Schlagwort-Archive: Dream

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, had already happend once because i was receiving déja-vù’s all the time.

Suddenly a movie started to appear in front of me, showing what i had dreamed before. The movie was shown with every step i did, with every room i visited in my house and with everything my housemembers were saying. It was way more odd than before and i hadnt experienced it on this scale with just „green grass“.

My feelings, specially the negative feelings were enhanced a few level higher. I knew that this was called a „bad trip“ and it was my first time. The feelings changed like a loop and connected fears when i entered a dark room. The time i had smoked it, the lights went out and it was already late. Now here comes the first part: the turned off lights were caused by a very strong fog out of nowhere. I hadnt noticed it, but my body was shaking like never before, it mustve been very cold outside or i was over acting because coldness was a „bad“ feeling too. I went inside and it only got worse than that.

After covering myself warm, the movie in front of me started again. I saw how the fog was penetrating every building on the physical plane and causing a shake of every body. The reason for that was simple i thought… The fog wasnt on the third but forth dimension, the particles were dancing or having a party and whenever someone was inside that party, they would feel shaky, cold and electricity hitting the skin. I saw how weed was acting on the brain when it was consumed too much and too often. I had it done only two times inside two days but it seemed to be really good! 😄

The same thing happend to the brain when someone experienced a psychosis. The very brain cells start to shake in a very uncommon manner, causing micro brain damage over time. Why do they start shaking ? Because they receive a bioelectrical impulse from two sides into the brain cells, causing a short circuit simultaneously to the entire brain or several sections. It feels like a boxer is hitting you constantly on the chin but with way lesser power.

After this short movie, i got another and another, too many to tell but what i knew was: every single movie i had dreamed already once exactly in this manner and nothing was knew except the flashing ghosts.

Now that was the creepiest stuff what happend. As i was typing my wife a text, i started to see monsters left and right. They were flashing like someone was using a camera flash light. One uglier than the other and for a certain time i thought seeing my grandma. She died not long ago and i knew that this house was some sort of a party house for souls for a certain reason. The lights were back but i was still seing them. I told my wife about it and she said that i should ignore it because its either only in my mind or they really stand there. Because i was high, i couldnt really tell and so i did what she said and wait.

I hadnt turned on all the lights because i found it very interesting but these faces combined with a way higher level of fear were just interesting.

Since you can have really good sex on drugs, i thought about the reason why some people say that sex with the wrong partner is dirty and energy disturbing. Well.. i saw why this was the case.

When two people with different energy levels mate with each other, they combine their energy and repell it to the energy – world with energy eating beings. Since the most people do this exercise to just have fun, they dont realise what is happening with the energy and themselves inside. They change energy between each other and disturb their own with bad things such as bad emotions or else, which will be felt after the act. Not only that, beings of a way lower level start to appear and eat this energy while they enhance the negative feelings. Shortly said you loose energy and get bad on top.

But what happens when two resonating souls do that ? They increase in energy and wont get a disturbence. Neither can beings touch or feast of this sort of energy because it is higher in frequency, unreachable.

After all this, i closed my eyes and tried to get out of my body but it wasnt working at all. My eyes were spinning and i thought i was laying down on a capsule or something but my astral body wasnt moving. Was the reason because my physical body was holding it down due to stress ? I didnt knew..

I only knew that all information i was receiving with drugs were either useless or not for this world because it was uncontrollable to pinpoint a direction.

So much for this little session.

Dailylook #1

Erinnert ihr euch manchmal daran, dass es viel mehr gibt, als nur dieses eine Leben?

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people.

I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife.

We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area and we had to go through all of them, but i knew that i actually didnt needed to do anything but i still did. I was unconsious but still remembered that i had the same dream three times a few years ago and it wasnt pretty. I knew that there was a lot of horror and deaths coming.

And while i thought so, i suddenly switched position to the top and had again the „screen view“ while the body and scene went as always according to the dream. Than the speed increased as well. I had no interest in continuing the dream but it wasnt going to stop until its over.

So we were walking slowly and trying to find another person in the backyard of the field and we knew that this person was going to die.

The field was clear and you could see every trap but you just didnt knew what was going to happen. Between every trap was an invisible wall and it would override the entire scene if i was going above it. This meant only one thing, my dream was a following game script and i saw it too!

