Schlagwort-Archive: 2020

The others Problems.. – Not just Earths

Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there.

It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on a small staircase, coming down the street. It was a woman and she smiled as i approached her.

I said hi and asked to tell me where i was, but she didnt said anything except smiling and telling me „Come on, theres a party in my house, we talk there“. She was walking forth and i was caucious and for whatever reason i told her „Before we go, look into my eyes for a second, i have to check you quickly“.

She came in front of me and i looked sharply in her eyes. It was like she knew what i was doing and as i did the trick, i understood why i did it. I was checking if she was human, monster or alien and within two seconds, she was loosing consciousness and started to shake while i watched her. She was a human and nothing unusual was within her body, so i trusted her and we walked as if nothing had happend.

We went a few meters and her house was right next to the street from which we were walking. I just went inside and three other girls and a guy stood inside of it. One guy and a girl left, so i stood there with the others and they introduced themselves but i dont remember their names ..i think one was Lucy and the other girl was Alice but before they finished, the girl asked me what my name was.

I told them, that „the dimension from where i came, they called me „Arslan“, but from myself, i dont prefer any names and lets leave it like that“. They smiled and said „Alright than youre the nameless“. I was okay with that. After that we started to talk and i was wondering which kind of physics and rules were applied to this dimension. But before i asked, i noticed that the house was odly dark and only a few LED-lights were burning on few corners. Neither was there a party.

I stood up and asked to do the glaring trick but the others started running upstairs and i wasnt sure why. They told me to stay downstairs and wait until its over. I wasnt sure what was happening but i wasnt affraid. They did let me do the glare before leaving and none of them were other things than humans. I still walked behind them, i just wanted to see what would happen.

They were running and running upstairs and on each floor, somebody stood still and didnt moved, telling the one to not move until its over. This continued to the third floor and higher, until we stood with a bunch of people on the top of the building.

I saw now what was going on. They told me that they had to face a horde of burning demons every night and that many died because of it. But i was rather surprised because when i looked across the street, everyone was … gone. But the lights were brightly on every corner of the town and the top of every building seemed burned. I wondered why it was always the top but i was going to know shortly.

The people gathered on top, were actually some random people and some were from games i played when i was a kid. They seemed real xD. A few moments later i heard a loud screaming noise coming out from a violett portal.

This noise was caused by burning, one eyed bats which started burning down the entire building. The people started to fight but it was pointless because these bats were just fire. Once inside the flames, everything was reduced to ashes and this explained why the heaven was full of an orange/red fog.

Not all died, but the figures which i knew did. The girls from earlier survived and the portal closed. I stood there, just watching and than i fly’d a bit up and caused the building to collapse to both sided. It was completely burned and soon after i just left, flying around a bit and noticing, that even these people didnt knew the fact that they were souls and not humans…

The reason i didnt died there, was because i was fully aware of myself and my situation.

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The others Problems.. – Not just Earths

Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there. It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on […]

How does the „Matrix“ work inside the planets ?

You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is. The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How […]

What is the biggest problem of the people?

In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]

Der Verbieger

Es gab einmal einen Mann, den nannten alle „Der Verbieger“, weil alles was er tat und konnte, war es zu verbiegen. Sei es Gestein oder Stahl, alles konnte er verbiegen, ja sogar sein Haus war verbogen und auch seine nicht existente Frau. Die Dorfbewohner wagten es nicht allein durch das Dorf zu laufen, aus Angst […]

How does the „Matrix“ work inside the planets ?

You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is.

The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How far it stretches and how strong it acts upon you, is decided on how much conscioussness you’ve got.

The more you know about it, the more it advances against you and lures into traps of your ego.

It doesnt only exist on earth but on several other planets as well, which are low swinging in frequency. This matrix net eats and consumes negative energy because it is the cheapest and most – energy -consuming – energy available on the planet. You could say its dirty money with no consequences to itself.

The matrix causes people, partners and whatever who is unaware about it, to get negatively fast. And by this i mean every negative emotion and thought. The only way to truly know that the thoughts you talk off your mouth are really YOURS, is to be conscious at all times. It can only manipulate if your on autopilot/ dream alike state of mind.

This being together with the ego – is a super complex system to support itselfs energy supply without your notice. Many people, and with that i mean over 90% the population, dont know about the existence and manipulations on the ethereal levels.

Since the matrix supports negative energy, it supports negative acts from everything that lives on the planet. This means that many who do harm are mostly on top positions and those who like to help and create a better world, meet their end quite fast. This is because the matrix hates love. It cant stand it and because of this fact, it will try to bring lovers apart, partners to fight and many things more. It knows when it succeeds, that its system is working and it can go on like that. But the biggest reason is the negative emotion that can be dragged out of both people who cant see each other and suffer.

When you suffer, you release emotion. When the emotion is bad, it will be consumed and advanced to get more, if your unconscious mind lets it happen. If the emotion is good, it will hurt the matrix.

This invisible thing has a giant construction of helpers on the planet which cant be seen, but be observed when the spirit is outside the body, or the mind outside the cage. In our book, we got in much more detail about it! You should check it out and know what really is out here. Once you get a hold, the world of the living becomes much more boring than usual because you wont want to know whats on your instagram or Facebook but around you! Dive in, to the secrets of your past.

My second time trying DMT ..

So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]

Dangerous Adventures

I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]

What is the biggest problem of the people?

In my opinion the following:

You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience.

You could not be a human having a spiritual experience.

People die, their soul remains eternal.

But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false ego.

Which does not help him, but separates him from everything that could help him.

Because it serves only to be led astray.

I suspect that this false ego is the bigger, the more you get entangled in humanity.

The more separated you are from your true – divine – origin.

Do not fall for it.

Reflect again, the more you argue, complain and others do the same with you, the stronger are these entanglements, they are of no use to you.

They make you lonely, aggressive and in a bad mood.

Find back to your true nature.

Many ways how to do this can be found in my blog.

But the first step is to realize that youre not the person in the mirror. The human being you see there isnt really you, but the ego in combination with thoughts and identification.

Your face is only the shell that belongs to you for a while. Nature takes the bodys back.

What remains after that, after the death of this shell, is you, a soul.

Find your way back there while you are here.

Consider this body as a gift from God, but not as an identification of yourself!

Then you will also find the way back to the divine core and to inner peace and outer love.

Before that you will be caught in a cycle of unpleasant things.

Again and again.

Have a good day

COVID 22 – Grey Phase

This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]

Rosty Knifes and Crystal wars

We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]

Smart Zombies – The Maze of Traitors

It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]

Der Verbieger

Es gab einmal einen Mann, den nannten alle „Der Verbieger“, weil alles was er tat und konnte, war es zu verbiegen.

Sei es Gestein oder Stahl, alles konnte er verbiegen, ja sogar sein Haus war verbogen und auch seine nicht existente Frau.

Die Dorfbewohner wagten es nicht allein durch das Dorf zu laufen, aus Angst das der Verbieger sie auch verbiegt.

Eines Tages jedoch, glaubten die Dorfbewohner den Verbieger übertreffen zu können und so standen sie vor seinem Haus. Sie riefen ihn und so kam er raus .. Hände wie ein Scheunentor und ein deformierter Kopf waren seinen Markenzeichen. Die Bewohner stellten ihm die Aufgabe sich selbst zu verbiegen, jedoch lachte der Verbieger und rannte auf die Bewohner los. Er bog sie mit seiner neuen Technik, dem geradebiegen, sodass alles was im Dorfe verbogen war, wieder gerade gebogen wurde.

Am Ende des Tages war der Verbieger bekannt unter dem Namen „Der Geradebieger“ und wenn jemand nach dem Verbieger fragte, so sollten sie beim Geradebieger fragen.

Ach ja und das halbe Dorf war tot.

Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]

My second time trying DMT ..

So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland.

I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again.

The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there..

The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, looked dirty and small but was aggressive, just like the guy who was a cannibal in the documentary i watched few weeks ago. I hoped that it wasnt him because he would drink his own piss and cut off other peoples tongue’s 😂.

Unfortunatly, it was a weirdo and he told us to finish three tasks he was giving. The tasks were very disgusting and disturbing and with each task, the first and second guy went home. The tasks were simple.

The first was to drink blood from an unknown source, but no one was going to it. So we told him to tell us, were he got it from. And he said from the dogs of your second task. So we drank the dog blood quick, but i only sipped it and the scene changed quick to the second task.

