Schlagwort-Archive: Blogger

Corrupted Judges

This place with many others are highly corrupted. What i mean is, that a judge who judges criminals is always paid by the one who wants to win.

The more money you give the judge, the higher your chances of winning a case without any problems.

These assholes dont even listen to their own rules and do all kinds of shit..

Many would like it if russias corrupt bastards would dissapear from the surface. The judges in the higher court dont even bother your case and you loose alot of money. The bank always wins it is said..

The problem isnt russia, but the president who doesnt bother to re-arrange the system and knock out all politicians who die for money.

The entire system is highly poisoning when you look at dagestan.

The schools wont give you any chance of winning when you dont pay money and they want a lot!

They make it really tough so you fail and beg with money.

I could go on and on with the list, you wouldnt believe what is possible here with money!

Weisheit des Tages, Matrix on Point

Bücher offenbaren Wahrheiten die man nur erfährt, indem man sie liest.

0108 – The House

We were a team of six and our objective was to secure the house from every corner. We didnt knew with what we were dealing with and the situation seemed strange… We secured the villa inside the forest which was told to be a safe house for certain terrorist members, but after discovering that nothing […]

The others Problems.. – Not just Earths

Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there. It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on […]

How does the „Matrix“ work inside the planets ?

You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is. The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How […]

What is the biggest problem of the people?

In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]

Another Shit Day Without Her AND another Car Crash

I shouldnt say it, even though my day was financially great, i dont give a fuck about money and materialistic crap.

If i would have the chance to change all i have in order to get you, i would do it without hesitation!

Im looking forward to our explosive encounter soon my dear..

Dont loose any hope, we both know that i wont stop chasing 😄

….

Im currently sitting in a acupuncture session with my client who had a serious car accident. He was driving fast and turned a sharp left while crashing into someone else with the back of the car…

So they told me atleast. I cant judge them, but i know how many idiots drive here like that and hope that the other guy is doing well.

I really think that people who drive like idiots and crash into others should die at the spot, rather than taking someone elses life! But hey.. thats just how i feel.

Drive safe out there!

Der Verbieger

Es gab einmal einen Mann, den nannten alle „Der Verbieger“, weil alles was er tat und konnte, war es zu verbiegen. Sei es Gestein oder Stahl, alles konnte er verbiegen, ja sogar sein Haus war verbogen und auch seine nicht existente Frau. Die Dorfbewohner wagten es nicht allein durch das Dorf zu laufen, aus Angst […]

My second time trying DMT ..

So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]

Dangerous Adventures

I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]

COVID 22 – Grey Phase

This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]

100 Blogs in 2 years

Applause for myself.

Now i feel burned out, because nothing seemed to change in the #consciousness of mankind.

And now? The next book „Lucid dreams“ is available and i think im finished with what i was wanted to say to the world. Im ready to go now.

In my opinion this Planet will never change, people will always Destroy, Destroy themselve and every other life.

Like they did before, again and again.

So what is the reason of my existence?

Sometimes i think its the eternal battle with this human bullshit, but i am not depressiv nor crazy. Even sometimes i wish i was blind, deaf and dumb. And a little bit stupid of course.

But i am none of it, so i will walk ahead , going to see whats going around us and talk about it.

Then on to the next 100 Blogs.

Thanks for your attention.

Camphor oil

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Of course you shouldnt drink it and be advised that it can cause side effects when you do so!

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Sind Katzen spirituell begabt?

Was meint ihr?

Meine Katzen haben Fähigkeiten von denen manch ein Mensch träumt.

Sie wissen, wenn ein Mensch nicht viel taugt und knurren ihn an!

Schon mehrfach erlebt.

Kater Dexter checkt die Situationen immer ganz genau!

Dexter rennt, wenn jemand vor der Haustür steht, hin und ist „Verteidigungsbereit“. Er ist sich also drüber im klaren, dass er hier zu Hause ist und im Prinzip jemand vor der Tür stehen könnte, vor dem er uns beschützen kann.

Er hat auch schon mal die Postbotin schockiert und soo übel laut geknurrt, dass sie Abstand gehalten hat, weil sie dachte wir haben einen neuen, großen Hund. Als ich ihr zeigte, das war der Kater, konnte sie es kaum glauben.

Dexter am Fenster, direkt neben der Haustür.

Er sitzt oft am Fenster und checkt ab wer draußen ist und rennt dann zur Tür.. wenn er oben auf dem Balkon ist, schaut er stundenlang den Nachbarn zu, versteckt hinterm „Zaun“.

Und wenn man mal mies drauf ist, kommen sie und setzen sich neben einen, als ob sie wissen, was los ist.

Selbst wenn man sich nichts hat anmerken lassen.

Sie wissen alles

Was denkt ihr darüber?

Gute Nacht

Einen wunderschönen Sonntagabend

Chemie und Bewusst-sein im Alltag

Ich habe die letzten Wochen viel über Chemie und Kosmetikprodukte gelesen und mal meine eigenen Produkte, daheim, abgecheckt ..was soll ich sagen.

Im Prinzip kann fast alle in die Tonne.

Nicht das mir das nicht eigentlich schon klar war, ich wollte es nur nicht wahrhaben.

Als die Friday for Future Proteste waren, hatte ich alles schon mal durchgelesen was so hinten drauf steht und speziell nach Mikroplastik geschaut.

Und ich schaue oft auch ob es vegan ist, und was für Bestandteile drin sind, ob die Firma Tierversuche macht etc.

Das ist schon lange auf der NoGo Liste wenn ich weiss dafür werden Tiere gequält kauf ich es nicht oder nur selten.

Jetzt kam nun noch die Frage auf, wie viele Chemikalien sind drin…und Leute … viel zu viele.

Ich habe das Ausmaß des Elends nicht gewusst und auch nicht geahnt.

Ich wollte den Kindern am Freitag ein Schaumbad kaufen und habe nichts gekauft, außer das:

Seife, zwei Stücke.

Und jetzt kam der Hammer..😆 links die Seife am Band ist richtig gut und Chemikalienfrei und rechts sind schädliche Chemikalien drin, die ich mir nun auf die Haut schmiere.

Links die Seife sorgt nach dem Duschen leider für ein sehr unangenehmes Hautgefühl und ich musste zum Duschöl greifen und hinterher zur Creme, weil es nicht wegging.

Ich werde mich mit dem Thema auseinandersetzen und künftig drüber bloggen und berichten, was so schädliches in unseren Kosmetikprodukten drin ist und welche Alternativen es gibt.

Wie weit wisst ihr darüber Bescheid?

Interessiert euch das überhaupt?

Welche Produkte nutzt Ihr so?

Gute Nacht und kommt gut in die neue Woche.


Another Day

Its hot, my eyes hurt and my back crackes on its own..

And now headaches started.

This always happens when i look more than 4 hours a day straight at a screen..somehow my right eye doesnt like that.

And now my cat starts to eat my bags of vitamins..

Better get him out of here! xD

Hows your day? 🙂

Rosty Knifes and Crystal wars

We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]

Smart Zombies – The Maze of Traitors

It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]

DISPUTES AND SPIRITUALITY

Okay, let’s talk a little – again – about freedom of expression, of which my personal opinion is: „in principle, my opinion doesn’t matter a damn and no matter what it is, there will always be! really always be someone who will kill or break it immediately and thoroughly.

It is really like that. I see that even in my closest circle of friends. And that could really frustrate me, or does it already? It is well known that my opinion always has to be the same as the opinion of those around me in order to be recognized.

Well then, let’s not give a damn about recognition and being considered an outsider was the role we were born into.

So, but how can it be that my opinion is different from the opinions of others and why should I really, honestly not care?

The general / universal consciousness of humanity is different, while some people know that they have been reincarnated umpteen times and still know a large part of the lives and deaths.

There are very many (unfortunately in the German area too many) which dont even „know“ that it is not all over after death.

This is due to many reasons, starting with the level of consciousness on which they are, ending with their own personal soul plan.

Why do many not know this? Because it is intentionally concealed.

Just keep realizing that the key to our EXISTENCE is not to do meaningless things day after day, but start asking yourself about the SENSE of your existence.

If your existence had no meaning, then you would not be here!

The moment you begin to become truly aware of your whole BEING, you will find that ALL, really ALL discussions are only meant to keep you from your true calling.

Please do not get involved. Stop the spiral of thoughts and start to become aware of the magnificence of your life and how much you are actually able to give.

Come to your true greatness and discover the spark of divinity within you!

We are all from the same divine source and there is no reason to hate or judge us no matter who we are, what we think or do.

Hate can never and never will win, for for everyone who sows bad karma now, the next round goes straight into an incarnation that will be even worse than the one before. Because we take care of it ourselves,

We could achieve the ultimate freedom, but for that we have to be fully aware and understand ourselves, really understand, that we create the rules of this life ourselves!

More about it in our big book, as well as in all other books!

Take a look!

Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]

Die Bereitschaft zur Veränderung

Der eigenen Gewohnheiten, hin zu mehr Effizienz und Durchsetzungsvermögen kommt erst, wenn die Schmerzgrenze stärker erreicht ist, als die Komfortzone.

Vorher muss man nicht, und ich meine wirklich nicht! darauf warten oder hoffen, dass man sich ernsthaft bemüht, etwas anders zu machen.

Menschen verändern sich nicht, wenn es ihnen noch in irgendeiner Weise so gut geht, dass sie noch Gründe finden, sich nicht anzustrengen.

Das hat auch nichts mit anderen zu tun, sondern mit ihrem eigenen Mindset, welches nicht nach Erfolg strebt.

Oft sind auch unbewusste Glaubenssätze mit involviert.

Was ich euch sagen kann, wenn ihr euch zum besseren verändern wollt und niemand das gleiche will, wie ihr, macht es alleine.

Verlasst euch auf niemanden.

Weder euren Partner noch den besten Freund, noch eure Kinder.

