xD

Love you my heart piece ❤

And Thanks Everyone for reading our blogs! 😊

alltagsgeschichten #1

Ich melde mich mal wieder im „Bloggerstyle“ zu Wort.

Um mal ein paar Einblicke in mein Alltagsgeschehen zu geben, während ich freiwillig oder gezwungenermaßen, von daheim aus versuche am Computer- im Homeoffice zu arbeiten oder etwas sinnvolles, Mehrwert – contenthaltiges zu bloggen.

Und dabei Kinder beaufsichtige und bespaße.

Wer es kennt, weiß so vor halb vier 15:30 Uhr braucht man gar nicht ernsthaft in Erwägung zu ziehen, den Laptop auch nur aufzuklappen.

Und nach 21 Uhr fällt man eigentlich tot ins Bett, es sei denn die Kinder sind noch fit, um diese Zeit.

Wann also, soll man arbeiten oder recherchieren, was auch immer. Naja, wir geben uns alle Mühe. Also hier ein paar Sätze, bevor ich endlich richtigen Content bringen kann.. sprich, ich die Ruhe habe ordentlich zu recherchieren. Heute hat es auch Wetter-technisch nichts von „auf den Spielplatz“ gehen, danke heftiger Regenfälle..


Ich erzähle euch mal eine kleine, mir stark in Erinnerung (negativer) Erinnerung gebliebene Anekdote aus meinem reichhaltigen Fundus, aus der Kategorie „warum ich Menschen nicht wirklich mag“.

Ein paar Eingangsinfos vorweg: Meine kleinsten Kinder sind mittlerweile 5 und 10. Als die kommende Episode stattfand, waren sie 3 und 8.

Noch recht jung also, dazu kam damals Kind Nr. 1. schon etwas älter, in Ausbildung und ohne Führerschein.

Für mich, als Alleinerziehende Singlemutter (mein Liebster wohnt, wie ihr schon gemerkt haben dürftet, wenn ihr den Blog verfolgt) immer noch in Russland und da Deutschland und Russland sich hassen, wird dieser Zustand wohl noch eine Weile anhalten.

Für mich also, bedeutete das damals. Kind 1 zur Ausbildung zu fahren und zu holen, wenn aufgrund er örtlichen Gegebenheiten nichts fuhr, was Bus und Bahn entsprach. Was in der Gegend wo wir wohnen, leider mindestens jedes Wochenende der Fall war.

Dazu kam das Kind 1 noch Aufsicht brauchte, dass sie pünktlich zum Schulbus geht und Kind 2 in einen der Nachbarorte, in die Kita, gefahren wird.

Nach der morgendlichen Show, hatte ich dann einen dieser „tollen“ Kurse, mit denen das Jobcenter meint wahllos ausgewählte? Kandidaten in „was auch immer zu vermitteln“ oder was auch immer, egal.

Zumindest, war der Kurs einer von vielen, die ich mir so angetan habe.

Man kann dabei gut „Fallstudien“ machen und die verschiedensten Arten der Menschen Kennenlernen und später drüber bloggen, auch gut.

Leiterin des Kurses, war eine Dame, die im Prinzip das gleiche machte wie ich, was ich anfangs ganz witzig fand, später leider nicht mehr so, als ich tiefere Einblicke in die Denkmuster bekam.

Der Unterschied zwischen uns war, dass ich mich seit meiner Ausbildung zu Krankenschwester und schon vorher mit der Psyche und Seele befasse und das ganze extrem ganzheitlich sehe und sie das ganze eher versucht hat in staatlich verordnete Bahnen zu lenken.

Sie also sagte mir Sachen über mich, die IHRER „Expertenmeinung“, als staatlich eingesetzter Psychotherapeut, in den Kopf kamen.

Und ich habe jetzt zwei Jahre darüber nachgedacht und mit sehr vielen anderen Menschen darüber gesprochen. Diese Expertenmeinung war damals schon falsch und ist es heute immer noch.

Vielleicht blogge ich einmal darüber „warum ihr auf die Meinung einzelner Experten, meistens, einen Fi*k geben könnt“.

Das könnt ihr auch auf Expertengruppen, die alle am selben Tisch sitzen, so leid es mir tut.

