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Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die.

But i found myself in a open cell in hell..

It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because i went down a light tunnel. The hallway was full of screams and fear. Weird noices were coming out in the end of the path.

The walls were from some kind of disgusting looking flesh that hurt you when you came close to it. It wasnt pain what was felt, but it was a horrible feeling which seemed to consume everything.

I stood up and i had no shoes on while i was walking out of my cell and feeling the worst fear you could dream of. Was this place hell? There was nothing that could describe this place, it was truly nightmarish. As i went down the hallway, i saw people screaming in their cells while the doors were open, what was going on? They couldve walked out easily but acted like they were held for eternity here.

Would i stay here forever ? I needed to find a way out and suddenly ..“WELCOME TO HELL, THIS WAY FOR THE MURDERER AND LIVE TAKER ISMAIL SHALAK“

That was my name … i was the murderer and killer of my family, but i only protected myself from these islam-fanatic bastards of a kind! They tried to sell me to a pedophile ring but i managed to escape at a night from home and when i was old enough, i would kill them for what they did. They were brainwashing me and telling me that underage sex would be for my benefit. I liked every bit of cutting their tungs and skin out while they screamed in fear and pain.

„FUCK YOU AND YOUR HELL“ i yelled while i was going backwards to my cell. The being stood there and started running at me but i couldnt move. As it stood before me, three meters high and very muscular and extremely ugly with sharp teeth and a bright smile, it spoke „YOU WILL BE JUDGED BY THE SNIFFER“. And than it hit me so hard in the face that i flew back to my cell, the door closed and i fell to sleep. Surely i would die from a hit such as this, but i only was feeling pain without injury.

As i woke up .. i heard yelling and screaming .. „HELP HEELP HEEEEEELP MEEE PLEASE IM SORRY“. The noise came from the others which were hold by a giant ugly bug that sniffed the cause of their death and which got the punishment for it. The people were held in small cages, naked and full of fear while being tormented by other beasts.

The bug – thing was terrifying itself. A dark coat with bleeding wings and again this red living flesh. The flesh was holding the sinners infront of the judge while it sniffed and told in which tormenter class they would be tortured for eternity.

I was standing on the corner while the red flesh grabbed me and i started to scream in horrible pain and fear. It covered my entire body and caused all pain at once. „THE SINNERS SOUL IS TO BE TORTURED IN THE DEMONS CHAMBER“ said the judge while it sniffed on me. The smell was disgusting and i couldnt say a word because i was screaming in pain.

After my judgement, the flesh threw me down a dark hole while i still was screaming in pain, panick and whatever bad feeling there was. This was going on forever ? Never could i do this? Why did i deserve this?. I was talking to myself while i was tightened to red flesh .. Every second was painfull enough and now these fearful beings were bringing me to the demons chamber .. what on hell was that? How could it get ever worse than this?

„YOU WILL SEE HOW BAD IT WILL GET RIGHT NOW – STUPID HUMAN“ said one being. It was hearing my thoughts ? I couldnt hide my thoughts? How did he hear me ? Or was it pure luck?

I came off the red flesh and got thrown even further down.. A simple hole of blue flesh? Just a really tiny hole made out of organs .. But it wasnt hurting at all .. What was going on? The demons left while i heard them talk something „Will he ever get it ?“.

I didnt understood a word but i needed to climb out the fuck out of here. Maybe they did a mistake and threw me to a wrong spot, this was my chance!

The blue organs were sticking to me the more i try’d to move.. fuck.. i couldnt move easily but i was going up the three meter hole i thought. But instead i was falling further in and started to feel sharp pain at my feat. The blue flesh was turning into something i knew..

It turned into some sort of fluffy hair ?? I was awake and my cat was playing with my foot.. Damn.. was that really a dream? I did kill my parents but that was all good after 30 years. That place was definetly an area to land, when i wouldnt know about it! That was surely a test of skill…? As pain was rising on my entire body ..

„Will he ever get it“ was the last thing that was heard from Ismail Shalak, while he was like the rest, held in a open cell … screaming in pain, hell.

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Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]

Keep it clean – The room around the corner

Later afternoon i went out of the club and needed a toilett quickly. Since i couldnt find anything, i just went around the block. It was full of dirt and an old homeless man was sitting on the street.

I walked further and found the toiletts.

„KEEP IT CLEAN“ – Was standing there.. Not thinking too much, i went straight in but the old man suddenly stood behind me and grabbed my shoulder. His hand was cold and he said „Keep it clean and youre safe!“

Are you threatening me old man ? – i responded quite pissed. And he just left.

I went inside and the room was …really clean.

I looked at the window, scratching my face and took a piss. It all didnt went inside the toilett but who cares. Washed my hands afterwards and through the paper to the trash can but it went outside. I didnt bothered putting it back in.

I looked again in the mirror, smiled and went outside…

..

The door was locked? I dont remember locking it. Was it the old man? „Hey come on thats not funny, open the door!“ .. no answer. I looked around and noticed a piece of paper in front of the mirror .. „Keep it CLEAN!!!“

I took the paper and threw it to the trash can while i backed up a bit and started kicking the door..

It wasnt moving an inch..

Damn it i was stuck in here.

Suddenly on the wall was written „KEEP IT CLEAN!.!.!.“ again but this time the temperature inside the room was rising… or was i imaginating things? It was really getting seriously hot inside the room. I tried splashing water in my face but there was no more water coming out, instead it was black dirty. Ive panicked but not because of the water coming from the sink, but from the sudden dirt and shit coming out of the toilett and covering the floor in a really bad smell, including my shoes.

I was trying to open the door but it didnt worked at all… the shit was still rising .. „FUUUCK .. What do i do, call the police because someone closed me in?“

I tried calling the cops but my phone wasnt working either ? What the fuck was this room ?

The shit was coming and coming and the smell was insane but what was i going to do? It was already at my knees and i wondered how it didnt sipped through the door.

„HELP HEEELP IM STUCK HERE!“ i yelled at the door, but no responses..

On the ceiling „WE TOLD YOU!“ and i was panicking. Did someone watched me ? This wasnt normal and the heat and smell was going up inside my lungs, i was going to pass out but i couldnt! How could i die like THIS?!

„HEEELP PLEASE IM SORRY IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN“ …

The shit rising stopped .. Three holes appeared in the wall and i was expecting it to suck the room clear but… water started to drip fast. I thought i would die but.. i just passed out.

Now how am i standing here and telling you this when i was supposed to be dead ?

Well… that is simple, i remember i was heavily drunk and i slipped while opening the toilett door. My head crashed against the metal trash can and i went sleeping until someone found me laying on the floor, swimming in a pool of blood. The guy called the police and an ambulance because he thought i was dead…

And now.. well .. gotta go work because i got quite a medical bill to take care of.

Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]

Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak.

Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel Lob für meine Bücher, aber leider irgendwie kaum Rezensionen dort, wo es mir irgendwie wichtig ist. Ändert das doch mal bitte.

Fangen wir also mit einem einfachen Text an. Hier muss ich kurz ein Dankeschön in den Himmel schicken, zu meinen sehr jung verstorbenen Freundinnen, ohne die ich nicht hier säße, heute.


Was also sind Glaubenssätze und wie sind sie entstanden?

Wenn wir – unbewusst – inkarnieren und nicht „mehr“ wissen, WER und WAS wir eigentlich sind, nämlich eine unsterbliche Seele in einem sterblichen Körper und das vielleicht schon zum hundertsten oder tausendsten Male, dann sind wir beeinflussbar von außen.

ABER auch nur im Rahmen dessen, was unser eigener Seelenplan erlaubt!

Wir bilden unsere Glaubenssätze vom ersten Tag auf diesem Planeten an, weitestgehend unbewusst.

Wir nehmen das was man uns sagt, das was wir hinein interpretieren, dass was wir einfach sooo oft gehört oder mitbekommen haben und fangen an, uns in unserem Kopf einen Schrank dazu zu bauen.

In diesen Schrank, werfen wir im Prinzip erst einmal alles ungefiltert hinein, was von AUßEN zu uns hineinkommt (in unseren Kopf).

Wir hinterfragen oftmals das ganze auch nicht, ob wir es wirklich in unseren privaten Schrank hinein lassen wollen, je jünger wir sind und unerfahrener, desto wahrscheinlicher ist es, dass wir das tatsächlich einfach ungefiltert hineinlegen.

Dieser Schrank wird nun im Laufe der Jahre immer voller und voller und ab und zu stellen wir nun fest, dass wir Sachen hineinlegen wollen, die da schon drin sind.

Also fangen wir an uns das ganze genauer anzusehen. Aber Achtung, nicht jeder tut das. Nicht das ihr euch am Ende wundert, was ich hier erzähle.

Wir nehmen nun also das ein oder andere wieder raus, aus dem Schrank und schauen es uns näher an und nun treten folgende Mechanismen in Kraft, voll „laienhaft“ erklärt, wie es meine Art ist, damit es auch jeder versteht!

Der Schrank ist nun – wie gesagt – so voll, dass wir mehr oder weniger bewusst uns den Inhalt genauer anschauen und beginnen darüber nach zu denken, WAS uns da gesagt wurde.

Wenn es eine Behauptung ist, wie wir – angeblich – im Auge desjenigen, der sie aufgestellt hat, sind, dann kann es entweder sein „wir lachen darüber, wir ärgern uns darüber, wir ignorieren es oder was dann schon blöd ist – wir glauben es erst einmal ohne weiter darüber nach zu denken.

Das tun wir früher oder später mit all dem Mist der von außen kommt und je älter, verständiger und – hoffentlich – bewusster wir werden, desto öfter tun wir das.

Wenn wir also im frühen Erwachsenenalter beginnen zu reflektieren, WAS da nun alles so drin ist (die wenigsten von uns sind in der Lage, bereits als Kind oder Jugendlicher bewusst! seine implizierten (also von außen eingepflanzte) Gedanken zu sortieren und zu bewerten und zu hinterfragen), wenn wir also nun beginnen darüber nachzudenken, ob das, was wir denken wirklich, auf unserem Mist gewachsen ist oder ob es das ist, was andere wollten, das wir es denken, so sind wir auf dem Weg zu erkennen was ein Glaubenssatz ist.

Kurze Zusammenfassung:

Glaubenssätze werden zum größten Teil aus dem gebildet, was andere uns erzählen.

Wir speichern es im Kopf, hinterfragen es weitestgehend nicht und glauben es einfach.

Um zu erkennen, das wir Glaubenssätze verinnerlicht haben, müssen wir in der Lage sein bewusst! unsere Gedanken zu betrachten und zu reflektieren – sprich darüber ernsthaft nach zu denken.

Dies ist der erste Teil. Stellen wir fest, dass die negativen Glaubenssätze überwiegen müssen wir festlegen ob sie uns nützen oder behindern.

Sind sie uns nicht dienlich, müssen wir uns von ihnen trennen und uns neue Glaubenssätze einpflanzen, welche uns hilfreich sind.

Dies geschieht am besten indem wir uns immer wiefer ins Bewusstsein rufen, dass wir nicht die Summe dessen sind was uns erzählt wird, sondern wir sind eigenständige Persönlichkeiten und Wesen.

Wir sind eben NICHT wie unser Vater, weil unsere Mutter den nicht mag und nun mit uns ein Problem hat, wir sind auch nicht wie die – angeblich – ungezogenen Kinder unserer Tante, weil die ständig wehklagt und unsere Familie nun denkt, dass wir auch so sind.

Wir sind auch nicht das, was andere sich zusammen spinnen nur weil ihnen unsere Optik nicht passt.

Jeder Mensch ist gut so wie er ist und genau so wie er in diesem Moment sein kann!

Daran sollte man sich öfter mal erinnern.

Jeder von uns, ist auf einem anderen, nämlich seinem eigenen Level und das geht uns nichts an! Wir sind eigentlich gar nicht berechtigt, anderen in ihr eigenes Leben hineinzureden. Aber tun es eigentlich dennoch ununterbrochen.

Oftmals tarnen wir unsere eigenen Glaubenssätze als „gut gemeinten Ratschlag“,

Aber sorry, dass ist falsch. Jeder Mensch hat das Recht frei zu entscheiden, was, wer und wie er sein will. Jeder. Also in Zukunft mal darüber nachdenken, bevor wir reden ob wir nicht gerade in unserem eigenen Schrank kramen und unserem Gegenüber den Inhalt der alten Schublade hinwerfen wollen.