The second one was the most fucked up task. He brought three little puppy’s which he had ripped off the skin of each one, and they were still alive, walking in pain but no screaming. These little guys knew… we had to completely eat them… and so we did for the sake of DMT but … no we actually didnt eat them. We asked ourselves who the fuck this guy was and we didnt needed him at all. So we just threw him off the cliffs near the island were we had the „ceremony“. And since he had no helpers, no one saw nothing. I mean who was that dude and why we needed him and that stupid ceremony right?

The third task was to cut ourselves with the same knives the others had used and no one was doing that. Because i had the dream twice, it switched back and fourth and it showed me that the first time, i did everything and drank the stuff inside the black little vase which was dmt.

This time i didnt do shit and just went to the shrine, drinking it again, but the guy we thrown off was there.. holding the vase in my direction and giving it to me. I drinked …. and nothing happend .. i woke up!

Pretty shitty dream ive gotta tell..

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Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]

Dailylook #1

Warum weiß der eine mehr, der andere weniger übers Leben? Wir sagen es euch, kurz und knapp.

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

Dangerous Adventures

I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again.

I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on the old mates because ..well ..why not. The cream was tasty and i already had three of them. Besides i was surprised seing them around in such a place but it was more to it than i thought.

Later on we went outside and all hell broke loose.

Out of nowhere, mystic creatures with long nails and swords came like a swarm. They killed and cut up all of the people around. Me and a girl were on our own and had swords ourselves as it seemed. I couldnt see the girls face, neither could i tell who she was but i had a feeling that she might be my wife because she always comes in many forms in my dreams. I remembered the dream and knew that another attack was coming… As the creatures slaughtered everybody, we defended ourselves and cut few of them up as well. The cool part was, that our blades could cut the air and kill from a far distance. So i threw a few slices and got many of them and so did she. The swords were organic … it felt like they were living and the appearance changed colourfully. My two swords were red glowing with a dark background. The girl had a blue and red/dark sword, glowing as well. But we knew that they would break soon because these swords were not held by hand, but it was the hand from those creatures. We had ripped them out of their shoulders.

One creature jumped over a big wall and tried to cut me down, but because i knew the dream, i attacked her first and threw her to the ground. I thought that it might be a woman monster because of the blue appearance and long strange looking hair, but i didnt cared and cut her head along with her arm. There was no reaction, scream or else.

The girl went away, or atleast that was the last time i saw her.

I scene switch happend with a strong wind… i found myself on a mountain, chasing a woman that was running towards a castle. It really looked damn beautyful.. Big trees, the sun shine almost gone and the grass and flowers dancing in the wind, and in front of us, one road to the castle… It seemed magical… the field was shining and glittering in beauty. I really thought i might stay there and just watch, but i needed to chase the woman for a reason. It was very dangerous to just walk towards it but she knew it… The reason why i wanted to stay and watch was because i thought about me and my wife before we came here.. How much time had passed since then, or was it just a blink of an eye? I surely didnt knew.

As i chased her, she stopped and pointed with her finger towards a small mountain looking thing i thought. But it seemed to be a very fast train which lead to the castle. Big train rails were in front of us which circeled across this world. As we approached fast to the train, we noticed that it was covered in a big blanket, letting it look like a mountain. But instead it was a giant mix of a bug, a centaur and a bull. It had two big black tooth in front and it started running fast down the rails from where we came from. I knew that i was already once here and i remembered that i would be dead if i didnt had moved aside. It wouldve trampled me over i thought.

As we saw the giant thing going fast off the area, we went further towards the castle but it was shielded. Another circle ? Or was the castle just imagination? I dont know what happend to the woman but i was standing above ground, flying and looking at the castle. It seemed unreachable. Many big monsters were up ahead and i didnt knew what i was doing there in the first place…

As i looked, my vision gut blurry and i woke up unintended, knowing that its always been you and freedom, who i still chase and know to reach.

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die.

But i found myself in a open cell in hell..

It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because i went down a light tunnel. The hallway was full of screams and fear. Weird noices were coming out in the end of the path.

The walls were from some kind of disgusting looking flesh that hurt you when you came close to it. It wasnt pain what was felt, but it was a horrible feeling which seemed to consume everything.

I stood up and i had no shoes on while i was walking out of my cell and feeling the worst fear you could dream of. Was this place hell? There was nothing that could describe this place, it was truly nightmarish. As i went down the hallway, i saw people screaming in their cells while the doors were open, what was going on? They couldve walked out easily but acted like they were held for eternity here.

Would i stay here forever ? I needed to find a way out and suddenly ..“WELCOME TO HELL, THIS WAY FOR THE MURDERER AND LIVE TAKER ISMAIL SHALAK“

That was my name … i was the murderer and killer of my family, but i only protected myself from these islam-fanatic bastards of a kind! They tried to sell me to a pedophile ring but i managed to escape at a night from home and when i was old enough, i would kill them for what they did. They were brainwashing me and telling me that underage sex would be for my benefit. I liked every bit of cutting their tungs and skin out while they screamed in fear and pain.

„FUCK YOU AND YOUR HELL“ i yelled while i was going backwards to my cell. The being stood there and started running at me but i couldnt move. As it stood before me, three meters high and very muscular and extremely ugly with sharp teeth and a bright smile, it spoke „YOU WILL BE JUDGED BY THE SNIFFER“. And than it hit me so hard in the face that i flew back to my cell, the door closed and i fell to sleep. Surely i would die from a hit such as this, but i only was feeling pain without injury.

As i woke up .. i heard yelling and screaming .. „HELP HEELP HEEEEEELP MEEE PLEASE IM SORRY“. The noise came from the others which were hold by a giant ugly bug that sniffed the cause of their death and which got the punishment for it. The people were held in small cages, naked and full of fear while being tormented by other beasts.

The bug – thing was terrifying itself. A dark coat with bleeding wings and again this red living flesh. The flesh was holding the sinners infront of the judge while it sniffed and told in which tormenter class they would be tortured for eternity.

I was standing on the corner while the red flesh grabbed me and i started to scream in horrible pain and fear. It covered my entire body and caused all pain at once. „THE SINNERS SOUL IS TO BE TORTURED IN THE DEMONS CHAMBER“ said the judge while it sniffed on me. The smell was disgusting and i couldnt say a word because i was screaming in pain.

After my judgement, the flesh threw me down a dark hole while i still was screaming in pain, panick and whatever bad feeling there was. This was going on forever ? Never could i do this? Why did i deserve this?. I was talking to myself while i was tightened to red flesh .. Every second was painfull enough and now these fearful beings were bringing me to the demons chamber .. what on hell was that? How could it get ever worse than this?

„YOU WILL SEE HOW BAD IT WILL GET RIGHT NOW – STUPID HUMAN“ said one being. It was hearing my thoughts ? I couldnt hide my thoughts? How did he hear me ? Or was it pure luck?

I came off the red flesh and got thrown even further down.. A simple hole of blue flesh? Just a really tiny hole made out of organs .. But it wasnt hurting at all .. What was going on? The demons left while i heard them talk something „Will he ever get it ?“.

I didnt understood a word but i needed to climb out the fuck out of here. Maybe they did a mistake and threw me to a wrong spot, this was my chance!

The blue organs were sticking to me the more i try’d to move.. fuck.. i couldnt move easily but i was going up the three meter hole i thought. But instead i was falling further in and started to feel sharp pain at my feat. The blue flesh was turning into something i knew..

It turned into some sort of fluffy hair ?? I was awake and my cat was playing with my foot.. Damn.. was that really a dream? I did kill my parents but that was all good after 30 years. That place was definetly an area to land, when i wouldnt know about it! That was surely a test of skill…? As pain was rising on my entire body ..

„Will he ever get it“ was the last thing that was heard from Ismail Shalak, while he was like the rest, held in a open cell … screaming in pain, hell.

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The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

Keep it clean – The room around the corner

Later afternoon i went out of the club and needed a toilett quickly. Since i couldnt find anything, i just went around the block. It was full of dirt and an old homeless man was sitting on the street.

I walked further and found the toiletts.

„KEEP IT CLEAN“ – Was standing there.. Not thinking too much, i went straight in but the old man suddenly stood behind me and grabbed my shoulder. His hand was cold and he said „Keep it clean and youre safe!“

Are you threatening me old man ? – i responded quite pissed. And he just left.

I went inside and the room was …really clean.

I looked at the window, scratching my face and took a piss. It all didnt went inside the toilett but who cares. Washed my hands afterwards and through the paper to the trash can but it went outside. I didnt bothered putting it back in.

I looked again in the mirror, smiled and went outside…

..

The door was locked? I dont remember locking it. Was it the old man? „Hey come on thats not funny, open the door!“ .. no answer. I looked around and noticed a piece of paper in front of the mirror .. „Keep it CLEAN!!!“

I took the paper and threw it to the trash can while i backed up a bit and started kicking the door..

