As you can see todays topic will be the question of „Is it really useful to run for loosing weight“?
This question is not easy to answer because it depends on the program youre doing or if you have any health problems. So lets see if we can answer it more specifically!
If youre completely healthy and you want to go jogging in the morning to burn some extra calories, it should be fine to do so but it wont be really efficient. The reason for that is because your body needs to be empty of any glycemic energy which are stored in your muscles. If you start running in the morning to loose weight, than you would need to run 30 minutes atleast before your body starts of using fat cells. This is why starting a diet first would help loosing weight either than running.
The second point is, if your joints have any problems already, it will get worse if you start jogging. Many joint problems in the knees appear because of excessive jogging or running. Than there is the platform where you start running. If its just asphalt with the wrong shoes, you might get more damage in your knees than you like so be sure to use running shoes or a softer ground.
Besides the genetic and your eating aspects, its alright to say that jogging in the morning can help you to loose weight but heres a thing. If you would rather start using weightlifting to loose weight, you would be way more efficient! If you built muscle over time, your body will consume constantly energy even if you just lay or sit down and do nothing! This is great for men and woman.
If you want to loose weight really with running and not by weight lifting, than i would tell you to do a HIIT (High – Intense – Interval – Training)
This sort of training is as the name says „High intense“.This means the time you would jog (30 minutes or an hour) would be reduced to 15 minutes while the intensity gets doubled.
For a training like this you should start slow and not overdo it because otherwise your heart will get a lot of stress.
Heres how a jogging HIIT is done:
You start to slowly jog for 15 seconds and the other 15 seconds you start to run with full power as fast as you can. After these 15 seconds you wont stop but just begin to jog slowly again and after that, youll run again 15 seconds as fast as you possibly can. This will be repeated until the 10 minute or 15 minute mark is reached. If 15 seconds is too much for most beginners, you can jog 30 seconds and sprint 15 seconds, just to get more breath.
If you do this, your body will burn energy as well after your workout like weight lifting but not because you gained muscles, but because it uses a lot more energy than simply jogging.
You shouldnt do this training daily, specially as a beginner! Do it 3 times a week and start with 2 times and begin by warming up. The first couple times will be hell because your system needs to accept it but it will be worth it if you do it.
There are many benefits to start a diet. Is it just to loose weight or to be more healthy and feel better.
Today i will tell you 6 benefits of a diet.
Nr.1 Loosing weight.
A diet is always to be considered when wanting to loose weight. Even if you dont want to, you will begin to loose often a few pounds because once youve startedbeating healthy, your body will get rid of excessive amounts of salt and water which leads to the loss in the very first months.
Nr.2 Heart health increases
Yes the health of your heart will increase too! Many people die of heart strokes, heart failures and heart attacks due to their unhealthy lifestyle. Eating healthy would decrease such cases drastically. As well eating healthy can lead to reduced blood pressure.
A good start to increase your heart health would be: eating whole grains, vegetables and fruits, choosing fat free or low fat dairy products and limit saturated/trans fat intake such as fatty meat products or milk products.
Nr.3 Better mood
In 2016, researchers had found a connection between high glycemic loads which may trigger depression and fatigue. A meal with high glycemic loads are mostly refined carbohydrates like white bread, cakes, soft drinks and other high sugar loads. Veggies and fruits contain lower levels of glycemic loads even if some fruits might be really sweet. The body uses fruits and veggies differently in the body while the refined food is converted mostly to sugar.
You will notice a mood change once youve started your diet in the first few weeks already.
Nr.4 Improved memory
Dieting may help you maintain good cognition and brain health. Eating the following can help: Vit.D, C and vitamin E, Omega 3 fatty acids and fish.
Nr.5 Reduced Cancer risk
Eating foods which contain antioxidants can help your body to reduce the risk of getting cancer. Antioxidants not only fight against cancer but are good for your cells as well because it prevents aging.
Phytochemicals which are found in fruits, veggies and nuts act as antioxidants. (Beta carotene, lycopene, vit A,E and C)
Nr.6 Strong bones and teeth + anti aging effect
A calcium and magnesium rich diet can help you to hold your tooth and bones healthy and to lower the risk of breaking them or loosing density. Woman which are pregnant should always consider a very rich amount of calcium and magnesium during pregnancy because it can lead to serious problems for the mother after, because her body will use the calcium in her own bones to structure the childs.