Mein Buch darüber, gibt es übrigens auch auf Englisch.

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, had already happend once because i was receiving déja-vù’s all the time.

Suddenly a movie started to appear in front of me, showing what i had dreamed before. The movie was shown with every step i did, with every room i visited in my house and with everything my housemembers were saying. It was way more odd than before and i hadnt experienced it on this scale with just „green grass“.

My feelings, specially the negative feelings were enhanced a few level higher. I knew that this was called a „bad trip“ and it was my first time. The feelings changed like a loop and connected fears when i entered a dark room. The time i had smoked it, the lights went out and it was already late. Now here comes the first part: the turned off lights were caused by a very strong fog out of nowhere. I hadnt noticed it, but my body was shaking like never before, it mustve been very cold outside or i was over acting because coldness was a „bad“ feeling too. I went inside and it only got worse than that.

After covering myself warm, the movie in front of me started again. I saw how the fog was penetrating every building on the physical plane and causing a shake of every body. The reason for that was simple i thought… The fog wasnt on the third but forth dimension, the particles were dancing or having a party and whenever someone was inside that party, they would feel shaky, cold and electricity hitting the skin. I saw how weed was acting on the brain when it was consumed too much and too often. I had it done only two times inside two days but it seemed to be really good! 😄

The same thing happend to the brain when someone experienced a psychosis. The very brain cells start to shake in a very uncommon manner, causing micro brain damage over time. Why do they start shaking ? Because they receive a bioelectrical impulse from two sides into the brain cells, causing a short circuit simultaneously to the entire brain or several sections. It feels like a boxer is hitting you constantly on the chin but with way lesser power.

After this short movie, i got another and another, too many to tell but what i knew was: every single movie i had dreamed already once exactly in this manner and nothing was knew except the flashing ghosts.

Now that was the creepiest stuff what happend. As i was typing my wife a text, i started to see monsters left and right. They were flashing like someone was using a camera flash light. One uglier than the other and for a certain time i thought seeing my grandma. She died not long ago and i knew that this house was some sort of a party house for souls for a certain reason. The lights were back but i was still seing them. I told my wife about it and she said that i should ignore it because its either only in my mind or they really stand there. Because i was high, i couldnt really tell and so i did what she said and wait.

I hadnt turned on all the lights because i found it very interesting but these faces combined with a way higher level of fear were just interesting.

Since you can have really good sex on drugs, i thought about the reason why some people say that sex with the wrong partner is dirty and energy disturbing. Well.. i saw why this was the case.

When two people with different energy levels mate with each other, they combine their energy and repell it to the energy – world with energy eating beings. Since the most people do this exercise to just have fun, they dont realise what is happening with the energy and themselves inside. They change energy between each other and disturb their own with bad things such as bad emotions or else, which will be felt after the act. Not only that, beings of a way lower level start to appear and eat this energy while they enhance the negative feelings. Shortly said you loose energy and get bad on top.

But what happens when two resonating souls do that ? They increase in energy and wont get a disturbence. Neither can beings touch or feast of this sort of energy because it is higher in frequency, unreachable.

After all this, i closed my eyes and tried to get out of my body but it wasnt working at all. My eyes were spinning and i thought i was laying down on a capsule or something but my astral body wasnt moving. Was the reason because my physical body was holding it down due to stress ? I didnt knew..

I only knew that all information i was receiving with drugs were either useless or not for this world because it was uncontrollable to pinpoint a direction.

So much for this little session.

Dailylook #1

Warum weiß der eine mehr, der andere weniger übers Leben? Wir sagen es euch, kurz und knapp.

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

Das Märchen vom Aufstieg in die fünfte Dimension

Es war einmal ein kleiner Planet, umgeben von Millionen und Millionen anderer Planeten.

Seine Vater und seine Mutter umkreisten in ununterbrochen und beobachteten was sich auf ihm tat. Etwas seltsames war auf ihm in Gange.

Es krabbelte ihn überall. Eigenartig. Was war das?

Es vergingen Jahrmillionen um Millionen, mal krabbelt es mehr, dann wenn sein Vater es schaffte ihn abzukühlen, krabbelte es weniger. Aber wenn die Mutter wieder auf ihn aufpasste, begann es nach einer gewissen Weile wieder zu krabbeln.

So konnte das nicht weitergehen. Beide konnten und wollten sich dieses Elend nicht weiter mit ansehen, wie ihr kleines Kind, eins der kleinsten inmitten der ganzen Galaxien, sich ständig juckte und versuchte dagegen anzugehen, aber das Jucken wurde immer schlimmer.

Als ob das nicht schlimm genug war, begannen die Insekten die ihn so furchtbar juckten, auch noch seine Oberfläche umzugestalten, ihn von außen her zu zerstören, alles was er so mühsam geschaffen hatte, kaputt zu machen und sich immer weiter zu vermehren.

„Was können wir tun?“ fragte die Mutter rüber zum Vater.

„Versuch sie weg zu brennen, vielleicht zerstört sie das. Meine Eiseskälte hat ja leider nicht dauerhaft funktioniert.“

„Gute Idee, lass es mich versuchen.“ Und sie kam näher an ihr Kind und versucht die lästigen Insekten mit ihrer Hitze zu vernichten. Interessanterweise fühlten die Insekten sich scheinbar wohl dabei und das obwohl ganze Landstriche auf ihrem Kind dabei verloren gingen.

Das störte die Insekten scheinbar nicht.

Der Vater, der das ganze sehr interessiert beobachtet, stellte fest „So wird das nicht. Du wärmst sie und sie lieben das. Uns muss etwas anderes einfallen.“

So kam es, dass sie zum Schöpfer des Universums riefen „He Chef, sieh mal was mit unserem Kind los ist. So kann das nicht weiter gehen. Was ist denn da auf ihm los?“

Der Schöpfer, der das gleiche Phänomen schon von den vielfältigsten Planeten kannte, schaute genauer hin. Er konnte es nicht fassen.

„Sagt mal. Wie kann das sein, dass auf ihm Leben herrsch. So war das nicht geplant?“

Vater und Mutter schauten sich an und zuckten nur kurz. „Wir können es uns auch nicht erklären. Vielleicht hat es sich von selbst gebildet. Lange genug Zeit war ja da. Wir wissen es nicht.“

Der, der das ganze geschaffen hatte vor Milliarden von Jahrhunderten, zuckte nur mit dem Kopf und meinte „Seid einfach geduldig. Was von alleine kommt, geht auch wieder.“

Das gefiel aber weder dem kleinen Planeten, der sich erschrocken schüttelte. Noch seinen Eltern.

„Nein Chef. Sorg dafür das dieses Viehzeug weg geht und es unserem Kind gut geht. Diese Krankheit dauert nun schon lange genug. Schau doch mal genauer hin. Sie zerstört ihn. Es hat doch schon den ganzen kleinen Planeten befallen. Am Ende stirbt er. Diese Insekten müssen weg.“

Der Chef schaute noch einmal genau hin und auch seine Angestellten warfen einen kritischen Blick auf den kleinen Planeten. Sie alle konnten nun genau sehen, was den Eltern nicht gefiel.

„Sie zerstören ihn Chef. Das können wir nicht zulassen. Lasst uns hingehen und schauen, ob sie intelligent sind und lasst uns versuchen, mit ihnen zu reden das sie aufhören den kleinen Planeten zu zerstören.“

Der Chef, der das ganze Drama schon von anderen Planeten in anderen Galaxien kannte, wollte eigentlich nicht zustimmen.

„Ihr habt es doch nun schon oft genug erlebt, dass sie Euch auch vernichten und Euch nicht zuhören. Was wollt Ihr denn diesmal tun?“

Seine Mitarbeiter lachten und sagten: „Diesmal haben wir einen Plan. Lass uns nur machen. Es kann nichts schiefgehen.“

So kam es denn, dass auf dem kleinen Planeten Wesen aus dem Himmel landeten, die wider Erwarten allesamt von den Insekten, die den kleinen Planeten mittlerweile zu Milliarden bevölkerten, vernichtet oder wieder vertrieben wurden.

Was für eine kriegerische Bande das doch war.

Selbst der Chef war erstaunt über die Hartnäckigkeit mit der diese Lebewesen um ihre Existenz kämpften. Gleichzeitig konnte er nicht umhin, durchaus auch stolz auf sie zu sein.

„Lasst uns mit ihnen einen Kompromiss schließen.“ sagte er.

Das ganze Universum verharrte still. „Was hast Du vor?“

„Wir werden noch einmal Besucher von uns, zu ihnen schicken. Diese Besucher sollen herausfinden, wer von ihnen bereit ist, den kleinen Planeten nicht mehr zu zerstören. Diese werden auserwählt, auf ihm leben zu bleiben. Alle anderen werden unweigerlich sterben.“

Das klang ganz nach einem wahrhaft göttlichen Plan.

„Wer soll denn zu ihnen gehen?“

„Diesmal schicken wir ihnen Besucher, die sie nicht so einfach vernichten können ohne das ihnen davon Konsequenzen drohen. Diese Besucher werden ihnen ganz klar sagen, was mit ihnen geschieht. Das ich persönlich, sie vernichten werde wenn sie nicht aufhören den kleinen Planeten zu zerstören. Aber auch, dass ich diejenigen von ihnen welche auf mich hören, belohnen werde.“

„Lass uns das beobachten“ sagte der Vater zur Mutter. Aber der Schöpfer sprach „diesmal, haltet euch beide heraus. Haltet so viel Abstand, dass ihr beide dem kleinen Planeten nichts mehr schädliches antut. Lasst die Bewohner, die auf ihm leben, selbt entscheiden zu welcher Seite sie gehören wollen. Sie werden alle darüber informiert werden und entsprechend beobachtet, wie sie sich verhalten. Verbrennt sie nicht mehr und lasst sie nicht mehr erfrieren.“

So ganz an die Weisungen des Schöpfers, wollten sich Vater und Mutter nicht halten, wollten sie doch nach ihrem Kind schauen. Und so kam es, dass von Zeit zu Zeit ein paar der Insekten erfroren oder verbrannten. Der Chef schüttelte dann zwar mißbilligend mit dem Kopf, aber es wurde akzeptiert. Sah er doch, wie sehr sich diese Geschöpfe ohnehin gegenseitig hassten und vernichteten.

Er hatte aber schon am Anfang beschlossen, nicht einzugreifen.

Seine Mitarbeiter, aber, die auf den kleinen Planeten zu seiner Rettung geeilt waren, kämpften unermüdlich darum, die liebenswerten unter ihnen, die wirklich darauf aus waren in Frieden und Liebe, leben zu können, zu informieren und damit zu erretten.

Da diese Lebewesen, aber schwer zu überzeugen waren ohne das man ihnen Beweise zeigt, wurde die Geschichte vom Aufstieg in die nächste, die fünfte Dimension erfunden um sie davon zu überzeugen, dass genau diese der Ort ist, an dem sie leben wollen.

Was sie nicht wissen das dieser Ort gar nicht auf dem kleinen, blauen Planeten existiert. sondern nur ihr Verhalten wiederspiegeln soll. Ihr gutes Verhalten, was den kleinen Planeten inklusive seiner Bewohner retten soll.

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting..

Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many diseases were wiped out.

A free world of technology, knowledge and consciousness. A world of understandment, love and peace.

The beings during that time were not all humans but many came from different planets to develop their species and take ressources of planets because their own got once destroyed by war with a different planet.

This species was far advanced in every aspect. They had built a planet sized gravity star planet which was a planet just like earth but everything was made with a special metall that was light and very dense at the same time.

They befriended with the stupid ape planet earth and took many apes and animals to their ships. After analysation, they realised that it was possible to recreate a species that was dumb enough to never advance too far and intelligente enough to never attack their owner. However, that was all in the dark so no one knew what was coming towards them.

After the species took form, the very first humanoid and alien alike people were known as Adam and Eve in the garden of god. Better known as „human“. What Adam and Eve didnt knew, was that they got captured from a very far world outside the universe and the memory was wiped clean out.

So they were sent back to earth, told to always love their makers and to never stand against them.