Es ist euer Leben und ihr könnt es nur für euch leben und für die Kinder, solange die das überhaupt wollen.

Erfolgreich werdet ihr nur, mit Durchsetzungsvermögen und Ausdauer und Konsequenz und TUN.

Erwartet nicht, dass andere die selben Opfer bereit sind, zu bringen!

Aber wenn der Erfolg dann da ist, denkt dran, diesen Kuchen habt ihr alleine gebacken und nun verschenkt ihn nicht.

Einen wunderschönen Sonntag wünsch ich euch.

Bei uns hat es stark geregnet und die Vögel erzählen das glücklich vorm Haus.

Bis zum nächsten Blog.

aufstehen, fallen, weitergehen, circle of life, motivation, power, willenstärke, veranschaulichung

Good Night Everyone

And lets see what kind of a fucked up dream i can choose from the screen again….

Maybe ill manage to get to you my darling.. 😄💕

Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]

Dailylook #1

Warum weiß der eine mehr, der andere weniger übers Leben? Wir sagen es euch, kurz und knapp.

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

Abendliche Bilder aus dem schönen Vogelsberg

Zugegeben, ich wohne sehr idyllisch.

Und trotzdem schau ich am liebsten in den Himmel. So wie heute.

Wollt ihr mitschauen?

Sonnenuntergang, August 2020, rote, blaue, lila wolken in walform
Himmlischer Wal
Abendstunden auf dem Land
der vollmond erscheint hinter den Bäumen, über dem Berg. Im Vordergrund ein abgemähtes Weizenfeld. Es dämmert schon, ist aber noch nicht dunkel. August 2020
Der Mond erscheint während ich spazieren gehe, in seiner fast vollen Pracht.
Der Vollmond leuchtet in voller Pracht zwischen den Bäumen hervor, obwohl es immer noch hell ist. Die Dämmerung setzt aber langsam ein. August 2020
Kurz darauf schaut er zwischen den Bäumen hervor, während 21:21 die Straßenlaternen noch aus sind. Es ist noch hell.
Ein Lämmchen kniet unter seiner Mutter um bei ihr zu säugen. Es wird langsam dunkel. August 2020
Das Lämmchen will einen gute Nacht Trunk. Leider hat mein Handy plötzlich geblitzt und ich habe sie gestört. Sorry
Halber Rundumblick

Sieht das nach schlechtem Wetter aus??? Was meint ihr?

Gute Nacht!

The Unusual Day

I was working in two shifts as a security guard in a department store.

My shifts were always normal and nothing big happend for over 10 years of work until the clock demon appeared who…

Hmphf…. lets start this over..

One night i was walking the usual routine down the hallway.

„Keep the Doors shut and check everything, here are the keys and have a boring night Joe“ said my partner.

„Boring is always the best haha“ i replied.

He left and as soon as he shut the door, i heard a loud door shut from the end of the hall.

„Hey ?? Anybody still here? .. What the fuck was that man..“ i asked.

No answer. So i started to walk to the end of the hallway to secure from back to forth.

My footsteps were loud …

„Hey anybody here ? We are closing man what the fuck?“ i asked loud while taking out my taser and pointing at the door.

There were no lights on whatsoever, it didnt looked like anybody was inside.

I slowly pressed down the handle and pushed the door.. it was closed.

„Puuuhhh was i imaginating things now?“ I was sure that i saw this door shutting down.

„BAMM….“

Another door shut but this time it was in the middle of the hallway.

„HOLY FUCK.. MY HEART CANT TAKE THIS SHIT MAN“ i said nervously while pointing somewhere to the hallway.

„DONG..“

The clock in the center hit midnight.

„WHOEVER THERE IS, DONT PLAY WITH ME OR I.. OR I…“ well if its a robber, what could i do with a small taser of twenty thousand volts i asked.

„Just come out man dont play here!“ I said while walking towards the mid hallway.

I grabbed slowly the door and pushed it…but it was locked again.

I started to wonder … was this some kind of prank? I didnt understood what was going on until the clock hit again..

„DONG..“

„Wait what?? It hit midnight AGAIN?“ It was no prank anymore..

Than..“BAMMM“ another door shut but this time, something was standing there..

A black figure.

My heart was going to explode i thought.. I couldnt see its face.

„HEY STAND STILL! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE ? ANSWER ME NOW“ i yelled at him.. it looked like a guy.. atleast he was wearing some black clothes i thought.

He didnt answered but instead, something at all doors appeared written with blood

„Do you look away? It will take you! Do you look to long, it will take a light“

„What in the world was going on.. HEY ANSWER ME NOW OR I SHOOT!“ As i came closer to it, but very nervously.

The problem was..as i looked at the doors again..and so i looked away, it dissapeared.

„What the hell… man i cant take this crap, lets get the fuck out of here“ as i started to run down to the exit.

As i run, every light blew off behind me and this made me only run faster.

„I DONT WANNA DIEEE“ as i run for my live.

I rammed open the exit ..well atleast i thought i could do so while seeing the last lights turning off. At the last light it stopped…

For a second i was looking at the exit and trying to open it and suddenly…all light were shining again..

„WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?! The lights are back? Didnt they all explode just now?! did someone poison my coffee or something?“ I asked myself.

I thought i was exhausted but… i felt normal…

The hallway looked normal.

„DONG…“

All lights turned off..

I woke up in a hospital and cant remember what actually happend.

The police officer’s came to my bed and asked „Hello mr. Joe.. do you remember what happend in the department store last night? Your partner found you unconscious and coughing blood in the morning our“

„What ?? Ive got a headache and dont know anymore“

„Well than…youll have to see the video!“ they said.

They showed me the footage… i stood there and just started to scream, while the lights exploded and i appearently i lost consciousness due to shock.

„Joe we ask you one more time, Do you remember what happend there? And who was there?“

As i finally came to myself, i started to shake and i realised.. in the last moment ..that thing came up to me and screamed „YOU LOOKED AWAY“ while it smashed my head against the wall..

The video continued… and i saw myself covered in blood.

The police men said „What you saw there Joe, was a gas which was leaked through the ventilation system in order to poison you with your worst fear. This gas is highly toxic and causes very real hallucinations which cause cell death with every breath“

All this said … my question was „Than how is it possible, that the video recorded the exploding lights?“

The officers looked at each other and than replied

„Youre in bad condition joe.. take a sleep and watch the footage again“

They went out and i could hear them say something from the open window .. „Do you think we should let him go?“ … … „He isnt our concern anymore“

I rewatched the footage another time … but the only thing i saw … was myself, staring and smiling at the camera.

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

Was ist ein Visionboard und wozu dient es?

Ein Visionboard, ist die oft gepriesene grafische Aufbereitung unserer eigenen Vision, unseres Traumes, unserer Ziele.

Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com

Man könnte faul sein und Fotos suchen und die aufkleben, oder an die Wand kleben, man kann aber auch kreativ sein und seine Ziele aufmalen, oder in Lettern aufkleben, lasst eurer Fantasie freien Lauf.

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

Und wozu das ganze???

Um unser Unterbewusstsein! auf unsere Ziele / Visionen / gehoffte Erfolge einzustimmen.

Unser Unterbewusstsein entscheidet darüber wie viel Energie wir auf unser Ziel legen, wieviel Motivation wir letzten Endes besitzen und wie viel Arbeit wir investieren.

Was ist also besser, als uns unser Ziel immer mal wieder vor AUGEN zu halten?!

Selbst, wenn wir es nicht sehen, unser Gehirn weiss ganz genau, WAS wir da kreiiert haben und wird nun noch mehr Energie darauf legen, dass wir es erreichen.

Habt ihr schon mal ein Visionboard kreiiert?

Lasst es uns wissen.

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A demons playground

Hey everyone, I want to talk about things, which i learn from my constant repeating dreams, about many things in those worlds. One of those things is the behaviour of „demons“, ghosts or lets say negative entity’s. How do they behave and what kind of goal do they have? Well..ive understood that these beings like […]

Monsters cause Pain ? – A lesson

Ive had an old dream about a monster as a kid. I was standing on a street which was empty. No cars, no humans ..just Nothing but the street and few trees. I looked left and right until i noticed a black thing that had yellow eyes and it was big and covered in black […]

The Witch – Another Dream

I slept away and suddenly i stood on a big brench which was blue. The brench lead to a big tree, which was as well blue. Than a naked woman with a long tail and long darker hair stood in the end of the brench and looked at me. This tree and the entire scene […]

Astrale Welten

Hallo zusammen, Zum heutigen Abend sprechen wir darüber was denn sogenannte ausserkörperliche Reisen sind, kurz genannt über Astralreisen. Vielen ist dieses Thema fremd und viele wissen davon aber fürchten sich davor oder stempeln diese als Hirngespinste ab. Vorweg, ihr seid weder geistig am durchdrehen, noch braucht ihr davor Angst haben. Jeder …sagen wir fast jeder […]

Wie man sich effektiv vorm anfangen drückt

Es ist ja nicht so, als erzählt man das nicht immer und immer und immer wieder und noch mal.

Es ist auch nicht so, dass die Leute nicht zuhören würden.

Es ist so, man erzählt es, wie so eine Schallplatte die immer und immer und immer wieder zurückspringt.

Meine härteste Nuss hat sich meine Litanei so ungefähr, lasst mich kurz nachdenken, so um die 8 Jahre!!! werden es gewesen sein, wieder und wieder angehört, bis er ENDLICH! tatsächlich angefangen hat, dass zu tun, was ich ihm Jahrein, jahraus geraten habe.

Er hat es NICHT bereut.

Aber die Ängste und Glaubenssätze, saßen so tief, dass er sehr, sehr lange nicht über den Graben, zwischen wollen und machen, gesprungen ist.

Vor ungefähr 2-3 Jahren, hat er jetzt endlich angefangen zu tun, was ER liebt und was ER will und ich würde sagen, Mission completed.

Es hat mich 8 Jahre Überzeugungsarbeit gekostet. 8 Jahre!