A diet with a balanced intake of everything and a rich amount of vitamin D, C, A and E will work as an anti aging agent for your body. You can surely increase your health by changing your diets until you found your best way.
This was our small list of what a diet can do for you, if you liked it leave something and see ya! 😄
The place were i was living was a hell, even though i had no real idea how the other world looked like.. Being rich and living in a clean enviroment was just a dream of mine and from everyone else here as well. The place was a long tunnel corridor in the underground which was […]
Ich hoffe das viele Kinder, die heute zum ersten Mal seit Wochen ihre Freunde oder wenigstens einen Teil davon wiedersehen können, heute einen schönen Tag haben. Bei uns ist nun leider auch ganztags Maskenpflicht an der Grundschule und ich hätte meiner Tochter am liebsten ein Attest geholt, da sie aufgrund ihrer Erkrankung eins bekommen kann. […]
The place were i was living was a hell, even though i had no real idea how the other world looked like.. Being rich and living in a clean enviroment was just a dream of mine and from everyone else here as well.
The place was a long tunnel corridor in the underground which was built a while ago and left for the weak and poor people. A lot of people lived and organised their life here, trying to survive and see the surface atleast once.
The place was led by a group of heavy armed thugs and thiefs called „The Crooklers“. They had taken the place for themselves and demanded tribute in order to live there. Many attacked them because it wasnt fair for anybody. Many died and many suffered and many of the gang died too. A few months later it was the same but with lesser gang members. It was all chaotic, no law whatsoever. We were the lowest people of all because we had no money and were not allowed to see the surface.
The exit was always heavily guarded and secured by soldiers from the outside, so no one was trying to escape. But theres always someone who tried their luck.. Getting instantly shot was the only escape for those who were broken mentally.
It was a slum and a high tech labor at once. Completely self sufficient by growing food and using deep dug wells for water with advanced computers to measure health state. All sounds nice and good but the problem was the greed of many.
There wasnt enough for everybody and fights broke out. Some poisened the wells or drugged food supplies on the small gardens. There was always something going on in that place… Junkies were sharing the same needle and diseases broke out inside the areas of the tunnels due to dirt and rats coming from the walls. Hygiene was possibly the hardest thing to obtain and so the tunnels were seperated to hygiene sections.
The Fourth section was the lowest of all and even myself began calling them scums of scums. Only junkies and addicted thugs, murderers and criminals were found there. No one ever entered the area because there was nothing to be found ..only death and hate towards the other sections. Of course the door was open to those who wanted to change themselves and their circumstances but often it was a lie just to live in a more hygiene area.
The third section was a military high corrupted defense zone by those who wanted to live better than them in the fourth section. It was a higher class of hygiene and people could take a few showers a day. The self proclaimed police was just there to somehow enrich themselves while assuring some sort of security. They just looked that no one bad came inside while some still managed because of corruption.
The second section was the garden and high – higher class hygiene were only people with small problems, good manners and work were allowed to enter. The sick and diseased were not allowed to enter even if they wouldve been of use. This zone was strictly covered by the rest of people who knew how to solve water and food problems. If this zone would die, everyone inside the tunnel would too.
And finally there was the first section. The sterile section for medicine and high tech of the lost generation and what the people above ground dropped into their garbagges. The medicine was bad but still enough for people who had only small health problems, to cure them completely. The rest wasnt getting any and to pay for it was really hard as well.
If one section dies, everyone would… even if the fourth would die, rats and disease would pest the air and the ground would be full of parasites. That is why the fourth was located directly at the front of the tunnel so the guards above ground would smell them and take them away.
Somehow everyone was trying to stay alive but it was no life and no one understood why they were not allowed to go above, specially the kids. It was our prison because we were not lucky enough like the rest.
One day, everything went down because the water from the wells were not anymore. Without water there was no food and no life. We gathered everyone together and told the bad news.. Everyone was shocked and some seemed happy! We were heading to a war and everyone knew it. We gathered what we could and grabbed our weapons to walk upfront to negotiate a way out but it all failed because half of the people started a war with themselves. Suddenly the sections started burning and the people of all sections were rioting and robbing people.
Me and two others needed to leave the place immediatly, we couldnt take it anymore. So we started shooting through the smoke and people at the guards in the entrance. They retaliated with shots and the gate opened for the first time, bringing forth a tank to shoot the tunnel itself down.
