Schlagwort-Archive: Dreaming

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people.

I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife.

We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area and we had to go through all of them, but i knew that i actually didnt needed to do anything but i still did. I was unconsious but still remembered that i had the same dream three times a few years ago and it wasnt pretty. I knew that there was a lot of horror and deaths coming.

And while i thought so, i suddenly switched position to the top and had again the „screen view“ while the body and scene went as always according to the dream. Than the speed increased as well. I had no interest in continuing the dream but it wasnt going to stop until its over.

So we were walking slowly and trying to find another person in the backyard of the field and we knew that this person was going to die.

The field was clear and you could see every trap but you just didnt knew what was going to happen. Between every trap was an invisible wall and it would override the entire scene if i was going above it. This meant only one thing, my dream was a following game script and i saw it too!

Because i didnt wanted to continue, i was constantly switching between two perspectives while i flew over every trap. Suddenly everything happend just as i dreamed it before. The people all died in the same traps screaming while they try’d to pull me with themselves. But fortunatly i had enough and i neither got scared or else. The one girl survived with me and we needed to get a helicopter from a waterpark but it exploded because i crashed with speed against it. The bald guy got his body drown inside quicksand and later chopped away by swords which were underneath the quicksand.

After the helicopter exploded, i was standing in the woods and the scene changed again to the top… That dream was bad… it was boring and really bad..

I cant get out of my body, and neither dream what i want. I dont know what is going on the last two years. It stopped out of nowhere and i feel that something is blocking me from the other side. I really have enough of dreaming bullshit.

Doubtful Adventures – Moving Forward

After the sudden loss of energy i felt destroyed because i now knew what brought the problems of using blood magic. But yet i didnt knew the whole truth about it… As i was laying on the bloody grass and looking into the sky, i wondered what the village meant before they got killed by […]

Doubtful Adventures – The Price – Part 2

As i saw the village from far away, i wondered how the villagers could turn their heads simultaneously at me and than block me completely from seing further. A couple hundred meters ahead was the village but as i came closer, the picture of the village became blur. I didnt thought much of it but […]

Just another zombie dream

It was a normal night. Eyes closed and hoped to not dream something completely fucked up… I was standing in a long hallway and suddenly someone rushed through a door and yelled at me „WE GOTTA GO NOW, I HAVE TO LEAVE“. I didnt knew if she was meaning me because she looked at me […]

Happy Birthday to me

Und ein Geschenk für euch!

The New Pills

It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist.

I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly compared to my co-workers which were zombies.

Typical movie scene were everyone sits in front of their desk and type something, looking busy.

After work i took off to my therapist, he had told me last time that he had new pills which would show me „the truth“ as he claimed and why i was depressed.

I was excited and liked talking to him, he actually was listening… Not many listened what i had to say and no one cared in this system fucked world… How many kill themselves because no one just could listen ..

Anyway i made it to my destination after a few minutes of walking from the city center.

I went in and „Hey hello Anna how are you doing?“

„Hey Alex thanks im good, hope you do well too! Dr. Oppenheim is expecting you – you can go straight through the door“ said the lovely secretary.

I walked through the door.

„Klick“ pressed the handle down and went inside.

He was sitting in his leather chair „Hi alex, good to see you! Today is a special day!“ he said.

„Hi doc, good to see YOU! What will we talk about today?“ I asked.

„Well as i mentioned last time, the new pills arrived but first let me tell you something and hear well! Nothing of this is allowed to enter the outer world understood! Not a single word! What youre about to see will show you the real world we live in!“ he said silently.

I got really excited and nervous, what was he talking about?

„Okay i understood!“ i replied.

„I already took a few myself and my heart nearly stopped from the reality slash … so be prepared! You will take one pill now and one in the evening“

It was strange to hear that a psychatrist had a reality slash, what did he ment by that ? Well i was going to find out really soon!“

He gave me the pills and i took one.

He said „whatever you do, NEVER look surprised when you see them! Otherwise youre in big trouble not only when youre alive!“

I laughed and thanked him. Maybe this would give me new essences to my boring live.

„We will not talk today, go out and see yourself … and remember .. dont loo…“

„Yes i know… dont look surprised! I got it!“

We shook hands and he said „see you around because this roller coaster will be whole different trip!“

I laughed loud and left.

Twenty minutes left until i took the pill but i didnt felt anything .. was it a psychological test or something? i thought.

Than i walked beside a restaurant and the first heart race started… Why? because i saw how babys and animal heads were took inside the restaurant. It was bloody as hell and my eyes nearly popped out.

„What the fuck ?! Is this what he meant ?! This is insane!!“ I screamed silently inside myself.

Than i saw a octopus looking being in a suit coming my way … This was even scarier and i started panicking..

He said dont look suprised … i stood there normally and as he looked at me, i looked rather shocked.

This was definetly an alien and he was there in daylight with a damn suit! And no one seemed to bother?? Why couldnt we see them ? How was this possible?

My head was running crazy and i couldnt contain myself.

A homeless came to me and said „THEY EXIST OVER HUNDREDS OF DECADES AND NO ONE IS LISTENING – BE READY TO RUN“

I said nothing and started running, i didnt felt safe anymore anywhere.

I needed to go back to the doctor.

As i run, i saw more and more of them watching me… It was scary. The world was completely different than the world i knew before and those pills showed how it really was. This wasnt a hullucination right?

So many questions and no answers.. i finally came to the doctor and slammed the door open. The secretary stood up and said „you cant be here!!!“.

„I have to see the doc now!“ and knocked on the door while going in.

The doc was sitting there .. and his client was looking at me.. he was one of them… The doctor was one of them.. and he was smiling ..

„Hello Alex.. Good to see you…“ as he stood up and so his client, while slowly walking towards me…

My head couldnt take it, i faded away..

After i woke up in a hospital, the doc was there too. I was surprised why he had come at all.

„Did you see it alex ? The real world? .. This is just the beginning!“

He smiled.

My heart started racing.

World of nightmare – Close the door, dim the lights!

In the day of 2022, all lights went out and the nightmare came upon from the dark. The calm oceans which were unexplored for more than 96% were unvailed once the dark had taken the world. The governments had no possibility to return electricity due to solar winds which caused an electromagnetical pulse through the […]

A Killers Diary – Lockdown Problems

Hello humans, As well as you experience right now, nations are under lockdown and many have lost their work. The lockdowns affect many in our society and iam one of them, since i cant get enough bodys to kill and feast on. My pallet is only made from the finest human flesh, but with the […]

Astral travel – does it work again?