Because i didnt wanted to continue, i was constantly switching between two perspectives while i flew over every trap. Suddenly everything happend just as i dreamed it before. The people all died in the same traps screaming while they try’d to pull me with themselves. But fortunatly i had enough and i neither got scared or else. The one girl survived with me and we needed to get a helicopter from a waterpark but it exploded because i crashed with speed against it. The bald guy got his body drown inside quicksand and later chopped away by swords which were underneath the quicksand.

After the helicopter exploded, i was standing in the woods and the scene changed again to the top… That dream was bad… it was boring and really bad..

I cant get out of my body, and neither dream what i want. I dont know what is going on the last two years. It stopped out of nowhere and i feel that something is blocking me from the other side. I really have enough of dreaming bullshit.

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls.

We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city.

The two girls and a guy went up and i told them not to go because i felt something bad up there.. They didnt listen..

Than a old lady started screeming to never go up there but it seemed already too late.

The other two wanted to go up when they heard that they might dissapear but i really wanted to not go there because i knew what was going on from the first time i had this dream.

So we went up because i still was unconscious to realise the dream.

We came to a rather rusty and old looking house with a little see around it. Everywhere was plastic and dirty pollutions, it looked all contaminated.

Suddenly we all fell asleep and woke up inside a container where we were lying down on our backs side by side.

We stood up and suddenly a movie on the wall was shown out of nowhere. The movie showed how we killed and cut up two people but i knew that this place was fucking with our minds.

Than two woman and a guy appeared naked, bloody faces and many cuts around their bodys with sharp teeth.

The woman was laying down and ready to be fucked while it looked straight at me .. I only knew that this bitch was going to do something else for the next victims, so i stepped back and watched from an outer perspective what the others did.

The ugly monster guy was telling that everyone likes to be poked in their ass and i felt like watching tv but more with interactive options, i said „What the fuck NO!“ – while i tried to pull back the guy and girl from those freaks.

And yes, i didnt knew their names at all.

After i couldnt pull them back, i started to move backwards and now something weird happend again, just like many of my dreams.

The screen pushed itself forwards and backwards for a second and i was „back inside“ the dream. The scene changed and everyone including those freaks dissapeared. The two were lying on the ground unconscious but back with their clothes on.

I was standing outside out of nowhere and i saw how these freaks made the little movie. They used wood puppets and threw an illusion over it, so the wood bodys couldnt be seen. Than they trapped their victims and showed what they did, after the movie was finished, they wanted to give them their punishment .. or as i say, some freaks were horny for your energy.

We all were standing back in the room and i was pissed about the dream, neither could i wake up so i needed to finish the dream quickly.

I started to throw mannequins into white containers until the room was clean and the doors opened. We all went out and knew that all this, was just a hallucination ..but where did the other three go?

I forgot to mention the pool full of blood, body pieces and heads.. Maybe there ?

„Cant travel astral anymore“ What wrong? – The Silver Wall

Did it happen again?

You did your exercises and your body fell asleep, but your mind stood awake, … But you cant get out ?

Whats wrong ?

Well theres a possible block for you! I call it the silver wall because i saw it.

Its a wall that is glued to your astral body but its not a part of it. The appearance is silver, floating and quite shiny … Like looking into moving waters..

First when i saw this, i thought i may break through it but … no chance! Its way more dense and heavier than any obstacle to move through and the silver is probably a sort of lead but in the forth dimension.

Now what has lead to do in the fourth dimension where everything is moving energetically ?

I might guess something that comes into my mind from a very weird dream with aliens.

In my dream there was a two meter lead wall and the ship had nearly all doors made out of it. It was very heavy and i couldnt pass through. But there was no reason to put this huge doors infront of someone because in 3D – you could break through and open them easy – That leads me to the conclusion of being astral in some sort of place while my body was in deep sleep or i was remembering something through that.

But since i was unconscious and in dream state, i could only move the already open door, only few inches with heavy struggles.

I asked myself why there would be this kind of door and the answer was simple … It was there to hold down visitors from other dimensions (4D).

And since the aliens there had no problems moving them, i dont doubt that they found a way to create something that would seal away souls who try to stick their noses too much into someones business.