Soon after Adam and Eve, many others came by and built a center of what the world was knowing soon as „Lemuria“ or ancient „Dark Snake“ and Atlantis.

The extraterrestials saw how their project grew in what they wanted, a working and slave class for a special metall on earth.

The world was shining in gold and earth was going a way full of advancement and peace. Animals were taught to behave with humans, super computers were built to identify health and brain functions and no one was working for money but for all the things they stood for. No stress was the motto.

Everything seemed perfect until.. the makers asked for what they came for..

Unknowlingly, many dissapeared and got killed by the weapons of the artificial star. They took all the gold which were collected by the humans. Many stood against their makers but it wasnt helping because they had implented many things into their bodys such as the „mine chip“. This chip would detonate when they act against their makers.

Lost legs, arms and heads came the follwing moon lights. The aliens just laughed at them because the only thing they needed to do was pressing a button and all would be gone. Since the ancient world had no interest in weapons and violence, they got wiped completely..

The aliens plundered the entire planet of their true ressources such as the giant trees, omega rocks and gold… lots of gold. They ruined the worlds history so no one would ever find out what really happend. Placing a few statues and rocks and letting the dumb minds of the weak creatures do the rest of a never ending puzzle… All for the distraction.

But before the world went down, some managed to write it down, that maybe one day, someone would read and know the missing peace of history on earth.

After one day of plundering and killing, they left a few new species and animals on earth but again, without memory and only few things to develop their brains overtime and a chip to extinguish them when the time was right to come back, plundering again.

So it happend .. the white and long finger beings went away, letting earth recover and or selfe destruct while watching them from the moon and implementing a „reincarnation – memory forget“ -machine. So if someone died unconscious, they would die and be reincarnated again in the same slave system to work their asses off again and never understand what their real purpose was after all..

„You dumb apes.. we see you soon, or maybe you all just sleep inside our ship?“ – were the last words written along the walls of the pyramids.

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A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people.

I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife.

We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area and we had to go through all of them, but i knew that i actually didnt needed to do anything but i still did. I was unconsious but still remembered that i had the same dream three times a few years ago and it wasnt pretty. I knew that there was a lot of horror and deaths coming.

And while i thought so, i suddenly switched position to the top and had again the „screen view“ while the body and scene went as always according to the dream. Than the speed increased as well. I had no interest in continuing the dream but it wasnt going to stop until its over.

So we were walking slowly and trying to find another person in the backyard of the field and we knew that this person was going to die.

The field was clear and you could see every trap but you just didnt knew what was going to happen. Between every trap was an invisible wall and it would override the entire scene if i was going above it. This meant only one thing, my dream was a following game script and i saw it too!

Because i didnt wanted to continue, i was constantly switching between two perspectives while i flew over every trap. Suddenly everything happend just as i dreamed it before. The people all died in the same traps screaming while they try’d to pull me with themselves. But fortunatly i had enough and i neither got scared or else. The one girl survived with me and we needed to get a helicopter from a waterpark but it exploded because i crashed with speed against it. The bald guy got his body drown inside quicksand and later chopped away by swords which were underneath the quicksand.

After the helicopter exploded, i was standing in the woods and the scene changed again to the top… That dream was bad… it was boring and really bad..

I cant get out of my body, and neither dream what i want. I dont know what is going on the last two years. It stopped out of nowhere and i feel that something is blocking me from the other side. I really have enough of dreaming bullshit.

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What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others

Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever.

Lets cut that straight to the point.

Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a slave to the robotic system.

Your a soul who came from very very far away. And now youre trying to find a reason why youre here but you really cant. The reason for that is amnesia. You cant remember what happend and since 99% of the population dont know WHO AND WHAT they really are, they start to struggle and they either continue to play this game of feelings, missunderstandings and many more things which screw around with their mind.

Or they just dont play and kill themselves but that is a different story and within their plan.

In the end, most of us are integrated in this game and they cant really get out of there because they didnt came close enough to those questions which wouldve changed their view to this world and themselves. They would be …happy.. and the system ..this planet itself, doesnt want happy people.

The reason why youre here is to REMEMBER who you really are. Get every piece of memory back and KNOW where you have to go before you die, otherwise you will fall victim again and land here, asking and doing all the same shit over and over again until you make it.

You might think that nothing except 3D exists because no one has proven otherwise? There are many who did prove.

You can have fun and all that stuff that is available here, but always focus to remember and ask yourself questions that you cant answer because the answers are all inside you!

You just have to remember how you opened those memory parts and see it again!

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen.

Das blieb so.

Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben.

Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, wie es ist wenn man durch Menschenmassen läuft und sich unwohl dabei fühlt weil sie auf einen gucken?

Alle glotzen einen an .. aber man bildet sich das wohl ein.

Alleine Schuhe binden war auch nicht immer leicht auf der Straße, wenn sie mal auf gingen. Statt sie zuzubinden hab ich die Schnürsenkel einfach so gelassen wie sie sind. Das sah auch viel cooler aus.

Meine Eltern jammerten immer wieso ich keine Freunde habe, aber sie hatten selbst keine.

Mir passierte mal seltsames.. Ein Mädchen sprach mich auf der Straße an und fragte mich nach einer Nummer die ich nicht besaß.

Das lief ungefähr so.

Mädchen: Hey wie gehts ?

Ich: Schaue verwundert nach links und rechts und auch hinter mich um sicherzustellen, dass sie mit jemandem sprechen muss ausser mir.

„… ja?“ Und kratzte meinen Kopf.

Mädchen: super antwort, hast du lust mit uns was zu essen zu gehen ?

Ich: Nachdem ich fertig war mit umsehen zeigte ich den Finger auf mich welcher auch noch zitterte und sagte „Äh ja ok“

Und als ich gerade mitkommen wollte kam einer ihrer Freundinnen und zerrte sie am Arm mit. Danach gingen beide los und ich dachte ich laufe mit..

Freundin von Mädchen: Du lass mal gut sein, wir müssen jetzt los. Übrigens ist deine Hose beim reden runter gerutscht falls dus immernoch nicht bemerkt hast.

Das war der peinlichste Moment meiner Existenz.. Meine Hose rutschte von selbst runter ohne das ichs bemerkte.. Kein Wunder das die Leute so komisch glotzten.

Meine Nervosität war ab da unter dem Boden und jedes mal wenn ich unterwegs sein musste, überprüfte ich ob meine Hosen noch da waren. Wenn ich aber mal bei Besuch unter den Familienmitgliedern im eignen Haus war, überprüfte ich im Bad ob meine Unterhose noch da war.

Meine Probleme nahmen zu.. Ich war mir sicher das Nachts irgendwer im Haus war. Ich hörte Schritte und ein Kratzen neben meinem Zimmer aber war zu ängstlich die Tür zu öffnen. Am nächsten morgen sah ich unsere neue Hauskatze..

Ich ging wieder ins bad und überprüfte…

Weisheit des Tages – Hilfreiche Zitate, Motivation

Wenn Du immer nur das tust, was Du schon immer getan hast,
wie kannst Du dann erwarten, dass etwas sich ändert?

Auch heute wieder ein Blog dazu, aus unserem Repertoire:

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/08/02/die-bereitschaft-zur-veraenderung/

Viel Spaß damit 🙂

Kalorienbedarf errechnen? Essen tracken? Cheatday?

Heute mal noch ein kurzer Abendblog.

Und zwar habe ich, nach einigen Wochen Fasten – mit wenig bis null Abnehmerfolg – ja angefangen mir Gedanken über meinen Kalorienbedarf zu machen und begonnen mein Essen zu tracken.

Tracken bedeutet in Bezug auf Ernährung, dass ich meine Mahlzeiten. Jede Mahlzeit! Genau aufschreibe beziehungsweise in einen Rechner eingebe, ja dazu muss ich sie unter Umständen auch abwiegen, zumindest bis zu dem Moment an dem ich weiss, was wiegt wieviel.

Und dann erfahre ich, wie viele Kilokalorien habe ich schon zu mir genommen, wie viele darf ich noch.

Was mich dabei stutzig gemacht hat, dass jede Webseite etwas anderes errechnet und ich am Ende wirklich nicht mehr wusste, was nehm ich nun ernst und was nicht. Da half nur „ausprobieren“ ab welcher Kalorienanzahl tut sich etwas.

Nun habe ich nach ungefähr 2 Monaten die ideale Kalorienmenge gefunden und nun beginnt der Spaß, daraus eine dauerhafte,langfristige und vor allem hochwertige Ernährung zu gestalten.

Ich habe in etlichen meiner Blogs, ja schon drüber geschrieben, dass unsere Ernährung ja weniger auf die Kalorien, als vielmehr auf Kohlenhydrate, Ballaststoffe, Zucker, Eiweiß und gesättigte, sowie ungesättigte Fettsäuren ausgelegt werden sollte.

Nicht zu vergessen, Vitamine, Mineralstoffe und so weiter.

Also ist es, je weniger man wiegt und je schlanker man sein will, durchaus wirklich wichtig, sich wenigstens einmal richtig mit dem Thema auseinander zu setzen, wenn man nicht entweder seine Gesundheit, Fitness und Leistungskraft aufs Spiel setzen will. Oder aber durch unvernünftiges Essen wieder dick wird.

Meine Tipps um vernünftig abzunehmen sind mittlerweile folgende:

  • Fangt an diszipliniert! euer Essen zu tracken und eure Getränke und das wirklich länger als 2 Tage.
  • Macht Euch mal Ganzkörperfotos zum vorher – nachher Vergleich.
  • Analysiert Euren Tagesablauf, nach den Aspekten, wo sind eure Schwachstellen, wo sind eure Stärken.
  • Informiert euch einmal richtig über Ernährung, Stoffwechsel, Körpertypen und Möglichkeiten langfristig schlank zu werden und zu bleiben. Gern auch hier auf meinem Blog.

Und dann nehmt euch mehrere verschiedene Rechner und setzt euch hin und errechnet euren Grundumsatz: der lebensnotwendige Anteil an Kcal und euren Leistungsumsatz: das war ihr benötigt um Leistung zu erbringen.

Dann macht Euch bewusst, dass gerade der Leistungsumsatz eigentlich jeden Tag neu errechnet werden müsste, weil ihr nicht jeden Tag das gleich tut.

Wer nämlich vier Tage die Woche schwer arbeitet, aber sieben Tage die Woche die gleiche Kalorienmenge zu sich nimmt, was er für die vier Tage eigentlich errechnet hat, darf sich nicht wundern, wenn er eben nicht abnimmt.

Das Zauberwort hier, heißt Kaloriendefizit. Und dieses muss, wie ich auch schon oft schrieb, um die 7000 Kcal sein um 1 kg Fett dauerhaft zu verlieren.

Wer 4 Tage einen hohen Verbrauch hat und 7 Tage so ist als ob, aber 3 Tage fast nichts verbraucht, weil er erschöpft auf der Couch liegt, nimmt nicht ab. Dies nur zur Verdeutlichung,

Fettfalle Cheatday!

Da ich es euch nun oben schon erklärt habe, dass wir es nicht auf einen Tag runterbrechen können und dürfen, sondern mindestens auf eine Woche müsste nun jedem klar sein, dass der – früher – oft so gepriesene „Cheatday“ im Prinzip einfach nur dazu führt, dass wir unser mühsam erarbeitetes Kaloriendefizit einfach vernichten,

Wir haben uns 5 Tage völlig diszipliniert verhalten und nun versauen wir es, mit oft hirn- und wahllosem Schlemmen.

Das Geheimnis dabei wäre, sich einfach gar nichts zu verbieten. Ja gar nichts,

Denn „die Dosis macht das Gift – oder die Kalorienmenge“.

Wenn ich anfange mich gesünder zu ernähren, werde ich nämlich recht schnell feststellen, dass es von Vorteil ist so weit wie möglich auf Zucker zu verzichten! Und auch der Heißhunger auf süßes lässt irgendwann plötzlich nach.

Aber trotzdem sollte ich mich nicht martern und alles süße verteufeln und entsorgen, sondern es gemäßigt und nur noch in kleinen Portionen zu mir nehmen und es genießen.