Yesterday i was annoyed because of the new years celebration outside my house. I though i understand, i couldnt really sleep but this seemed to helped me out. I wasnt even trying to get out of my body, but luckily i was laying down on my back and i realised that my body was sleeping. […]

The Human Rings

There was once a cave in which a titan lived.

This titan consumed those who dared entering the cave.

Any traveler who crossed that path, never returned..

But there was one… who came out disturbed and who took his own life few hours later…

The only sentence he said was .. „It makes rings of human bodys“ …

„Are you sure it wasnt ‚i need food‘ ? This story cant be true!“ Said a guy in a bar.

„Few hundred years had passed since that time, does the cave still exist ? Or was it all just a legend ? Well.. no one will bother anymore, and if so, who will dare?“ Said an old man in a bar.

„I will go and take a look at probably a none existing place …“ said the younger guy.

„Good luckhaha..“ said the old man.

Both drank their drinks and the young guy went home to prepare the trip.

…. Nah.. dont need anything, ill be right back.

The cave was actually few hundred meters upwards this mountain.

„Why did no one notice this path ?“ The road seemed clear .. but was it not full of trash and blocked few hours before?

He walked further and could see a smaller hole inside the mountain. It was enough to slip through.

„Wow… so much for the titan …“

A beautiful waterfilled cave was in front of him, the sun shined and enlighted the area. It seemed like a perfect place to take a bath.

„The old man fooled my young mind… and took my wallet..FUUUUCK“ .. the sound halled through the cave while the yound man sprinted out..

Another Day

So currently i lack ideas and need something very new …

Last week my grandmother died and the days past extremely fast… Here in this part of russia, the day ends at 18:00 .. because it gets pitch dark outside and the body gets fast sleepy.. reeeeally annoying i can tell! It feels like you dont have much time at all.

I mean everyone still works and all, but when the body yawns every 5 minutes …

Not even fresh air helps xD only the blue light of the phone!

So me and my wife try not to argue over bullshit but it gets tough sometimes even if we dont want to argue…

All this crap of live just passes by .. what awaits in the end is the love we have always for each other.

The Hallway of Eyes – Part 2

As i walked straight to the door after pressing down the handle, all other doors closed loudly one after another.

This gave me chills and i started to really enjoy it i thought. The room which i was warned by the girls before had been opened…

„Scary scary .. not .. its just another hallway“ i thought and walked down.

Suddenly i heard a chainsaw and that guy from earlier appeared in front of me who was dragging a guy on his hair across the room.

„HELP ME PLEASE!! THIS ISNT JUST A HORROR HOUSE ITS REAL! PEOPLE DIE HERE!“ he screamed while blood was running down his face.

„Nice job with the act, i love it“ i said laughing while the chainsaw guy walked past me with a scary smile.

He was wearing a mask and it was half cut, so only one eye was visible. This really looked creepy!

„NO YOU DONT UNDERSTAND, CALL THE FUCKING COPS YOU STUPID DUMB ASS BITCH!“

„Rip his head off his shoulders for this shit! I said annoyed while laughing.

Suddenly the chainsaw guy laughed and took him down the floor where the noise dissapeared instantly.

Strange … i thought.

This house was definetly more worth then just three bucks.

I looked behind me and well… there was no door!

Okay relax i thought, they mustve covered it somehow while i wasnt looking! Yes thats gotta be it!

So i walked further and now i started to see two pairs of eyes in the wall… This looked very real… they had even veins in their eyes which staired somewhere but always away from me.

How much budget do these guys had to build these ?! I thought loud… I looked where the eyes were watching and now more and more started to appear..

I followed their lead because they always showed more and more eyes and all of them lead to a way back and forth. Maybe this was a little game invented by the makers i thought.

After ten times back and thought, i realised that it build a symbol across the room. Than it lighted up the floor and a blood painted word was all across the hallway „RUN“.

Run from what ?

Well… the floor started to crumble and i really thought the floor would collapse.

This was a house on the first floor, so where would i fall to? This shaking only causes the house to crumble apart i thought. There was no damn reason to do that.

I stood still and had no fear of what was coming … they couldnt just kill me, this was a joke…right?

My heart was a bit nervous i admit.

Nothing happend.. the shaking stopped and i knew it.

The door from back there opened.

I saw the exit.

Was that it?? How boring was that i thought.

The walls changed again.

„You didnt play by the rules, Sign your name and get real horror“

„Is that a joke ? Another 10 bucks for more horror? The owner of this house must be a greedy one“

I didnt took the bait.. i had enough of that bullshit and went towards the exit .. but it started to close..

I started running and barely made it through …

I came out and the two girls were standing there still..

How long was i in there?

The girls came up and said „How did you came out ?“

„What do you mean? This house was a joke!“

The girls started laughing loud…

„Whats wrong?“ I asked

„Its not over yet .. look behind you!“

As i looked slowly behind me, the house opened the door and i saw ME standing there.. Bloody and deformed..a monster was starring at me…

I screamed loudly and was still surprised by the looks.. who would make such a costume in this short of time ?

The girls behind me dissapeared and no one stood around.

I started to get the hell away there because my heart wouldve stopped..

That house was great i thought while laughing and running scared.

I only saw how it stared back at me..

Only to realise, that i wasnt going away anymore..but came closer towards that thing…

  • Doubtful Adventures – Moving Forward
    After the sudden loss of energy i felt destroyed because i now knew what brought the problems of using blood magic. But yet i didnt knew the whole truth about it… As i was laying on the bloody grass and looking into the sky, i wondered what the village meant before they got killed by […]
  • Doubtful Adventures – The Price – Part 2
    As i saw the village from far away, i wondered how the villagers could turn their heads simultaneously at me and than block me completely from seing further. A couple hundred meters ahead was the village but as i came closer, the picture of the village became blur. I didnt thought much of it but […]
  • Just another zombie dream
    It was a normal night. Eyes closed and hoped to not dream something completely fucked up… I was standing in a long hallway and suddenly someone rushed through a door and yelled at me „WE GOTTA GO NOW, I HAVE TO LEAVE“. I didnt knew if she was meaning me because she looked at me […]

Spiritual dangers..

Since i read so much trash about light and love on the internet, i have decided to tell you a few secrets that either only very very few know, or dont want to tell you! It makes me angry if i see people online talking about „the planet will rise to the fifth dimension and […]

Spiritual advances…

So im stuck, unable to move around while my physical body sleeps because something is holding me. I meditated and tried various things to know whats going on but found not much.. The thing i noticed is, when you stop talking about it, it becomes possible again after certain amount of time. The time youre […]

Spiritual Problems ..