At least trapping them with something inside their bodys with a very certain trigger.. like talking too much about it .. a selve activating trap which is installed somewhere in the DNA by a pattern.

What do you think?

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work!

I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them.

First of all, nothing is impossible, and so is this. But in spite of everything, let’s be clear.

Just because it is possible, what is the probability that a ghost, a demon or any other being, will pick out a normal, mortal human being and choose him as a victim.

Why, should it do so?

It is a fact that the normal human being, who does not believe in ghosts, demons, poltergeists, narrowness or even in God and devil, is not a particularly attractive victim. Since he is in principle not seriously attackable.

If he has an extremely high energetic charisma and shines like a moth lamp, it is quite possible that he comes into the field of vision of some ghosts, but he must also be vulnerable

The magic word here is VULNERABLE.

We know that everything is frequency and vibration and to leave a loophole, or docking hole to be vulnerable or attackable, our frequency must be down.

There must be a hole through or into which the being can enter. A person who is aware of himself and his own energetic protection and environment does not become a victim as easily as someone who simply believes everything that is told to him somewhere and who, because of fear, – no longer dares to sleep in the dark at night.

Besides and most people forget this, nothing is permanent or even forever, here on this planet. A ghost only consumes energy as long as you supply it to him.

That means in plain language, if you don’t supply any, it disappears. And what many still forget, do you really believe that a spirit that feeds on your fear energy so desperately wants you to become aware of it? No!

If you consciously and openly perceive spirit activity, there is a greater chance that it is someone you know and want to communicate with you.

An energy-sucker will be much more discreet than someone who wants to draw attention to himself.

The first important step in both cases is not to be afraid, because please WHAT should or can an energy form do for you? Except make you a little bit or more afraid.

But you only have this fear because you do not see WHO is there before you. Just imagine this being as a human being and your fear will be much less and you will be able to think more clearly and deal with it!

Please also finally free yourself from the thought of wanting to send every spirit and every soul into the light. I can only tell you again and again that this is none of your business and you have neither to decide nor to determine it.

To go into the light means to incarnate directly and THAT is not what every soul or spirit that communicates or wants to communicate with you wants to expand.

Also, when you are seeking professional help, make sure that this person does not want to begin to put such a compulsion on your visitor. This can backfire!

In our big book you can read more about it and understand it better!

Promise!

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

Story of Last Night / a nice dream?!

quietly, very quietly – carefully putting one foot in front of the other, she crept meter by meter, slowly through the forest.

From time to time, when the moon shone through the high treetops, she stopped and looked around.

In these moments she did not dare to go further for fear that her pursuer, whom she thought was already close behind her, saw her and the game was over prematurely.

But when hours later still nothing had happened and he hadn’t caught up with her, she thought she was the winner and went back to the camp with her head held high.

Everyone was still asleep. As the tiredness overcame her, she did not wonder why nobody came to receive her, but went straight to her tent.

As soon as her head touched the thin pillow, she was already fast asleep.

Hours later, she woke up from a dreamless and restless sleep and felt numb.

A cold shiver ran down her back when she noticed that apparently everything was still sleeping outside.

„How long have I been asleep?“ she thought, got up, put up her tent and looked around.

Nobody was to be seen and also far and wide nothing to hear.

No laughter, no dog barking, even birdsong could not hear them. Strange. The tents of the others, were all firmly closed.

Judging by the position of the sun, it was already noon.

A little perplexed she walked towards her sister’s tent. This tent was also tightly closed, nothing moved inside.

A few meters before she stopped, not sure if she should open it.

But in the end it did, the tent was empty. Looked like it had never been inhabited. The blankets lay carefully folded, on the thin mats.

Nothing was lying around. You’d think nobody had ever been in here.

But something scared her.

Her sister was a year older than her and back in the old days, before the epidemic, they lived together in a tiny room in her parents‘ small apartment building.

While she was the neat one who never left anything lying around, her sister was chaotic.

Something crunched behind her and let her drive back, scared. Cold sweat broke out of her pores, which could have made the crunch.

The camp stood on earth and lawn and especially the area around her sister’s tent was very clean.

Not a branch that could have cracked.

The hairs on her neck stood up when she heard sounds coming towards the tents.

Vocal murmurs, voices unknown to her. What to do?

Whatever had happened, it was definitely not a good thing and she had only escaped the whole thing because she had played the game.