Also, was ist Punkt eins, im Drücken vorm Anfangen?

In den eigenen negativen Glaubenssätzen und Ängsten suhlen. Das ist nicht unbedingt unsere Komfortzone, aber diese weitet sich dahingehend wohl einfach aus.

Punkt zwei, wie schon erwähnt, einfach nicht aus der Komfortzone raus wollen. Weil „wo ein Wille, da ein Weg.“ Und „wer nicht will, der will auch nicht.“

Punkt drei, wäre dann IN der Komfortzone, alles machen, was einen davon abhält endlich anzufangen, INKLUSIVE das nur darüber reden und lesen und stundenlange Videos drüber schauen, anstatt endlich anzufangen.

Punkt vier, keinerlei Gründe und Motivation zu finden, oder zu suchen. WARUM man es JETZT endlich durchziehen sollte.

Manch einer mag beim oben genannten Beispiel nun denken „ja was sind schon 8 Jahre, die sind schnell um.“

Darauf kann ich nur erwidern, wenn ihr nicht grad schon mit 11 wisst, was ihr werden wollte und da gezielt darauf hinarbeitet, werdet ihr wohl auch schon wesentlich älter sein, wenn ihr bemerkt dass das Hamsterrad euch nicht glücklich macht und ihr lieber eure eigenen Sache macht und DANN sind 8 Jahre schon mal ein großer Teil eures leistungsfähigen Alters und für manch einen, ist es dann einfach zu spät!

Ich kann es nur wieder und wieder sagen.

Fangt an, bevor es zu spät ist. Niemand lebt ewig und irgendwann ist es ungleich schwerer noch das zu tun, was man wirklich wollte.

Ich werde wohl noch ein paar Blogs darüber schreiben, auch wie wichtig es ist, zu wissen warum man sein eigenes Ding durchziehen sollte. Was nicht nur in Bezug auf Geld verdienen gemeint ist.

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Allein unter Blinden…ich sehe was, was Du nicht siehst!

Manchmal denke ich, ich lebe in einer völlig anderen Welt, als die meisten anderen Menschen, die ich kenne. Manchmal beneide ich diese Menschen um ihre Gabe, das Offensichtliche nicht zu sehen und um ihre Ignoranz, das Wesentliche auszublenden. Blind zu sein, auf dem Auge des Mitgefühls. Aber tauschen möchte ich nicht mehr mit ihnen, selbst […]

Allein unter Blinden…ich sehe was, was Du nicht siehst!

My Questions…

I was wondering why humans are as they are.

How can i explain it,

Dont you wonder sometimes why humans or lets say each individual is so limited towards themselves?

We do so much stuff unconsciously and never ask why or how it can be and that is why many fail.

A lot just dont ask themselves these questions which would lead to true understanding, instead they eat what they get and listen what the media and tv tells them.

Ive noticed that yesterday with my parents. It is a real task to tell them anything new because they scream before you finish the sentence.

Its like they never hear what you try to say, strange isnt it? Well… No … i would say that THIS is the REAL mind control agenda in the entire world. While they test their thesis on individuals, they do the same with the bright mass.

They become fearful puppets not for the state or nation, but of their own mind!

The own limitation by closing eyes and ears, eating bullshit from the media, it mixed itself to a pillar of fear for its own existence..

The bright mass.. wants to be ruled and they show it by their behaviour to themselves

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

Another Hot Day

Its really hard to go somewhere in this kind of weather.

We have 30° celsius in the shadows and 45 in the sun.

You probably can imagine how a walk for 30 minutes feels outside.

The skin is wet, the hair falls in the eyes and all clothes are soaked …

A blizzard would be nice …

Meanwhile i try to make some new short story’s, maybe with voice or a little video ?

I am not sure yet.

Lets eat and find it out.

Friendly regards to all of you 🙂

Warum ich selten glücklich bin!

Heute mal wieder zu später Stunde ein paar Gedanken über mein liebstes Thema „Realität und Dummheit“.

Kurz gesagt, Dummheit ist schon lange einer meiner Trigger, wobei ich das dann auch, je nach Vorfall, anders definiere.

Eigentlich ist mir völlig bewusst, dass ich das Zeug dazu habe, gar nicht zu reagieren und entsprechend auch nichts weiter wäre, als die „Dummheit “ und denjenigen der sie „auslöst oder verursacht“.

Aber nein, da es mich triggert, reiß ich mein Maul auf und versuche denjenigen „aufzuklären“.

Ihr wisst das ist sinnlos und meist vergeudete Zeit.

Aber ich bin wie ich bin und ich seh mich heute noch, als wäre es gestern gewesen, vor der Oberin im Krankenhaus sitzen, beim Vorstellungsgespräch und höre mich auf die Frage „warum ich denn Krankenschwester werden will“, Antworten mit „weil ich den Menschen helfen will „

Für diese Dummheit könnte ich mich heute noch Ohrfeigen und da mich das bis heute verfolgt, diese Ausbildung war der worst Case was ich an menschlichen niedrigen Charakterzügen, die ich bis dato wirklich nicht kannte und mich dort zeitweise in üble Depressionen getrieben hatte, erlebte, es war an manchen Tagen ein Alptraum.

Also wird diese Zeit wohl der Triggerursprung sein und ich hasse inbrünstig dumme Leute, einfach weil ich sonst jeden hassen müsste und ich es auf „dumme“ runter gebrochen habe.

Nun bin ich aber auch schon viele Jahre mit Persönlichkeitsentwicklung vertraut und Psychologie ist ein großes Thema bei mir, ich liebe es ja Krankheiten und Symptome psychosomatisch zu erklären und spirituelle Sachen mit hineininterpretieren oder zu bringen und weiss wie es anders und vor allem besser geht.

Aber wie sagt man? „Der Schuster hat oft die schlechtesten Schuhe .“

Ich arbeite also schon seit Jahren daran, für jeden Menschen der mich aufregt eine Erklärung und Entschuldigung zu finden, warum er so ist.

Die einzige Person die dabei weder Erklärungen noch Entschuldigung erfährt, ihr ahnt es schon, bin ich.

Das ist per se auch eigentlich gar nicht schlimm, habe ich immerhin auch nicht vor, 80 Jahre alt zu werden.

Aber ich habe gelernt, auch alles zu erklären und zu entschuldigen, ändert nichts an der Tatsache, dass man Menschen, die das nicht wollen, gar nicht helfen kann.

Vielleicht für einen kurzen Moment und vielleicht reicht das auch schon.

Aber man sollte tatsächlich zuerst sich um sich selbst und sein Seelenheil kümmern und dann überlegen ob sich der Aufwand lohnt.

Ich habe in einem ähnlichen Moment zu meinem Mann gesagt „am Ende muss man davon ausgehen, dass man effektiv vielleicht einem oder vielleicht fünf Menschen wirklich und dauerhaft geholfen hat. Aber erwarten darf man das nicht.

Es sind unsere hohen Erwartungen die uns tief fallen lassen und daran sind wir ganz allein schuld.

Wenn wir wirklich realistisch sind, werden wir zugeben müssen, dass unsere Gesellschaft ein bunter Haufen seelischer und geistiger, teilweise degenerierter Schwachköpfe Egoisten sind und das wäre auch völlig okay so.

Aber sie können andere auch nicht in Frieden leben lassen. Und DAS ist für mich der springende Punkt.

Es krankt schon in den Ursprüngen unseres Systems und wird sich so schnell auch nicht bessern.

Und daran werden wir krank.

Entweder wir besinnen uns endlich alle, dass wir irgendwie alle in einem Boot sitzen oder wir ballern uns zurück in die Steinzeit.

Hoffentlich sind unsere Kinder dann auch schon 80.

Gefährliche Straßen

Ich merke es immer wieder beim Fahren wie gefährlich es ist, wenn die Hälfte der Fahrer ihre Fahrererlaubnis gekauft haben, statt die Prüfungen zu machen.

Und ja hier zählt man nur mit Geld als irgendwer oder irgendwas. Daher kann man sich nur mit Geld überall einkaufen.

Doch nicht nur sind es Autofahrer welche einem die Vorfahrt nehmen, sondern auch Kühe..

Es laufen ständig Kühe auf der Straße, welche man sehr schnell umnieten könnte, sobald man für ne Sekunde weg schaut.

Manchmal springen sie von einem Hügel mitten auf die Straße. Manchmal sind es aber auch Katzen oder Hunde.

Die Kühe werden oft nicht in Gehegen gehalten sondern laufen frühs beim Besitzer raus und kommen abends selbst wieder zurück. Nur manchmal überwacht ein Reiter das Vieh.

Diese Kühe stehen manchmal sogar zu Absicht mitten auf der Straße xD und drehen den kopf zum Auto sobald man zu nah ran fährt.

Fazit: Haltet eure Kühe an der Leine und lasst sie nicht wie Touristen durch die Stadt spazieren! 😂

The Eyes in the Dark

I was sitting in my room while reading a book. It was called „The forbidden Secrets of Mankind“.

It was boring at first until it started to tell about monsters which surrounded us a long time ago and that they feed of energy.

Suddenly a strong wind came up and i went to my window to close it but i noticed two glimmering yellow eyes from the woods, staring at me without blinking.

I got scared and put my glasses on,

It were just 2 old bicycle lamps which reflected the floor light back..

I went to sleep, it was late.

EXPERIMENT – M – CHAPTER 1

„beep beep beep“ the alarm clock sounds. ignore

„piiiiep piiiieeep piiieeeeep“ shrill screeching of the alarm clock, my heartbeat soaring, that the breathing mask crashes into my face,

„DAMNED“ – I shout unabashedly – nobody hears me here anyway.

Not only am I awake, I am also directly annoyed and before my morning ration of „gold“ I am not master of my senses.

Mistress, mind you, but nobody here is interested in that. Least of all me.

A short time later, after a short lap of honor in what they call „bath“ here, jail would be more appropriate, I am already on my way to the research room.