After the gates were open, the people started blindly running towards it in hope to attain freedom. But the only thing they got was death. We used the moment to sneak by the gate because some managed to get out and the guards were brutally killed. The tunnel was collapsing but before it happened, one guy managed to shoot the tank with a rocket launcher and it hit the target. Unfortunatly the tunnel collapsed under his head.
We were running outside and could see the sun… But what we saw next would rob us from our hopes..
As we thought that the light was the sun, we realised that it was a giant lamp inside another giant tunnel. We couldnt believe what we saw… In those years, they had built several layers of tunnel systems above us and we never realised..
We were now back at section four .. and section three watching us…
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I wanted to make sure that everybody knows: Karma does not exist!
There is no one who will harm and punish you for your deeds on earth or any other planet. It doesnt matter if you kill someone or do harm to others! After death there will be no heaven nor hell or any judgement. But dont get it wrong, someone with a high level of awareness wont do harm to others.. at least not if you dont bother them 😄
So dont worry if you fear the grudge of god, there is none.
The only one who can do harm and punish you is yourself because you might feel guilty of what you did and because of that you want to return to earth to „do good“ (But it wont do anything for you).
Be sure to get „attacked“ after your death if you should follow a certain path which emitts light towards you. Many will try to convert you to go back and do better in life (trap), so be ready.
The universe balances energys but it doesnt punish anything, it simply does its work and the only one who judges good and bad, is you.
If there is war than there will be peace. If there is love than there will be hate somewhere else. If there is light than somewhere will be darkness!
If you want to know more about it, search yourself or use this book where we did the collecting work from our experience and memory for you! 🙂
As i was trying to get out of my body, i had noticed three dark entities in my room which were standing alongside my bed.
For a moment i wasnt sure but a moment later i got pulled off my bed and dragged down the floor to my second room inside the house. I had no time to ask myself any question because it felt clearer than my normal life and way more intense. I thought that this was the real world but than i got pulled back and woke up, just to get dragged again the same way and it ended the same way.
After four times i noticed that i was asleep and neither did i really woke up! My room was changed and the stuff i had was not around. This meant i was dreaming very clearly (such dreams are rare by the way).
When i thought that i finally woke up, only one of those beings were standing in my second room on the floor with its back turned on me. I stood up and went casually towards it without fear but when it turned around, the room became dark and i felt a slash around my neck. There was no pain but blood was dripping… As i thought that i would die, the being grabbed my neck from behind and threw me to my bed were i woke up for sure this time.
(This littly story did not happen and was made up! But i hope it doesnt happen now because it can when i picture myself inside the scene as a last thought before bed)
There was an incident in the desert catacombs near our village which had brought fear into the thoughts of many. One day a few people had decided to take a better look inside the katacombs. Everyone had warned them about the risks to loose the sense of direction and light if their lamps would give […]
Not knowing how i landed here, chaos was inside the building. Everyone was in panick as i just was standing in the middle of a big building with stripe walls and a few plants in each corner.
In the building were over fifty people if not more and the mass started running suddenly.
A woman and a guy started to bite the people and first some tried to pull them away from each other but than they bit those too. There faces were completely covered in blood and their white clothes too. Than they turned into aggressive and bloody freaks just like those other two.
After this the entire crowd started to run into the exit point but ten more of the freaks came along and bit them as well. Everyone was in panick and they climbed somewhere or hid in a place where they wouldnt find them. They turned very fast too.. As for me, i didnt move at all because inside the chaos i was seing something strange. The first infected were fucking with each other and those they had infected. It seemed very strange and disgusting but than i got bitten by an ugly woman freak in the neck and it hurt like hell. As i was turning i realised that the bodys tension was increasing drastically while i became horny. It wasnt a horny like humans would feel but a sense of aggression, urge to fuck and kill the people while everyone else was the enemy except the already infected. That was the reason why they ran straight to the next to bite.
It felt terrible but i thought being a fucking zombie would be tougher or something would take over my mind. However nothing was taking over! The feelings were just insane and harder to control but overall i felt bad and sick. While i was infected i knew that i needed to die because i didnt wanted any of that and why the hell was i even here for again? Was i not just sleeping in my bed? These questions appeared and left with the same speed.
While the rest was getting infected, i searched places for the next round and i had found some to hide. Suddenly my vision got blurry and it seemed that the image was getting reseted back to normal…
There i was again in the middle of the hallway but this time i started running towards a small hallway while those freaks had already begun to hunt. A few moments later, the screams stopped and there was only a few left. As i was entering the small hallway i knew that there was a game to it. In my path were 26 wooden doors every fifty centimeters and my task was to open and close them to set a trap to those who would follow and try to kill me. Now i openend the first 6 doors and closed the following 2 and openend another 4 while closing all the left doors and shutting off the lights inside each floor. I knew those freaks had still a brain to think but they were busy with fucking each other but still they would find me soon.