Kai, the man chasing her, hadn’t shown up either. He was the best of them.

The voices came closer and she was almost stiff with fear when an idea came to her.

„Hey Kati, hey. Wake up. “ Someone shook her, moaned, her eyes opened. Her head was pounding and blood was throbbing in her temples.

She rubbed her aching head and sat up.

The members of her clan stood in a semicircle around her.

Their pale faces glowed in the moonlight, strangely bizarre.

She looked around questioningly. What had happened, wasn’t she just in the tent?

Uwe, the leader and friend of her sister, bent down to her, „Kati, what happened? Kai was looking for you all night. He just came back to camp alone.“

You had been missing for 48 hours and we looked for you several times and we were also here and now, on the way back to camp, you are suddenly lying here unconscious.“

She started shaking and her head hurt so much.

„Take me to camp.“ That’s all she could come up with.

When she arrived in her tent, her head fell on the thin pillow and she was fast asleep.

… And the Bus Drive..

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

Need Advice to start a Business?

I will be honest here with you guys.

Starting a business that becomes profitable these days isnt easy, specially when you dont have any new idea’s.

BUT this doesnt mean that it becomes impossible!

I want to tell you how i started my own business while i really didnt knew anything about it.

I want to give you a few words which will definetly help you, when you felt and understood the situation.

We went hard down hill after we came to russia, money wasnt there and i became desperate.

So what did i do to learn and make money?

I was in a situation which were either i succeed or die on the street..

So i started to learn the language quick and somehow managed to learn enough, so no one would bullshit me over anything and all went on and on.

Of course it wasnt easy, but 24 hours a day is enough time to learn a lot when you use it and specially it gets useful when you do it over and over again!

It felt like a movie and it still does.

What i want to tell you is,

How desperate are you to become financially successful?

All my energy went into my current business, my CONCENTRATION went into the business.. And this caused the success!

How much ENERGY do YOU invest in your dream?

YOU HAVE TO VALUE YOUR ENERGY! How much effort did it take you to achieve something?

I specially dont talk about time because we got infinite spiritually! But only a bit on this planet as a body and how your soul will feel inside that body.

So what are you going to do if it starts to feel hungry?

When youre desperate enough and point your energy towards your goal, it WILL ALWAYS become reality!

Dont listen to anybody, specially not to any thoughts and never tell too much!

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

THE WILLINGNESS TO CHANGE

The own habits, towards more efficiency and assertiveness only comes when the pain threshold is reached more than the comfort zone.

Before that, you don’t have to, and I really don’t mean! wait or hope that you will make a serious effort to do something differently.

People don’t change if they are still feeling so well in any way that they find reasons not to make an effort.

This has nothing to do with others either, but with their own mindset, which does not strive for success.

Often unconscious beliefs are also involved.

What I can tell you, if you want to change for the better and nobody wants the same as you do, do it alone.

Do not rely on anyone.

Not your partner or your best friend or your children.

It is your life and you can live it only for yourself and for your children, as long as they want it.

You will only be successful with assertiveness and perseverance and consistency and DOING.

Do not expect that others are willing to make the same sacrifices!

But when the success is there, remember that you have baked this cake alone and now no one can take this fact from you.

I wish you a wonderful Sunday.

It has rained heavily and the birds tell us that happily in front of the house.

Until the next blog.

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

EXPERIMENT – M – CHAPTER 1

„beep beep beep“ the alarm clock sounds. ignore

„piiiiep piiiieeep piiieeeeep“ shrill screeching of the alarm clock, my heartbeat soaring, that the breathing mask crashes into my face,

„DAMNED“ – I shout unabashedly – nobody hears me here anyway.

Not only am I awake, I am also directly annoyed and before my morning ration of „gold“ I am not master of my senses.

Mistress, mind you, but nobody here is interested in that. Least of all me.

A short time later, after a short lap of honor in what they call „bath“ here, jail would be more appropriate, I am already on my way to the research room.

Today a new experiment is on the agenda, Torben, our leader has been raving about it all last week.

Today it’s getting serious.

The new experiment is supposed to prove that there are genetically created races that are able to develop independently and treat their planet lovingly and not destroy it.

Experiments A to L were pure failures. As was to be expected.