It wasnt moving an inch..

Damn it i was stuck in here.

Suddenly on the wall was written „KEEP IT CLEAN!.!.!.“ again but this time the temperature inside the room was rising… or was i imaginating things? It was really getting seriously hot inside the room. I tried splashing water in my face but there was no more water coming out, instead it was black dirty. Ive panicked but not because of the water coming from the sink, but from the sudden dirt and shit coming out of the toilett and covering the floor in a really bad smell, including my shoes.

I was trying to open the door but it didnt worked at all… the shit was still rising .. „FUUUCK .. What do i do, call the police because someone closed me in?“

I tried calling the cops but my phone wasnt working either ? What the fuck was this room ?

The shit was coming and coming and the smell was insane but what was i going to do? It was already at my knees and i wondered how it didnt sipped through the door.

„HELP HEEELP IM STUCK HERE!“ i yelled at the door, but no responses..

On the ceiling „WE TOLD YOU!“ and i was panicking. Did someone watched me ? This wasnt normal and the heat and smell was going up inside my lungs, i was going to pass out but i couldnt! How could i die like THIS?!

„HEEELP PLEASE IM SORRY IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN“ …

The shit rising stopped .. Three holes appeared in the wall and i was expecting it to suck the room clear but… water started to drip fast. I thought i would die but.. i just passed out.

Now how am i standing here and telling you this when i was supposed to be dead ?

Well… that is simple, i remember i was heavily drunk and i slipped while opening the toilett door. My head crashed against the metal trash can and i went sleeping until someone found me laying on the floor, swimming in a pool of blood. The guy called the police and an ambulance because he thought i was dead…

And now.. well .. gotta go work because i got quite a medical bill to take care of.

Weisheit des Tages – hilfreiche Zitate, Motivation – Glaubenssätze

Heute mal eine kleine Auswahl von Glaubenssätzen, passend zum Wochenthema.

Aller guten Dinge sind drei. Uups schon angefangen. Gut, den zähl ich mal nicht mit.

— Die anderen sind Schuld, dass es mir gut – schlecht geht. Deswegen kann ich sie für alles verantwortlich machen. Richtig wäre: Jeder ist für sich selbst verantwortlich, Kinder und Menschen die sich nicht selbst helfen können, natürlich ausgenommen.

— Es ist egal was ich denke, am Ende geht es sowieso schief. Stimmt 😉 ich geben jedem, der dass sagt völlig Recht. (Wer sich für das Thema Realitätsgestaltung interessiert, folgt unserem Blog, dazu kommen noch Beiträge. Aber in unserem großen Buch steht dazu auch schon so einiges.)

— Hör auf die Älteren, denn sie haben immer Recht. — dazu sag ich nur, man kann es auch vierzig Jahre lang falsch gemacht haben und falsch weitergegeben haben. Niemand hat Recht, nur weil er älter ist als Du. Schwachsinn..

A day has two purposes.

The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself

Or

Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul

But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, had already happend once because i was receiving déja-vù’s all the time.

Suddenly a movie started to appear in front of me, showing what i had dreamed before. The movie was shown with every step i did, with every room i visited in my house and with everything my housemembers were saying. It was way more odd than before and i hadnt experienced it on this scale with just „green grass“.

My feelings, specially the negative feelings were enhanced a few level higher. I knew that this was called a „bad trip“ and it was my first time. The feelings changed like a loop and connected fears when i entered a dark room. The time i had smoked it, the lights went out and it was already late. Now here comes the first part: the turned off lights were caused by a very strong fog out of nowhere. I hadnt noticed it, but my body was shaking like never before, it mustve been very cold outside or i was over acting because coldness was a „bad“ feeling too. I went inside and it only got worse than that.

After covering myself warm, the movie in front of me started again. I saw how the fog was penetrating every building on the physical plane and causing a shake of every body. The reason for that was simple i thought… The fog wasnt on the third but forth dimension, the particles were dancing or having a party and whenever someone was inside that party, they would feel shaky, cold and electricity hitting the skin. I saw how weed was acting on the brain when it was consumed too much and too often. I had it done only two times inside two days but it seemed to be really good! 😄

The same thing happend to the brain when someone experienced a psychosis. The very brain cells start to shake in a very uncommon manner, causing micro brain damage over time. Why do they start shaking ? Because they receive a bioelectrical impulse from two sides into the brain cells, causing a short circuit simultaneously to the entire brain or several sections. It feels like a boxer is hitting you constantly on the chin but with way lesser power.

After this short movie, i got another and another, too many to tell but what i knew was: every single movie i had dreamed already once exactly in this manner and nothing was knew except the flashing ghosts.

Now that was the creepiest stuff what happend. As i was typing my wife a text, i started to see monsters left and right. They were flashing like someone was using a camera flash light. One uglier than the other and for a certain time i thought seeing my grandma. She died not long ago and i knew that this house was some sort of a party house for souls for a certain reason. The lights were back but i was still seing them. I told my wife about it and she said that i should ignore it because its either only in my mind or they really stand there. Because i was high, i couldnt really tell and so i did what she said and wait.

I hadnt turned on all the lights because i found it very interesting but these faces combined with a way higher level of fear were just interesting.

Since you can have really good sex on drugs, i thought about the reason why some people say that sex with the wrong partner is dirty and energy disturbing. Well.. i saw why this was the case.

When two people with different energy levels mate with each other, they combine their energy and repell it to the energy – world with energy eating beings. Since the most people do this exercise to just have fun, they dont realise what is happening with the energy and themselves inside. They change energy between each other and disturb their own with bad things such as bad emotions or else, which will be felt after the act. Not only that, beings of a way lower level start to appear and eat this energy while they enhance the negative feelings. Shortly said you loose energy and get bad on top.

But what happens when two resonating souls do that ? They increase in energy and wont get a disturbence. Neither can beings touch or feast of this sort of energy because it is higher in frequency, unreachable.

After all this, i closed my eyes and tried to get out of my body but it wasnt working at all. My eyes were spinning and i thought i was laying down on a capsule or something but my astral body wasnt moving. Was the reason because my physical body was holding it down due to stress ? I didnt knew..

I only knew that all information i was receiving with drugs were either useless or not for this world because it was uncontrollable to pinpoint a direction.

So much for this little session.

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

Weisheit des Tages | 18.10.2020

Was kann es Süßeres geben, als einen Freund zu haben, mit dem du alles, was in deinem Herzen lebt, bereden kannst wie mit dir selber? Meister Eckhart

Weisheit des Tages | 18.10.2020

Werners Traumlounge

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting..

Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many diseases were wiped out.

A free world of technology, knowledge and consciousness. A world of understandment, love and peace.

The beings during that time were not all humans but many came from different planets to develop their species and take ressources of planets because their own got once destroyed by war with a different planet.

This species was far advanced in every aspect. They had built a planet sized gravity star planet which was a planet just like earth but everything was made with a special metall that was light and very dense at the same time.

They befriended with the stupid ape planet earth and took many apes and animals to their ships. After analysation, they realised that it was possible to recreate a species that was dumb enough to never advance too far and intelligente enough to never attack their owner. However, that was all in the dark so no one knew what was coming towards them.

After the species took form, the very first humanoid and alien alike people were known as Adam and Eve in the garden of god. Better known as „human“. What Adam and Eve didnt knew, was that they got captured from a very far world outside the universe and the memory was wiped clean out.

So they were sent back to earth, told to always love their makers and to never stand against them.

Soon after Adam and Eve, many others came by and built a center of what the world was knowing soon as „Lemuria“ or ancient „Dark Snake“ and Atlantis.

The extraterrestials saw how their project grew in what they wanted, a working and slave class for a special metall on earth.

The world was shining in gold and earth was going a way full of advancement and peace. Animals were taught to behave with humans, super computers were built to identify health and brain functions and no one was working for money but for all the things they stood for. No stress was the motto.

Everything seemed perfect until.. the makers asked for what they came for..

Unknowlingly, many dissapeared and got killed by the weapons of the artificial star. They took all the gold which were collected by the humans. Many stood against their makers but it wasnt helping because they had implented many things into their bodys such as the „mine chip“. This chip would detonate when they act against their makers.

Lost legs, arms and heads came the follwing moon lights. The aliens just laughed at them because the only thing they needed to do was pressing a button and all would be gone. Since the ancient world had no interest in weapons and violence, they got wiped completely..