Hello everyone, The reason for the absence of spiritual stuff lately, is because the usual stuff isnt working. Well how am i going to explain it.. I cant get out of my body and i try to understand whats causing this problem. Some people said that talking too much about it, can cause this problem […]

Secret Society Secrets – The Three Dots

Welcome to the world of secret society. A world in which a broke person has nothing to do. A world in which only the really rich can enter. Today, i will tell you the beautiful art sight of this world and how we handle the doomed and useless humans in the lower parts of the […]

0108 – The House

We were a team of six and our objective was to secure the house from every corner. We didnt knew with what we were dealing with and the situation seemed strange… We secured the villa inside the forest which was told to be a safe house for certain terrorist members, but after discovering that nothing […]

The others Problems.. – Not just Earths

Ive had a dream last night in which i was suprisingly conscious. I didnt knew where i exactly was but i was wondering how i got there. It was late in the night and i was walking down the streets. I wanted to find somebody i can talk with and suddenly there was someone on […]

How does the „Matrix“ work inside the planets ?

You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is. The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How […]

What is the biggest problem of the people?

In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]

My second time trying DMT ..

So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]

Dangerous Adventures

I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]

COVID 22 – Grey Phase

This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]

Rosty Knifes and Crystal wars

We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]

Smart Zombies – The Maze of Traitors

It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]

Visit in Hell – The Judge of Torment

I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]

Sind wir, was wir zu sein glauben? Glaubenssätze einfach erklärt.

Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]

Dailylook #1

Warum weiß der eine mehr, der andere weniger übers Leben? Wir sagen es euch, kurz und knapp.

A Days Purpose

A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?

A late smoke session

The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]

The deleted World of History

There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]

Dreams – Death Parkour

After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]

What is the real purpose of life ? – Here is the Answer!

You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]

Das Leben eines Nervösen

Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]

Bist Du eine „alte“ Seele?

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…

Weird Days

Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]

The New Job – Escape ? …!

As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]

The New Job …

I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]

The Room on the Hills

I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]

Dream Nights

The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]

Troublesome People

I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]

A Killers Diary #The blood wall of skins

Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]

Cold

It started again… the weather changed from zero to hundred .. i feel strange.. like i would be in a different place.. Do you feel that too sometimes ? A familiar place becomes so.. different ..

Another Day

Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]

Monsters of inner Earth #The Backwards Sprinter

The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]

Monsters of inner earth #The Scare

The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]

Occupations, energy collectors and other attachments

So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]

How to get RICH really fast ? – Scam!

Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]

A Killers Diary – The Eye Garden

Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]

Chained and Sealed – The Door

We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]

Am i less worth ? – The Floor of Nightmares

I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]

Good and a Half Day

Since some of us sleep more than 10 hours a day, ill call it a half day..

Time your day right and achieve something! Stop fucking around and do, or atleast admit that youre doing nothing for your dreams!

Stay motivated and do it daily!

Have a good day!

An’s Crystal Puzzle Pieces

There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]

… And the Bus Drive..

A Killer’s Diary #2 – The hanged Pig

Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]

Empathy? No way!

Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it counts. Empathy means – I keep my mouth shut when it is not necessary to answer. Empathy means – I consider before I say something whether it is better to keep my mouth shut! Empathy also means – I listen and I fucking UNDERSTAND WHAT […]

What is this? Human arrogance…

Attention, danger of triggering. If you do not want to do this. Please click away and don’t say afterwards that I didn’t warn you. Keyword, mental health. Who would presume to assume that people who want to kill themselves are mentally unfit or mentally ill? What is this actually all about? What is this statement? […]

DISPUTES AND SPIRITUALITY

Okay, let’s talk a little – again – about freedom of expression, of which my personal opinion is: „in principle, my opinion doesn’t matter a damn and no matter what it is, there will always be! really always be someone who will kill or break it immediately and thoroughly.

It is really like that. I see that even in my closest circle of friends. And that could really frustrate me, or does it already? It is well known that my opinion always has to be the same as the opinion of those around me in order to be recognized.

Well then, let’s not give a damn about recognition and being considered an outsider was the role we were born into.

So, but how can it be that my opinion is different from the opinions of others and why should I really, honestly not care?

The general / universal consciousness of humanity is different, while some people know that they have been reincarnated umpteen times and still know a large part of the lives and deaths.

There are very many (unfortunately in the German area too many) which dont even „know“ that it is not all over after death.

This is due to many reasons, starting with the level of consciousness on which they are, ending with their own personal soul plan.

Why do many not know this? Because it is intentionally concealed.

Just keep realizing that the key to our EXISTENCE is not to do meaningless things day after day, but start asking yourself about the SENSE of your existence.

If your existence had no meaning, then you would not be here!

The moment you begin to become truly aware of your whole BEING, you will find that ALL, really ALL discussions are only meant to keep you from your true calling.

Please do not get involved. Stop the spiral of thoughts and start to become aware of the magnificence of your life and how much you are actually able to give.

Come to your true greatness and discover the spark of divinity within you!

We are all from the same divine source and there is no reason to hate or judge us no matter who we are, what we think or do.

Hate can never and never will win, for for everyone who sows bad karma now, the next round goes straight into an incarnation that will be even worse than the one before. Because we take care of it ourselves,

We could achieve the ultimate freedom, but for that we have to be fully aware and understand ourselves, really understand, that we create the rules of this life ourselves!

More about it in our big book, as well as in all other books!

Take a look!

Cosmic Authority – Astral beings lie

In the realm of the dead it is appearently common that a being comes after death to guide you in to the light. But this is only a small percentage and depends on ypur believes and what you expect. These beings look shiny and warm and draw your attention away from any questions. They talk […]

Auf in den September 2020

Da wir hier derzeit eigentlich keinerlei Input mehr bekommen und das nicht unbedingt motivierend wirkt, sind wir auf Plattformen ausgewichen, auf denen wir Interagieren können mit anderen Menschen. Da unser Blog uns dennoch am Herzen liegt, vergessen wir ihn (noch) nicht ganz und schauen mal, ob es auf WordPress wieder läuft. Was sind Eure Erfahrungen […]

Need Advice to start a Business?

I will be honest here with you guys.

Starting a business that becomes profitable these days isnt easy, specially when you dont have any new idea’s.

BUT this doesnt mean that it becomes impossible!

I want to tell you how i started my own business while i really didnt knew anything about it.

I want to give you a few words which will definetly help you, when you felt and understood the situation.

We went hard down hill after we came to russia, money wasnt there and i became desperate.

So what did i do to learn and make money?

I was in a situation which were either i succeed or die on the street..

So i started to learn the language quick and somehow managed to learn enough, so no one would bullshit me over anything and all went on and on.