This universe was one of the younger ones and one could almost rightly claim to be one of the most unnecessary.

Torben, hated it when I said that. But I was convinced of that.

We had consistently had bad results in all previous experiments.

Either the experiments destroyed themselves in a very short time, or their planet, or both.

Our team, put all their hopes on – M – In the belief that the mistakes of the past would not be made again.

After all, the mistakes in the genetic code had been corrected, and there were already promising species on the planet we wanted to integrate.

When I arrived, the whole team was already assembled and looked out of the round window that stretched across the entire room. The view was once again overwhelming.

„Too bad that this beautiful planet will soon be a heap of ashes and coal dust, too,“ Brian murmured as I stood next to him. Torben looked over at us disapprovingly.

„A little more enthusiasm people. Just try harder,“ he said and went to his desk.

„In 15 minutes we will reach their orbit. There’s no mention in our files that any of us have been here, so I guess we’re free to go and have a good romp.“

So we went to him.

The moment when we initiated the start of the experiments was always particularly solemn … we hugged each other and I looked at my husband, who had been trying to get through to me the whole time.

Since telepathy was forbidden on the ship, I couldn’t show him that his signals were getting through, but he knew from my facial expressions that they were. There were many couples on the ship, but our boss said it would lower the group’s morale if we showed it too openly, so we couldn’t even stay in the same cabins.

What were we getting into?

„Hey, Kati. You’re the first one today. Let’s go.“

My husband got big eyes and a red head, I knew he hated it when Brian and Torben preferred me.

To be first on the new planet was also to be favoured by the bosses, but they probably just chose me because I was the last one to arrive at the meeting.

„Well then. Here we go.“ I said, „Here we go,“ and I laid down on the appropriate chaise longue and got wired across the room.

„But this time, don’t put life support on until after I’ve gone. I said that, and everyone laughed.

The bums had already slammed the tube onto my chest when I hadn’t even been over there yet.

„Guys, this stuff is just so you don’t have to check up on me so much. When is my husband coming?“

He was already standing next to me, giving me one last kiss and whispering to me, „Soon my heart. I won’t let you wait too long.“

I was going to say „You say that every time.“ But then it started.

Through a monitor I was shown what we already knew about the planet and through a cable this was sent directly into my memory.

In addition I saw pictures which already let me suspect that also experiment – M – would fail again, like the others before.

Although the predominant species there did not seem to be too intelligent, it was apparently unconscious to a great extent and strove to kill everything was foreign to it.

„This is gonna be fun.“ The others around me nodded. I’ve never seen a planet worse than this one.

Since I had not written the schedule and only knew the rough task details, Brian felt that too much knowledge spoils the effect. I was curious to see what I would end up with this time.

Well.., this time no exoskeleton seemed to be needed, which was the case on almost all other planets and annoyed us.

The freedom of movement with these things, is immensely limited and no one can say that it is fun. Although mature exoskeletons were able to adapt well to the body inside, but in principle they were all useless.

After that it turned black around me and I lost consciousness…

Part 2 on its way! Katja

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Dark Rituals and Blood ? Part 2

The screen showed five teenagers which were bound on chair and they seemed to cry. Their eyes were bound with tape.

Meanwhile some people started to laugh and under these people, we even saw Bill B., K.P. and many more.

We didnt expect these people to be here. They were neither guarded or secured. It really seemed like a „party“ were everyone was equal and „knew“ each other.

While the people laughed, me and my wife looked each other in the eyes and understood what was going to come.

Those who organised this party went on and gave everyone a mask.

My wife got a cat mask and i got a gorilla mask.. no one would notice us now we thought.

„EVERYBODY … MASKS ON AND ENJOY THE LITTLE TEASER … hahaha“ said the pig mask guy.

Suddenly the people on the screen got tasered by people who wore black robe’s and pig masks.

„WHEN THE PREY SCREAMS, IT GETS TASERED AND WHEN YOU CRY, WE EAT YOU ALL ALIVE“ said one of the black robe guy.

The people started to laugh like it was a commedy show.

It seemed we were the only normal people in this underground building.

No one could go out until the show was over.

My wife got disgusted and needed a bathroom.

„Are you okay? Lets go to a bathroom“ i said.

We both got to a very luxerous bathroom and i waited until she was …. finished with puking.