Zucker ist eine Droge und Drogen nimmt man für gewöhnlich nicht ununterbrochen ohne irgendwann Schaden zu erleiden. Und die Schäden von Zucker sollte mittlerweile jeder kennen.

Das war wieder einmal jede Menge Input. Deswegen, hier erst einmal Schluß für heute.

Ich freue mich immer über Teilen und Kommentieren. Bis morgen.


The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me.

It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it.

A few seconds later … my vision got blurry and the scene changed. Suddenly that damn thing was gone and i runned downstairs because the door was now a brick wall. I opened the door and thought that this would be the way to hell..

The hallway was full of … i dont know how to describe it.. it was full of bloody body parts that were alive. They were moving and the wall was bleeding while the shattered light bulps worked again.

The scene changed again infront of my eyes. It was like a split second… just like before… But why was this happening to me.. i just want to get the hell out of here.

The hallway seemed normal just as always and i was still panicking and hoping to find another exit.

„“CLICK – BOOOM““ – A loud explosion ? But where ? Nothing could explode here ? The generators?

My heart was racing even faster when i thought about it… but it was true.. the lights were turning off one by one. I needed to get my lighter, quickly!

I ran into my office and picked up the lighter „BAM“ – The door got closed on its own again.

Every step was fearful and something told me.. something had fun with me being afraid.

As i held my lighter and moved slowly forward, i thought about what would happen when i loose all my light resources.. The only thing left was my lighter dammit.

I opened the door and held my lighter upfront to see were i was going to. I still needed to get out of here somehow, but how when the damn door dissapeared ? ..

While i walked down the hallway, a door opened slowly .. And flash light was coming out of there.. like something making fotos in there?

As i approached the room, i saw that damn being laying down there with a coat and full of blood. I knew that this thing wasnt supposed to be here! It was laying on the metal plattform which was used to inspect the fresh dead bodys.. Was this the missing body ? I didnt cared but the camera was still flashing, i picked it up and looked through it while pressing the button… dont ask me why i did that, i thought i just needed to..

That thing suddenly was standing before me and i panicked, looking again through it and pressing the flash button. It dissapeared again and i could breath for few minutes.. How did this camera came here ? Atleast it had flash and was showing something in the darkness i thought.

So i ran through the floor with my lighter and the camera and whenever something strange appeared, i flashed it. Seemed to work so it had to work on the damn wall too!

As i ran, i heard a loud monstrous voice that was chasing me. I turned the camera around and flashed it i thought, but the scream was coming closer and closer as i approached the door.

Again i ripped open the exit door and looked through the glass, but the thing was gone.. I walked up the stairs and turned left .. There it was ..

The door was there again? .. i had enough and just in case, pointed the camera at it and pressed the button.

That damn thing was standing again in front of me..

I didnt run away.. instead i threw the camera at it and ran screaming towards it. The camera shattered … and so did my nose while i lost consciousness..

The next day ..

„HEY …HEY! what happend ? Can you hear me?“ a colleague of mine asked while i was still dizzy.

„What happend here ? Is everything okay? You didnt responded to any calls so the Headquarters called me to check“ she said.

„Iam so glad to see you jane!“ as i was standing up.

The door behind her was open and i could feel the wind.

„I quit! And you should too jane.. I would be dead now“ i said while i walked by her, outside.

„Finally fresh air oh my god.. i thought i was going to really die“ i said while i walked few meters away from the building.

„So you didnt took the pill? You saw it didnt you.. “ she said to me while she was smiling.

„You knew ? What the hell jane!?“

As she looked at me, i backed further away .. There it was .. That thing stood right behind her.

„BEHIND YOU JANE“ i screamed

She just smiled and got ripped inside while the door did shut loud… I just ran as fast as i could to my car and drove away without ever looking back..

They can keep their fucking money!

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

The New Job – The Truth about the Crematory

After few months of tough work, ive came to the conclusion that the pill was just a form of placebo for our minds.

Since everywhere cameras got installed, we were always watched and didnt risk to loose our jobs, but the toiletts seemed to be clear.

I mean what could happen if i let the pill slip just this once ? I was about to find out.

So i took out the pill, opened the capsule and flushed it down the broken toilett. It was a wonder, the first time the toilett was working. The pill seemed to help atleast something.

I went back to work and i felt normal.

I took my key from the locker and i wanted to go outside to smoke but ..the door was closed or stuck, i couldnt go out at all. Nothing odd about it, i’ll smoke later when i finish work i thought.

The list was long this shift.

So what do we got ?

1. Check the bodys inside cabin A1, A7, A3, B4, B6

2. Make sure that the decomposing bodys are all inside the chambers

3. Report all data to HQ

Even if that didnt sounded much, it was quite nerve wrecking to do this inside that enviroment.

I went down the hallway, left and right were always metal beds and every bed was seperated with a dividing sheet. What use had these things at all in a place with dead people i asked myself. It surely screwed around with our minds.

My steps were loud, and suddenly, in the brink of a sight, i saw a big dark figure infront of me and the lights got out…

„What the fuck was that !?!!? .. Did i imagine things?“ – while i walked down to the cabins, questioning what happend. I didnt let myself get distracted, ive had work to do.

A1,A7 and A3 were alright…

I opened B4… „What !? A body is missing ?! Was it stolen? There is no report either about a missplacement. Ive got to report right now!!“

While i was walking the hallway back to my office, i saw the same image of a monster again but this time it was longer „Ohh god… is this all in my head ?..lets fucking move“

I came to my office, picked up the phone and called the HQ in the city .. „Sorry right now we are unavailable and will call you back“ …

Suddenly the radio started playing a weird tone, i walked slowly towards it but it stopped .. a few steps i went back and the lamp of my office exploded „KSSSSSCHHH“ …

It scared the hell out of me, „Fuck this, i quit! I fucking quit big time, gotta get my key and get the hell out of this place“ while i was shaking in fear.

I searched my key inside the locker room but it was nowhere to be found, i was sure that i placed it tight in my pocket… What the hell was just going on ?

Suddenly the toilett doors openend.. The door was dark but in front was the key, hanging on a chain while swinging around.

Who took it from me and placed it right there? There was no one inside this building but i didnt cared anymore, i wanted to run out of this doomed building.

I walked up to the door, picked up the key and slowly walked backwards, the door got slammed loud and out of nowhere! I started to run back to the hallway towards the exit.

I ran for my life…. every step was bringing me closer but i felt a presence … or was it my imagination? I heard more footsteps while i was running, but when i looked back, no one was there until.. another light bulp popped and i saw a demon that started to chase me, while more and more light bulps started to explode.

„Nonononono run faster you cunt“ i was screaming inside me while i finally approached the exit door and went upstairs. I saw through the door glas but… no one was there.

Not thinking about anything else but to escape, i went up and around the corner…

My hopes of escape got shattered …

„The door… HOW ..“ it was all chained up and the handle was missing.

Ive heard a breath behind me …

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all.

But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more …

Why didnt i listened to her? I should blame myself… She warned me about it..

Nothing good was heard from that place, but the payment was too good to say no.

As i started working in the crematory asylum, she said that my health was decreasing. I wasnt even looking at her or talking much at that time..

This place was just a living nightmare and every minute was managable with cheap cigaretts.

I thought i was acting normal, but i only was loosing my mind down there.

She left, and my world crashed.. Not because she left, but because she took secretly money from my account …

„THIS LITTLE WHORE I KILL HER WHEN I FIND HER! “ …

„Deep breath..“ – anyway.. lets continue on what happend there..

The first time i was inside the building, i was there with three colleagues which got supervised by one invisible boss.. We never saw our actual boss and every corner was filled with cameras.

I always wondered why.. It was like every step was watches specially to secure our health they said..

They gave us a pill but never told what was inside it. They only mentioned that this little red/blue pill would give us…more concentration and power at work. To be honest i didnt felt anything but it was calming the mind a little, so we all took it without asking too much.

The building was extremely rusty and dirty, the toilets broken and the corners stinky … This place had never been cleansed before ? I asked myself daily. The workplace itself was better than nothing but compared to my work in the city, it was an absolute nightmare.

The floor were long and hardly lightend, it was really scary when working alone often. After a time of working inside the facility, i was aware of paranormal activitys but those were little things to bother.

Our job was to check the dead bodys in the cooling room as a routine check up and to make sure that the decomposing bodys were in the right place.

It was always a real horror when it was raining loud outside in the middle of nowhere, every contact breached and the only working phone was to our boss or security which .. we never saw as well.

Following the rules was the key to not get insane in there. Besides the looks of that place, the working atmosphere was cold, every step was loud and even a little drop of water could scare you every second. It was a place for people with strong nerves, but the reality was different ..

My co-workers always worked together and when they left, i was going to my shift which i didnt liked at all.. Being alone there ..with flickering lights and dead bodys.. but hey.. money right?

One day two workers left and told that they were too scared working there anyomore, i was curious about what really happend, they were working already six months and now they were leaving ? Sounded strange but it was actually not uncommon here. Everyone left with mostly the same sentence

„Run as long as you can, the pill dulls the truth about this place“.

It runs chills down my spine … i shouldve never even thought about it..

To be continued …

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls.

We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city.

The two girls and a guy went up and i told them not to go because i felt something bad up there.. They didnt listen..

Than a old lady started screeming to never go up there but it seemed already too late.

The other two wanted to go up when they heard that they might dissapear but i really wanted to not go there because i knew what was going on from the first time i had this dream.

So we went up because i still was unconscious to realise the dream.

We came to a rather rusty and old looking house with a little see around it. Everywhere was plastic and dirty pollutions, it looked all contaminated.

Suddenly we all fell asleep and woke up inside a container where we were lying down on our backs side by side.

We stood up and suddenly a movie on the wall was shown out of nowhere. The movie showed how we killed and cut up two people but i knew that this place was fucking with our minds.

Than two woman and a guy appeared naked, bloody faces and many cuts around their bodys with sharp teeth.

The woman was laying down and ready to be fucked while it looked straight at me .. I only knew that this bitch was going to do something else for the next victims, so i stepped back and watched from an outer perspective what the others did.

The ugly monster guy was telling that everyone likes to be poked in their ass and i felt like watching tv but more with interactive options, i said „What the fuck NO!“ – while i tried to pull back the guy and girl from those freaks.

And yes, i didnt knew their names at all.

After i couldnt pull them back, i started to move backwards and now something weird happend again, just like many of my dreams.

The screen pushed itself forwards and backwards for a second and i was „back inside“ the dream. The scene changed and everyone including those freaks dissapeared. The two were lying on the ground unconscious but back with their clothes on.

I was standing outside out of nowhere and i saw how these freaks made the little movie. They used wood puppets and threw an illusion over it, so the wood bodys couldnt be seen. Than they trapped their victims and showed what they did, after the movie was finished, they wanted to give them their punishment .. or as i say, some freaks were horny for your energy.

We all were standing back in the room and i was pissed about the dream, neither could i wake up so i needed to finish the dream quickly.

I started to throw mannequins into white containers until the room was clean and the doors opened. We all went out and knew that all this, was just a hallucination ..but where did the other three go?

I forgot to mention the pool full of blood, body pieces and heads.. Maybe there ?

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

Unescapable Dream

I was quite busy yesterday and felt asleep rather quickly.. everything was just as usual.

And than i woke up in a different room but my bed was suddenly in the air and it was odly dark.

I got chills down the spine where i realised a dark being standing and watching me.

It had no face, only darkness surrounding and a form of either alien or child with three long fingers and spikey nails.

I seemed to be naked myself, or having a jeans on and of fear, i grabbed the monsters arm and tried to break it while it had escaped two times.

Whenever i looked at it, it tried to run/dissapear but i catched it and well .. than the scene changed …

I was walking around my house and everything was left except the doors.. they were dark and creepy .. I walked around fast, like i would escape from something or search.

I realised that i was trying to leave the dream by causing panic which would increase my physical heartbeat = so i could wake up.

But it didnt work and i thought i never get out of there. Meanwhile the scene had changed again into a different room and did the same until my vision got out „of the screen“ – which woke me up.

My pulse was normal and i thought… damn..it was just another repeated dream ..

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

intervall fasting

Intervallfasten – 1. Update nach 5 Wochen /Ernährungsbasics

So ihr Lieben,

Zeitgleich, wie ich anfange die Blogs hier mal zur Motivationsgruppe zu Facebook zu übertragen, werde ich mal ein erstes Update zu meiner neuen Fastenrunde geben.