The aliens plundered the entire planet of their true ressources such as the giant trees, omega rocks and gold… lots of gold. They ruined the worlds history so no one would ever find out what really happend. Placing a few statues and rocks and letting the dumb minds of the weak creatures do the rest of a never ending puzzle… All for the distraction.

But before the world went down, some managed to write it down, that maybe one day, someone would read and know the missing peace of history on earth.

After one day of plundering and killing, they left a few new species and animals on earth but again, without memory and only few things to develop their brains overtime and a chip to extinguish them when the time was right to come back, plundering again.

So it happend .. the white and long finger beings went away, letting earth recover and or selfe destruct while watching them from the moon and implementing a „reincarnation – memory forget“ -machine. So if someone died unconscious, they would die and be reincarnated again in the same slave system to work their asses off again and never understand what their real purpose was after all..

„You dumb apes.. we see you soon, or maybe you all just sleep inside our ship?“ – were the last words written along the walls of the pyramids.

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Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people.

I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife.

We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area and we had to go through all of them, but i knew that i actually didnt needed to do anything but i still did. I was unconsious but still remembered that i had the same dream three times a few years ago and it wasnt pretty. I knew that there was a lot of horror and deaths coming.

And while i thought so, i suddenly switched position to the top and had again the „screen view“ while the body and scene went as always according to the dream. Than the speed increased as well. I had no interest in continuing the dream but it wasnt going to stop until its over.

So we were walking slowly and trying to find another person in the backyard of the field and we knew that this person was going to die.

The field was clear and you could see every trap but you just didnt knew what was going to happen. Between every trap was an invisible wall and it would override the entire scene if i was going above it. This meant only one thing, my dream was a following game script and i saw it too!

Because i didnt wanted to continue, i was constantly switching between two perspectives while i flew over every trap. Suddenly everything happend just as i dreamed it before. The people all died in the same traps screaming while they try’d to pull me with themselves. But fortunatly i had enough and i neither got scared or else. The one girl survived with me and we needed to get a helicopter from a waterpark but it exploded because i crashed with speed against it. The bald guy got his body drown inside quicksand and later chopped away by swords which were underneath the quicksand.

After the helicopter exploded, i was standing in the woods and the scene changed again to the top… That dream was bad… it was boring and really bad..

I cant get out of my body, and neither dream what i want. I dont know what is going on the last two years. It stopped out of nowhere and i feel that something is blocking me from the other side. I really have enough of dreaming bullshit.

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

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What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others

Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever.

Lets cut that straight to the point.

Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a slave to the robotic system.

Your a soul who came from very very far away. And now youre trying to find a reason why youre here but you really cant. The reason for that is amnesia. You cant remember what happend and since 99% of the population dont know WHO AND WHAT they really are, they start to struggle and they either continue to play this game of feelings, missunderstandings and many more things which screw around with their mind.

Or they just dont play and kill themselves but that is a different story and within their plan.

In the end, most of us are integrated in this game and they cant really get out of there because they didnt came close enough to those questions which wouldve changed their view to this world and themselves. They would be …happy.. and the system ..this planet itself, doesnt want happy people.

The reason why youre here is to REMEMBER who you really are. Get every piece of memory back and KNOW where you have to go before you die, otherwise you will fall victim again and land here, asking and doing all the same shit over and over again until you make it.

You might think that nothing except 3D exists because no one has proven otherwise? There are many who did prove.

You can have fun and all that stuff that is available here, but always focus to remember and ask yourself questions that you cant answer because the answers are all inside you!

You just have to remember how you opened those memory parts and see it again!

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen.

Das blieb so.

Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben.

Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, wie es ist wenn man durch Menschenmassen läuft und sich unwohl dabei fühlt weil sie auf einen gucken?

Alle glotzen einen an .. aber man bildet sich das wohl ein.

Alleine Schuhe binden war auch nicht immer leicht auf der Straße, wenn sie mal auf gingen. Statt sie zuzubinden hab ich die Schnürsenkel einfach so gelassen wie sie sind. Das sah auch viel cooler aus.

Meine Eltern jammerten immer wieso ich keine Freunde habe, aber sie hatten selbst keine.

Mir passierte mal seltsames.. Ein Mädchen sprach mich auf der Straße an und fragte mich nach einer Nummer die ich nicht besaß.

Das lief ungefähr so.

Mädchen: Hey wie gehts ?

Ich: Schaue verwundert nach links und rechts und auch hinter mich um sicherzustellen, dass sie mit jemandem sprechen muss ausser mir.

„… ja?“ Und kratzte meinen Kopf.

Mädchen: super antwort, hast du lust mit uns was zu essen zu gehen ?

Ich: Nachdem ich fertig war mit umsehen zeigte ich den Finger auf mich welcher auch noch zitterte und sagte „Äh ja ok“

Und als ich gerade mitkommen wollte kam einer ihrer Freundinnen und zerrte sie am Arm mit. Danach gingen beide los und ich dachte ich laufe mit..

Freundin von Mädchen: Du lass mal gut sein, wir müssen jetzt los. Übrigens ist deine Hose beim reden runter gerutscht falls dus immernoch nicht bemerkt hast.

Das war der peinlichste Moment meiner Existenz.. Meine Hose rutschte von selbst runter ohne das ichs bemerkte.. Kein Wunder das die Leute so komisch glotzten.

Meine Nervosität war ab da unter dem Boden und jedes mal wenn ich unterwegs sein musste, überprüfte ich ob meine Hosen noch da waren. Wenn ich aber mal bei Besuch unter den Familienmitgliedern im eignen Haus war, überprüfte ich im Bad ob meine Unterhose noch da war.

Meine Probleme nahmen zu.. Ich war mir sicher das Nachts irgendwer im Haus war. Ich hörte Schritte und ein Kratzen neben meinem Zimmer aber war zu ängstlich die Tür zu öffnen. Am nächsten morgen sah ich unsere neue Hauskatze..

Ich ging wieder ins bad und überprüfte…

Browse while earning Bitcoin! – CryptoBrowser

This is a short blog about something i found which seems quite useful to get bitcoin.

The fancy crypto currency went up again to 10.000 dollars a coin.

In the following app you can browse normally through the internet while mining bitcoins LEGALLY and WITHOUT power loss or damage to your device.

Every minute you’ll stay inside the browser gives you a reward and there are no secret or small „extras“ that doesnt allow you to withdraw the mined money!

It’s more like a pyramid system but with bitcoin mining. The more people you get involved with your code, the more mining income YOU AND HIM/HER while receive.

To be honest i wasnt sure about that myself when i saw the app but my wife already got quite something and you can buy boosts for 1$ which increase the income as well.

So guys.. DONT WAIT and start now! But dont forget to turn ON the mining, many forget that!

Your balance is always shown on the lower left „C“ button and is always updated every 10 minutes.

This is my current balance in one hour of just watching youtube videos. As „funny“ as it sounds, you do really get paid for just being online.

Use this code

https://cryptotabbrowser.com/16144565?f=sn

to help me grow my network and Your’s as well! The more people you get in there, the more will benefit and the numbers will be listed on your screen

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Seit langem mal wieder, ein Gute Nacht Gruß meiner Katzen

Katze auf Bett
Dexter hat bemerkt das ich die warmen Bettdecken aus dem Schrank geholt habe.
Leo bevorzugt noch die kühle Sommerdecke, aber die wandert demnächst in den Schrank.
Luna hat sich auch eine warme Decke gesichert.

Ich habe wenig Lust auf die kalten Monate, denn ich habe nur die Wahl zwischen teuren Nachtspeicheröfen..oder Holz und Kohle oder gar nicht heizen..

Bad, Dusche und Gäste WC sind nicht beheizbar, da müssen jedes Jahr Heizlüfter hin..

Aber ich bin fleißig und schlepp halt Holz…

Alle Heizungen an zu schalten..wäre unser finanzieller Ruin.

Wusstet ihr das die Strompreise in Deutschland über 160% über dem weltweiten Durchschnitt liegen..

Und dann wählt man sich ein Haus mit Stromheizung. So dämlich bin auch nur ich.

Das erste Jahr in Hessen kam mich das dezente 640 Euro im Monat, als Abschiedsrate der Vormieter..

Seitdem schlepp ich lieber Holz und Kohle und das Häuschen wird angenehm warm.

So, genug verraten.

Gute Nacht euch allen.

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me.

It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it.

A few seconds later … my vision got blurry and the scene changed. Suddenly that damn thing was gone and i runned downstairs because the door was now a brick wall. I opened the door and thought that this would be the way to hell..

The hallway was full of … i dont know how to describe it.. it was full of bloody body parts that were alive. They were moving and the wall was bleeding while the shattered light bulps worked again.