Aber das ist meine Einschätzung und Sichtweise nach über 25 Jahren in der Branche.

Man wird stigmatisiert, vorverurteilt. Schublade auf – Mensch rein – Schublade zu. Fertig.

Fragt man mich, halte ich es für sehr bedenklich, dass Schicksal einzelner Menschen in die Hand eines einzelnen Sachbearbeiters oder auch Gutachters zu legen.

Man sieht es ja auch in den Medien, wie oft Gutachter alles tun, außer gut zu achten – darauf WIE sie urteilen.

Zurück zum Thema, laut der Meinung dieser Dame war es also irrelevant, dass ich als alleinerziehende Frau mich morgens erst einmal um 3 Kinder kümmern musste, sie war der Ansicht, dies wäre chaotisch und ich hätte mein Leben nicht im Griff.

Man müsste sein Leben doch klarer strukturieren. uff..

Was sagt man dazu. Ich gar nichts mehr. Außer dass ich dann für meinen Teil, sie kurz zu analysieren begann und beschloss, es wäre der Aufgregung nicht wert.

Aber wisst ihr, worauf ich hinaus will.

WER immer über andere urteilt und seine eigenen Sichtweise in diese Urteile hineinbringt, aufgrund seines eigenen Glaubens, der urteilt immer falsch. Immer! Egal ob Sachbearbeiter, Gutachter, Richter oder was auch immer.

Das macht die ganze so gefährlich, wenn man einer einzelnen Person mehr Macht verleiht als der Situation zuträglich.

Er urteilt ohne je in der Situation gewesen zu sein oder gar die selben Situationen zu kennen.

Ihr wisst schon, Schublade auf usw.

Wisst ihr um das ganze kurz zu machen, ihr wisst ja, nichts was wir anderen entgegen bringen, bleibt vom Universum unbemerkt und ich musste gar nichts dazu sagen.

Am letzten Tag des Kurses wunderte ich mich, wo die Dozentin denn war und man sagte mir, „sie hat einen Unfall gehabt und ihr fabrikneues Auto zu Schrott gefahren. Ihr ist zum Glück scheinbar nichts passiert. Trotz allem, gab es an diesem Tag kein Mitleid.“

Wisst ihr, sie war während des ganzen Kurses, wirklich nicht nett, vielen der Menschen in dem Kurs gegenüber und an dem Tag, sagten alle „ja das war wohl Karma“.

Ich denke auch. Manchmal bestraft uns das Universum, schneller als wir erwarten 😉

Habt ihr ähnliche Erfahrungen gemacht?

Abendimpressionen

Heute war es ein sehr skurriler Spaziergang und ich weiss nicht, ob ich künftig noch „da lang“ gehe.

Aber erst einmal schaut euch meine tierisch Begleiterin an. Die ausgebüxte Nachbarshündin.

Zugegeben, wir können uns gut leiden.

Ich brachte sie, nachdem sie baden und sich im Dreck wühlen war, nach Hause und hab es zwanzig Minuten später ein bisschen bereut…gleich mehr dazu, aber erst mal ein paar Bilder der Strecke.

Kurz darauf, sprach mich ein Mann an. Offenbar Engländer, weil er konnte nur Englisch und fiel direkt mit der Tür ins Haus , „ich sei wunderschön und ob ich verheiratet wäre und ob ich Kinder hätte und wie viele. “ ich bin durchaus weder unfreundlich noch unwillig zu Smalltalk, aber hey… was zur Hölle war das denn?

Ich machte also, dass ich das Weite suchte und weiss ich gehe da wohl erst mal nicht mehr lang.

Dafür sah ich kurz darauf wie eine Frau die Katze meiner Freundin verjagte. Ich einmal quer über die Pferdekoppel, wo das geschah gebrüllt “ Katze komm zu mir „. Die Frau war durchaus fassungslos, weil meine Mona angesprinntet kam und mir laut miauend erzählte, dass sie ja nur spielen wollte.

Ich brachte dann also noch die Miez nach Hause und gönn mir jetzt ein Glas Sekt

Und ihr?

Gute Nacht 🙂