Ich wog Anfang des Jahres ja akzeptable 62 kg, hatte dann eine größere Bauchop und dann kam Corona und zack wog ich inakzeptable 68 kg..geht ja mal gar nicht, also was mache ich, fang wieder an mit Intervallfasten.

In den ersten 4 Wochen waren fast schlagartig die ersten 3 kg weg, dann tat sich nix mehr. Ich muss dazu sagen, dass ich immer schon Abends laufen gehe.. und mein Körper das halt kennt.

Was macht man, wenn sich nix mehr tut?

Grundbedarf kcal ausrechnen. In meinem Fall habe ich ein Nährstoffergebnis von 1538 kcal gehabt.

Wenn ich wieder abnehmen möchte, muss ich an folgendes denken.

1 kg Fett entspricht ca. 7000 kcal.

Das bedeutet um 1 kg weniger auf der Waage zu sehen, dauerhaft, muss ich 7000 kcal weniger gegessen haben. Oder entsprechend verbraucht haben.

Mein Rechner sagt zu meinem Zielgewicht von 57 kg, dass ich künftig 1315 kcal am Tag zu mir nehmen soll. Wenn ich weiterhin so faul bin und keinen wirklichen Sport mache!

Er rät mir auch:

  • 45 – 65 % Kohlenhydrate
  • 20 – 35 % Fett – gesättigtes Fett 17g
  • 10 – 35 % Eiweiß / Protein

zu mir zu nehmen.

Dazu kommen:

  • Ballaststoffe mit ca 46 g
  • Eisen mit 18 g
  • Kalium mit 4700 mg
  • Vit A mit 700 mcg
  • Vit C mit 75 mg
  • Calcium 1000 mg
  • Magnesium 400 mg
  • Natrium 1500 mg

Und noch die üblichen Verdächtigen Sachen, die der Körper benötigt um zu funktionieren.

Vit D3, Vit K2, Jod, den ganzen B Komplex usw.

Da ich mittlerweile ziemlich locker 17 zu 7 Intervallfasten durchziehe, musste ich mir also Gedanken machen, WAS ich eigentlich in dieser Essensphase zu mir nehme, um die erforderlichen Sachen meinem Körper zuzuführen.

Gar nicht so einfach, finde ich.

Vor allem wenn man bedenkt, dass man erst einmal schauen muss, was braucht unser Körper überhaupt.


Kurze Zwischenrechnung, Montag bis Sonntag a 1538 = 10766.

Montag bis Sonntag a 1315 (+-) = 9205.

Das bedeutet, dass ich im Schnitt, wenn ich mich wirklich nur mir ungefähr 1314 kcal ernähre, ich pro Woche nur 1561 kcal einspare.

Um auf 7000 kcal zu kommen, ohne meine Gewohnheiten zu ändern, bedeutet ich werde im Monat maximal ein Kilo abnehmen. Wenn überhaupt!

Bestenfalls, werde ich einfach nicht zunehmen.


Dazu mal Klartext, 1315 kcal sind wirklich nicht besonders viel und um seinen Körper da nicht zu vernachlässigen, muss man sich schon genau überlegen was man zu sich nimmt. Und ob man nicht tatsächlich anfängt Sport zu machen um mehr kcal zu verbrauchen und vielleicht, dann doch etwas mehr essen zu können.

Für mich persönlich bedeutet dass, das ich künftig (seit ungefähr einer Woche schon) statt laufen, walken gehe mit Walking Stöcken und definitiv mehr Obst und Gemüse in meine Ernährung einbaue und vor allem, weiter so weit wie es geht zuckerfrei bleibe!

Übrigens, um mit Nordic Walking Fett zu verbrennen muss man sich bewusst sein, dass man dies dann mindestens 60 min am Stück tun muss, schon weil es weniger energieintensiv ist wie joggen. Wer aber – wie ich – einfach nicht joggen kann oder darf, ist mit walken besser dran, als nur mit laufen.

Wer sich für den Energieverbrauch von Walken oder Nordic Walking interessiert, ein Fun Fact, dieser ist fast genauso hoch, als würde ich in der Zeit Radfahren!

Ansonsten, empfehle ich auch hier, Statistiken und Tabellen einfach zu meiden und zu tun, was Spaß macht.

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place..

Do you feel that too sometimes ?

A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary,

Today was another big day …just as always.

My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me.

This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts

First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain.

The brain i put on a stick and placed it next to the eye collection in the lower left side. I was forming a picture with the brains but i needed more for it. It was rotting away and i needed those fotos to sell it on the dark web. Many liked my collections and sent me more bodies for free.

Anyway, today its all about eyes! So i took the eyes out of the head and washed them in the contaminated blood from the other bodies. It gave the eyes the perfect rotting effect.

After that, i made juice of one eye and injected it in the doll collection body’s to increase the horror when i should get captured.

The other eye i stabbed trough with a fork and hand it on the tree of suicide.

YES i do have names for anything in my garden and house. But what people really love is the yearly roundhouse visit.

You know diary, the problem with these people are their stupidity. I just placed fotos of dead people online and just wrote on it „Self made silicone death body“. That was and still is enough to convince these dumb fucks that all of my collections are silicone figures, but in reality its the real nightmare.

Now stop! I know what you might think. You may ask now how no one is noticing the missing children and woman right?

It is very simple, just read the text again, my injections of rotting effects the entire bodys and faces dissapear… quite fast!

Theres a reason why my park is presented only once a year! XD

Enough for today diary, next time it will be more fun!

Ill head out and rape my screaming doll collections.. bye.

Oh and dont worry the wallpaper, thats how my doll collections look for me!

Like and follow for more! XD

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed.

This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning..

There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings.

Through the unlimited ways of playing this game, they opened a portal to a different dimenion but everything they knew was reversed.

Good was pure evil – Food was pure flesh – Death was pure joy.

These beings were unstoppable and they killed and corrupted everything.

An was afraid and so we were too.. These beings were dangerous and they could harvest all energy for themselves and bring forth the evil side of a soul.

Before An bursted into many crystals, he sent himself away into the universe and exploded in manyfold pieces.

These crystals are now being searched and used by those who knew there powers from rumors.

The dark beings are everywhere now and no one really knows where the rest of the team is.

They have to remember .. That they have to get the fuck out of here, and that bullshit in their minds are far more dangerous than the beings from the other worlds.

An is probably housing somewhere chilly, or he is trapped in a different dimension, waiting for someone to collect and bringing him back..

Well An .. That shit was caused by you, this is a game, find your way out of the labyrinth..

And to everyone who remembers … You know where the meeting table is

Follow and leave a like guys! XD

the lost soul – short story

Once upon a time, an unbelievably long time ago, there was a soul. Which had just been created.

This soul was not like all the other souls he had created. She was kind of different. Unique.

So, it came that he shared this soul in order to have two of its beauty.

Of course, the other souls did not like this, and they asked why he shared only this one soul and not their souls as well.

This soul is different from you, he said, you are perfect, but it is so radiant and pure, and shines like an entire galaxy full of stars.

You are satisfied with yourself, but this one, would never be satisfied with yourself on your own, so it came that I had to share it.

The other souls did not find this fair but decided to remain silent.

But the freshly divided soul began to look at her counterpart and ask, „Do you want to reunite with me?“

She looked at her counterpart and said, „Sometimes maybe, but first let’s gain experience.“

The soul did not like this answer. It was no longer perfect. Instead, there were traits that could now be identified as duality.

If she was gentle and quiet, her counterpart was loud and cheeky.

They were yin and yang. Always the opposite of the other.

The other souls both looked like a spectacle and squealed quietly, so that HE, who had shared the new soul, could not hear it.

„Just look at them. Male and female. Whatever, but by no means perfect.“

But half the soul, heard this and flew to its counterpart „Do you hear what they say?“ Although her counterpart had heard this, he said nothing more.

„Let them talk. They cannot have our experiences and are jealous because they have no one to belong to them forever and to society.“

Half the soul was satisfied.

A few millennia this game went. They were together continuously and liked each other very much and ignored the other souls who had only themselves.

But he, who liked to watch the two half souls, had long ago begun, without much foresight, to share the other souls.

Always male and female. Always a couple, which would belong together forever.

However, he did not reckon with it or ignored the fact that in duality also negative energies arose, which began to whisper unsightly things to souls.

So, it happened that the couples separated, looking for a half that would probably fit better to them.

What a mess. What a failure.

Meanwhile, our first half soul had noticed this and was sad about it. She had to watch other souls, to her beloved second half, venture and whisper unsightly things to her.

At some point, their second half did not explain the whole thing, so the soul thought it was better to disappear. You can certainly cope on your own.

So, it happened one morning that half the soul was gone. Disappeared.

No one knew where she had gone.

Her second half realized what she had done wrong and went in search of her.

Unaware that this search would go through all the worlds and persevere with all times.

The second half was disappointed and did not want to be found. Negative souls, too, had told her a lot of nonsense, and she no longer knew who to believe.

Luckily, he, who had created both, always had an eye on her, so that nothing bad could ever happen to her.

But whether her second half, she found her again or she decided to return, that is a different story.

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary,

I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine.

She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her…

She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection in my underground basement.

I went to her home and she was rather alone, torturing her cats. I climbed up the window and tied her so she couldnt scream or move. But just to be sure i cut her vocal cords with my rusty fork.. it still had blood from the previous prey on it.

I enjoyed cutting her.

After we arrived at my basement she was awake and tried to move, she was terrified and cried the whole time.

„Shhhhh everything will be okay my pig doll“ i said to her while cuddling with her.

I loved how terrified she looked. She couldnt say a word and i smiled at her while preparing my favorite attraction this day.

I bashed her head straight away with my hammer .. The hole in her head draw a huge blood lake on the floors.. it was BEAUTIFUL! You should see it diary!

As i skinned her and hang her upside down, something slid through her vagina. I couldnt believe it.. she had stored a little gun inside her.

I would be dead by now if i hadnt tied her up so well.

Later i put up a little pig mask on her face which i had made myself with the skin of her ass, just to remind how much of a pig she really was.

There she is… hanging bloody and juicy on chains and smiling.. I rammed a metal pile through her body to stabilise her, so she doesnt swing so much around.

There are nine more pigs left for this collection.

The demons are hungry, ill get them food

See ya soon diary 🙂

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

Empathie? Fehlanzeige!

Empathie heißt – ich halte meine Klappe wenn es drauf ankommt.

Empathie heißt – ich halte sie erst recht, wenn es nicht nötig ist zu antworten.

Empathie heißt – ich überlege bevor ich etwas sage, ob es besser ist, die Klappe zu halten!

Empathie heißt auch – ich höre hin und VERSTEHE verdammt nochmal WAS man mir sagen will oder ich frage einmal nach „Was genau meinst Du?“

Empathie heißt – ich fühle was der andere meint – Ich fühle es (leider) energetisch.

Empathie ist auf diesem Planeten zu 75% unbekannt.

Fast keiner überlegt, WAS überhaupt zu ihm gesagt wurde, bevor er einfach planlos drauf los antwortet.

Der größte Teil der Menschheit ist Egoistisch und Ignorant und hört nur, was er hören will und interpretiert das hinein, was er selbst denkt. Anstatt nach zu fragen oder sich in seinen Gegenüber – vielleicht auch nur ganz kurz – mal hinein zu versetzen.

Es gibt ein Sprichwort:

Wenn Du entdeckst, dass Du ein totes Pferd reitest - steig ab.

Das bedeutet für mich – wenn Du bemerkst, dass deine Worte Schaden angerichtet haben, ist es zu spät. Und Du kannst so viel reden wie Du willst um es wieder gut zu machen.

Das Papier kann man glätten, die Falten bleiben.

Schönen Tag Euch

What is this? Human arrogance…

Attention, danger of triggering.

If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you.

Keyword, mental health.

Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill?

What is this actually all about? What is this statement?

Can it be that with such statements one tries to push any guilt far away from oneself?

Do you seriously believe that every person who hates his life is mentally or emotionally ill? What a shit.

Ever thought about the fact that many find their life simply unbearable, because it simply IS unbearable.