Of course it wasnt easy, but 24 hours a day is enough time to learn a lot when you use it and specially it gets useful when you do it over and over again!

It felt like a movie and it still does.

What i want to tell you is,

How desperate are you to become financially successful?

All my energy went into my current business, my CONCENTRATION went into the business.. And this caused the success!

How much ENERGY do YOU invest in your dream?

YOU HAVE TO VALUE YOUR ENERGY! How much effort did it take you to achieve something?

I specially dont talk about time because we got infinite spiritually! But only a bit on this planet as a body and how your soul will feel inside that body.

So what are you going to do if it starts to feel hungry?

When youre desperate enough and point your energy towards your goal, it WILL ALWAYS become reality!

Dont listen to anybody, specially not to any thoughts and never tell too much!

Another Day – Time

I have currently quite a good time to spare for many other things. My business is doing well and i wont hunger – this should be the important part! Now lets get to the point where i can finally meet my lady! Somehow the sun is back up and back on 36° degrees when it […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #6 – Discipline

Today a short treatise, which is clearly the most important thing in any kind of fasting at all, discipline. Most of us, who have no or no significant success, say first of all „I don’t know why I don’t lose weight, I do everything right“. And when you start asking questions, you quickly realize that […]

Blog Crashed – Womans fault xD

So dear ones, I have accomplished a real „masterpiece“…I have almost completely crashed our blog. The replacement blog has completely disappeared into nirvana. All followers are gone, except for a few from Facebook. But the Email and WordPress followers are actually at 0. That means we have to start all over again. The website is […]

Good Night Everyone

And lets see what kind of a fucked up dream i can choose from the screen again….

Maybe ill manage to get to you my darling.. 😄💕

A Killers Diary – The Doll Collection

Its me again my dear diary, Today i made new outfits of human skin and organs. I prepared them very well. The blood still drops from them. I couldnt finish two of the dolls, i still need four eyes and the bodies arent enough. I costumise the kill will the outfits and tomorrow is the […]

Think Twice – Say Once

This is a saying from the chineses monks as i know and this has a deep meaning. If you dont want to repeat yourself, you should think twice about it and only say once. And if someone didnt listen, it will be their problem. It doesnt matter at what discusion it is, just think about […]

Why you loose Motivation

We all know the problem.. Starting with the own business or writing, drawing, building something new and suddenly stopping.. Why is it, that people and specially the young stop so fast when they have an idea? The real problems occur when you tell it someone. This is the first and strongest indicator to give up […]

HOW TO EFFECTIVELY AVOID GETTING STARTED

It’s not like you don’t tell it over and over and over and over and over again.

It’s not like people don’t listen.

It’s like, you tell it like a record that jumps back again and again and again and again.

My hardest nut to crack is my litany, let me think about it for a moment, about 8 years!!! it has been listened to again and again and again until he FINALLY! actually started to do what I advised him to do year in, year out.

He did not regret it.

But the fears and beliefs were so deep that he did not jump over the gap between wanting and doing for a very, very long time.

About 2-3 years ago, he finally started to do what HE loves and what HE wants and I would say mission completed.

It took me 8 years of persuasion. Eight years!

So, what’s point one in pushing to start?

Wallowing in your own negative beliefs and fears. It’s not exactly our comfort zone, but it’s certainly expanding towards that.

Point two, as I mentioned before, is that we just don’t want to leave our comfort zone. Because „where there’s a will, there’s a way.“ And „if you don’t want to, you don’t want to.“

Point three would be IN the comfort zone, doing everything that keeps you from finally starting, INCLUDING just talking about it and reading about it and watching hours of videos about it instead of finally starting.

Point four, not to find or look for any reasons or motivation. WHY you should finally do it NOW.

Some people might think „yes, what’s 8 years, it’s over fast“.

I can only reply to this, if you don’t know already at the age of 11 what you wanted to become and you are working towards it, you will probably be much older when you realize that the hamster wheel doesn’t make you happy and you prefer to do your own thing and THEN 8 years are a big part of your productive age and for some people it is simply too late!

I can only say it again and again.

Start before it is too late. Nobody lives forever and at some point it is much harder to do what you really wanted to do.

I’ll probably write a few more blogs about it, also how important it is to know why you should do your own thing. Which is not only meant in terms of making money.

Katja.

Was ist ein Visionboard und wozu dient es?

Ein Visionboard, ist die oft gepriesene grafische Aufbereitung unserer eigenen Vision, unseres Traumes, unserer Ziele.

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Man könnte faul sein und Fotos suchen und die aufkleben, oder an die Wand kleben, man kann aber auch kreativ sein und seine Ziele aufmalen, oder in Lettern aufkleben, lasst eurer Fantasie freien Lauf.

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Und wozu das ganze???

Um unser Unterbewusstsein! auf unsere Ziele / Visionen / gehoffte Erfolge einzustimmen.

Unser Unterbewusstsein entscheidet darüber wie viel Energie wir auf unser Ziel legen, wieviel Motivation wir letzten Endes besitzen und wie viel Arbeit wir investieren.

Was ist also besser, als uns unser Ziel immer mal wieder vor AUGEN zu halten?!

Selbst, wenn wir es nicht sehen, unser Gehirn weiss ganz genau, WAS wir da kreiiert haben und wird nun noch mehr Energie darauf legen, dass wir es erreichen.

Habt ihr schon mal ein Visionboard kreiiert?

Lasst es uns wissen.

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A demons playground

Hey everyone, I want to talk about things, which i learn from my constant repeating dreams, about many things in those worlds. One of those things is the behaviour of „demons“, ghosts or lets say negative entity’s. How do they behave and what kind of goal do they have? Well..ive understood that these beings like […]

Monsters cause Pain ? – A lesson

Ive had an old dream about a monster as a kid. I was standing on a street which was empty. No cars, no humans ..just Nothing but the street and few trees. I looked left and right until i noticed a black thing that had yellow eyes and it was big and covered in black […]

The Witch – Another Dream

I slept away and suddenly i stood on a big brench which was blue. The brench lead to a big tree, which was as well blue. Than a naked woman with a long tail and long darker hair stood in the end of the brench and looked at me. This tree and the entire scene […]

Astrale Welten

Hallo zusammen, Zum heutigen Abend sprechen wir darüber was denn sogenannte ausserkörperliche Reisen sind, kurz genannt über Astralreisen. Vielen ist dieses Thema fremd und viele wissen davon aber fürchten sich davor oder stempeln diese als Hirngespinste ab. Vorweg, ihr seid weder geistig am durchdrehen, noch braucht ihr davor Angst haben. Jeder …sagen wir fast jeder […]

EXPERIMENT – M – CHAPTER 1

„beep beep beep“ the alarm clock sounds. ignore

„piiiiep piiiieeep piiieeeeep“ shrill screeching of the alarm clock, my heartbeat soaring, that the breathing mask crashes into my face,

„DAMNED“ – I shout unabashedly – nobody hears me here anyway.