Bill B. came in.. „I see its your first time here?“

„Yes it is … and our first time to this kind of fun“ i replied.

„Hahaha .. it hasnt even begun, wait until you see the baby’s“ while he washed his hands and smiled.

„We look forward to it!“ i said while starting to laugh myself. Not because of the „fun“ what was going to come, but because a „Bill B.“ talked about killing baby’s and smiling about it.

I asked myself …what if all the bullshit from the internet was true what they said about him?

We would soon see..

Bill left and my wife came out of the bathroom.

It was strange that the womans and mens bathroom were all the same. I mean what idiot doesnt respect privacy?

We left the bathroom and took our masks back on.

„AND THAT IT IS FOR THE TRAILER LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, GO THROUGH THE NEXT GATE TO THE REAL FUN“ the pig guy said.

A big metal door opened behind the screen and everybody went in, as we heird some say „Iam so excited ..we can finally let it loose again“

We wondered what they meant as we walked with the crowd and my wife held my arm.

A loud „DONG … DONG“ … Two paths appeared .. The people followed their lust..

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

Another Weird Dream

I was sitting on a couch with few people i didnt knew and never saw anywhere.

We were watching tv or… they were watching.

I stood up and asked the crowd „Lets jump into the scene inside the tv, why sit and just watch it?“

There was no answer and no one really looked at me at all… Couldnt they see or hear me ?

Well i didnt bothered too much and stood on the couch.

Then i took a little sitting position and jumped straight into the tv, still no one was bothered nor looked.

So i flew and thought that i will pass trough it but suddenly i stopped right before, because there was no scene or picture going on.

I saw this screen again from other dreams and i started to puzzle few colors into a picture.

Suddenly the scene behind me changed to the picture i puzzled but the screen made automatical changes and formed the rest.

This was quite interesting to see the screen „not working“

There still much out there…

I will try to see what the screen can do, since it isnt my first nor fifth time experiencing this.

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place.. Do you feel that too sometimes ? A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]

Story of Last Night / Ein netter Traum?!

leise, sehr leise – vorsichtig einen Fuß vor den anderen setzend, schlich sie Meter für Meter, langsam durch den Wald.

Von Zeit zu Zeit, wenn der Mond durch die hohen Baumwipfel schien, blieb sie stehen und schaute sich um.

In diesen Momenten wagte sie sich nicht, weiter zu gehen, aus Angst das ihr Verfolger, den sie schon nah hinter sich wähnte, sie sah und das Spiel vorschnell vorbei war.

Als jedoch Stunden später immer noch nichts geschehen war und er sie nicht eingeholt hatte, wähnte sie sich als Gewinnerin und ging hoch erhobenen Hauptes zurück ins Camp.

Es schliefen noch alle. Da die Müdigkeit sie überkam, wunderte sie sich gar nicht warum keiner kam, sie zu empfangen, sondern ging schnurrstracks in ihr Zelt.

Kaum berührte ihr Kopf das dünne Kissen, schlief sie auch schon tief und fest.

Stunden später, wachte sie aus einem traumlosen und unruhigen Schlaf auf und fühlte sich wie betäubt.

Ihr lief ein kalter Schauer über den Rücken, als sie bemerkte, dass draußen scheinbar immer noch alles schlief.

„Wie lange habe ich geschlafen?“ dachte sie sich, stand auf, zog ihr Zelt auf und schaute sich um.

Niemand war zu sehen und auch weit und breit nichts zu hören.

Kein Lachen, kein Hundegebell, sogar Vogelgezwitscher konnte sie nicht vernehmen. Seltsam. Die Zelte der anderen, waren allesamt fest verschlossen.

Dem Stand der Sonne nach zu urteilen, war bereits Mittag.

Ein wenig ratlos ging sie auf das Zelt ihrer Schwester zu. Auch dieses war dicht verschlosssen, nichts regte sich drinnen.

Ein paar Meter davor stoppte sie, unschlüssig ob sie es öffnen sollte.

Tat es schließlich aber doch, das Zelt war leer. Sah aus, als wäre es nie bewohnt worden. Die Decken lagen sorgfältig gefaltet, auf den dünnen Matten.

Nichts lag herum. Man könnte meinen, niemand wäre je hier drin gewesen.

Aber etwas ließ sie aufschrecken.