Today a new experiment is on the agenda, Torben, our leader has been raving about it all last week.

Today it’s getting serious.

The new experiment is supposed to prove that there are genetically created races that are able to develop independently and treat their planet lovingly and not destroy it.

Experiments A to L were pure failures. As was to be expected.

This universe was one of the younger ones and one could almost rightly claim to be one of the most unnecessary.

Torben, hated it when I said that. But I was convinced of that.

We had consistently had bad results in all previous experiments.

Either the experiments destroyed themselves in a very short time, or their planet, or both.

Our team, put all their hopes on – M – In the belief that the mistakes of the past would not be made again.

After all, the mistakes in the genetic code had been corrected, and there were already promising species on the planet we wanted to integrate.

When I arrived, the whole team was already assembled and looked out of the round window that stretched across the entire room. The view was once again overwhelming.

„Too bad that this beautiful planet will soon be a heap of ashes and coal dust, too,“ Brian murmured as I stood next to him. Torben looked over at us disapprovingly.

„A little more enthusiasm people. Just try harder,“ he said and went to his desk.

„In 15 minutes we will reach their orbit. There’s no mention in our files that any of us have been here, so I guess we’re free to go and have a good romp.“

So we went to him.

The moment when we initiated the start of the experiments was always particularly solemn … we hugged each other and I looked at my husband, who had been trying to get through to me the whole time.

Since telepathy was forbidden on the ship, I couldn’t show him that his signals were getting through, but he knew from my facial expressions that they were. There were many couples on the ship, but our boss said it would lower the group’s morale if we showed it too openly, so we couldn’t even stay in the same cabins.

What were we getting into?

„Hey, Kati. You’re the first one today. Let’s go.“

My husband got big eyes and a red head, I knew he hated it when Brian and Torben preferred me.

To be first on the new planet was also to be favoured by the bosses, but they probably just chose me because I was the last one to arrive at the meeting.

„Well then. Here we go.“ I said, „Here we go,“ and I laid down on the appropriate chaise longue and got wired across the room.

„But this time, don’t put life support on until after I’ve gone. I said that, and everyone laughed.

The bums had already slammed the tube onto my chest when I hadn’t even been over there yet.

„Guys, this stuff is just so you don’t have to check up on me so much. When is my husband coming?“

He was already standing next to me, giving me one last kiss and whispering to me, „Soon my heart. I won’t let you wait too long.“

I was going to say „You say that every time.“ But then it started.

Through a monitor I was shown what we already knew about the planet and through a cable this was sent directly into my memory.

In addition I saw pictures which already let me suspect that also experiment – M – would fail again, like the others before.

Although the predominant species there did not seem to be too intelligent, it was apparently unconscious to a great extent and strove to kill everything was foreign to it.

„This is gonna be fun.“ The others around me nodded. I’ve never seen a planet worse than this one.

Since I had not written the schedule and only knew the rough task details, Brian felt that too much knowledge spoils the effect. I was curious to see what I would end up with this time.

Well.., this time no exoskeleton seemed to be needed, which was the case on almost all other planets and annoyed us.

The freedom of movement with these things, is immensely limited and no one can say that it is fun. Although mature exoskeletons were able to adapt well to the body inside, but in principle they were all useless.

After that it turned black around me and I lost consciousness…

Part 2 on its way! Katja

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

Small Motivation for you

It doesn’t matter how you get there, what matters is that you get there.

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It doesn’t matter how you get there, what matters is that you get there.

Dark Rituals and Blood ? Part 2

The screen showed five teenagers which were bound on chair and they seemed to cry. Their eyes were bound with tape.

Meanwhile some people started to laugh and under these people, we even saw Bill B., K.P. and many more.

We didnt expect these people to be here. They were neither guarded or secured. It really seemed like a „party“ were everyone was equal and „knew“ each other.

While the people laughed, me and my wife looked each other in the eyes and understood what was going to come.

Those who organised this party went on and gave everyone a mask.

My wife got a cat mask and i got a gorilla mask.. no one would notice us now we thought.

„EVERYBODY … MASKS ON AND ENJOY THE LITTLE TEASER … hahaha“ said the pig mask guy.

Suddenly the people on the screen got tasered by people who wore black robe’s and pig masks.

„WHEN THE PREY SCREAMS, IT GETS TASERED AND WHEN YOU CRY, WE EAT YOU ALL ALIVE“ said one of the black robe guy.

The people started to laugh like it was a commedy show.

It seemed we were the only normal people in this underground building.

No one could go out until the show was over.

My wife got disgusted and needed a bathroom.

„Are you okay? Lets go to a bathroom“ i said.

We both got to a very luxerous bathroom and i waited until she was …. finished with puking.

Bill B. came in.. „I see its your first time here?“

„Yes it is … and our first time to this kind of fun“ i replied.

„Hahaha .. it hasnt even begun, wait until you see the baby’s“ while he washed his hands and smiled.

„We look forward to it!“ i said while starting to laugh myself. Not because of the „fun“ what was going to come, but because a „Bill B.“ talked about killing baby’s and smiling about it.

I asked myself …what if all the bullshit from the internet was true what they said about him?

We would soon see..

Bill left and my wife came out of the bathroom.

It was strange that the womans and mens bathroom were all the same. I mean what idiot doesnt respect privacy?

We left the bathroom and took our masks back on.

„AND THAT IT IS FOR THE TRAILER LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, GO THROUGH THE NEXT GATE TO THE REAL FUN“ the pig guy said.

A big metal door opened behind the screen and everybody went in, as we heird some say „Iam so excited ..we can finally let it loose again“

We wondered what they meant as we walked with the crowd and my wife held my arm.

A loud „DONG … DONG“ … Two paths appeared .. The people followed their lust..

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

Methoden der Zielfindung + Pareto Prinzip

Getreu dem Motto „alles lief genau der Plan, aber der war eben scheiße“ , geht es heute mal kurz darum, wie man sich selbst erreichbare Ziele setzt und wie man feststellt ob diese Ziele realistisch oder sagen wir besser, machbar sind.

Dabei gilt, nichts ist unmöglich und alles erreichbar, aber je höher das Ziel, desto mehr Hingabe und Aufmerksamkeit und Geduld erfordert es.


Was ist ein Ziel?

Ein angestrebter Zustand oder eine angestrebte Situation in der Zukunft.

Es wird unterschieden in kurzfristige, mittelfristige oder langfristige Ziele.

Wie gesagt, im Regelfall dauert das Erreichen größerer Ziele, die ich nur durch meine aktive Arbeit erreiche, deutlich länger, als die Bockwurst die ich mir heute Abend an der Tanke holen möchte.

Zielfindungsprozesse

  1. Analyse des IST-Zustand
  2. Finden des SOLL-Zustandes
  3. Entwickeln einer Strategie
  4. Planen der nötigen Schritte / To Do Listen erleichtern das ganze
  5. Unterteilen in einzelne Abschnitte / Meilensteine setzen mit Belohnungssystem, wenn gewünscht
  6. Kontrolle ob die Abschnitte nach den vorhandenen Wünschen erreicht wurden
  7. Analyse Ja/Nein/Warum
  8. ggf. überarbeiten der einzelnen Teilabschnitte
  9. Ausführung
  10. erneute Kontrolle und ggf. Optimierung der Strategien
  11. Ziel erreicht!

Pareto Prinzip

Pareto, war ein italienischer Ökonom der um das 19. Jahrhundert herum, die Beobachtung machte, dass in seiner Gegend ungefähr 80% der Gebäude nur etwa 20% der Bevölkerung gehörten.

Im Laufe der Zeit, erkannte man, dieses Prinzip im Hinterkopf habend, dass es auch auf andere Bereiche unseres Lebens zutraf.

80% des Umsatzes einer Firma werden durch 20% der Mitarbeiter erwirtschaftet.

Mit nur 20% der Zeit, effektiv genutzt, hat man 80% seines Jobs erledigt usw.

Das passt übrigens zu neuesten Studien, wonach Büromitarbeiter, den größten Teil ihres Arbeitsalltags mit allem möglichen verbringen, außer effektiv arbeiten.

Natürlich sollte man nun keine Korinthenkackerei betreiben und diese Zahlen festnageln.

Aber lasst es uns einmal verdeutlichen.

Je mehr Zeit wir EFFEKTIV nutzen, und voraus planen, desto weniger Aufwand benötigen wir um unser Ziel in der bestmöglichen Zeit zu erreichen.

Ein positiver Nebeneffekt ist eine bessere Work-Life-Balance. Was auch vor einem Burn Out und Depressionen sowie anderen desaströsen Zuständen schützt.

Zielbewertung

Um überhaupt erst einmal zu wissen, welche Ziele denn überhaupt die wichtigsten sind.

Dies steht meist im unmittelbaren Zusammenhang mit unserer derzeitigen IST-Situation und ist quasi das „dringendste Problem“. Oft ist es unsere finanzielle Situation, dass wie einen (besseren oder besserbezahlten) Job finden möchten.

Unser Portemonnaie nicht mehr verhungert. Ein Haus, ein Auto ein Boot. Man kennt das.

Wir bewerten also unsere Ziele erst einmal nach Dringlichkeit. Und schon stellen wir fest, dass es gar nicht mehr so viele Ziele für den Moent sind.

Sollten wir feststellen, dass sie sich im Bereich unserer Lebenserhaltung befinden.

In Deutschland haben fast alle Wohnraum und Auto, aber nicht alle einen guten Job..

Wir können also schon hier runterbrechen, von 10 Zielen, sind 2 essentiell und diese 2 schaue ich mir genauer an.

Pareto Prinzip schon einmal angewandt.

Das Pareto Optimum ist, wenn ich mit den zu erreichenden Zielen, auch die Lebensqualität meiner Kinder und Angehörigen verbessern kann.

Das ganze kann übrigens zu Lasten anderer gehen, da nirgends die Frage nach der Gerechtigkeit gestellt wird, aber auch dass kennt man hierzulande.