Not only am I awake, I am also directly annoyed and before my morning ration of „gold“ I am not master of my senses.

Mistress, mind you, but nobody here is interested in that. Least of all me.

A short time later, after a short lap of honor in what they call „bath“ here, jail would be more appropriate, I am already on my way to the research room.

Today a new experiment is on the agenda, Torben, our leader has been raving about it all last week.

Today it’s getting serious.

The new experiment is supposed to prove that there are genetically created races that are able to develop independently and treat their planet lovingly and not destroy it.

Experiments A to L were pure failures. As was to be expected.

This universe was one of the younger ones and one could almost rightly claim to be one of the most unnecessary.

Torben, hated it when I said that. But I was convinced of that.

We had consistently had bad results in all previous experiments.

Either the experiments destroyed themselves in a very short time, or their planet, or both.

Our team, put all their hopes on – M – In the belief that the mistakes of the past would not be made again.

After all, the mistakes in the genetic code had been corrected, and there were already promising species on the planet we wanted to integrate.

When I arrived, the whole team was already assembled and looked out of the round window that stretched across the entire room. The view was once again overwhelming.

„Too bad that this beautiful planet will soon be a heap of ashes and coal dust, too,“ Brian murmured as I stood next to him. Torben looked over at us disapprovingly.

„A little more enthusiasm people. Just try harder,“ he said and went to his desk.

„In 15 minutes we will reach their orbit. There’s no mention in our files that any of us have been here, so I guess we’re free to go and have a good romp.“

So we went to him.

The moment when we initiated the start of the experiments was always particularly solemn … we hugged each other and I looked at my husband, who had been trying to get through to me the whole time.

Since telepathy was forbidden on the ship, I couldn’t show him that his signals were getting through, but he knew from my facial expressions that they were. There were many couples on the ship, but our boss said it would lower the group’s morale if we showed it too openly, so we couldn’t even stay in the same cabins.

What were we getting into?

„Hey, Kati. You’re the first one today. Let’s go.“

My husband got big eyes and a red head, I knew he hated it when Brian and Torben preferred me.

To be first on the new planet was also to be favoured by the bosses, but they probably just chose me because I was the last one to arrive at the meeting.

„Well then. Here we go.“ I said, „Here we go,“ and I laid down on the appropriate chaise longue and got wired across the room.

„But this time, don’t put life support on until after I’ve gone. I said that, and everyone laughed.

The bums had already slammed the tube onto my chest when I hadn’t even been over there yet.

„Guys, this stuff is just so you don’t have to check up on me so much. When is my husband coming?“

He was already standing next to me, giving me one last kiss and whispering to me, „Soon my heart. I won’t let you wait too long.“

I was going to say „You say that every time.“ But then it started.

Through a monitor I was shown what we already knew about the planet and through a cable this was sent directly into my memory.

In addition I saw pictures which already let me suspect that also experiment – M – would fail again, like the others before.

Although the predominant species there did not seem to be too intelligent, it was apparently unconscious to a great extent and strove to kill everything was foreign to it.

„This is gonna be fun.“ The others around me nodded. I’ve never seen a planet worse than this one.

Since I had not written the schedule and only knew the rough task details, Brian felt that too much knowledge spoils the effect. I was curious to see what I would end up with this time.

Well.., this time no exoskeleton seemed to be needed, which was the case on almost all other planets and annoyed us.

The freedom of movement with these things, is immensely limited and no one can say that it is fun. Although mature exoskeletons were able to adapt well to the body inside, but in principle they were all useless.

After that it turned black around me and I lost consciousness…

Part 2 on its way! Katja

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Intervall Fasting #5 – Benefits, disadvantages

Today we come to the advantages or disadvantages, if I find some that interval fasting has compared to other types of diet or even diets. Benefits of interval fasting what I personally like best is the fact that you can basically eat everything during the meal breaks, as well as that you don’t have to […]

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INTERVAL FASTING #4 – BACK TO THE PAST

I wish you a wonderful and hopefully not too hot Sunday morning. THAT would have been my greeting this morning, but you know what? WordPress was of the opinion to delete my finished and saved blog instead of publishing it. Oh guys, I was sooo mad. I had researched and written for over two hours […]

The New Pills

It was a normal tuesday and i was heading as always to my 9 to 5 job and after that to my psychatrist. I had depressions over a year because of my job. It was boring and depressing to work there. Nothing new happend. The boss of the company was quite nice and actually friendly […]

The Dream Well

It was summer and my parents had new jobs in a different city with more income. This meant that i had to change the school and friends again, it was tough but i accepted it and the new house was huge and even had a well. After we got into the house, we were all […]

How we created the world – Beyond Afterlife

To begin with, ive had very strange moments in my life without the knowledge that came with spirituality. As i grew, those experiences increased randomly and things happend that i cant talk with anybody at all. After a intense remembering on what happend and whats really going on, me and my wife found us back […]

Another Day

Its raining over 15 hours now and it doesnt look like stopping.. This was really needed. This year not many trees survived due to heat, it went up to 47° celsius over few weeks and killed many things xD

The Cell and Earth

We were 30 kids inside a big cell. I dont remember how i got there, neither who my parents are. That was very strange. The cell or lets call it room was shiny white and had no corners, i dont know how to explain it. It looked like a fortified room and there was a […]

Guten Morgen Zusammen

Ich wünsche jeden einen guten Donnerstag!

Lasst euch nicht von euren Zielen abbringen und macht immer weiter!

Problems of a long distance Relationship

Having a partner who lives hundred and thousands of miles away for a long time is very hard.

Specially when you cant see each other because some state’s and governments wont allow it..

Thats a pretty stupid and fucked up planet if you ask me… hindering two people to find their luck, while they can be anywhere, anytime around the globe with their privat jets..

It often happens that out of nowhere, we start to have a conflict with our long distance partner about many stupid and useless things.

The reason for this is the distance and frustration. Not knowing WHEN youre going to see him/her.

The more interesting thing is, every conflict dissapears when you start to video chat with your partner. It feels if a conflict never appeared at all.

So do more video chats people! I guarantee you, it will feel better and stress will be solved instantly!

The most problem is that you cant help them at any way if they should have problems or whatever.

Questions appear like „what if he/she get into a car accident and we never hear anymore from each other?“ Or what if…. and so on..

Pretty useless questions of course, because you couldnt change anything at all … only wait and hope.