Often because the others actually make your life miserable! Because their behavior is unbearable. Of course they would never admit that.

And who is ashamed? Exactly. THE one who simply can’t stand it anymore and sees no other way out of the situation and decides against continuing to live.

That has quite often, nothing and indeed nothing to do with mental illness. It is simply a lack of perspective and hopelessness and unfortunately not everyone is able to get help, or simply so extremely frustrated that they no longer believe that they can get help.

Especially when the whole environment consists of stupid, selfish chatterboxes and idiots who contribute significantly to making you feel bad.

Why can’t humanity finally start using their brains and stop behaving like dirt towards others?

If each of us, in the future, would shut up and start to think about what he wants to say – whether it is seriously beneficial and positive and then decide to say it. Would be great.

It would also be great if karma would not only exist but would react immediately.

But unfortunately it won’t happen, so we are stopped from continuing to fight for stupidity to be defeated and for people to learn that words can actually be weapons and that the one who gets hit and gets ruined by them is often not „his own fault“.

And yes. I am angry. At humanity.

It’s a constant battle against windmills, except that I’m not Don Quixote and you have to constantly pull your own head out of the noose in order not to perish in the end.

People, if you notice that others are being bullied, harassed and insulted. What can happen to you. Just start to take care that everybody is doing well again. Not only you.

Every one of us has the duty to make this life bearable for the community, which includes every single one of us. So start.

It would be really beneficial if humanity would become seriously aware that it could be over for each of us tomorrow. And that after our death, we reap what we have sown…

Have a nice day.

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

Was soll das? Menschliche Anmaßung…

Achtung, Triggergefahr.

Wer darauf kein Bock hat. Klickt bitte weg und sagt hinterher nicht, ich hätte Euch nicht gewarnt.


Stichwort, geistige Gesundheit.

Wer maßt sich an, Menschen die sich umbringen (wollen) zu unterstellen, sie wären geistig nicht fit, geistig krank.

Was soll das eigentlich? Was soll diese Aussage?

Kann es sein, dass man versucht mit solchen Aussagen, jedwede Schuld von sich weit weg zu schieben?

Glaubt ihr ernsthaft, dass jeder Mensch, der sein Leben hasst, geistig oder seelisch krank ist. Was für ein scheiss.

Schon mal darüber nachgedacht, dass viele ihr Leben einfach unerträglich finden, weil es schlicht und ergreifend SO IST! Unerträglich.

Oft weil tatsächlich die anderen, einem das Leben vermiesen! Weil ihr Verhalten unerträglich ist. Das würden sie natürlich nie zugeben.

Und wer wird beschämt? Genau. DER der es einfach nicht mehr erträgt und keinen anderen Ausweg sieht, aus der Situation zu entkommen und sich gegen das weiterleben entscheidet.

Das hat ganz oft, nichts und zwar gar nichts mit geistiger Erkrankung zu tun. Es ist einfach nur Perspektivenlosigkeit und Auswegslosigkeit und leider ist eben nicht jeder in der Lage sich Hilfe zu holen, oder einfach auch schon so extrem frustriert, dass er gar nicht mehr glaubt, dass er Hilfe bekommen könnte.

Vor allem, wenn das ganze Umfeld aus dummen, egoistischen Labertaschen und Idioten besteht, die wesentlich dazu beitragen, dass man sich schlecht fühlt.

Warum kann die Menschheit nicht endlich anfangen, ihr Gehirn zu benutzen und aufhören sich anderen gegenüber wie Schmutz zu benehmen?

Wenn jeder von uns, künftig den Mund halten würde und erst einmal anfangen würde, nachzudenken was er da gerade sagen will – ob das ernsthaft förderlich und positiv ist und dann entscheidet es zu sagen. Wäre toll.

Es wäre auch toll, wenn Karma nicht nur existiert sondern sofort reagieren würde.

Wird aber leider nicht passieren, also sind wir aufgehalten, weiter dafür zu kämpfen, dass die Dummheit besiegt wird und der Mensch lernt, dass Worte tatsächlich Waffen sein können und derjenige der getroffen wird und daran zu Grunde geht, tatsächlich ganz oft eben nicht „selbst Schuld“ ist.

Und ja. Ich bin sauer. Auf die Menschheit.

Es ist ein ständiger Kampf gegen Windmühlen, nur dass ich nicht Don Quijote bin und man ständig seinen Kopf wieder selber aus der Schlinge ziehen muss um nicht am Ende selbst zu Grunde dran zu gehen.

Leute, wenn ihr merkt dass andere gemobbt werden, belästigt und beleidigt. Was kann Euch denn passieren. Fangt mal endlich an, Euch wieder darum zu kümmern, dass es allen gut geht. Nicht nur euch.

Ein jeder von uns ist in der Pflicht, dieses Leben für die Gemeinschaft erträglich zu machen, was jeden einzelnen von uns beinhaltet. Also fangt an.

Es wäre wirklich förderlich, wenn die Menschheit sich mal ernstlich bewusst wird, dass es für jeden von uns morgen schon vorbei sein könnte. Und das wir nach unserem Tod, ernten was wir gesät haben…

Schönen Tag noch.

Was ist denn Bewusst sein?! Video!

Ihr lieben, wie versprochen, künftig alles auf Video.

Lets go.

Nach Blogcrash nix mehr los hier?

Hey ihr Lieben, noch mal zur Erinnerung. Unser Blog war tot und alle Follower waren weg, als fühlt euch frei uns neu zu abonnieren.

Das lag nicht an uns! WordPress hat das verursacht. Bzw der ´Versuch“ ein neues Plugin zu installieren. Ein falscher Klick und ALLES war weg. Leider auch ihr!

Wir wünschen euch einen schönen Start in die neue Woche.

Ihr findet uns übrigens jetzt auch auf Tiktok, YouTube, Instagram, Tumblr, Patreon, Facebook und Twitter 😉

Blog Crashed – Womans fault xD

So dear ones, I have accomplished a real „masterpiece“…I have almost completely crashed our blog.

The replacement blog has completely disappeared into nirvana.

All followers are gone, except for a few from Facebook.

But the Email and WordPress followers are actually at 0.

That means we have to start all over again.

The website is also almost empty. All of them so nice and with a lot of effort, sorting blogs are gone.

Don’t ask me what exactly I did, I just say…plugin…

Well, okay.

Why don’t you help us to restart and follow us again!

No one got kicked or else, so please excuse me and thank you so much for following. 🙂

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place.. Do you feel that too sometimes ? A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Blogcrash dank meiner Dummheit 😅

So ihr Lieben, ich habe ein echtes „Meisterstück“ vollbracht…ich habe unseren Blog fast völlig gecrasht.

Der Ersatzblog ist komplett im Nirvana verschwunden.

Alle Follower sind weg, außer ein paar von Facebook.

Aber die Email und WordPress Follower sind tatsächlich auf 0.

Das bedeutet, wir fangen noch mal von vorn an.

Die Website ist auch fast leer. Alle so schön und mit wirklich viel Mühe, einsortieren Blogs sind weg.

Fragt mich nicht, was genau ich gemacht habe, ich sag nur…Plugin…

Naja gut.

Teilt uns doch bitte weitläufig und helft uns, beim Neustart und folgt uns wieder.

Wir arbeiten daran, die Webseite wieder herzustellen.

Einen wunderschönen Abend wünsch ich Euch.

Think Twice – Say Once

This is a saying from the chineses monks as i know and this has a deep meaning.

If you dont want to repeat yourself, you should think twice about it and only say once. And if someone didnt listen, it will be their problem.

It doesnt matter at what discusion it is, just think about what youre going to say and if the person doesnt like it, well… then thats their problem!

Only yourselve decides what gets close to you and what not, so dont get triggered by anyones thoughts.

For today theres nothing much to say, but anybody know whats going on with wordpress? It seems slow since the last weeks ?

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]

Why you loose Motivation

We all know the problem..

Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping..

Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea?

The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up something, simply because you said it and now it starts to add up. The person you told it will think that they have to give a comment or their opinion about it and mostly its always negative dumb talk. This ruins everything!

Specially family members or near friends who dont have the same goals will tell you how bad your idea is and all your motivation will die out quickly. Its not just a simple sentence „Never tell too much“!

Use it!

The second problem is the inconsistency with the project or the lack of ideas.

The brain and body needs time to adapt to the new game and so it will be often rejected in the first phase, its just like a new videogame.

If you get through the first phase it should be a great way to continue!

Now one of the biggest problems is the lack of ideas … to counter this youll need a plan! A strategy! Without it you will not know how to hold it up and give 100%. Many only follow something when theres a plan and a plan with your goals should be structured, clear and POSSIBLE!

You cant just write „I will rule the world“ and do that in two weeks…

For myself i noticed, writing half an hour new ideas helps alot and gives me more options about what iam going to write. I can only recommend it because sometimes even the most productive doesnt want the map in their head.

And the last thing you should know is that you never should work on your business when you only feel well, because a boss over you will not give a fuck when you feel bad, you will still come to work to not loose your job!

Summary: A written plan with real and managable goals while being consistent and coming with new ideas will only benefit you and your goals.

The key to motivation is to let your soul burn for it without a log! You simply become the fire!

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]

intervall fasting

INTERVAL FASTING #4 – BACK TO THE PAST

I wish you a wonderful and hopefully not too hot Sunday morning. THAT would have been my greeting this morning, but you know what? WordPress was of the opinion to delete my finished and saved blog instead of publishing it. Oh guys, I was sooo mad.

I had researched and written for over two hours and, contrary to my habit, this time of all times I hadn’t written on paper but in the Blog. That means I start all over again.

So, here is the second version of my blog. And a warning for all bloggers, don’t rely on the fact that what is shown as saved is really saved. WP clearly proved me wrong today. Soon I will host the whole thing myself.

So now let’s start over again.

Interval fasting part four, a review

A small review into the nourishing habits of earlier humans and why for these interval chamfered was normal, but nevertheless an involuntary exception.

As we already learned at school, the Stone Age people were first probably collectors. That means, they ate what they found in nature. Do fruits grow all year round?

No, if they didn’t find anything and didn’t think of stocking up, there was nothing, if nothing grew or nothing was edible.

How did Stone Age people actually find out what was edible and what was not? Perhaps they observed the animals and what they ate without dying was edible. Maybe there were tasters, who knows.

Fasting in the cradle of mankind 7 million years ago, in Africa

At the origins of mankind, we know that the weather and vegetation were quite inhospitable.

It is known that people were constantly busy to survive. So they ate what they found. If there was no fruit, they ate grass or even tree bark in an emergency. But one can assume that they ate simply everything that seemed to be edible.

That means in reverse, they found nothing, no idea, maybe they ate themselves to survive. But presumably they had also at that time already really long chamfering phases. Involuntarily.

One can also assume that milk, eggs and processed products like bread were simply completely unknown.

Since these people, neither fire, nor tools had or even knew.

Collectors

In principle, the first humans or human ancestors were collectors who ate everything they could get.

Their only goal was to survive. But they were neither blind nor stupid, and were probably pretty good at one thing.

Observe!

So of course they saw what the animals they were observing did, they hunted and killed their prey before eating it.

So what could be more obvious than to do the same? The first hunters emerged. Especially since people quickly noticed that meat had much more nutritional value than tree bark…

Hunters

So they had looked at what the animals do following their instincts and started to do the same. Hunting and catching animals.

The beginnings of hunting were clumsy and not yet specialized. It was also quickly realized that this required the fastest and strongest members of the community.

The gender roles were born. Pregnant women, nursing mothers, sick and weak people suddenly had different tasks than those who were able to hunt.

People began to organize and specialize. Nevertheless, if nothing was found, one had to fast.

One can assume due to the weather that these chamfering periods were quite very long. On the other hand these humans could move on simply in periods of drought, since they were not settled and open so new sources of food.

Humans had found fire also after a few million years and knew quite fast to use fire.

For about 700000 years he has also been able to light the fire himself, making it easier to catch animals and prepare food. 2 million years earlier, he was still dependent on preventing found fire from going out. But even then they could keep their burrows warm and roast meat and fruits over the fire.

They had probably already recognized that collecting and hunting alone is not enough, but that one must also build up stocks in order to always have food. There are archaeological reports according to which one knows that whole peoples had to fast, when the supplies were simply rotten, because one could not decide before to use them up.