For my luck, i had found another floor behind me but the place was full of another thirty people and they were already infected, running towards me.. I tried to hold the door closed from which i came but the other doors were opened by those freaks at the other side. They rushed me down and bit me again, this time in my hand but it didnt hurt.
The scene changed again to normal. While i was heading back to the hallway, a woman jumped at me and didnt let go but i didnt felt bothered and nor did i knew what was going on due to my blurry vision.
As i entered the hallway and did the same door game again, i realised that the woman was trying to fuck me or somerhing but i pushed her the fuck out of my sight through the doors and it made enough sound to let them know where we were. Dont get me wrong here, she had no reason to climb at me and not let go so it was self defense! XD She wanted to do it one last time before she was about to die but i wasnt having that. That bitch had caused our death inside the 26th floor because those freaks rushed inside again but attacked her first. I thought i might use the situation to run but it was pointless and i got bitten again. Before those freaks had a gang bang i run away as an infected and the scene changed to normal again but this time i was outside and the last survivor…
It was the moment when someone in military clothes told me that i had survived the plague and became normal again.
We started to burn bodys inside bags while the entire area was burning and the blood dripping down the streets into the city.
It was a rainy and cold day when it all happen’d… The death of our grand vather was not easy for the family, especially what happend later. We were about to go to the funeral and everyone was ready. We dressed proper and my mom was crying the whole time.. It probably hit her the most but she would need to overcome it we thought. As […]
There was an incident in the desert catacombs near our village which had brought fear into the thoughts of many.
One day a few people had decided to take a better look inside the katacombs. Everyone had warned them about the risks to loose the sense of direction and light if their lamps would give up, but they didnt listened.
They never came back…
Until one of them found the exit after two weeks.. He was half dead but not because he was starving, but because something had ripped open the right part of his body and eaten part of it. His stomach was cut, his face was half none existing because their was no skin or muscle and his right foot and leg was broken and twisted several times. He escaped barely he said and didnt knew how he wa alive in this state.. The only weakness from „Them“ was light.. He mustve either crawled or jumped with one leg for his life down there.
He had told us that something unhuman was walking down there and waiting for those who would enter it. After he told us to not go inside, he started suddenly to move backwards as if something was pulling him. The people from the village were terrified to see a men getting dragged down by unknown force, back inside the catacombs while he screamed for help.
The villagers rushed for help but than they stopped before the catacombs and only heard how he screamed a few more times until it was quiet. Everyone was afraid to even come close. But then a villager threw a burning red light inside and as the hallway became visible, they all saw the dark looking being which was feasting on the body. The red light didnt bothered it and it rushed towards us and we began to run away…
It didnt followed us.
But a few nights after, one after another started to walk inside the katacombs without a light or tone. It was as if somerhing had taken their bodys.. Each night someone dissapeared, the ground was shaking and their houses were crushed into the sand like a giant hole… It was as if the ground sucked their very existence away without a hint. What left was a dark hole and scared people.
Everyone took their belongings and left the village for good.. But strangely, some appeared back and went inside the katacombs, never to come back.
The being they saw that day, was not THEIR enemy, the katacomb had mirrored their past and…
The village had a dark past were people got murdered inside the catacombs for rituals and witch craft.
There was a rumor once among the people …
„Whenever you kill someone inside the tomb, it will remember who did it … And when you come close ever again, it will take you and do the same“
Hello there people, So the last times i had tried to leave my body willingly, it didnt worked and i was drifting constantly into a dream which was old .. Nothing new ..only those never ending dreams with a few hints on what happend. But yesterday something happend! I had a huge headache and my […]
It all began inside a forest near the german border to Poland. Twenty seven people died the last weeks because a psycho or an animal was eating the faces of the victims. The bodys looked completely out of this world because they started to rot in an abnormal manner on the spot.. The police started […]
Hello there, Back from another week and presenting you with .. not much! As you mightve read before, i was trying out some stuff to get out of my body (astral travel) and it didnt worked like i hoped it would. Instead, i was back in repeating dreams but now its strongly random and i […]
After i fell asleep, i wandered unconsciously between a blurred and a slowly sharpening screen. After a few seconds, i found myself back inside a pyramid in which nothing was there except a big door with three people on it. One of them looked like anubis with the animal head and he was holding a […]
After the sudden loss of energy i felt destroyed because i now knew what brought the problems of using blood magic. But yet i didnt knew the whole truth about it… As i was laying on the bloody grass and looking into the sky, i wondered what the village meant before they got killed by […]
As i saw the village from far away, i wondered how the villagers could turn their heads simultaneously at me and than block me completely from seing further. A couple hundred meters ahead was the village but as i came closer, the picture of the village became blur. I didnt thought much of it but […]
Fifteen years ago, our daughter was born in our forest hospital near the city.