And one more thing, the black question should never even be in your mind „does my partner fake it or step sides me with another one?“

This question is only to be asked if you really have a strange feeling about it.

If your partner really loves you and you both REALLY FEEL connected to each other – a way will be always open! It always is!

Have a good day friends!

Dark Rituals and Blood ? Part 2

The screen showed five teenagers which were bound on chair and they seemed to cry. Their eyes were bound with tape.

Meanwhile some people started to laugh and under these people, we even saw Bill B., K.P. and many more.

We didnt expect these people to be here. They were neither guarded or secured. It really seemed like a „party“ were everyone was equal and „knew“ each other.

While the people laughed, me and my wife looked each other in the eyes and understood what was going to come.

Those who organised this party went on and gave everyone a mask.

My wife got a cat mask and i got a gorilla mask.. no one would notice us now we thought.

„EVERYBODY … MASKS ON AND ENJOY THE LITTLE TEASER … hahaha“ said the pig mask guy.

Suddenly the people on the screen got tasered by people who wore black robe’s and pig masks.

„WHEN THE PREY SCREAMS, IT GETS TASERED AND WHEN YOU CRY, WE EAT YOU ALL ALIVE“ said one of the black robe guy.

The people started to laugh like it was a commedy show.

It seemed we were the only normal people in this underground building.

No one could go out until the show was over.

My wife got disgusted and needed a bathroom.

„Are you okay? Lets go to a bathroom“ i said.

We both got to a very luxerous bathroom and i waited until she was …. finished with puking.

Bill B. came in.. „I see its your first time here?“

„Yes it is … and our first time to this kind of fun“ i replied.

„Hahaha .. it hasnt even begun, wait until you see the baby’s“ while he washed his hands and smiled.

„We look forward to it!“ i said while starting to laugh myself. Not because of the „fun“ what was going to come, but because a „Bill B.“ talked about killing baby’s and smiling about it.

I asked myself …what if all the bullshit from the internet was true what they said about him?

We would soon see..

Bill left and my wife came out of the bathroom.

It was strange that the womans and mens bathroom were all the same. I mean what idiot doesnt respect privacy?

We left the bathroom and took our masks back on.

„AND THAT IT IS FOR THE TRAILER LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, GO THROUGH THE NEXT GATE TO THE REAL FUN“ the pig guy said.

A big metal door opened behind the screen and everybody went in, as we heird some say „Iam so excited ..we can finally let it loose again“

We wondered what they meant as we walked with the crowd and my wife held my arm.

A loud „DONG … DONG“ … Two paths appeared .. The people followed their lust..

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INTERVAL FASTING #2

Applause, applause. Who should pat me, or us, on the back, if not WE ourselves. First of all, today there is an invitation to the Fasting Motivation Group, which I reopened 2 years ago, because many apps only want to earn money, but do not want the members to get to know each other. https://www.facebook.com/groups/2100178886865674 […]

INTERVAL FASTING #1

A wonderful and hopefully rainy good morning at a Monday. With us nature finally breathes a sigh of relief, it is fresh and raining really well. I, on the other hand, have to put on my pants and hold my breath, otherwise they just won’t close. So I put myself on the scale and fell […]

The Human Rings

There was once a cave in which a titan lived. This titan consumed those who dared entering the cave. Any traveler who crossed that path, never returned.. But there was one… who came out disturbed and who took his own life few hours later… The only sentence he said was .. „It makes rings of […]

The Witch – Another Dream

I slept away and suddenly i stood on a big brench which was blue.

The brench lead to a big tree, which was as well blue.

Than a naked woman with a long tail and long darker hair stood in the end of the brench and looked at me.

This tree and the entire scene was in the middle of nowhere. The background was black and if i would fall, the scene would fall apart i knew.

The woman or as i thought „WITCH!“ asked me „What do you desire the most, that i could give you?“ This question seemed easy because i knew, bringing my wife from the other end of this planet wouldnt work …at all…

So i answered „Ultimate Power“ – Than the tree brought up many other people which were connected to the tree… Lets say they were corrupted and fell to her spell.

She walked towards me slowly while pushing aside the hanging blue body’s. I thought that these might attack me but i wasnt scared and neither did i wanted anything from her.

I decided to fly upwards, so she couldnt reach me.

She understood that she couldnt catch me with her spell, neither had it any effect even if she wouldve catch me.

Her spell was to seduce its prey and wrap them up under a false promise, while the tree did the rest.

She was a witch who posessed the willingless prey…

While i flew away, she screamed loud and looked rather dissapointed.

I woke up …

UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS – FACTS #1

Here you could now first add all my/our old posts. This one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/25/warum-steigt-das-bewusstsein-der-menschen-nicht/ or this one: https://katjasbauchladen.com/2020/06/01/limitierende-glaubenssatze/ Or in principle almost all of them, as I am very often only concerned with consciousness. But now let’s get it straight again. Does humanity really want to be „Conscious“? Does this question really arise? You know what? […]

World Conspiracy

What if we are not humans, but beings from a far different dimension who incarnated into flesh, in order to … … do what we want? – But a species a long time ago managed to trap our memory and delete it for a time as long as we are in this body and our […]

Another Weird Dream

I was sitting on a couch with few people i didnt knew and never saw anywhere.

We were watching tv or… they were watching.

I stood up and asked the crowd „Lets jump into the scene inside the tv, why sit and just watch it?“

There was no answer and no one really looked at me at all… Couldnt they see or hear me ?

Well i didnt bothered too much and stood on the couch.

Then i took a little sitting position and jumped straight into the tv, still no one was bothered nor looked.

So i flew and thought that i will pass trough it but suddenly i stopped right before, because there was no scene or picture going on.

I saw this screen again from other dreams and i started to puzzle few colors into a picture.

Suddenly the scene behind me changed to the picture i puzzled but the screen made automatical changes and formed the rest.