Das war es eigentlich schon, kurz erklärt.

Danke für Eure Aufmerksamkeit und wenn ihr schon immer mal ein Thema Eurer Wahl näher erläutert haben wollte, nennt es uns.

Bewertung: 1 von 5.

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The Witch – Another Dream

I slept away and suddenly i stood on a big brench which was blue.

The brench lead to a big tree, which was as well blue.

Than a naked woman with a long tail and long darker hair stood in the end of the brench and looked at me.

This tree and the entire scene was in the middle of nowhere. The background was black and if i would fall, the scene would fall apart i knew.

The woman or as i thought „WITCH!“ asked me „What do you desire the most, that i could give you?“ This question seemed easy because i knew, bringing my wife from the other end of this planet wouldnt work …at all…

So i answered „Ultimate Power“ – Than the tree brought up many other people which were connected to the tree… Lets say they were corrupted and fell to her spell.

She walked towards me slowly while pushing aside the hanging blue body’s. I thought that these might attack me but i wasnt scared and neither did i wanted anything from her.

I decided to fly upwards, so she couldnt reach me.

She understood that she couldnt catch me with her spell, neither had it any effect even if she wouldve catch me.

Her spell was to seduce its prey and wrap them up under a false promise, while the tree did the rest.

She was a witch who posessed the willingless prey…

While i flew away, she screamed loud and looked rather dissapointed.

I woke up …

Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

Dark Rituals And Blood? Part 1

This is our experience inside a „Ritual Party“ or how they say „The Party of High“.

Me and my wife had been inside this forum for few weeks, just to see how this kind of people are and what they actually do.

It was only accessible with a special key which was „BABYJUICE“ but spelled backwards.

This was only attainable from a recommendation trough another guy who’s trust was needed.

They offered and invited us to one of their strict and forbidden party’s, which was held once every two years.

They didnt told us anything about details, but they said „Food and drugs are free“.

We thought that it might be not that bad.

Well… it was worse!

We didnt knew how to cloth ourselves, so i just wore a suit and my wife took her black dress.

We took a taxi to a central place and waited for the „friend“ who waited for us there.

As we arrived, he was standing there and said hi to us and that this coming night will be our best.

„We will now take another drive and the location where we are going, will be underground. So dont worry, no one is going to kidnapp you because many get nervous their first time“ he said smiling.

We thought he was okay, so we got relaxed and got into the fancy car and drove to the location..

….. Meanwhile driving ….

„You said drugs are free too?“ i asked him.

He started laughing and said „Youll gonna love it, it is really fun and even funnier under a special drug“

We didnt bothered to ask more and just sat quiet in the car while looking out the window.

„Try to make friends there, many big names arrive tonight“ he said.

To be honest we didnt bothered about any big name or even if god would arrive there, we just wanted to see what the self claimed „elite“ did to have fun. This was a lifetime chance to see their real faces!

We played along and answered as usual to every question someone asked us. If those people would know for what we are really here, we probably would just dissapear from the earth.

Since my wife is exactly like me, i didnt need to worry about anything bad. She knew what she was doing.

We arrived at a farm but no one was standing there.

„We arrived, please press the button to your left from outside the window“

My wife pressed it and a tunnel opened before us.

„Lets go, we walk the rest“ said the friend who’s name we only knew from the internet…

We got out and didnt knew what to expect.

After we went in, the guy said „go ahead ill be right back“ – so we went in alone but already started to hear musik.

As we walked down, we saw the entrance to the party, a giant head from lucifer which was gloving in red and orange, with a pinky voice asked us „Death or Fun?“

Of course we said fun and than a light point on the wall appeared, so we followed.

We got nervous and werent sure if we should continue because we didnt saw anybody either.

Out of nowhere, the friend appeared and said „lets have fun now“ while started to laugh.

We came to a big area with many people, gentle music and YES we did cloth us right. They all were in suits and it seemed just like a normal evening but nothing seemed special we thought.

I asked Kate, my wife „What do you think? Shall we seperate few meters and take closer looks on whats going on?“ i asked.

„NO! we dont seperate, ive got a bad feeling about whats going to come“ she said.

So we stood together and looked a bit around. We didnt knew anybody but neither wanted to talk too much.

„WELCOME LADIES AND GENTLEMAN TO THIS BLOODY NIGHT OF FUN“ said a man while wearing a pig mask.

It looked creepy…

„WE SHALL CLOSE THE GATES NOW AND BEGIN THE CEREMONY“

The doors and gates closed and a big screen appeared in front of us.

What we saw next was breath taking..

Another Weird Dream

I was sitting on a couch with few people i didnt knew and never saw anywhere.

We were watching tv or… they were watching.

I stood up and asked the crowd „Lets jump into the scene inside the tv, why sit and just watch it?“

There was no answer and no one really looked at me at all… Couldnt they see or hear me ?

Well i didnt bothered too much and stood on the couch.

Then i took a little sitting position and jumped straight into the tv, still no one was bothered nor looked.

So i flew and thought that i will pass trough it but suddenly i stopped right before, because there was no scene or picture going on.

I saw this screen again from other dreams and i started to puzzle few colors into a picture.

Suddenly the scene behind me changed to the picture i puzzled but the screen made automatical changes and formed the rest.

This was quite interesting to see the screen „not working“

There still much out there…

I will try to see what the screen can do, since it isnt my first nor fifth time experiencing this.

Days of a Corrupt Cop

It was easy to sell someone out.

Gangs and pedophiles came up to cops which had been known as „corrupt“ and „coorporative“ and paid a lot of money to do what they did.

We were five police men in our group and our super visor had an even bigger game going on.

For example, last week we had a raid because someone called us and told „he got weapons and a grenade in his house“.

Unfortunately, it was an old lady which our super visor told us to „take out“. He ordered us to throw a grenade through the window and than to kick the door in and arrest everyone for posession of a weapon. This gave him a silver star on his chest… well done sir.

What kind of asshole do you need to be ?

Well we all have been assholes since no one said „no we dont do it“ because everyone was afraid to loose the job or be the next.

This stuff happend a lot and we were all hated but loved by the gangs …

The next thing was called „the street sell“.

We did daily position ourselves at random places and controlled everybodys car and if they had their belts on. If someone didnt liked it and got no explanation why he was searched, we offered him to pay us a fee and let them go, while threatening him with the court.

If our colleagues or other cops caught us doing this stuff, it would be over.

We made good money… but it was all filled with bad energy and we gave it to the supervisor.

He suddenly bought a Lambo and screwed too much around. Than he landed in the news and now the government got involved and sent a few guys over to us.

They were asking how he afforded this car and well… we told them everything.

They smiled and walked off.

At a sunday i hear a loud knock on the door.. What was going on?

Suddenly they kick the door open and its the police.

„GET ON THE FUCKING GROUND YOUR UNDER ARREST FOR DRUG DEALING! WE KNOW THAT YOU TOOK THE DRUGS OUT FROM THE SECURE ROOM AND SOLD IT ON THE STREETS!“

Fuck….. the bastard of a super visor had done a deal with the two government agents. He sold our group like we sold him, but only he had enough money to buy his way out of trouble….

After few weeks…

NEWS – Deputy Sheriff under arrest for illegal activity’s! Agents take police station over!

Well…thats what you get for doing this shit for too long.. it seemed that his pay mattered little to the government

And by the way, we captured every pedophile! It was our „eat and bite“ – game.

Now i chill in prison and can smack the tooth out of our super visor, since i never came out again…

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Fakechecks mit Fakeresultaten!

Einen wunderschönen guten Morgen.

Sagt mal, fällt das nur mir auf, oder habt ihr auch schon bemerkt, dass Correctiv und Minikama und co falsch „fake checken “ und wahre Sachen als Fake deklarieren und dann falsche Behauptungen aufstellen.

Das dumm unwissend halten der Bevölkerung, scheint System zu haben.

Ich habe schon in meinem Impfen Blogs , Behauptungen von Correctiv widerlegt, aber es scheint tatsächlich von irgendwelchen Menschen so gewollt zu sein, dass das Bewusstsein der Menschen absichtlich niedrig gehalten wird.

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/07/10/was-ist-impfen-teil-1/

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/07/11/was-ist-impfen-teil-2/

Ich werde echt mal wieder über Intuition und Bauchgefühl reden, damit wird alle irgendwann merken, WIE extrem wir von außen manipuliert werden sollen.

https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/07/04/was-ist-intuition/

Nur ein schweigsamer Sklave ist ein guter Sklave.

Sagt mir mal, was ihr in dieser Richtung schon mitbekommen habt.


Dagestan and Criminal Money Mining – Another Day

Hello all.

Its the second day without electricity at work and people start to wonder why and what is going on.

Well they repaired the problem and cut loose all the illegal cabel’s which were connected on the main transformators.

The first one exploded because many people had taken electricity illegally from the city.

To be honest, electro energy is very cheap in russia and everyone could easily afford it but NO, theres always some idiot who wants it for free.

The problem is that the transformator and connector gets overheated and can explode.

So the people thought okay, lets put in a new transformator and cut all illegal idiots right?

Well yes it worked…for 2 hours until the new one exploded too.

Now the police gets involved and investigates what is going on.

A new transformator cant just explode in two hours, specially when all illegals got cut, so whats causing the problem?

There are rumors that a guy is hidden somewhere with big computers and mines money illegally. Here its called „Butterfly money mining“.

I have zero idea what that is and neither how its done but someone told me, that it eats insane energy and it kills transformators.

It has something to do with online currency as i know.

In Dagestan there were few people who got caught and this time it seems to be in our place.

Hopefully he or she gets caught, it disrupted already 24 Shops and more. This mining method can take a whole city’s energy if its overdone.

Did any of you guys know what „Butterfly money mining“ is ?

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place.. Do you feel that too sometimes ? A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]

car accident

Yes it happend… my first car accident …today.