It was all fine until we found a strange black mark on her neck, right after her birth. The doctors couldnt explain how it was possible because it rather looked like a tattoo. But how was it possible ?
No one knew the answer and everything else was fine as well. She had no problems with her health or else but sometimes i had the feeling, that she was being watched by a shadow in the dark..
Twenty years later she became something that we couldnt understand or trust… She became strange at first and was loosing weight, started to crawl in the night down the floors and screaming that she needs help. Then it scared us that she started to look at us for minutes without saying a word.
We didnt knew to who we should show her because physically she was fine and her body seemed normal except the mark… It had grown to a form that we couldnt find in any text book or else.
So we called an exorcist, even though we thought that it was dumb, we didnt knew what else to do.
As we had called him, he told us that he will be there in fifteen minutes.. We waited together in our house and as his car arrived, i looked out of the window. He was dressed with a robe and had the bible at his hands while he saw me through the window and was approaching our house. But before he knocked at the door, he started to look at something above our house. We didnt knew why he wasnt coming in and so i opened the door to welcome him, but as soon as i opened the door, he started screaming loud and dropped his book to the ground.
His eyes went big and he looked like he saw something that he never saw before. He was screaming „AAAAAARRRRGGHH A MONSTER IN THIS HOUSE“ as he started running and leaving his stuff behind.
Trying to run behind him and asking what was wrong he replied „GET THE HELL OUT OF THAT HOUSE OR BURN IT – THE DEVIL HIMSELF INVADED YOU ALL“ as he drove away.
One thing was clear, he could not charge us for his undone work and we still were confused.
After this incident we left without help and lived normally. This went along another three months until one night, i found my husbands head in the toilett and his body right next to me. I was shaking in fear and didnt knew what was going on.. but this cursen daughter of mine had killed him in his sleep.
She herself had bruises all over her body and she had cut her own tongue while she just stood there again… in the floor, at night, with a knife and charging towards me. I had closed myself inside the bathroom and called the police for help but they would take their time as i thought.
She knocked and kicked at the bathroom door, damanding to open up and that everything would be fine again. She spoke suddenly in the voice of my husband and for a moment i was about to open the door because it was convincing me that i had hallucinations.. but than she hammered again, i got scared and didnt opened it. It was a nightmare. I didnt knew that she could change her voice like that ..
After the police arrived they knocked on the door and someone …No..SHE opened up and spoke with them and told that it was a mistake and that it wouldnt happen again. She even apologised and told that it was a prank from a lost bet! They were about to leave but the bathroom had a window so i opened it and screamed as loud as i could „HELP ME IM HERE AND SHE WANTS TO KILL ME“.
But before i tell you what happend next, dont you find it strange that she or it could talk without a tongue ? ..
As the police heard it, they drew their weapons and told her to freeze or they would shoot but instead she closed the door and went upstairs, hitting the bathroom door again. She was angry and yelled at me „WHORE…WHORE…KILL YOU…KILL YOU“ while she was slowly breaking the door.
I was crying in fear and the window was too small to climb out either. The was cracked and few more times the door would break.. But before this happened, i heard few shots at the floor and how she dropped on the ground.
„Target down, miss are you okay? You can come out now!“
As i slowly opened the door, i could see the police officer … Both of them had the face of my daughter and while they smiled, the demon got back up. I turned around slowly and shakingly because i was afraid to death.
There she was again.. and her tongue was not the one of a human.. I heard more gunshots while i was getting dragged out of the house… More police arrived and their faces turned normal again.
The last thing i can remember was the police officer telling me, that all will be okay now. While i witnessed how every police men who rushed inside the house, came out with a smiling face of her … and totally disturbed..
The mark on her neck was not a symbol but a disease of the dead.