This was quite interesting to see the screen „not working“

There still much out there…

I will try to see what the screen can do, since it isnt my first nor fifth time experiencing this.

erster Schultag in Hessen 17.8.2020

Mein Kind ist nun Klasse 4 und kam nach Hause und meinte „alles wäre gut“. Man muss dazu sagen, dass Hessen zum Glück keine Maskenpflicht im Unterricht hat, weil dann hätte sie nicht gesagt alles sei gut. Ich wünsche mir dass Hessen dabei bleibt. Lief auch vor den Ferien damit eigentlich ganz gut. Wie sieht […]

Intervallfasten #1

Einen wunderschönen und hoffentlich regenreichen guten Morgen zum Montag. Bei uns atmet die Natur nun endlich auf, es ist frisch und regnet wirklich gut. Ich hingegen muss zum Hose anziehen, die Luft anhalten, den sonst geht die einfach mal nicht mehr zu. Ich habe mich also auf die Waage gestellt und bin rückwärts runtergefallen.. denn […]

Another Day

So currently i lack ideas and need something very new … Last week my grandmother died and the days past extremely fast… Here in this part of russia, the day ends at 18:00 .. because it gets pitch dark outside and the body gets fast sleepy.. reeeeally annoying i can tell! It feels like you […]

Channeling #1

Ich habe lange überlegt ob ich Euch mal ein paar Impressionen in Channelings Jenseitskontakte gebe die mir besonders in Erinnerung geblieben sind. Und ich denke ja, warum nicht. Wo fang ich an? Muss ich das nochmal erklären? Im Prinzip sind Jenseitskontakte der teilweise „spontan“ entstandene Kontakt zu den, zum Teil „zufällig“ anwesenden Seelen oder Seelenteilen […]

Was enthält ein „Lebens-/Seelenplan“? -Vor der Inkarnation

Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen:
Hallo zusammen, In diesem Blog werde ich über meine Erfahrungen berichten und darüber.was geschah, bevor ich auf der Erde inkarnierte. Erstens: Wenn Sie einen Schritt von außen in dieses Universum machen, werden Sie wahrscheinlich und höchstwahrscheinlich Ihr Bewusstseinslevel verlieren. Das bedeutet, dass Sie keine Klarheit darüber haben werden,…

School Cafeteria

We were in the school cafeteria and the doors got blocked. We panicked not because the police was going to come, but the location changed completely and the walls had a very creepy and bloody dust. We were 3 people including myself. „And what happend next?“ Asked the agent who interrogated us in seperat rooms. […]

Meine Katzen wünschen gute Nacht

Ich habe festgestellt das ich Bilder nur vom Handy aus in den Blog bekomme.

Also hier ein paar gute Nacht Bilder.

Leo, gähnt immer besonders doll
Luna, schläft besonders elegant
Leo kann Dexter oft nicht einfach schlafen lassen, nein er stänkert.
Luna mal als gif

Mein 24/7 Freigänger schläft derzeit in meinem Schrott Corsa und er braucht wohl echt ein Haus mit Fenster:)

Ich finde aber gerade kein Foto.

Gute Nacht

Why its impossible to argument with idiots

Many might know this already how pointless it is to talk with dumb people.

Why is it that such people simply wont hear or pretend not to hear what you say?

Well the answer is rather simple..

Its their experience, their believes, their life and what theyve had and got from their parents.

Shortly said: they are unconscious.

You cant wake a dumb person when they got a fog of unconsciousness infront of their heads ..

It is just like in a dream, no one can hit you and scream at your face to finally recognise what is going on… well .. in a dream this is actually possible though..

The live of a person who cant hear the argument of a person who respects the words of the disrespecter, was and never will be bright shining.

Those lives are mostly filled with sadness and pain. And they try to cover it by showing how tough they are and how weak and dumb all the others seem to be.

Iam surrounded by idiots and this is the truth. My parents arent smart and they never were. They only tell us how bad we are and how stupid, but iam conscious.

Someone who is conscious will never be a victim of anything and there is no excuse.

Someone who cant hear the truth about their sad and angry lives is the real looser.

Why am i telling you this?

Because you got the hands over your live! Not any asshole-opinion or dumb sentence from anybody!

Better hold those strings tight and always stand your ground!

But be sure to loose the strings which cut your hands 😉

Scream halls

I want to talk about a horror scene which happend one night that got me really sweating.

I slept away and stood in a dirty and blood flooded floor. The walls were old and blood symbols were written all over it, i didnt asked what this scene was all about.

It looked like a really well done hospital horror scene.

The floor had no doors … only few lights were hanging above..

I started to walk and my footsteps were loud and as i walked further, ive felt a big bad energy coming my way.

After walking maybe fifteen feet, i saw something down the floor which came screaming at me.

That thing had no arms nor face, it was cut in half and walked slowly screaming at me, while it was covered in blood.

Now … do you know the type of movies were a scream of a monster is more terrifying than itself?

This was the case here.

It looked ugly, dont get me wrong – but the loud and ugly scream was scarrier.

I knew that it would attack me, so ive said to myself than it will pass right through me, without ever noticing me.

And it did pass trough, it was nothing.

I wasnt scared because ive had a lot of such moments in conscious and unconscious dreams.

After that thing passed trough me, i walked further down the floor and saw the next thing coming up.

It was a giant three headed dog with .. alot of wounds .. one face was in front, the second face was in the middle, and the third was at its tail which was cut off.

To be honest i didnt knew which side was the front, but i knew that this thing actually could snatch me if i wont get out of there soon.

The reason it could touch me was because i got a little scared and i was unconscious in this state.

This fucking dog was running sideways at me and it had three tongs which were cut in three pieces.

It looked really bad… have you ever seen a fucking zombie dog running at you sideways with full speed and screaming louder than the ugly freak two seconds ago?

I switched above the scene and the body down there was ignored …the dog passed through.

Why did it not attack?

As i got back and walked further down the floor, i looked back just to note, that the half cut being and the dog merged into one – giant four legged piece of monster which had two bloody eyes and was staring right at me…

Ive got really scared..not because of that thing, but from the momentum how it looked at me.

It started to run like the girl from the movie „The Exorzist“ on all four legs while climbing around the floor…

Ive had enough of the scene… i wanted to just sleep but NO, i must stay somewhere bloody and get chased by a four legged cunt dog 🤣

Good Evening

Today’s day is a bit rough. Had no time to even take a bite since morning and right now im driving to another client .. See ya all later.

Crazy Cat Diary

Manchmal glaub ich nicht, was ich da sehe. Seht selbst. Der Teller fiel übrigens nicht. Was wars? Frischgebackene Waffeln, die meine Tochter allerdings nach den Fischstäbchen gebacken hatte, in der gleichen Pfanne und das war so widerlich 😆 Es schmeckt so gut, aber stank so nach Fisch, dass Leo am Ende auch verwirrt war.

Small Motivation

Remember! Whatever you do, theres always an asian who does it better. Now stop scrolling through instagram or facebook and get up!

The Hallway of Eyes – Part 2

As i walked straight to the door after pressing down the handle, all other doors closed loudly one after another. This gave me chills and i started to really enjoy it i thought. The room which i was warned by the girls before had been opened… „Scary scary .. not .. its just another hallway“ […]

The Hallway of Eyes – Part 1

A horror house had opened last day and i just wanted to see how it was. We had nothing much in this town, so it was rather new and i hoped it to be fun. I was living pretty central and the police patrolled constantly here. Crime was unavailable here and the people were friends […]

Short horror

Ive had another nightmare ..