Ihre Schwester war ein Jahr älter als sie und damals, in der alten Zeit, vor der Seuche, bewohnten sie zusammen ein winziges Zimmer, in dem kleinen Mietshaus ihrer Eltern.

Während sie die chaotische war, die gern mal etwas herumliegen ließ, war ihre Schwester überakurat.

Hinter ihr knirschte etwas und ließ sie, erschrocken zurückfahren. Angstschweiß brach ihr aus allen Poren, was hätte den Knirschen können.

Das Camp stand auf Erde und Rasen und gerade der Platz um das Zelt ihrer Schwester war penibel sauber.

Kein Ast der hätte knacken können.

Die Nackenhaare stellten sich ihr auf, als sie Geräusche vernahm, die auf die Zelte hinkamen.

Stimmgemurmel, von ihr unbekannten Stimmen. Was tun?

Was auch immer geschehen war, es war bestimmt nichts gutes und sie war der ganzen Sache nur entgangen, weil sie das Spiel mitgespielt hatte.

Kai, ihr Verfolger, war ja auch nicht aufgetaucht. Dabei war er der beste von allen.

Die Stimmen kamen näher und sie war fast steif vor Angst, als ihr eine Idee kam.

„Hey Kati, hey. Wach auf. “ jemand rüttelte sie, stöhnend schlug sie die Augen auf. Ihr Kopf dröhnte und das Blut pochte in den Schläfen.

Sie rieb sich den schmerzenden Kopf und setzte sich auf.

Die Mitglieder ihres Clans, standen im Halbkreis um sie herum.

Im Mondlicht leuchteten ihre blassen Gesichter, seltsam bizarr.

Sie schaute sich fragend um. Was war passiert, war sie nicht eben noch im Zelt?

Uwe, der Anführer und Freund ihrer Schwester, beugte sich zu ihr, „Kati, was ist denn passiert? Kai hat dich die ganze Nacht gesucht, er kam gerade alleine ins Camp zurück.“

Du warst 48 Stunden verschwunden und wir haben dich mehrfach gesucht und wir waren auch hier und jetzt, auf dem Rückweg zum Camp, liegst du plötzlich ohnmächtig hier.“

Sie begann zu zittern und ihr Kopf schmerzte so sehr.

„Bringt mich ins Camp.“ Mehr brachte sie nicht heraus.

In ihrem Zelt angekommen, fiel ihr Kopf auf das dünne Kissen, schon schlief sie tief und fest.

How great it feels to kill human’s – From the view of a Monster

We dont live in the shadows as you might think, and neither do we do contracts with humans.

We fool you into the shadows were no one can see you …dissapear.

We eat your bad energy and increase your worthless live with anger but only when you allow it so.

Once we found our prey, we snap its neck but first… lets scare it until we get expected..

My loving method to kill humans is the slow and painful way.

I drag them down to what you call hell, and i bind them on a bloody and dirty chair with excrements from other prey’s… sometimes they pee and sometimes they moan out of pain…

The fear..the hate..the anger…the despair and hopelessness…You fragile imbecile piece of weakness.. all deserved to die.

You would call it insane or crazy, but we … we call it FUN

After the prey drops blood and sweat, we start to put metal spikes under their skin while it gets laughed at, spit and scared even more.

And as soon as they start to walk, or move .. they scream in agony and burning pain…

This sounds … so.. lovely

The more scared it gets, the more orgasms we get from this energy…

The feeling is an electrical sensation which covers the entire area … We like to kill our prey when its ready.

Washed from the blood, cleansed from the wounds and fed with the flesh of previous prey.

First they spit at us and try to hurt but it only makes us stronger and horny, that is our goal.

Than we rape every possible ankle and hurt them even more just to bring the same sensation as before.. ITS A PARTY!!

Shortly before they die, we cleanse them a last time …. and than they glue their back to a table.

„You are free to leave..If you can free your body“ we do say whispering.

No response – „Guess they want to stay“

As we tere every body part into shreds and release the dark energy within.

A final explosion of insanity and illness ..

We call it FUN!

(This story was a made up, no one got kidnapped to hell!)

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]

Meine Katzen wünschen gute Nacht

Ich habe festgestellt das ich Bilder nur vom Handy aus in den Blog bekomme.