Fifteen police men went missing after this incident, no one knew where they went.
It was a normal night. Eyes closed and hoped to not dream something completely fucked up… I was standing in a long hallway and suddenly someone rushed through a door and yelled at me „WE GOTTA GO NOW, I HAVE TO LEAVE“. I didnt knew if she was meaning me because she looked at me […]
In the day of 2022, all lights went out and the nightmare came upon from the dark. The calm oceans which were unexplored for more than 96% were unvailed once the dark had taken the world. The governments had no possibility to return electricity due to solar winds which caused an electromagnetical pulse through the […]
Hello humans, As well as you experience right now, nations are under lockdown and many have lost their work. The lockdowns affect many in our society and iam one of them, since i cant get enough bodys to kill and feast on. My pallet is only made from the finest human flesh, but with the […]
A few thousand years ago, there was a castle in the middle of the current Sahara desert. It was a time where the „hit“ happend and all turned to death itself, even the earth became sand .. Before it happend, the place was a very healthy and rich place to life, if the there would’ve been not the castle.
Not many knew what was going on inside the castle because no one returned after they had entered.
Neither did anyone knew how it was built.
The only thing we all knew was, that no one was allowed to enter when you we’re afraid… It was not secured nor guarded. The doors could be pushed open easily. Sometimes a few kids came across and pushed the doors, daring each other to enter the building but once inside the doors closed and only opened the next day.
No one was ever seen inside the castle but several other buildings could be seen inside by peeking through the door. The outside was covered in ruins and it looked broken .. almost dead. But when peeking inside, all was pure gold and full of jewelry on the walls. It was a pure and very tempting look. Many had fallen and never came back and sometimes they tried to steal the walls by breaking them from outside or damaging it somehow but no matter what, the building was never covered with a scratch.
However, there was one man who had returned from the castle.. A man not from this world. It was the same day when the „Hit“ happend.. Thank you a lot and curse you for what you did that day..
It was a warm and bright night, the sky was shining and a never seen color appeared in rainbow glance before our eyes. The sky split and that man came in high speed, landing in front of the castle.
The people were confused what was happening. The man just glared at the doors of the castle and they opened and began to crack. He walked further and we tried to warn him that it was dangerous but before we did anything, the doors closed..
The colorful sky suddenly changed into the vision of the man as he was standing inside the building. He just stood there and … stared.. stared at the top of the building and his vision was looking at us. Was he looking at us or at something else ?
(Inside the building)
(This place… i was here once before.. Why am i here again? This place was once the beauty of earth and became the castle of death … A place of endless nightmares .. once entered, you would never come out ever again because it held the people in illusion of their greatest fears.. One step … and i would need to win against all again.. The greatest of all fears … it was the fight between light and dark .. the white energy after they became one … My call may be ignorant and selfish but this place is more evil than many .. perish ..)
As the man stopped looking up, he suddenly flew high to the sky and closed his eyes as he dissapeared inside the bright shining night but the vision was still there… We could see where he was! He was outside the planetary system, gaining speed as he came closer to earth again. He was creating a form of mass and energy which increased in speed even further while he looked down… Than the vision dissapeared and the sky began to shine in a magical way which was absolutely beautiful, yes it was truly out of this world .. Until it hit the castle and capsuled the entire area with its aura and exploded in such a destructive manner, that the earth was dying and everything else desintegrating on spot.
Anyone who stood outside the area saw how their homes and everything else was destroyed and turned to nothing … they were speachless .. and yet they … started clapping and crying in joy… What was this feeling ? Why were we crying out of happiness and shaking in fear together ?
Well ..this question could only be answered if there was someone who ever managed to defeat the white energy – the purest evil of one self – YOU. And as he did, he unleashed what he experienced inside the castle without a single word ..
The rushing happiness of winning without knowing and the experience of the mightiest fear while knowing…
We couldnt be happier and yet more feared .. Thank you ..
Yesterday i was annoyed because of the new years celebration outside my house. I though i understand, i couldnt really sleep but this seemed to helped me out. I wasnt even trying to get out of my body, but luckily i was laying down on my back and i realised that my body was sleeping. […]
It all began inside a forest near the german border to Poland.
Twenty seven people died the last weeks because a psycho or an animal was eating the faces of the victims. The bodys looked completely out of this world because they started to rot in an abnormal manner on the spot..