Ive stood few steps away from my house with few people, but i noticed them after i got a little conscious in my dream.

They looked a bit crazy and dumb to be honest because they all were doing weird head movements.

So i went a step forth and asked what they were doing.

Two girls and a guy were shaking their heads left and right while saying „YOu Wont get me“, while the nose of one girl started to bleed.

Didnt they noticed me at all?

They didnt anwered my questions either.. but looked away.

I stood there and was a bit shocked what was going on.

It was a „dare or death“ – game instead „do or dare“.

They called several monsters from other realms to themselves which either were good or really bad.

Whenever someone closed their eyes and said loudly „you wont get me“, while shaking their head back and forth or left and right, these beings appeared and started to harm them.

The first girl who did it got nose bleedings.

The second girl got nose and eye bleedings and her hair got pulled out.

The guy who did it, got his head directly ripped of his shoulders .

… the girls were laughing.

I tried it myself, not because i wanted to be killed but because i knew unconsciously that i cant be killed, and saw how this stuff happend.

A big black hole appeared in the air and it either spits out monsters or it takes YOU!

It tried to get me but suddenly it was just a black garbage bag. But it was conscious and started to wrap itself around me but i wanted to go with it, just to see what was on the other side.

It did let go and now started to run away from me and suddenly the scene changed again.

I stood again near my house and now, a depp and dark tunnel with steps appeared in front of me.

That place was contaminated with evil energy, i was shaking and when i didnt wanted to enter because i didnt knew it was just a dream anymore, few monsters appeared inside it

They just stared at me with a really big smile…

It scared the hell out of me and i woke up..

It wasnt scary at all i thought, but when youre not conscious about your situation, it WILL get scary.

Schwalben in den letzten Sommerwochen

Man sieht sie waren fleißig. Das ist die erste und zweite Brut. Dieses Jahr habe ich auch keine kranken oder verletzten gefunden. Heute ist es dunkel draußen. Gestern brannten Feld und Wald, heute regnet es hoffentlich. Einen schönen Start in die neue Woche.

Good and a Half Day

Since some of us sleep more than 10 hours a day, ill call it a half day.. Time your day right and achieve something! Stop fucking around and do, or atleast admit that youre doing nothing for your dreams! Stay motivated and do it daily! Have a good day!

Death Ears

They laugh ot those who can hear it.. While those who dont, get controlled. Pointing with fingers „dumb idiots“, While the real cursed are laughing. A war will come, just like always, Wiping the surface while the elite hide in their bunkers, Waiting to come outside, To rule the survivors and do the same over […]

The ufo inside the mountain

My dream last night was very interesting.

I was searching something … a ship, probably my ship.

The place where i live has many mountains and inside the dream, colours appeared very strong and my parents were stupid as always – yelling about useless stuff.

I didnt cared about any of them and flew near the mountains and suddenly i was standing in front of a near mountain which existed physically too.

I went trough it and found a high – modern, round and floating ship which had a greenish colour. It was waving midair too.

I knew that this ship was my and i left it there, so no one would find jt. I wasnt going to tell anybody anything about it but i knew a person which might expect me to come with it …

This ship was invisible at all times when consciousness entered it, while the one inside could see everything and command it.

It moved slow but it was possible to travel to every dimension very clear and save. No radar or whatsoever could detect it because it became conscious through me, even though it still had a few monitors inside.

The mountain was a coverup because even if it was invisible, you could touch it by accident when no one was inside.

Inside the mountain was another higher advanced facility with extraterestials but i saw only one guy who checked the room with my ship.

Starting the ship was very fast and happend automatically when i entered while my energy as a soul fuled it and decreased the density to a level, were it became untouchable.

This dream was a bit more interesting than the most usual stuff.. Is there really a fucking ship inside that mountain?

The pain of burning to death

How does it feel to burn to death?

Well we all can agree that this level of pain is unbearable and anybody who burned his finger, knows that it hurts sometimes already bad.

The first thirty seconds will be the most painful moment (besides getting electroshocked that hurts nearly equal), because your nerves start to boil inside with everything else.

When a nerve gets comprimised inside the body, it answers with pain or irritations.

Now what pain will come when the nerves get burned all at once ?

Few months ago ive had something bad at my foot ..im not going to tell what it was, but i burned it three times with a glowing iron spoon to get rid of it.

It wasnt a big area but holding the burning spoon at my foot hurt really really bad. I was sweating because i didnt knew how much pain i would need to endure first until its over. So i just pressed it down and it went for 10 seconds until the pain stopped, while i was sweating even more.

My skin was turning white because the heat had burned down everything inside it, so i wasnt feeling any pain anymore around the area… Ive still got a video from that but i dont think you want to see it!.xD

After that i understood why someone will die faster in such situations:

The pain – which is extreme, even if it will be just for nearly half a minute.

The schock – because our brain has a „secret“ function to shut itself off, if we know that death or anything bad comes – which ‚overloades‘ the individual.

Fear – anybody who knows that they will burn to death, might die from fear as well, even before the act.

Overall we can agree that dying like that is fucked up.. The same as freezing .. both hurts.

Monsters cause Pain ? – A lesson

Ive had an old dream about a monster as a kid. I was standing on a street which was empty.

No cars, no humans ..just Nothing but the street and few trees.

I looked left and right until i noticed a black thing that had yellow eyes and it was big and covered in black smoke.

It started to come close very fast and i knew that i couldnt get out of there until the scene was over.

So it came and had very sharp claws but its a dream and you cant feel pain right? I knew that as a kid because ive had no experience with pain within dreams.

This one teached me i guess! xD

That thing was going to kill me but i couldnt die so it hurt me very bad and terred my skin of while striking me with the claws all the time..

It hurt so bad that i was actually screaming loud and tried to fight back but then i noticed something.

It wasnt trying to kill me but to torture me until i realise something.

While he had its claws in my back and held me to the sky i noticed that pain wasnt the problem, it was our expecation!

Pain never occurs in any of the other worlds when we should get damaged, it comes when we expect it to come! My problem was that i didnt knew it was a dream and thought it will hurt when it hits me.

I saw that pain only was possible when youve had a body and a mind which follows your expecting will to cause pain. I saw the reality what was causing us to believe nonsense and taking it over to other worlds which didnt belonged there.

After i realised that, i suddenly started to laugh and stood again in front of that being.

Me as a kid infront of this three meter thing which didnt flinched anymore.

I walked away from it and it dissapeared slowly behind me.

What kind of teaching method was that ?? The way of pain ??? XD

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