I should’ve waited until the mercedes got off the road.. but i let my foot loose of the brake and my car rammed the backside.

The problem is ..that the car was a fucking mercedes… for my luck, nothing much happend.

It couldve ended with alot of money loss, but i managed to talk the guy down, somehow.

My car took the most damage and needs a fix, but who cares about a car which can be taken away by police every moment. The first guy bought it with a loan from the bank and after a history of bullshit and corrupt police, the car ended with us and now the bank wants the car back. XD

Next time i will know for sure.

…or take the bus 😂

Deathrow Prisoner

Hmmmmmmmm … who are we going to kill today?

„Lets punch through the wall and take a walk“

The deathrow prisoner Speck. Appearently no military force or special unit can stop him.

He comes and goes to our prison like it is a hotel suite.

„How embarressing!! We as the chief and commander of this town cant do anything against him… Damn this Speck! Is there no match for him?!“

Meanwhile he broke out again. It was the seventh time in two days.

The police dont even bother anymore to capture him, since he is coming back on his own. But how can the police react when he smashes the head of a civilian to the ground and rips his head off?

That freak is unstoppable! Bullets cant pierce him, kicks or punchs do even less, and trying to hold him in chains is suicide and he still breaks them like nothing.

Yesterday he went „shopping“ and broke every bone from the cashier. The wall was full of blood and he wrote „HA HA HA HA …PAID“ and after that, he came back to prison, took a piss and with his unwashed hands, he took a guards head and gave him treats to eat.

The guard refused and tried to shoot him but Speck punched a hole in his mouth and put the bag inside… And afterwards took a sleep back in his cell.

We already have tried every damn thing. Special bullets, gas, poison and even drowning. All got killed…the videos are brutal.

We expect some athlets to take him out but most of those martial arts and wrestling guys are useless idiots who cant see how unfair he fights because he wants to have fun.

A week ago, a boxer wanted to fight him. Speck stood behind him and said „Hello mr. Boxer“.

You have to know, Speck is two and a half meters high and probably the same size are his muscles while is agile and fast.

The boxer got intimidated but threw a punch. Unfortunatly no one, not even us counted with the coming surprise.

Speck took a hand granade which he stole from our police station, and rammed it up his throat. The boxer’s body got blown to pieces and blood filled the area. Everyone was shocked.

Except Speck… he was laughing and … started running towards us..

Mein erstes Buch – Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet – Teil 1

Aktuell arbeite ich noch an meinem ersten Buch, welches unter dem Titel „Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet“ erscheinen soll. Es liegt noch ein kleiner Weg vor mir, aber es ist schon fast fertig. Ich überlege noch, ob ich selbst verlege oder verlegen lasse. Ich bin noch ein klein wenig planlos. Zumal mein eigenes Zeitmanagement ja immer von […]

Repetitive Dream – Horror games

Ive had a very crazy dream last night ..which was another repeating dream..that really sucked. This time there was a gang or group and they killed randomly people who stood against them and which tried to run from them. One crazy bitch was running after me and she had a giant knife mixed with a […]

Mein erstes Buch – Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet – Teil 2

Nun ist es geboren. 😉 Und ich freue mich wirklich riesig, dass ich mich dazu durchgerungen habe, meine Gedanken auf Papier zu bringen und dass ich damit vielleicht auch dem ein oder anderen helfen kann. Für Alle, die es interessiert, gibt es hier mein Buch: Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet Ich schreibe darin über die Entstehung unserer […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]

Am i less worth ? – The Floor of Nightmares

I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]

Weekend fun

It was a late afternoon.

I went to a club which had opened new and which seemed to be really good according to some people.

On arrival i noticed some fance cars and a red carped. What was going on ? Was it always like this?

I went in and a lot of people stood there to get a ticket inside. I guess i just came in time and got lucky.

Few „celebs“ were drinking and dancing there too.. It was a rather normal club atmosphere.

One guy was drunk as hell and puked all over himself and a few guests, they werent happy.

It had another two floors and the third was secured and only for „special people“ as the security told.

I saw a group of people which seemed to go to the third floor. I stood behind them and walked as if i was one of them. I just really wanted to see what was on the third floor.

But the guards stopped me.

„Wait youre that guy on the poster at the wall!“

Me ? N- No youve mistaken, thats my twin brother, his name is gofuckyourself – and i ran down to the first floor to the exit.

A guard rammed me off my way and i lost consciousness.

„Five – one, we got the motherfucker who stole money from us last weekend. Not so smart to come a second time to this place ha?“

I woke up in a chair and two police men stood with the guards. I saw how they bribed the two cops.

What happend after?

Well i lost my clothing and nearly few fingers… I cry’d myself out of it and only got big kick to my face.

Im alive, the money is still save.

Next week, ill try the club on the next street… They will have a mask party…

A sunday surprise

It was sunday again.

And yes i didnt really liked that day, because it got very quiet around the building of our office.

I was the ceo of a big company and stood there after saturday to get more work done.

It was late already and i drank my last coffee until… „krrschhh“

It sounded like glas was shattered. But here in the office ? We had nothing glas like stuff around.

I stood up and walked down the dark floor.

„Hello? Anybody still here hiding?“

A door in the end of the building shut itself loudly down – „BAMM“

My heart startet to race. „Hey anybody there?“ while i walked steady towards the door.

A few meters before, it slowly opened with a cracking sound and i heard a broken radio play a song…but it was played backwards.

I felt danger and darkness coming from that room which actually was a bigger room with nothing much in it.

I went in and turned on the lights.. but there was no radio sound anymore …everything seemed clear.

My sight went to a door inside the room which i really was sure, never existed before.

The door shut open and crashed loudly into the wall but stood still without bouncing. This gave me chills down my spine… How in the world did it not bounce ? I was sure it was kicked or rammed open..

I felt that danger from before again, that i should not enter the dark room before me.. It was like the darkness smiled right at me..

I went on and… My face crashed against the wall.

„What the fuck?! The door dissapeared?? Or did it never existed?“ i asked myself while my nose was bleeding.

I went back and closed the door while looking several times back, just to ensure that i wasnt hallucinating things.

After i closed the door slowly.. the radio sound came back again from the door.

I panicked and my heart was racing. Should i open the door again? What is going on? ….I knew the horror movies were the scary part went on and on until a monster appeared to tere the head of the protagonist. I hoped i was just a side character and could leave the building unharmed.

I ran back to my office room and shut the door. I took the phone and called the security which i saw on the security cameras.

„Hey all of you guys, come up here and take your gun, you might need to use it“ i said shaking.

But the guards…they looked at me without reacting.

They looked straight at the camera and the signal got lost. I really got nervous and knew that this wasnt some stuff that i imaginated.

After four hours in my office, i received a call from my wife.

Why did she call me ? She knew i was coming early but not at four in the morning.

„Yes darling?“

„Krrssschsschshs“ ..the same radio sound came out of the phone.

My heart dropped to the floor and in the same moment, something kicked my office door and broke it open…but no one went in.

I took the shotgun which i had stored under my desk for a last standoff with anybody … guess it was the moment of use.

I loaded the gun „Whoever there is, if you dont want your head get shot, you better come out!“ i said loud.

The door stood wide open but it was dark for whatever reason.

I went slowly in .. and „BAFF“ the door shut down behind me and i turned back and shot the door once.

Suddenly the light goes on ..

„SURPRIIISE!!! HAPPY BIRTH DAY!“ – All colleagues were standing in front of me with a big smile and an even bigger cake.

„Boss did you forgot your own birthday?“

What ? I knew the date of my birthday i thought.

„Oh yes …actually i did! Well guys thank you very much!“ said i while still sweating..

Why ?

Because my „colleagues“ had wounds and cuts on their bodys while some of their heads were cut in half..

I stood in shock and pointed my shotgun towards them.

„HEY WHOOW TAKE THE GUN DOWN – WHAT THE HELL?!“

„I see your true faces you little cunts, time to DIE!“

„NO WAIT WE …“

…. BOOM…. …. …. Her stomach got blown away.. ….

„…… had drugged ..your coffeeee…“

„Kssh – Ksh“ – BOOM!

The Mirror House

Few days ago in a hospital …

Four police officers were standing infront of my bed …asking what happend at night in that house..

My body started to shake…

I faded away for the second time. The sisters rushed to my aid … i slept for another half an hour.

After i woke up again, the four police men were gone and only two were left.

I started to tell them what happend that night..

They didnt believed me like in a bad horror film..

It was true i said… That house was full of mirrors and every single one of them brought out loud screams and unhuman voices..

We panicked and tried to run away from there but Kane and Jessica were gone..

I dont remember what happend to them…

The walls of the hospital started to shake and scream like that house.

My blood pressure went sky high, the room was suddenly empty,

What was going on?? Where are the police men and the nurses??

I covered my head under the blanked and just waited until all was over…

A moment went by…and another….and another…and another… … … the room became quiet.

I turned away the blanked and my heart skipped a beat.

A big mirror was in front of me.. I stood up carefully and slowly walked towards it.

What was the meaning of this??

As i came closer, ive stood before the mirror … It showed me, watching myself in the mirror.

Ive turned fast around and nothing was there.

Ive looked back into the mirror and as i turned around, a hand grabbed me at my shoulder.

My heart stopped….

„Karl its time for your medicine again, come and take it“

Said the nurse who was standing in front of me.

She had a weird smile. Her teeth were spiky ..

alltagsgeschichten #1

Ich melde mich mal wieder im „Bloggerstyle“ zu Wort.

Um mal ein paar Einblicke in mein Alltagsgeschehen zu geben, während ich freiwillig oder gezwungenermaßen, von daheim aus versuche am Computer- im Homeoffice zu arbeiten oder etwas sinnvolles, Mehrwert – contenthaltiges zu bloggen.

Und dabei Kinder beaufsichtige und bespaße.

Wer es kennt, weiß so vor halb vier 15:30 Uhr braucht man gar nicht ernsthaft in Erwägung zu ziehen, den Laptop auch nur aufzuklappen.