The scene changed again infront of my eyes. It was like a split second… just like before… But why was this happening to me.. i just want to get the hell out of here.

The hallway seemed normal just as always and i was still panicking and hoping to find another exit.

„“CLICK – BOOOM““ – A loud explosion ? But where ? Nothing could explode here ? The generators?

My heart was racing even faster when i thought about it… but it was true.. the lights were turning off one by one. I needed to get my lighter, quickly!

I ran into my office and picked up the lighter „BAM“ – The door got closed on its own again.

Every step was fearful and something told me.. something had fun with me being afraid.

As i held my lighter and moved slowly forward, i thought about what would happen when i loose all my light resources.. The only thing left was my lighter dammit.

I opened the door and held my lighter upfront to see were i was going to. I still needed to get out of here somehow, but how when the damn door dissapeared ? ..

While i walked down the hallway, a door opened slowly .. And flash light was coming out of there.. like something making fotos in there?

As i approached the room, i saw that damn being laying down there with a coat and full of blood. I knew that this thing wasnt supposed to be here! It was laying on the metal plattform which was used to inspect the fresh dead bodys.. Was this the missing body ? I didnt cared but the camera was still flashing, i picked it up and looked through it while pressing the button… dont ask me why i did that, i thought i just needed to..

That thing suddenly was standing before me and i panicked, looking again through it and pressing the flash button. It dissapeared again and i could breath for few minutes.. How did this camera came here ? Atleast it had flash and was showing something in the darkness i thought.

So i ran through the floor with my lighter and the camera and whenever something strange appeared, i flashed it. Seemed to work so it had to work on the damn wall too!

As i ran, i heard a loud monstrous voice that was chasing me. I turned the camera around and flashed it i thought, but the scream was coming closer and closer as i approached the door.

Again i ripped open the exit door and looked through the glass, but the thing was gone.. I walked up the stairs and turned left .. There it was ..

The door was there again? .. i had enough and just in case, pointed the camera at it and pressed the button.

That damn thing was standing again in front of me..

I didnt run away.. instead i threw the camera at it and ran screaming towards it. The camera shattered … and so did my nose while i lost consciousness..

The next day ..

„HEY …HEY! what happend ? Can you hear me?“ a colleague of mine asked while i was still dizzy.

„What happend here ? Is everything okay? You didnt responded to any calls so the Headquarters called me to check“ she said.

„Iam so glad to see you jane!“ as i was standing up.

The door behind her was open and i could feel the wind.

„I quit! And you should too jane.. I would be dead now“ i said while i walked by her, outside.

„Finally fresh air oh my god.. i thought i was going to really die“ i said while i walked few meters away from the building.

„So you didnt took the pill? You saw it didnt you.. “ she said to me while she was smiling.

„You knew ? What the hell jane!?“

As she looked at me, i backed further away .. There it was .. That thing stood right behind her.

„BEHIND YOU JANE“ i screamed

She just smiled and got ripped inside while the door did shut loud… I just ran as fast as i could to my car and drove away without ever looking back..

They can keep their fucking money!

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

The New Job – The Truth about the Crematory

After few months of tough work, ive came to the conclusion that the pill was just a form of placebo for our minds.

Since everywhere cameras got installed, we were always watched and didnt risk to loose our jobs, but the toiletts seemed to be clear.

I mean what could happen if i let the pill slip just this once ? I was about to find out.

So i took out the pill, opened the capsule and flushed it down the broken toilett. It was a wonder, the first time the toilett was working. The pill seemed to help atleast something.

I went back to work and i felt normal.

I took my key from the locker and i wanted to go outside to smoke but ..the door was closed or stuck, i couldnt go out at all. Nothing odd about it, i’ll smoke later when i finish work i thought.

The list was long this shift.

So what do we got ?

1. Check the bodys inside cabin A1, A7, A3, B4, B6

2. Make sure that the decomposing bodys are all inside the chambers

3. Report all data to HQ

Even if that didnt sounded much, it was quite nerve wrecking to do this inside that enviroment.

I went down the hallway, left and right were always metal beds and every bed was seperated with a dividing sheet. What use had these things at all in a place with dead people i asked myself. It surely screwed around with our minds.

My steps were loud, and suddenly, in the brink of a sight, i saw a big dark figure infront of me and the lights got out…

„What the fuck was that !?!!? .. Did i imagine things?“ – while i walked down to the cabins, questioning what happend. I didnt let myself get distracted, ive had work to do.

A1,A7 and A3 were alright…

I opened B4… „What !? A body is missing ?! Was it stolen? There is no report either about a missplacement. Ive got to report right now!!“

While i was walking the hallway back to my office, i saw the same image of a monster again but this time it was longer „Ohh god… is this all in my head ?..lets fucking move“

I came to my office, picked up the phone and called the HQ in the city .. „Sorry right now we are unavailable and will call you back“ …

Suddenly the radio started playing a weird tone, i walked slowly towards it but it stopped .. a few steps i went back and the lamp of my office exploded „KSSSSSCHHH“ …

It scared the hell out of me, „Fuck this, i quit! I fucking quit big time, gotta get my key and get the hell out of this place“ while i was shaking in fear.

I searched my key inside the locker room but it was nowhere to be found, i was sure that i placed it tight in my pocket… What the hell was just going on ?

Suddenly the toilett doors openend.. The door was dark but in front was the key, hanging on a chain while swinging around.

Who took it from me and placed it right there? There was no one inside this building but i didnt cared anymore, i wanted to run out of this doomed building.

I walked up to the door, picked up the key and slowly walked backwards, the door got slammed loud and out of nowhere! I started to run back to the hallway towards the exit.

I ran for my life…. every step was bringing me closer but i felt a presence … or was it my imagination? I heard more footsteps while i was running, but when i looked back, no one was there until.. another light bulp popped and i saw a demon that started to chase me, while more and more light bulps started to explode.

„Nonononono run faster you cunt“ i was screaming inside me while i finally approached the exit door and went upstairs. I saw through the door glas but… no one was there.

Not thinking about anything else but to escape, i went up and around the corner…

My hopes of escape got shattered …

„The door… HOW ..“ it was all chained up and the handle was missing.

Ive heard a breath behind me …

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place.. Do you feel that too sometimes ? A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all.

But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more …

Why didnt i listened to her? I should blame myself… She warned me about it..

Nothing good was heard from that place, but the payment was too good to say no.

As i started working in the crematory asylum, she said that my health was decreasing. I wasnt even looking at her or talking much at that time..

This place was just a living nightmare and every minute was managable with cheap cigaretts.

I thought i was acting normal, but i only was loosing my mind down there.

She left, and my world crashed.. Not because she left, but because she took secretly money from my account …

„THIS LITTLE WHORE I KILL HER WHEN I FIND HER! “ …

„Deep breath..“ – anyway.. lets continue on what happend there..

The first time i was inside the building, i was there with three colleagues which got supervised by one invisible boss.. We never saw our actual boss and every corner was filled with cameras.

I always wondered why.. It was like every step was watches specially to secure our health they said..

They gave us a pill but never told what was inside it. They only mentioned that this little red/blue pill would give us…more concentration and power at work. To be honest i didnt felt anything but it was calming the mind a little, so we all took it without asking too much.

The building was extremely rusty and dirty, the toilets broken and the corners stinky … This place had never been cleansed before ? I asked myself daily. The workplace itself was better than nothing but compared to my work in the city, it was an absolute nightmare.

The floor were long and hardly lightend, it was really scary when working alone often. After a time of working inside the facility, i was aware of paranormal activitys but those were little things to bother.

Our job was to check the dead bodys in the cooling room as a routine check up and to make sure that the decomposing bodys were in the right place.

It was always a real horror when it was raining loud outside in the middle of nowhere, every contact breached and the only working phone was to our boss or security which .. we never saw as well.

Following the rules was the key to not get insane in there. Besides the looks of that place, the working atmosphere was cold, every step was loud and even a little drop of water could scare you every second. It was a place for people with strong nerves, but the reality was different ..

My co-workers always worked together and when they left, i was going to my shift which i didnt liked at all.. Being alone there ..with flickering lights and dead bodys.. but hey.. money right?

One day two workers left and told that they were too scared working there anyomore, i was curious about what really happend, they were working already six months and now they were leaving ? Sounded strange but it was actually not uncommon here. Everyone left with mostly the same sentence

„Run as long as you can, the pill dulls the truth about this place“.

It runs chills down my spine … i shouldve never even thought about it..

To be continued …

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls.

We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city.

The two girls and a guy went up and i told them not to go because i felt something bad up there.. They didnt listen..