We can infer now however from the fact that freiwilliges chamfered probably rather NO component of the everyday life was, but always only from the emergency out was carried out!

Which means for us that we cannot use it unfortunately as statement that THIS represents the original nourishing form.

Regardless of this, I will nevertheless deal with it further in detail. Since I and many others with interval chamfered make very good experiences.

Look forward to the next blogs about it.

Am i less worth ? – The Floor of Nightmares

I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]

The New Pills

It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist.

I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly compared to my co-workers which were zombies.

Typical movie scene were everyone sits in front of their desk and type something, looking busy.

After work i took off to my therapist, he had told me last time that he had new pills which would show me „the truth“ as he claimed and why i was depressed.

I was excited and liked talking to him, he actually was listening… Not many listened what i had to say and no one cared in this system fucked world… How many kill themselves because no one just could listen ..

Anyway i made it to my destination after a few minutes of walking from the city center.

I went in and „Hey hello Anna how are you doing?“

„Hey Alex thanks im good, hope you do well too! Dr. Oppenheim is expecting you – you can go straight through the door“ said the lovely secretary.

I walked through the door.

„Klick“ pressed the handle down and went inside.

He was sitting in his leather chair „Hi alex, good to see you! Today is a special day!“ he said.

„Hi doc, good to see YOU! What will we talk about today?“ I asked.

„Well as i mentioned last time, the new pills arrived but first let me tell you something and hear well! Nothing of this is allowed to enter the outer world understood! Not a single word! What youre about to see will show you the real world we live in!“ he said silently.

I got really excited and nervous, what was he talking about?

„Okay i understood!“ i replied.

„I already took a few myself and my heart nearly stopped from the reality slash … so be prepared! You will take one pill now and one in the evening“

It was strange to hear that a psychatrist had a reality slash, what did he ment by that ? Well i was going to find out really soon!“

He gave me the pills and i took one.

He said „whatever you do, NEVER look surprised when you see them! Otherwise youre in big trouble not only when youre alive!“

I laughed and thanked him. Maybe this would give me new essences to my boring live.

„We will not talk today, go out and see yourself … and remember .. dont loo…“

„Yes i know… dont look surprised! I got it!“

We shook hands and he said „see you around because this roller coaster will be whole different trip!“

I laughed loud and left.

Twenty minutes left until i took the pill but i didnt felt anything .. was it a psychological test or something? i thought.

Than i walked beside a restaurant and the first heart race started… Why? because i saw how babys and animal heads were took inside the restaurant. It was bloody as hell and my eyes nearly popped out.

„What the fuck ?! Is this what he meant ?! This is insane!!“ I screamed silently inside myself.

Than i saw a octopus looking being in a suit coming my way … This was even scarier and i started panicking..

He said dont look suprised … i stood there normally and as he looked at me, i looked rather shocked.

This was definetly an alien and he was there in daylight with a damn suit! And no one seemed to bother?? Why couldnt we see them ? How was this possible?

My head was running crazy and i couldnt contain myself.

A homeless came to me and said „THEY EXIST OVER HUNDREDS OF DECADES AND NO ONE IS LISTENING – BE READY TO RUN“

I said nothing and started running, i didnt felt safe anymore anywhere.

I needed to go back to the doctor.

As i run, i saw more and more of them watching me… It was scary. The world was completely different than the world i knew before and those pills showed how it really was. This wasnt a hullucination right?

So many questions and no answers.. i finally came to the doctor and slammed the door open. The secretary stood up and said „you cant be here!!!“.

„I have to see the doc now!“ and knocked on the door while going in.

The doc was sitting there .. and his client was looking at me.. he was one of them… The doctor was one of them.. and he was smiling ..

„Hello Alex.. Good to see you…“ as he stood up and so his client, while slowly walking towards me…

My head couldnt take it, i faded away..

After i woke up in a hospital, the doc was there too. I was surprised why he had come at all.

„Did you see it alex ? The real world? .. This is just the beginning!“

He smiled.

My heart started racing.

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]

Empathy? No way!

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts. Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer. Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut! Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT […]

The Dream Well

It was summer and my parents had new jobs in a different city with more income.

This meant that i had to change the school and friends again, it was tough but i accepted it and the new house was huge and even had a well.

After we got into the house, we were all surprised by lets call it „hidden“ doors which brought more and more places were the sun shined on. It looked really beautiful and we loved the house already.

I stood in the garden and looked at the well, it was big and the water inside was really high. Someone who would fall into the well could easily come out, even a ladder was constructed there but what for?

After we got all comfortable in the house, i started to hear the sound of flowing water at the night.

My room was facing the garden in the second floor and i could clearly see the moon shining in the middle of the well. The water seemed to flow to the circle and… it was getting less and less.

I took my clothes on and run slowly down to see what was going on.

My eyes did see it clear, the water got less and the ladder was build to the ground.

Should i go down there? Or rather call my parents to see what was going on.

I stepped slowly on the slippery ladder inside the well and went down. The ground was slimy and my feet were sinking inside the mud. If i hadnt gripped myself back i wouldve been completely sunken and i dont think that anyone could hear me here at all.

After i looked around, i noticed few paths in which one was filled with water, but what mechanism could drag down this amount of water ? I was twelve meters under the ground and nowhere was a lake or else, maybe there was a underground flow?

I couldnt stay too long on one point otherwise i would get drawned back down.

I choosed the middle path and wanted to go but it was dark. Movement was impossible and stepping somewhere unknown was dangerous.

So i went back up the ladder to call my parents.

They came fast and were annoyed …

„What is it ? The well is empty?“

And as i was about to show, the well was completely filled up again.

„That is strange, i was down there and the water was gone but now no one heard a thing when it came back up?“

„Go to sleep youre dreaming dumbass“ said my mother and pushed me inside the well.

„WHAAAT“ i screamed and woke up in my bed.

I was sweating a lot and this dream was weird. I watched outside and the well seemed normal… and yes.. i screamed the word „what“ because i couldnt believe what my mom did.

The days went by and i watched the well several times at night but nothing happend..

Was it all a dream ? Why did it seemed so real..

What is this? Human arrogance…

Attention, danger of triggering. If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you. Keyword, mental health. Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill? What is this actually all about? What is this statement? […]

Cosmic Authority – Astral beings lie

In the realm of the dead it is appearently common that a being comes after death to guide you in to the light. But this is only a small percentage and depends on ypur believes and what you expect. These beings look shiny and warm and draw your attention away from any questions. They talk […]

Auf in den September 2020

Da wir hier derzeit eigentlich keinerlei Input mehr bekommen und das nicht unbedingt motivierend wirkt, sind wir auf Plattformen ausgewichen, auf denen wir Interagieren können mit anderen Menschen. Da unser Blog uns dennoch am Herzen liegt, vergessen wir ihn (noch) nicht ganz und schauen mal, ob es auf WordPress wieder läuft. Was sind Eure Erfahrungen […]

How we created the world – Beyond Afterlife

To begin with, ive had very strange moments in my life without the knowledge that came with spirituality.

As i grew, those experiences increased randomly and things happend that i cant talk with anybody at all.

After a intense remembering on what happend and whats really going on, me and my wife found us back together and packed our knowledge inside this book.

This book contains several experiences and answers for question beyond the afterlife.

And no just to tell you, we never used any drugs or whatever to provide you this info. There are many things which words cant explain, so we made it hopefully enough that everyone understands it.

There is soo much more you have to know specially about yourself and what is really going on here, that is why the book only comes to those who will be prepaired for it and least expecting.

This book might cause visions or strange feelings for a person with zero idea about the material, just to warn you a bit.

We know what we tell inside this book will sound crazy for many because there arent many who know that and even lesser who saw any of it.

But most what is read will be heard by the soul, so that one day the eyes open from the dirty dust.

Another Day

Its raining over 15 hours now and it doesnt look like stopping.. This was really needed.

This year not many trees survived due to heat, it went up to 47° celsius over few weeks and killed many things xD

Another Day – Time

I have currently quite a good time to spare for many other things. My business is doing well and i wont hunger – this should be the important part! Now lets get to the point where i can finally meet my lady! Somehow the sun is back up and back on 36° degrees when it […]

The Cell and Earth

We were 30 kids inside a big cell.

I dont remember how i got there, neither who my parents are. That was very strange.

The cell or lets call it room was shiny white and had no corners, i dont know how to explain it. It looked like a fortified room and there was a door which was only possible to open by voice.

The instructors came in … there was only one and she had white clothes and a mask over her nose.

She started screaming that every hour one kid had to be killed or all would die. She than mentioned that weapons of all kind will be placed to help the execution and left the room.

Some of those kids were merely 8 to 10 years old and had no idea what that meant. They all started to cry and help each other somehow to stop.

A red timer appeared on the wall .. „3:00, 2:59, 2:58, 2:57..“ the clock was ticking ..

„And remember kids, only one will survive, no food or else until you havent killed all of them!“ Said a womans computer voice on the ceiling.

The kids still cry’d and some started to randomly attack each other and bite.

Knifes, scissors and a small axe came up from the underground.

I was 11 years when it happend and it still is fun when i think about it.

I run to the axe and waited in the corner, not knowing what would happen when the timer hits zero.

The others bashed their heads, cut themselves or just randomly went insane and attacked everybody. In the first 3 minutes, half were injured and 10 kids were dead and their corpses were still moving. It was very strange i thought. I expected blood to come out inside that massacer but … all i saw was green liquid.

One of them ran into me, holding a knife and wanting to kill me. I ran away with the axe … i couldnt kill it.

As i tried to tell „HEY STOP IT! EVERYTHING WILL BE OK!“ He still ran.

I stopped and waited for him and was ready to chop his head off.

Suddenly a voice „ALL T-17’s STOP“

And all the kids stopped. Only me and one other was looking scared and shocked.

The woman and a guy walked in. „Kill them all NOW! These are robots and were under a war, if you cant kill them, we will kill you!“

… „I see..“ And rammed the axe into the head of the T-17 cyborg.

….

„Your childhood was fucked up man ..“ said Set.

„And now were fighting off some even more fucked up robot planets which obliterated earth …“ i said..

The humans shot down a ship which was a peace symbol without asking and the robo’s replied with a super nuclear beam which… blew away everything on earths surface.

The blast was incinerated with the suns power. These robo planets had material which withstood and even held pure solar power. In connection with atom bombs and a quantum particle accellerator it amplified the power over 19.000 times.

Dont ask me what kind of might THAT canon got .. We are still fighting and currently try to programme the weapon to our side.

These robots are extremely intelligent … They dont use any troops or army’s … They just built weapons and blow us up before we can train any troops..

Is there any hope?

Not even nuclear weapons work against their „Solatarum – Wall“ That damn material is the heaviest and hardest metal we currently know. Somehow the robots managed to nullify the heavyness and increase the density.

If this goes on… the entire universe will be wiped out by them..

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INTERVAL FASTING #6 – Discipline

Today a short treatise, which is clearly the most important thing in any kind of fasting at all, discipline. Most of us, who have no or no significant success, say first of all „I don’t know why I don’t lose weight, I do everything right“. And when you start asking questions, you quickly realize that […]

Blog Crashed – Womans fault xD

So dear ones, I have accomplished a real „masterpiece“…I have almost completely crashed our blog. The replacement blog has completely disappeared into nirvana. All followers are gone, except for a few from Facebook. But the Email and WordPress followers are actually at 0. That means we have to start all over again. The website is […]

A Killers Diary – The Doll Collection

Its me again my dear diary, Today i made new outfits of human skin and organs. I prepared them very well. The blood still drops from them. I couldnt finish two of the dolls, i still need four eyes and the bodies arent enough. I costumise the kill will the outfits and tomorrow is the […]

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Interval Fasting #3

I wish you all a wonderful, but again much too hot for me, August-Summerday.

Let us talk again about interval fasting. Today part three.

As a small reminder Part One: general introduction to the topic

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/08/17/intervallfasten-1/

Part Two: the most common methods briefly explained

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/08/18/intervallfasten-2/

Who may fast? For whom is it unsuitable? Are there any pitfalls, if so, what are they?

There are always people who want to make their own opinion universally valid for all and generalize the whole thing.