Und nach 21 Uhr fällt man eigentlich tot ins Bett, es sei denn die Kinder sind noch fit, um diese Zeit.

Wann also, soll man arbeiten oder recherchieren, was auch immer. Naja, wir geben uns alle Mühe. Also hier ein paar Sätze, bevor ich endlich richtigen Content bringen kann.. sprich, ich die Ruhe habe ordentlich zu recherchieren. Heute hat es auch Wetter-technisch nichts von „auf den Spielplatz“ gehen, danke heftiger Regenfälle..


Ich erzähle euch mal eine kleine, mir stark in Erinnerung (negativer) Erinnerung gebliebene Anekdote aus meinem reichhaltigen Fundus, aus der Kategorie „warum ich Menschen nicht wirklich mag“.

Ein paar Eingangsinfos vorweg: Meine kleinsten Kinder sind mittlerweile 5 und 10. Als die kommende Episode stattfand, waren sie 3 und 8.

Noch recht jung also, dazu kam damals Kind Nr. 1. schon etwas älter, in Ausbildung und ohne Führerschein.

Für mich, als Alleinerziehende Singlemutter (mein Liebster wohnt, wie ihr schon gemerkt haben dürftet, wenn ihr den Blog verfolgt) immer noch in Russland und da Deutschland und Russland sich hassen, wird dieser Zustand wohl noch eine Weile anhalten.

Für mich also, bedeutete das damals. Kind 1 zur Ausbildung zu fahren und zu holen, wenn aufgrund er örtlichen Gegebenheiten nichts fuhr, was Bus und Bahn entsprach. Was in der Gegend wo wir wohnen, leider mindestens jedes Wochenende der Fall war.

Dazu kam das Kind 1 noch Aufsicht brauchte, dass sie pünktlich zum Schulbus geht und Kind 2 in einen der Nachbarorte, in die Kita, gefahren wird.

Nach der morgendlichen Show, hatte ich dann einen dieser „tollen“ Kurse, mit denen das Jobcenter meint wahllos ausgewählte? Kandidaten in „was auch immer zu vermitteln“ oder was auch immer, egal.

Zumindest, war der Kurs einer von vielen, die ich mir so angetan habe.

Man kann dabei gut „Fallstudien“ machen und die verschiedensten Arten der Menschen Kennenlernen und später drüber bloggen, auch gut.

Leiterin des Kurses, war eine Dame, die im Prinzip das gleiche machte wie ich, was ich anfangs ganz witzig fand, später leider nicht mehr so, als ich tiefere Einblicke in die Denkmuster bekam.

Der Unterschied zwischen uns war, dass ich mich seit meiner Ausbildung zu Krankenschwester und schon vorher mit der Psyche und Seele befasse und das ganze extrem ganzheitlich sehe und sie das ganze eher versucht hat in staatlich verordnete Bahnen zu lenken.

Sie also sagte mir Sachen über mich, die IHRER „Expertenmeinung“, als staatlich eingesetzter Psychotherapeut, in den Kopf kamen.

Und ich habe jetzt zwei Jahre darüber nachgedacht und mit sehr vielen anderen Menschen darüber gesprochen. Diese Expertenmeinung war damals schon falsch und ist es heute immer noch.

Vielleicht blogge ich einmal darüber „warum ihr auf die Meinung einzelner Experten, meistens, einen Fi*k geben könnt“.

Das könnt ihr auch auf Expertengruppen, die alle am selben Tisch sitzen, so leid es mir tut.

Aber das ist meine Einschätzung und Sichtweise nach über 25 Jahren in der Branche.

Man wird stigmatisiert, vorverurteilt. Schublade auf – Mensch rein – Schublade zu. Fertig.

Fragt man mich, halte ich es für sehr bedenklich, dass Schicksal einzelner Menschen in die Hand eines einzelnen Sachbearbeiters oder auch Gutachters zu legen.

Man sieht es ja auch in den Medien, wie oft Gutachter alles tun, außer gut zu achten – darauf WIE sie urteilen.

Zurück zum Thema, laut der Meinung dieser Dame war es also irrelevant, dass ich als alleinerziehende Frau mich morgens erst einmal um 3 Kinder kümmern musste, sie war der Ansicht, dies wäre chaotisch und ich hätte mein Leben nicht im Griff.

Man müsste sein Leben doch klarer strukturieren. uff..

Was sagt man dazu. Ich gar nichts mehr. Außer dass ich dann für meinen Teil, sie kurz zu analysieren begann und beschloss, es wäre der Aufgregung nicht wert.

Aber wisst ihr, worauf ich hinaus will.

WER immer über andere urteilt und seine eigenen Sichtweise in diese Urteile hineinbringt, aufgrund seines eigenen Glaubens, der urteilt immer falsch. Immer! Egal ob Sachbearbeiter, Gutachter, Richter oder was auch immer.

Das macht die ganze so gefährlich, wenn man einer einzelnen Person mehr Macht verleiht als der Situation zuträglich.

Er urteilt ohne je in der Situation gewesen zu sein oder gar die selben Situationen zu kennen.

Ihr wisst schon, Schublade auf usw.

Wisst ihr um das ganze kurz zu machen, ihr wisst ja, nichts was wir anderen entgegen bringen, bleibt vom Universum unbemerkt und ich musste gar nichts dazu sagen.

Am letzten Tag des Kurses wunderte ich mich, wo die Dozentin denn war und man sagte mir, „sie hat einen Unfall gehabt und ihr fabrikneues Auto zu Schrott gefahren. Ihr ist zum Glück scheinbar nichts passiert. Trotz allem, gab es an diesem Tag kein Mitleid.“

Wisst ihr, sie war während des ganzen Kurses, wirklich nicht nett, vielen der Menschen in dem Kurs gegenüber und an dem Tag, sagten alle „ja das war wohl Karma“.

Ich denke auch. Manchmal bestraft uns das Universum, schneller als wir erwarten 😉

Habt ihr ähnliche Erfahrungen gemacht?

Why its impossible to argument with idiots

Many might know this already how pointless it is to talk with dumb people.

Why is it that such people simply wont hear or pretend not to hear what you say?

Well the answer is rather simple..

Its their experience, their believes, their life and what theyve had and got from their parents.

Shortly said: they are unconscious.

You cant wake a dumb person when they got a fog of unconsciousness infront of their heads ..

It is just like in a dream, no one can hit you and scream at your face to finally recognise what is going on… well .. in a dream this is actually possible though..

The live of a person who cant hear the argument of a person who respects the words of the disrespecter, was and never will be bright shining.

Those lives are mostly filled with sadness and pain. And they try to cover it by showing how tough they are and how weak and dumb all the others seem to be.

Iam surrounded by idiots and this is the truth. My parents arent smart and they never were. They only tell us how bad we are and how stupid, but iam conscious.

Someone who is conscious will never be a victim of anything and there is no excuse.

Someone who cant hear the truth about their sad and angry lives is the real looser.

Why am i telling you this?

Because you got the hands over your live! Not any asshole-opinion or dumb sentence from anybody!

Better hold those strings tight and always stand your ground!

But be sure to loose the strings which cut your hands 😉

Scream halls

I want to talk about a horror scene which happend one night that got me really sweating.

I slept away and stood in a dirty and blood flooded floor. The walls were old and blood symbols were written all over it, i didnt asked what this scene was all about.

It looked like a really well done hospital horror scene.

The floor had no doors … only few lights were hanging above..

I started to walk and my footsteps were loud and as i walked further, ive felt a big bad energy coming my way.

After walking maybe fifteen feet, i saw something down the floor which came screaming at me.

That thing had no arms nor face, it was cut in half and walked slowly screaming at me, while it was covered in blood.

Now … do you know the type of movies were a scream of a monster is more terrifying than itself?

This was the case here.

It looked ugly, dont get me wrong – but the loud and ugly scream was scarrier.

I knew that it would attack me, so ive said to myself than it will pass right through me, without ever noticing me.

And it did pass trough, it was nothing.

I wasnt scared because ive had a lot of such moments in conscious and unconscious dreams.

After that thing passed trough me, i walked further down the floor and saw the next thing coming up.

It was a giant three headed dog with .. alot of wounds .. one face was in front, the second face was in the middle, and the third was at its tail which was cut off.

To be honest i didnt knew which side was the front, but i knew that this thing actually could snatch me if i wont get out of there soon.

The reason it could touch me was because i got a little scared and i was unconscious in this state.

This fucking dog was running sideways at me and it had three tongs which were cut in three pieces.

It looked really bad… have you ever seen a fucking zombie dog running at you sideways with full speed and screaming louder than the ugly freak two seconds ago?

I switched above the scene and the body down there was ignored …the dog passed through.

Why did it not attack?

As i got back and walked further down the floor, i looked back just to note, that the half cut being and the dog merged into one – giant four legged piece of monster which had two bloody eyes and was staring right at me…

Ive got really scared..not because of that thing, but from the momentum how it looked at me.

It started to run like the girl from the movie „The Exorzist“ on all four legs while climbing around the floor…

Ive had enough of the scene… i wanted to just sleep but NO, i must stay somewhere bloody and get chased by a four legged cunt dog 🤣

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]

Empathy? No way!

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts. Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer. Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut! Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT […]

What is this? Human arrogance…

Attention, danger of triggering. If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you. Keyword, mental health. Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill? What is this actually all about? What is this statement? […]

Hateful lovers 🤣

Hello people,

I want to talk about few people who have nothing better to do than hating other people for what they do.

I think many will understand.

The problem with these people is their small mind.

They either have no experience in the field of which they hate, or they just dont like the person.

Often it is because this sort of mind is simply stupid and it hasnt done any research or anything else. It just hates its own life often and intends to point the negativity towards others, simply because they are weak.

They intend to buzz the red button before the show has even started unfortunatly.

These people will appear like rats from the shadows when you start to become successful, but only in the internet and behind your back.