Than a old lady started screeming to never go up there but it seemed already too late.

The other two wanted to go up when they heard that they might dissapear but i really wanted to not go there because i knew what was going on from the first time i had this dream.

So we went up because i still was unconscious to realise the dream.

We came to a rather rusty and old looking house with a little see around it. Everywhere was plastic and dirty pollutions, it looked all contaminated.

Suddenly we all fell asleep and woke up inside a container where we were lying down on our backs side by side.

We stood up and suddenly a movie on the wall was shown out of nowhere. The movie showed how we killed and cut up two people but i knew that this place was fucking with our minds.

Than two woman and a guy appeared naked, bloody faces and many cuts around their bodys with sharp teeth.

The woman was laying down and ready to be fucked while it looked straight at me .. I only knew that this bitch was going to do something else for the next victims, so i stepped back and watched from an outer perspective what the others did.

The ugly monster guy was telling that everyone likes to be poked in their ass and i felt like watching tv but more with interactive options, i said „What the fuck NO!“ – while i tried to pull back the guy and girl from those freaks.

And yes, i didnt knew their names at all.

After i couldnt pull them back, i started to move backwards and now something weird happend again, just like many of my dreams.

The screen pushed itself forwards and backwards for a second and i was „back inside“ the dream. The scene changed and everyone including those freaks dissapeared. The two were lying on the ground unconscious but back with their clothes on.

I was standing outside out of nowhere and i saw how these freaks made the little movie. They used wood puppets and threw an illusion over it, so the wood bodys couldnt be seen. Than they trapped their victims and showed what they did, after the movie was finished, they wanted to give them their punishment .. or as i say, some freaks were horny for your energy.

We all were standing back in the room and i was pissed about the dream, neither could i wake up so i needed to finish the dream quickly.

I started to throw mannequins into white containers until the room was clean and the doors opened. We all went out and knew that all this, was just a hallucination ..but where did the other three go?

I forgot to mention the pool full of blood, body pieces and heads.. Maybe there ?

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]

Unescapable Dream

I was quite busy yesterday and felt asleep rather quickly.. everything was just as usual.

And than i woke up in a different room but my bed was suddenly in the air and it was odly dark.

I got chills down the spine where i realised a dark being standing and watching me.

It had no face, only darkness surrounding and a form of either alien or child with three long fingers and spikey nails.

I seemed to be naked myself, or having a jeans on and of fear, i grabbed the monsters arm and tried to break it while it had escaped two times.

Whenever i looked at it, it tried to run/dissapear but i catched it and well .. than the scene changed …

I was walking around my house and everything was left except the doors.. they were dark and creepy .. I walked around fast, like i would escape from something or search.

I realised that i was trying to leave the dream by causing panic which would increase my physical heartbeat = so i could wake up.

But it didnt work and i thought i never get out of there. Meanwhile the scene had changed again into a different room and did the same until my vision got out „of the screen“ – which woke me up.

My pulse was normal and i thought… damn..it was just another repeated dream ..

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]

„Cant travel astral anymore“ What wrong? – The Silver Wall

Did it happen again?

You did your exercises and your body fell asleep, but your mind stood awake, … But you cant get out ?

Whats wrong ?

Well theres a possible block for you! I call it the silver wall because i saw it.

Its a wall that is glued to your astral body but its not a part of it. The appearance is silver, floating and quite shiny … Like looking into moving waters..

First when i saw this, i thought i may break through it but … no chance! Its way more dense and heavier than any obstacle to move through and the silver is probably a sort of lead but in the forth dimension.

Now what has lead to do in the fourth dimension where everything is moving energetically ?

I might guess something that comes into my mind from a very weird dream with aliens.

In my dream there was a two meter lead wall and the ship had nearly all doors made out of it. It was very heavy and i couldnt pass through. But there was no reason to put this huge doors infront of someone because in 3D – you could break through and open them easy – That leads me to the conclusion of being astral in some sort of place while my body was in deep sleep or i was remembering something through that.

But since i was unconscious and in dream state, i could only move the already open door, only few inches with heavy struggles.

I asked myself why there would be this kind of door and the answer was simple … It was there to hold down visitors from other dimensions (4D).

And since the aliens there had no problems moving them, i dont doubt that they found a way to create something that would seal away souls who try to stick their noses too much into someones business.

At least trapping them with something inside their bodys with a very certain trigger.. like talking too much about it .. a selve activating trap which is installed somewhere in the DNA by a pattern.

What do you think?

Am i less worth ? – The Floor of Nightmares

I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on.

My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them.

The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL follow the same moves as i had dreamt it before.

And if i want to break that dream, i feel myself pushing outwards … like a screen that is glued to my face and runs the dream. Neither do i feel having a body in those short moments and surroundings become black.

Did anybody got same experiences ?

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people.

They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere.

I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries to take over in the middle of traffic.. fucking idiots i can tell!

Than theres the other problem.. the people who issue a drivers license to those who give them money… Since everything is possible with money, you can get your license here for around 120€ without even attempting to learn anything.

And the most fucked up part is that manny parents give their 5 year old kids a car to drive.. to learn how to drive… yes you read it right! And guess what happens when they cause a crash?

I really would like some strict rules on the streets here, the police isnt doing much ..only collecting money from some other stuffs and raids..

And when you call those idiots out on the street, they either look stupid at you or say nothing ..

Just yesterday there was a bus who stopped in the middle of the road while i was on the sidewalk after filling up gas, and that guy didnt moved.. i needed to raise my hand and the horn to check if hes picknicking or going to drive…

Trust me im not a angry driver but if someone just stops on the fucking road and parks it there, i really get pissed!

And the last part is the „Wedding Konvoy“ … the cunts drive on the opposite road and risk crashing while fifteen other cars chase it loud with sirens and and dumbass manuvers..

Trust me … this kind is one of the worst.. most of them dont even got a license and they drive like idiots .. I hope the police is busting their asses all along.. several cases of crashing to people has been reported, they even kill cows on the road because they drive 80 in a 20 road..

Well… thats that .. if you thought that you might get angry when you drive, forget it… the most would get a shock from this place and a therapy for anger issues! xD

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary,

Today was another special day.

I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile.

You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it.

The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody fresh red.

The speciality of this room is the wall itself. The skin is attached with smaller nails from the fingers of the bodys and the skins somehow became alive. But they always need blood… like a flower needing water …

It looks absolutely delicious …. i like fucking the living skin wall sometimes, because its alive, it understands my feelings… i love the rotting parts of the wall … they make it look more disgusting and creepy for our show.

When the skin is finally seperated from the flesh, it doesnt need washing but instant nailing. Every bit of the dropping blood is held in a container for the blood circulator which lets the wall look so pretty, but im sure you knew that all along dear diary 🙂

Do you wanna know what kind of bodys i nailed there ?

I mostly put up kids skin on the wall, because i hate them so much. Everytime i see kids, my blood boils and i want to smash their heads open with an axe because they look too cute! I hate it!

Gladly they died screaming and in agony… You know the pain drags several evil beings in this building and they help me with my business. But all they want is energy..

What do i get for it? Only a haunted place … sometimes i hear kids scream down the hallway …but then i remember that ive got three more of them in my underground tunnel basements.

I love being a politicians dog!

Anyway thats it for today – see ya later diary! 🙂

Empathy? No way!

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts. Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer. Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut! Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place..

Do you feel that too sometimes ?

A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

What is this? Human arrogance…

Attention, danger of triggering. If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you. Keyword, mental health. Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill? What is this actually all about? What is this statement? […]

Cosmic Authority – Astral beings lie

In the realm of the dead it is appearently common that a being comes after death to guide you in to the light. But this is only a small percentage and depends on ypur believes and what you expect. These beings look shiny and warm and draw your attention away from any questions. They talk […]

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD

Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was.

I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but in a country where money is rare and you make more than the most „rich“ cities, you cant resist the smell xD

The sun is unusual or am i seeing things? One day really hot, next cold and windy.. And before i forget it, i saw today some strange clouds, they were rainbow painted and highly in the air. Ive never saw something like that but i couldnt take a clear picture of it and neither is the dumbass camera showing it.

Why is all mystery and fun stuff mostly recorded bad .. is there a code in the phone system ? Lol

Anyway have a great night.

How was your day ? 🙂

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter.

As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face.

It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster splits into two pieces with wide and sharp teeth while it runs.

Many lost their lives to it. It rather lives in the dark and likes hospitals and long dark floors. Somehow you cant hear when it sprints but feel the teeth when it bites off half of your body while running.