The police started high level searches to those who went missing but they didnt found anything, not even in the river. They vanished completely… until a woman called us one day and told she was one of the missing but she would inevitably die. I could feel her panick when she said those words.. „ITS THE BOOKS CURSE“.. after that she hung up and we couldnt manage to find the signal because it was coming from the forest itself.
After the searches went on, we found two more dead bodys but they were not in the same case. Those who had left were still missing.
A group of four men inclusing me went to a closed search. The police gave up and couldnt do much and the abnormal weather around the area was creating fear. Even in brought daylight the little forest was dark and the radius went over two kilometers. No one could explain how this was happening but once entering the area, our bodys started to fear without reason. As if … all eyes would watch us.
We went forward with the teams already several times but nothing was found until one night i had decided to look alone..
After i went inside the forest, i started to see a small figure near the trees. At first i wasnt sure but someone was definetly there. I took my machine gun and pointed the laser towards the figure but it was gone.
Slowly i walked further and noticed a small house which was definetly not there before. A stinky and rotting smell was coming from it. I didnt made the choice to call for backup either and went on. It was a broken small house. No windows, dirty and old floors while the smell was coming from downstairs. As i walked slowly and secured my back and surroundings, i had decided to take a look at the basement were the smell was coming from. Every step was making loud cracking noises and whatever was here would know my presence i thought.
Slowly walking down and noticing blood dripping from the ceiling on my forehead i started to panick but kept my breath calm. Something wasnt right about this place and as i walked down with my torchlight and laser pointing gun, i saw it.. A two and a half feet tall monster which was feasting on the face of a victim.
Its face was made from skins of other people.. its entire body was made from different skins.. It smelled terrible and as my light was right at its face, it screamed loud and started running towards me. I had nearly a heart attack and unloaded my entire magazine on it… A loud drop to the floor… Than i reloaded quickly and started to shoot again and again until two more full magazines were empty.
Was it dead ?? This thing was out of the world and i thought that it might get back up. Questions appeared but i wasnt going to stay there. I took few fotos of everything and started running. As i run upwards, i heard the loud scream again and how it was coming closer. My heart was racing and the only thing i thought was how to get out.
As i ran back the path from which i came, i saw the thing standing in front of the house.. looking at me and than sprinting.. The appearance itself was a nightmare but when it started to chase me, i really felt terror and nothing was working against it. It had long feet and hands while the body was covered with human skin tissue.
I just ran without looking back and suddenly it went from dark to light… It was daylight! I had made it out and was alive. As i still felt danger, i ran to the nearest police station and reported my capture.
That was the moment when i got arrested.. And when i asked why, they showed me the fotos which i had made that night.
Shocked i looked at them and told what the problem was and they answered „Dont you see how you killed these people? How you lay there and feasted on their faces?“
As i looked again, i saw that the face of that thing ..was me.
After the sudden loss of energy i felt destroyed because i now knew what brought the problems of using blood magic. But yet i didnt knew the whole truth about it…
As i was laying on the bloody grass and looking into the sky, i wondered what the village meant before they got killed by my summon.. „You will know what it means to use that type of magic“ .. Was he meaning the pain or the emptions? I didnt really knew but destiny would try to test me again..
For how long was i unconscious i asked myself. I felt normal again … The bloody bubble which bursted infront of me and wrapped me inside all their pain, it was awful.. and the instant drop on the ground because i had no strenght to stand anymore.
But now i was back on my feet and looked around. The dead bodys were rotting and i was really hungry too. Maybe they had something nice to eat inside their houses. I know you dont steal from the dead but they were gonna torture me, so it was okay!
Before i went to the small houses, i realised that the barrier from earlier across the village was gone. This meant that those beasts would arrive here soon or atleast sneak around. I needed to be very caucious again. Maybe it was not a great idea to kill all of them. I shouldve let those live who brought the barrier up.
I took my book next to me and remembered that it was glowing red before i fall asleep. I looked inside and went to the blood magic instructions and spells and i noticed that now another sentence was added right below the last.
„Blood summoning added – Disaster level spawn“
Blood summons of the blood spells will consume all energy of the caster after the spell is dismissed. Whoever uses the summon to the limits of their level will die immediately. The more it is used, the more energy it will consume but the power will equal.
The caster will be healed and fully energised after the spell is spoken or thought with intention of the summon. “
I wonder why it always told me the important stuff after it happend.
After i knew this much, i left quickly away from the open area to the houses, looking for food. And i was lucky because first had a nice smelling stew on the table. I didnt thought much about it and immediately started eating until i was stuffed. It was really tasty i thought or maybe it was because of my hunger..