That is far from my mind. I know several diabetics who fast very strictly 16:8 and have considerable success with it, also in the health area. I know of non-diabetics who fast very strictly 16:8 and where nothing happens. Neither weight loss, nor improvement of health, nothing.

This is simply because every body is different, even if anatomically perhaps the same, but even that is not really so. Where one person may already have no gallbladder, the adrenal glands or thyroid gland may not be working the next, and so on.

So you can’t say in general, this or that person must not fast at all, because there are enough methods nowadays, that everybody can find the right one for him – even with medical or therapeutic help.

It is always important that you listen to your body and if it says „stop“ then you stop (for now).

Pregnant women should not, of course, be prepared to diet or fast for a longer period if the gynaecologist or midwife does not advise it. There are also pregnant women who should not gain weight, especially if they already have a very high initial weight. In this case, however, the whole thing is done under medical supervision anyway.

In my experience, breastfeeding is no obstacle if you choose the shorter and simpler fasting methods. Breastfeeding mothers usually only want to lose weight when they notice that the often quoted belief „if you breastfeed, you lose weight all by yourself“ is somehow not true for them. I can sing more than one song about that. Which is why I was already engaged in short-term fasting at the time.

The real problem is often that you don’t listen to yourself and your gut feeling, but always ask others first and they then often, all in all, simply advise against it.

Children and fasting

Most children are slim by nature and very active, so fasting is completely unnecessary.

If you are already overweight at a higher age, you will probably have to see a pediatrician first, who often refers you to a nutritional coach.

I was there with my daughter and fasting for children, is cancelled. Even with overweight. You should try to get back to normal weight by taking more exercise and choosing more nutrients.

Which, for example, does not work at all with my daughter. But you can actually try to create meal breaks in which access to the refrigerator is blocked, as stupid as that sounds. And to take the nightly meal break as a meal break, too. And in the evening, just leave out sweets and nibbles, and not replace them with anything else.

The main problem of most people is not the regular food, but that they constantly put something in their mouth. Sometimes a few nuts here, then a candy bar. With every coffee a few small snacks. At the computer a few salt sticks, while driving a car the sweet thing might lie on the passenger seat.

One thing you can learn from fasting is that constant food is wrong for everyone. Not only dentists and dental assistants pray that probably day by day. Also all the nutrition experts know this.

Eating constantly or constantly „something small“ puts our body under enormous stress. It is practically constantly in working mode and that for years.

At some point, this takes its revenge, not only through overweight.

Especially when you consider that the largest number of people have also given up on simply drinking water. Go to a big beverage market and look around. Sugar everywhere…

Eating less won’t help if I drink two litres of sugar water a day. That would be a trap.

I may not need to count calories and weigh my food, but I should still think about WHAT I eat, WHEN I eat and WHAT I drink!

We have to find back to what our body really needs and that is basically water for adults! Not coloured water with chemicals and sugar or chemical sugar substitutes.

Another pitfall of fasting is to shovel unrestrainedly into oneself during the eating phase, thinking „I’ve earned this or I’m going to indulge myself“.

This may go well for a while, but in fact it’s revenge.

We have to find back to what our body really needs and that is basically water for adult people! Non-colored water with chemicals and sugar or chemical sugar substitutes.

Another pitfall of fasting is to shovel unrestrainedly into oneself during the eating phase, thinking „I’ve earned that or I’ll treat myself to it.

This may go well for a while, but actually takes its revenge by gaining weight instead of losing it.

I’m talking about normal people who are not into extreme sports. A strength athlete or professional athlete has completely different primes and his advisors, who tell him exactly what to eat and when to stop eating.

I assume that these people have no need to read such a blog. After all, I am more likely to read about how these people manage to get to a competitive level in terms of their fat content. I admit that I have never managed any of this. Such a high body fat loss. On the other hand, I’ve never had the desire to do it either.

Since my body weight is normally only 52 kg.

We’ll continue with part four tomorrow.

What’s that about? I think, let’s find out a little history on the subject of fasting. Okay?

See you tomorrow then.

Take a look to the previous storys and fasting blogs for more info.

Think Twice – Say Once

This is a saying from the chineses monks as i know and this has a deep meaning. If you dont want to repeat yourself, you should think twice about it and only say once. And if someone didnt listen, it will be their problem. It doesnt matter at what discusion it is, just think about […]

Why you loose Motivation

We all know the problem.. Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping.. Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea? The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up […]

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Intervall Fasting #5 – Benefits, disadvantages

Today we come to the advantages or disadvantages, if I find some that interval fasting has compared to other types of diet or even diets. Benefits of interval fasting what I personally like best is the fact that you can basically eat everything during the meal breaks, as well as that you don’t have to […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #4 – BACK TO THE PAST

I wish you a wonderful and hopefully not too hot Sunday morning. THAT would have been my greeting this morning, but you know what? WordPress was of the opinion to delete my finished and saved blog instead of publishing it. Oh guys, I was sooo mad. I had researched and written for over two hours […]

The New Pills

It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist. I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly […]

INTERVAL FASTING #1

A wonderful and hopefully rainy good morning at a Monday. With us nature finally breathes a sigh of relief, it is fresh and raining really well.

I, on the other hand, have to put on my pants and hold my breath, otherwise they just won’t close.

So I put myself on the scale and fell down backwards… because it shows – from March until now – over 6kg more.

On the one hand this is related to the big operation, after that I couldn’t do anything for my body for a long time, but I took the „doing nothing“ too literally.

Because there is still a big operation to be done, I don’t have much time to get the 6 kg off again and because physical training doesn’t work so well anymore, I start my old hobby, interval fasting.

I start yesterday with 68,2 kg on 1,62m.

And yeah, that’s too much purely optical, because I have really fine bones and it also looks just wrong optically.

Since I will not count calories, which I do not consider necessary with the small sum of kg, which I would like to get rid of, and I also do not want to calculate a BMI, because it seems nonsense to me, I leave in principle also the calculation of basic and achievement conversion away and try to nourish myself sensibly.

However, it may be that I inform myself about it again. How do you handle that?

WHAT is interval fasting?

Simple interval fasting does not mean anything else (sounds simple, but requires real willpower, discipline and endurance – not necessarily my specialty)

means „nothing more“ than to choose a period of time, which should be at least 14 hours, preferably longer, in which you do NOT eat anything.

Nothing at all! My preferred time is from 19:00 to 11:00.

But it’s not easy in the evening, if you have younger children like me, who often eat dinner at 7 pm. There one must look exactly at the clock that one does not eat too far into the Lent, that one regrets on the next day often.

So there are two phases – the fasting phase and the eating phase.

In the fasting phase, we eat, as already mentioned GAR NOTHING and remember that milk is a food, which we also do not eat! So during the fasting phase, coffee means to eat black and sugar-free or, for example, carbohydrate-free almond drink.

During the fasting phase we drink unsweetened tea, and I take the tea I like. Hardcore fasters also have limitations here.

Or sufficient water. I prefer sparkling water here as well. I’m incorrigible. 

In principle, we can really eat anything we want during the eating phase. But since we often want to lose weight and get fitter, it is advisable not to do this.

Take the start with interval fasting as an opportunity to rethink your diet in general!

More about this in the next blog.

The Dream Well

It was summer and my parents had new jobs in a different city with more income. This meant that i had to change the school and friends again, it was tough but i accepted it and the new house was huge and even had a well. After we got into the house, we were all […]

How we created the world – Beyond Afterlife

To begin with, ive had very strange moments in my life without the knowledge that came with spirituality. As i grew, those experiences increased randomly and things happend that i cant talk with anybody at all. After a intense remembering on what happend and whats really going on, me and my wife found us back […]

Beitragskarusell 1

Hier mal ein kleiner Test, der Blockfunktionen.

Dies ist das neue Beitragskarusell.

Mal schauen, wie es von außen aussieht.

Viel Spaß 🙂

Good and a Half Day

Since some of us sleep more than 10 hours a day, ill call it a half day..

Time your day right and achieve something! Stop fucking around and do, or atleast admit that youre doing nothing for your dreams!

Stay motivated and do it daily!

Have a good day!

Another Day

Its raining over 15 hours now and it doesnt look like stopping.. This was really needed. This year not many trees survived due to heat, it went up to 47° celsius over few weeks and killed many things xD

The Cell and Earth

We were 30 kids inside a big cell. I dont remember how i got there, neither who my parents are. That was very strange. The cell or lets call it room was shiny white and had no corners, i dont know how to explain it. It looked like a fortified room and there was a […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #2

Applause, applause. Who should pat me, or us, on the back, if not WE ourselves. First of all, today there is an invitation to the Fasting Motivation Group, which I reopened 2 years ago, because many apps only want to earn money, but do not want the members to get to know each other. https://www.facebook.com/groups/2100178886865674 […]

INTERVAL FASTING #1

A wonderful and hopefully rainy good morning at a Monday. With us nature finally breathes a sigh of relief, it is fresh and raining really well. I, on the other hand, have to put on my pants and hold my breath, otherwise they just won’t close. So I put myself on the scale and fell […]

Death Ears

They laugh ot those who can hear it..

While those who dont, get controlled.

Pointing with fingers „dumb idiots“,

While the real cursed are laughing.

A war will come, just like always,

Wiping the surface while the elite hide in their bunkers,

Waiting to come outside,

To rule the survivors and do the same over again.

The Human Rings

There was once a cave in which a titan lived. This titan consumed those who dared entering the cave. Any traveler who crossed that path, never returned.. But there was one… who came out disturbed and who took his own life few hours later… The only sentence he said was .. „It makes rings of […]

UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS – FACTS #1

Here you could now first add all my/our old posts. This one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/25/warum-steigt-das-bewusstsein-der-menschen-nicht/ or this one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/01/limitierende-glaubenssatze/ Or in principle almost all of them, as I am very often only concerned with consciousness. But now let’s get it straight again. Does humanity really want to be „Conscious“? Does this question really arise? You know what? […]

World Conspiracy

What if we are not humans, but beings from a far different dimension who incarnated into flesh, in order to … … do what we want? – But a species a long time ago managed to trap our memory and delete it for a time as long as we are in this body and our […]

The Strong Side Effects of a Smartphone! – Secret TESTS

First, this is a long research with a „client“ who is physically well and did it to himself.

All tests were done from the view of spiritual energy flow and how it attacks the body.

Lets begin.

Our smartphones and computers are special designs to dull our heads and specially our pineal gland with the help of phone radiation.

A smartphone has a square design which gets pin pointed to our face and in the best case, to our forehead when it gets held down while looking at it.

Iam very sure, that a smartphone radiates with more than 3 waves to dull our head. I will later explain why it dulls!

  1. 1. Internet Waves
  2. 2. Radio Waves
  3. 3. Directed Display Energy Wave

We all know the very first and second waves and i want to spare time explaining them.

So i will jump straight to the third!

The directed energy waves are created through something that we cant explain yet. Energetically, its a mix that responds trough the internet and is transferred via phone display, to our brain.

The energy wave activates when you enter the internet and start to look at the phone for quite a time.

The people who are placed under this radiation feel a strong tightness between their eyes. It feels like a pushing hand to the forehead and causes eye pain, aswell headaches and several other body dysfunctions such as: low energy feeling, tiredness, increased pain of any kind AND a very strong feeling to get the phone back to the face! Because the brain will cause a feeling of addiction like heroin patients!

Our client is used to 10-15+ hours daily in front of a display and this is continued over 5 years.

The client feels insane stress, anxiety and a feeling of terror when he cant use the phone! He as well unlearns the movement in real life and looses himself in the internet. This means they loose the urge to do anything in life because they dont know better.

*Note that the upper information is described from our client himself!

And before we forget it, the waves cause a dull- capsulating feeling inside the middle point of the brain. It will feel like a blood rush inside the head which gets bigger and bigger. This may cause cell damage inside the brain!

Note as well that this research is a selfmade program to test radiation.

Whatever the WHO tells you, they lie! And they dont add some info!

*Special info: Underground buildings and constructions are far safer from radiation than on the surface! This is due to the overall radiation which hits people negatively even though they might dont have any phone or else! Negative energy rises fast and it hits our magnetic field which disturbs even the kindest soul. However it is possible to block it!

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