The last time i saw one was yesterday near the sewers of our base. That cunt was waiting for blood and flesh to be dropped down.. We throw away infected animals and these things eat them.

Whatever you do, never try to encounter one, it runs faster than you and it can eat a lot of bullets.

I would personally say that this being is rather blind and uses sound for detection .. that would explain why you dont hear when it runs..

We caught few of them to see how they behave and how their structure is built. Interestingly, it seems like an abnormal mutation to cancer cells while a virus becomes conscious to the instincts of the beasts and acts as such.. just eating everything..

Auf in den September 2020

Da wir hier derzeit eigentlich keinerlei Input mehr bekommen und das nicht unbedingt motivierend wirkt, sind wir auf Plattformen ausgewichen, auf denen wir Interagieren können mit anderen Menschen. Da unser Blog uns dennoch am Herzen liegt, vergessen wir ihn (noch) nicht ganz und schauen mal, ob es auf WordPress wieder läuft. Was sind Eure Erfahrungen […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down…

The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here.

It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head.

The rest of the body is rather skinny and tall and it can run fast!

It doesnt make a sound on its own.. but when its near .. you hear the fast footsteps very irregulary .. That is one hell of a scary sound and it lookes horrific.

The arms are covered in sharp blades and when it attacks, it hugs the prey and walks around with it until it dies.. human or animal..it doesnt matter.

Than it runs against a wall to finish it.. The disturbing part is when it eats… It.. just stands right next to its kill and waits to bleed out – suddenly a smile appears on its face and it runs after the next prey.. It seems odly that this species eats dark emotions and fear..

A really terrible monster.. scarier than the movie ghost girl..lol…

If you see it – its mostly over but if you got time, shoot it legs and its head!

The species is rather walking at night in the bushes and waits behind trees when humans approach.

If you got no gun, you WILL die!

They arent robust but agile! Make sure you dont miss!

How did it appear ? It crawled out of someone’s grave …

Next blog: Next monster: The Tree Demon

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Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work!

I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them.

First of all, nothing is impossible, and so is this. But in spite of everything, let’s be clear.

Just because it is possible, what is the probability that a ghost, a demon or any other being, will pick out a normal, mortal human being and choose him as a victim.

Why, should it do so?

It is a fact that the normal human being, who does not believe in ghosts, demons, poltergeists, narrowness or even in God and devil, is not a particularly attractive victim. Since he is in principle not seriously attackable.

If he has an extremely high energetic charisma and shines like a moth lamp, it is quite possible that he comes into the field of vision of some ghosts, but he must also be vulnerable

The magic word here is VULNERABLE.

We know that everything is frequency and vibration and to leave a loophole, or docking hole to be vulnerable or attackable, our frequency must be down.

There must be a hole through or into which the being can enter. A person who is aware of himself and his own energetic protection and environment does not become a victim as easily as someone who simply believes everything that is told to him somewhere and who, because of fear, – no longer dares to sleep in the dark at night.

Besides and most people forget this, nothing is permanent or even forever, here on this planet. A ghost only consumes energy as long as you supply it to him.

That means in plain language, if you don’t supply any, it disappears. And what many still forget, do you really believe that a spirit that feeds on your fear energy so desperately wants you to become aware of it? No!

If you consciously and openly perceive spirit activity, there is a greater chance that it is someone you know and want to communicate with you.

An energy-sucker will be much more discreet than someone who wants to draw attention to himself.

The first important step in both cases is not to be afraid, because please WHAT should or can an energy form do for you? Except make you a little bit or more afraid.

But you only have this fear because you do not see WHO is there before you. Just imagine this being as a human being and your fear will be much less and you will be able to think more clearly and deal with it!

Please also finally free yourself from the thought of wanting to send every spirit and every soul into the light. I can only tell you again and again that this is none of your business and you have neither to decide nor to determine it.

To go into the light means to incarnate directly and THAT is not what every soul or spirit that communicates or wants to communicate with you wants to expand.

Also, when you are seeking professional help, make sure that this person does not want to begin to put such a compulsion on your visitor. This can backfire!

In our big book you can read more about it and understand it better!

Promise!

Another Day – Time

I have currently quite a good time to spare for many other things. My business is doing well and i wont hunger – this should be the important part! Now lets get to the point where i can finally meet my lady! Somehow the sun is back up and back on 36° degrees when it […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #6 – Discipline

Today a short treatise, which is clearly the most important thing in any kind of fasting at all, discipline. Most of us, who have no or no significant success, say first of all „I don’t know why I don’t lose weight, I do everything right“. And when you start asking questions, you quickly realize that […]

Blog Crashed – Womans fault xD

So dear ones, I have accomplished a real „masterpiece“…I have almost completely crashed our blog. The replacement blog has completely disappeared into nirvana. All followers are gone, except for a few from Facebook. But the Email and WordPress followers are actually at 0. That means we have to start all over again. The website is […]

A Killers Diary – The Doll Collection

Its me again my dear diary, Today i made new outfits of human skin and organs. I prepared them very well. The blood still drops from them. I couldnt finish two of the dolls, i still need four eyes and the bodies arent enough. I costumise the kill will the outfits and tomorrow is the […]

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second.

If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming!

But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not rewarded as much as stealing/scamming money?

Well it might be rewarding to one’s self through energy and the „feel well to help“ – but thats it.. what can you buy with it here? Does it pay your bills?

Of course a few got rich though that work as well but i talk about the really fucking rich guys. The wall street fucking rich guys who sit infront of their computers and gamble through the financial market and making millions with it.

The system itself is a rigged and broken system which helps rich folks getting even richer! The more money you have, the more “ immune you become “ specially in the politic positions.

And we all know… many politicians cant do shit and just scams the mere people around..

Lets not talk about the typical indian callcenter scam, we all know the joke! xD

Being honest and trying to really help people for free is not gonna get you shit! That is the real truth! And i only talk about the money aspect – no energetical stuff!

The problem is that many dont even thank you for free advice or work!! I know that personally and it makes you only angry … They take your advice like nothing… not serious.. okay then.. lets take 5 thousand dollars and see if he likes it now?

People are ungrateful, not all – but very many! And those who aren’t greedy and are grateful, did go through the same shit..

Good day people.. Like and Sub! XD

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary,

Today was another big day …just as always.

My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me.

This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts

First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain.

The brain i put on a stick and placed it next to the eye collection in the lower left side. I was forming a picture with the brains but i needed more for it. It was rotting away and i needed those fotos to sell it on the dark web. Many liked my collections and sent me more bodies for free.

Anyway, today its all about eyes! So i took the eyes out of the head and washed them in the contaminated blood from the other bodies. It gave the eyes the perfect rotting effect.

After that, i made juice of one eye and injected it in the doll collection body’s to increase the horror when i should get captured.

The other eye i stabbed trough with a fork and hand it on the tree of suicide.

YES i do have names for anything in my garden and house. But what people really love is the yearly roundhouse visit.

You know diary, the problem with these people are their stupidity. I just placed fotos of dead people online and just wrote on it „Self made silicone death body“. That was and still is enough to convince these dumb fucks that all of my collections are silicone figures, but in reality its the real nightmare.

Now stop! I know what you might think. You may ask now how no one is noticing the missing children and woman right?

It is very simple, just read the text again, my injections of rotting effects the entire bodys and faces dissapear… quite fast!

Theres a reason why my park is presented only once a year! XD

Enough for today diary, next time it will be more fun!

Ill head out and rape my screaming doll collections.. bye.

Oh and dont worry the wallpaper, thats how my doll collections look for me!

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Think Twice – Say Once

This is a saying from the chineses monks as i know and this has a deep meaning. If you dont want to repeat yourself, you should think twice about it and only say once. And if someone didnt listen, it will be their problem. It doesnt matter at what discusion it is, just think about […]

Why you loose Motivation

We all know the problem.. Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping.. Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea? The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up […]

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Intervall Fasting #5 – Benefits, disadvantages

Today we come to the advantages or disadvantages, if I find some that interval fasting has compared to other types of diet or even diets. Benefits of interval fasting what I personally like best is the fact that you can basically eat everything during the meal breaks, as well as that you don’t have to […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town.

Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it.

Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door.

They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something.

No one really knew and many said it was just there to scare and make money.

No one really bothered because it was closed..

But one day ..in the middle of attractions, i sat down in the nearby cafe and looked at the door..

A child with her mother came to the door and from no where was something written on the door.

Didnt they saw it ?? What was going on?

„Take my child for youth“ said the door.

It opened and i stood up to my surprise but instead of a monster, a priest came out and took the child by the head while the door closed behind.