None of them will ever say what they say in front of your face because some of them know, that it is just stupid.

Mostly their argumentations end with swearings or hate speaches and loud mouthings.

How can you beat these idiots?

Just ignore them and laugh as long as they hold their distance but…

(…If they ever should come to a „kissing range“ at your face, be sure to hit them so hard into their organs, that they consider it as their first spiritual lesson!

Only idiots will learn with punches..

Have a good day 😄

Cosmic Authority – Astral beings lie

In the realm of the dead it is appearently common that a being comes after death to guide you in to the light. But this is only a small percentage and depends on ypur believes and what you expect. These beings look shiny and warm and draw your attention away from any questions. They talk […]

Auf in den September 2020

Da wir hier derzeit eigentlich keinerlei Input mehr bekommen und das nicht unbedingt motivierend wirkt, sind wir auf Plattformen ausgewichen, auf denen wir Interagieren können mit anderen Menschen. Da unser Blog uns dennoch am Herzen liegt, vergessen wir ihn (noch) nicht ganz und schauen mal, ob es auf WordPress wieder läuft. Was sind Eure Erfahrungen […]

Another Day – Time

I have currently quite a good time to spare for many other things. My business is doing well and i wont hunger – this should be the important part! Now lets get to the point where i can finally meet my lady! Somehow the sun is back up and back on 36° degrees when it […]

Short horror

Ive had another nightmare ..

Ive stood few steps away from my house with few people, but i noticed them after i got a little conscious in my dream.

They looked a bit crazy and dumb to be honest because they all were doing weird head movements.

So i went a step forth and asked what they were doing.

Two girls and a guy were shaking their heads left and right while saying „YOu Wont get me“, while the nose of one girl started to bleed.

Didnt they noticed me at all?

They didnt anwered my questions either.. but looked away.

I stood there and was a bit shocked what was going on.

It was a „dare or death“ – game instead „do or dare“.

They called several monsters from other realms to themselves which either were good or really bad.

Whenever someone closed their eyes and said loudly „you wont get me“, while shaking their head back and forth or left and right, these beings appeared and started to harm them.

The first girl who did it got nose bleedings.

The second girl got nose and eye bleedings and her hair got pulled out.

The guy who did it, got his head directly ripped of his shoulders .

… the girls were laughing.

I tried it myself, not because i wanted to be killed but because i knew unconsciously that i cant be killed, and saw how this stuff happend.

A big black hole appeared in the air and it either spits out monsters or it takes YOU!

It tried to get me but suddenly it was just a black garbage bag. But it was conscious and started to wrap itself around me but i wanted to go with it, just to see what was on the other side.

It did let go and now started to run away from me and suddenly the scene changed again.

I stood again near my house and now, a depp and dark tunnel with steps appeared in front of me.

That place was contaminated with evil energy, i was shaking and when i didnt wanted to enter because i didnt knew it was just a dream anymore, few monsters appeared inside it

They just stared at me with a really big smile…

It scared the hell out of me and i woke up..

It wasnt scary at all i thought, but when youre not conscious about your situation, it WILL get scary.

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INTERVAL FASTING #6 – Discipline

Today a short treatise, which is clearly the most important thing in any kind of fasting at all, discipline. Most of us, who have no or no significant success, say first of all „I don’t know why I don’t lose weight, I do everything right“. And when you start asking questions, you quickly realize that […]

Blog Crashed – Womans fault xD

So dear ones, I have accomplished a real „masterpiece“…I have almost completely crashed our blog. The replacement blog has completely disappeared into nirvana. All followers are gone, except for a few from Facebook. But the Email and WordPress followers are actually at 0. That means we have to start all over again. The website is […]

A Killers Diary – The Doll Collection

Its me again my dear diary, Today i made new outfits of human skin and organs. I prepared them very well. The blood still drops from them. I couldnt finish two of the dolls, i still need four eyes and the bodies arent enough. I costumise the kill will the outfits and tomorrow is the […]

Freedom

How would it be if we dont need to do anything anymore?

Not getting bothered by something nor anyone?

Not constantly to maintain something?

Not to look at your body and be depressed ?

Not to constantly think some useless bullshit which twists your head?

Not to worry about anything or anyone?

Just .. be .. … and do whatever you want and like, without getting bothered by any body function or your annoying neighbour..

How many are pissed about their existence but not because their life is bad, but because they just cant stand anything what is offered with it?

I think there are many.. ive never liked being a fucking human.. it bothered me before i even incarnated here .. if knew that this wouldnt be good

All this useless and dumb activity’s and conversations.. and some of the activity is not even possible because of a fucking wall or border or money gap…its annoying..

And yet im here, writing this and knowing that i might have a final task before WE leave, otherwise i would be long gone.

I really fucking hate this existence of a human, even if i understand the beauty of life and all what is about… but i personally still dont like it.. there is A LOT MORE and A LOT BETTER PLACES than this.

My inner feeling and memory tells me more about this cursed planet and faked free will than anything else.

Once you got to a certain point with certain „enlightenments“ from your „past“ incarnations, you will not give damn anymore about any of this planets bullshit.

… i should try to relax..

Sorry for my language my dear self 🤣

Have a good day xD

Think Twice – Say Once

This is a saying from the chineses monks as i know and this has a deep meaning. If you dont want to repeat yourself, you should think twice about it and only say once. And if someone didnt listen, it will be their problem. It doesnt matter at what discusion it is, just think about […]

Why you loose Motivation

We all know the problem.. Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping.. Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea? The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up […]

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Intervall Fasting #5 – Benefits, disadvantages

Today we come to the advantages or disadvantages, if I find some that interval fasting has compared to other types of diet or even diets. Benefits of interval fasting what I personally like best is the fact that you can basically eat everything during the meal breaks, as well as that you don’t have to […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #4 – BACK TO THE PAST

I wish you a wonderful and hopefully not too hot Sunday morning. THAT would have been my greeting this morning, but you know what? WordPress was of the opinion to delete my finished and saved blog instead of publishing it. Oh guys, I was sooo mad. I had researched and written for over two hours […]

The New Pills

It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist. I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly […]

The Dream Well

It was summer and my parents had new jobs in a different city with more income. This meant that i had to change the school and friends again, it was tough but i accepted it and the new house was huge and even had a well. After we got into the house, we were all […]

A demons playground

Hey everyone,

I want to talk about things, which i learn from my constant repeating dreams, about many things in those worlds.

One of those things is the behaviour of „demons“, ghosts or lets say negative entity’s.

How do they behave and what kind of goal do they have?

Well..ive understood that these beings like energy.. They love it and specially sexual – aggressive and pain energy.

They dont like to scare the dreamer because otherwise he/she will wake up and the energy feast will be gone.

Instead they try to create a playscene from your dream. This means they mix themselves in the dream and let it look like it was your dream which came from your mind.

Not many of such beings are smart, but theyre not dumb enough either.. Of course there are many variations in the intellectual perspectives but mostly they know what they do.. like an animal which hunts the prey.

So they dock into your dream and may change the plot. For example: If you dream about a beautiful place where you just walk and have fun, they can build a door or scene which appear in your area – and when you open the door, the scene changes to the interests of the being.

This means, if you like sex, you will see a sex scene. If you like death, you will see death.

If you like cakes and fun, you will NOT get it because evil beings only can take disturbed energy! Maybe youll see a cakewoman who wants .. …, but you understand what i mean now.

It all depends in your interest and what the being knows or feels about you.

They can read the magnetical field around your physical body and use the thoughts coming from the outside into your head, as their needed info to build the trap.

They cant read your mind, but as we all know, information is only received, not thought from us. The functions of the body only read it out loud for you what is around your field. This is why some beings can read you without even looking at you like cats sometimes.

All anybody needs to „maybe“ know about you, is shown in your magnetic field and this counts for everybody.

The energy these beings consume, is like a feast of emotions to them and they love it. The cost you have to pay in the morning is a big energy loss and feeling completely sucked out. Of course this doesnt mean that you always got fucked by a horny ghost, but you can consider it! xD

Dreams about pain appear often when you expect it and move unconsciously around in your dream. The beings use it and set a trap of letting you think, that a coming situation will hurt, while they mix themselves again within the scene and eat your energy.

This all can only be done when YOU let it happen because of your unconscious movements, but even THAT can be trained to counter such things.

If you want to know more about all this, you should take a good look in our book 🧘‍♂️

See-ya all later

Feelings and our mind

Is it true that suppressing feelings is bad for your health? And what does it really to you?

Well the answer is… it depends on the individual how much „damage“ it does.

Everything we do is often depended on feelings.

So what does happen to person who suppresses feelings?

First nothing happens and everything is as usual.. but when is gets triggered through a certain thing like music or words or whatever, it nearly explodes ..

Making decisions without any feelings still, should be considered in court or special cases. When a judge would decide by feelings, many would be screwed but today we talk about the other side!

So how much it erupts, depends again on the person.

As well it depends on the feeling. When you suppress anger, it will build up and up until you „kill“ somebody or punch him/her/it so hard, that your fist together with the face of the aggrevator breaks.

To suppress feelings is easy and we all do it until it gets triggered and released.

The damage isnt physically but mentally and it can lead to depression and lower body functions because of the depression.

Your body doesnt give a damn, but when you cut the energy supply and movement, the body will start to react.

If screaming your lungs out helps you, Scream!

If hitting a punching bag helps you, Punch!

If crying helps you, cry and smile afterwards!

Shortly said: supressing feelings isnt good at all and it can lead to serious mental and phyiscal problems. Dealing with them and talking does way more to your health and when you cry, well fuck it!

Crying is a release too! So dont be ashamed, the strong will not show any feelings which is mostly mistaken by men as „cool“ or being tough.

Its bullshit.. a men who cant stand to his own feelings is the real weakling, this doesnt mean that not showing any feeling makes someone weak or strong.

Sometimes there isnt any feeling to show 😄