Also hier ein paar gute Nacht Bilder.

Leo, gähnt immer besonders doll
Luna, schläft besonders elegant
Leo kann Dexter oft nicht einfach schlafen lassen, nein er stänkert.
Luna mal als gif

Mein 24/7 Freigänger schläft derzeit in meinem Schrott Corsa und er braucht wohl echt ein Haus mit Fenster:)

Ich finde aber gerade kein Foto.

Gute Nacht

The ufo inside the mountain

My dream last night was very interesting.

I was searching something … a ship, probably my ship.

The place where i live has many mountains and inside the dream, colours appeared very strong and my parents were stupid as always – yelling about useless stuff.

I didnt cared about any of them and flew near the mountains and suddenly i was standing in front of a near mountain which existed physically too.

I went trough it and found a high – modern, round and floating ship which had a greenish colour. It was waving midair too.

I knew that this ship was my and i left it there, so no one would find jt. I wasnt going to tell anybody anything about it but i knew a person which might expect me to come with it …

This ship was invisible at all times when consciousness entered it, while the one inside could see everything and command it.

It moved slow but it was possible to travel to every dimension very clear and save. No radar or whatsoever could detect it because it became conscious through me, even though it still had a few monitors inside.

The mountain was a coverup because even if it was invisible, you could touch it by accident when no one was inside.

Inside the mountain was another higher advanced facility with extraterestials but i saw only one guy who checked the room with my ship.

Starting the ship was very fast and happend automatically when i entered while my energy as a soul fuled it and decreased the density to a level, were it became untouchable.

This dream was a bit more interesting than the most usual stuff.. Is there really a fucking ship inside that mountain?

How our consciousness drifts – Dreamworld /Dreamtests #2

In today’s article i will tell you how our consciousness drifts away when we fall asleep and what comes next, right after it.

First what happens is when you fall asleep, that you cant really remember the exact moment!

Try it out right now. Do you really know the last moment or thought before you lost consciousness last night?

What does the last thought have to do with dreams? Well ..A LOT!

YOU DREAM THE LAST THOUGHT! – with a mix of what happend the day, what you expect to happen and with places or people you really dont know – or just saw from an ankle. Shortly said: You dream what your unconsciousness captured with your last thought!

This is why it is so important for astral travel, it increases your chances very high.

Ive noticed that two times yesterday night.

I was half awake and asleep and i saw how one thought was taking shape and how i just started to integrate myself in it. The picture before your eyes will be the dream you jump in.

Now there are two groupes:

The normal dream: in the ’normal‘ dream, you will be inside your astral body while using things from your unconsciousness for the upcoming dream.

The ark dream: This state is different, but more and even more to all of this, you will find in our book.

When the time is right, you will see whats inside 🧘‍♂️

warum steigt das Bewusstsein der Menschen nicht?

Heute mal, ein etwas kürzerer Blog von mir.

Ich habe es vermutlich auch schon unzählige Male erzählt und wer es genau wissen will, ich habe bereits darüber ausführlich gebloggt.

Nämlich Hier: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2018/08/17/bist-du-eine-alte-seele/

Und auch in meinem ersten Buch folgendes dazu geschrieben.

Ich zitiere mich mal eben selbst:

Wir sollten uns bewusst sein, dass ein großer Teil der Miesepeter gar nichts dafür kann, in der Inkarnationstheorie gibt es ja den Aspekt des seelisch/geistigen Wachstums. Und vor allem Seelen, dich noch ganz am Anfang ihres Inkarnationszyklus stehen, haben gar nicht vor sich anders zu benehmen.

Nicht jeder Mensch, hier auf Erden hat vor die Erleuchtung zu erlangen.

Auszug aus Glaubenssätze spirituell betrachtet, Katja Kubiak 20.05.2018

Das Buch gibt es hier.

Wobei ich euch das neue Buch empfehlen würde, in dem ihr die Zusammenhänge deutlich besser erkennt!

Ich habe mein erstes Buch auszugsweise mit hinein genommen.

Warum die Menschheit sich, so schnell nicht ändern wird, falls überhaupt jemals.

Schaut es euch unbedingt an, wenn ihr die Zusammenhänge verstehen wollte! Es ist an der Zeit, dass die Menschheit aufwacht!

Bleibt gesund