I ran there just to check and already was calling the police but when i stood there – The lady smiled at me .. She seemed happy.

The police arrived and i told them everything – but they thought im on drugs or something and took me with them.

While on the road the sheriff said „We cant help it .. if you go ever near that door again, we will shoot you! Go!“ he held the car ..

And i ran away ..

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INTERVAL FASTING #4 – BACK TO THE PAST

I wish you a wonderful and hopefully not too hot Sunday morning. THAT would have been my greeting this morning, but you know what? WordPress was of the opinion to delete my finished and saved blog instead of publishing it. Oh guys, I was sooo mad. I had researched and written for over two hours […]

The New Pills

It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist. I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly […]

Am i less worth ? – The Floor of Nightmares

I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares.

How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ?

All i know is…

That place showed me the world in which we live in.

It was a nightmare..

A count of endless negative force which no one talked about.

I saw the world rotting away from the inside out, starting with the hearts and minds of many.

I stood up from my white bed which was covered clean in roses like i was dead.. It was one room inside a big facility … No one around …only myself.

The bed moved on its own.. forth to a mirror … i wasnt scared.. just so annoyed about something.

I saw my face ..but it transformed slowly into a monster which started to rip out its own eyes.

What did it saw ? i thought – while it started crying blood and dissapeared.

The bed moved further down a hallway. It was all lighted up and somehow i felt safe .. Something was watching me i felt .. But what?

The next floor around the corner …Finally ..PEOPLE i thought rather depressed.. What was wrong with me?

I said „Hello?“ … And these people, all men, turned around and started to laugh while holding their hands inside their suit pockets..

They laughed and laughed… it didnt stop..

„SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU CUNTS!“ i yelled at them.

Suddenly they stopped laughing..and starting spitting on the floor while turning their backs on me ..“Just a dumb woman“ said one of them..

I got angry and wished them all to die!

What was that supposed to mean „just a woman“ ?! The monster from the mirror appeared again.. it stood next to me and waited ..

I subconsciously and enraged „KILL THEM“ – And in an instant, like a movie scene, they all were dead on the floor..

I again, looked depressed and knew, this wasnt going to solve anything..

We continued to the next floor after floor and this scene repeated itself hundreds of times..

They always told the same no matter how i approached them.. It ended in war and chaos … Just like the world.

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The Dream Well

It was summer and my parents had new jobs in a different city with more income. This meant that i had to change the school and friends again, it was tough but i accepted it and the new house was huge and even had a well. After we got into the house, we were all […]

How we created the world – Beyond Afterlife

To begin with, ive had very strange moments in my life without the knowledge that came with spirituality. As i grew, those experiences increased randomly and things happend that i cant talk with anybody at all. After a intense remembering on what happend and whats really going on, me and my wife found us back […]

Another Day

Its raining over 15 hours now and it doesnt look like stopping.. This was really needed. This year not many trees survived due to heat, it went up to 47° celsius over few weeks and killed many things xD

The Cell and Earth

We were 30 kids inside a big cell. I dont remember how i got there, neither who my parents are. That was very strange. The cell or lets call it room was shiny white and had no corners, i dont know how to explain it. It looked like a fortified room and there was a […]

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed.

This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning..

There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings.

Through the unlimited ways of playing this game, they opened a portal to a different dimenion but everything they knew was reversed.

Good was pure evil – Food was pure flesh – Death was pure joy.

These beings were unstoppable and they killed and corrupted everything.

An was afraid and so we were too.. These beings were dangerous and they could harvest all energy for themselves and bring forth the evil side of a soul.

Before An bursted into many crystals, he sent himself away into the universe and exploded in manyfold pieces.

These crystals are now being searched and used by those who knew there powers from rumors.

The dark beings are everywhere now and no one really knows where the rest of the team is.

They have to remember .. That they have to get the fuck out of here, and that bullshit in their minds are far more dangerous than the beings from the other worlds.

An is probably housing somewhere chilly, or he is trapped in a different dimension, waiting for someone to collect and bringing him back..

Well An .. That shit was caused by you, this is a game, find your way out of the labyrinth..

And to everyone who remembers … You know where the meeting table is

Follow and leave a like guys! XD

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INTERVAL FASTING #2

Applause, applause. Who should pat me, or us, on the back, if not WE ourselves. First of all, today there is an invitation to the Fasting Motivation Group, which I reopened 2 years ago, because many apps only want to earn money, but do not want the members to get to know each other. https://www.facebook.com/groups/2100178886865674 […]

INTERVAL FASTING #1

A wonderful and hopefully rainy good morning at a Monday. With us nature finally breathes a sigh of relief, it is fresh and raining really well. I, on the other hand, have to put on my pants and hold my breath, otherwise they just won’t close. So I put myself on the scale and fell […]

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary,

I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine.

She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her…

She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection in my underground basement.

I went to her home and she was rather alone, torturing her cats. I climbed up the window and tied her so she couldnt scream or move. But just to be sure i cut her vocal cords with my rusty fork.. it still had blood from the previous prey on it.

I enjoyed cutting her.

After we arrived at my basement she was awake and tried to move, she was terrified and cried the whole time.

„Shhhhh everything will be okay my pig doll“ i said to her while cuddling with her.

I loved how terrified she looked. She couldnt say a word and i smiled at her while preparing my favorite attraction this day.

I bashed her head straight away with my hammer .. The hole in her head draw a huge blood lake on the floors.. it was BEAUTIFUL! You should see it diary!

As i skinned her and hang her upside down, something slid through her vagina. I couldnt believe it.. she had stored a little gun inside her.

I would be dead by now if i hadnt tied her up so well.

Later i put up a little pig mask on her face which i had made myself with the skin of her ass, just to remind how much of a pig she really was.

There she is… hanging bloody and juicy on chains and smiling.. I rammed a metal pile through her body to stabilise her, so she doesnt swing so much around.

There are nine more pigs left for this collection.

The demons are hungry, ill get them food

See ya soon diary 🙂

The Human Rings

There was once a cave in which a titan lived. This titan consumed those who dared entering the cave. Any traveler who crossed that path, never returned.. But there was one… who came out disturbed and who took his own life few hours later… The only sentence he said was .. „It makes rings of […]

UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS – FACTS #1

Here you could now first add all my/our old posts. This one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/25/warum-steigt-das-bewusstsein-der-menschen-nicht/ or this one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/01/limitierende-glaubenssatze/ Or in principle almost all of them, as I am very often only concerned with consciousness. But now let’s get it straight again. Does humanity really want to be „Conscious“? Does this question really arise? You know what? […]

World Conspiracy

What if we are not humans, but beings from a far different dimension who incarnated into flesh, in order to … … do what we want? – But a species a long time ago managed to trap our memory and delete it for a time as long as we are in this body and our […]

Empathy? No way!

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts.

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer.

Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut!

Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT you want to tell me or I ask once for „What exactly do you mean?

Empathy means – I feel what the other person means – I feel it (unfortunately) energetically.

Empathy is 75% unknown on this planet.

Almost nobody thinks about WHAT was said before just answering haphazardly.

The biggest part of humanity is selfish and ignorant and only hears what he wants to hear and interprets what he thinks into it. Instead of asking or putting oneself in the place of the person opposite – perhaps even only for a short time – one should try to put oneself in his place.

There is a saying:

If you discover that you are riding a dead horse – get off.

That means for me – when you realize that your words have caused damage, it is too late. And you can talk as much as you want to make up for it.

The paper can be smoothed, the wrinkles remain.

Have a nice day.

erster Schultag in Hessen 17.8.2020

Mein Kind ist nun Klasse 4 und kam nach Hause und meinte „alles wäre gut“. Man muss dazu sagen, dass Hessen zum Glück keine Maskenpflicht im Unterricht hat, weil dann hätte sie nicht gesagt alles sei gut. Ich wünsche mir dass Hessen dabei bleibt. Lief auch vor den Ferien damit eigentlich ganz gut. Wie sieht […]

Intervallfasten #1

Einen wunderschönen und hoffentlich regenreichen guten Morgen zum Montag. Bei uns atmet die Natur nun endlich auf, es ist frisch und regnet wirklich gut. Ich hingegen muss zum Hose anziehen, die Luft anhalten, den sonst geht die einfach mal nicht mehr zu. Ich habe mich also auf die Waage gestellt und bin rückwärts runtergefallen.. denn […]

Another Day

So currently i lack ideas and need something very new … Last week my grandmother died and the days past extremely fast… Here in this part of russia, the day ends at 18:00 .. because it gets pitch dark outside and the body gets fast sleepy.. reeeeally annoying i can tell! It feels like you […]