I couldve used my normal magic to not feel any hunger or exhaustion but i wanted to feel the taste of food again in my mouth ..atleast for that moment. I didnt thought that it was unnormal to take a bite after i had killed so many people.. Of course it was terrible and i knew some of them in my childhood, but they didnt seem to be warm hearted at all.
As i was standing outside of the small house, i needed to know where i should head next and how i could cloak myself to stay very low on the radar. I felt more danger now than before because of these invisible monsters.. I was lucky that these people had picked me up. What wouldve happend if no one was around?.. I couldnt rely on my basic skills of magic, they were not close enough to the outside world. I
I had decided to use blood type spells more frequently, atleast the less damaging one’s. Only if it was absolutely necessary, i would use the destruction spells.
So i used my casual cloaking spell and my higher stamina spell and started to run. As long as those things couldnt see me, i wouldnt mind if i was getting attacked by red crows again.
Moving from the high terrain down to more civilised areas after few hours of sprinting, i was getting closer to a shining forest. The crowns of the trees seemed beautiful and it was very ..welcoming. A sort of shining – warm light was coming from the inside as i was approaching.
As i was coming closer, i heard the loud scream again from earlier.. It was coming again.. Was i spotted ?? I wasnt sure and my heart started racing. Should i hide somewhere? I didnt knew what to do so i stopped running and hid behind a small bush across the field of sun flowers. This time i would need to test my enemy and see what it was and its capabilities.
So i took a few small rocks and threw it across the field, hearing a loud unnatural scream. It was close.. After throwing a few more, i could sense that it might be to close, so i slowly moved away from my spot. A few meters away after that, i noticed that the small bush where i was hiding, was completely torn to pieces without my notice .. I would be dead if i make another noise..
My heart was so racing that i thought it might hear it while i was slowly walking backwards. It couldnt see me in my cloaked state but it heard dangerously well and it was just fee steps away from me. Step by step walking backwards inside to the forest .. but my back hit something. It was another barrier, covering the forest.
Either i was really lucky or this time i would be dead. After i hit the barrier with my back, i prepared myself to use one of the deadliest blood spells against monsters in my book, which would cost my life and the earths as well. But a few moments later, nothing happend.. I heard no scream nor any foot steps approaching. Was it gone ? ..
As i was trying to be very silent and trying to hear something, i heard a few birds and the blowing wind .. I had decided to take a deep breath .. For my luck, the thing was right in front of my face, screaming loud and shattering my ear tunnel completely..again.
I was about to die and this time i was sure of it. But after the scream i noticed that i was fallen backwards and somehow landing inside the barrier. The monster was hitting the barrier and it was really loud, like something huge was hitting it. I dont know how i got inside the forest but it saved me. My ears were hurting and bleeding, so i took my book out and used a healing spell until i was recovered.
A few moments of calming down and sitting in dirt, the thing was gone and now i saw the real beauty of the forest…
Since i read so much trash about light and love on the internet, i have decided to tell you a few secrets that either only very very few know, or dont want to tell you! It makes me angry if i see people online talking about „the planet will rise to the fifth dimension and […]
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Hello everyone, The reason for the absence of spiritual stuff lately, is because the usual stuff isnt working. Well how am i going to explain it.. I cant get out of my body and i try to understand whats causing this problem. Some people said that talking too much about it, can cause this problem […]
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It was a normal night. Eyes closed and hoped to not dream something completely fucked up…
I was standing in a long hallway and suddenly someone rushed through a door and yelled at me „WE GOTTA GO NOW, I HAVE TO LEAVE“. I didnt knew if she was meaning me because she looked at me but ran past. I just stood there and didnt knew what i was doing there, so i went along the hallway but i realised that something was behind me, charging at me.
Shortly when i looked back, weird creatures started coming out and they didnt looked pretty. Sharp teeth, sharp fingers and an alien alike head which was flooded with blood while making strange noises. I just knew that i needed to run and so i did.. I went through the hallways door which led to a bigger hall and the door shut behind me, giving me some extra time for my exit i thought. The woman was there too and she run away when i looked at her but i was more concerned about the alien hanging on the ceiling with its legs up like a bat. I somehow was suddenly next to it and stood few meters above the ground, trying to comunicate with it. I understood that it was speaking telepathically and he told me that i should get the fuck out of here because it was his hiding spot from those freaks outside. I didnt knew if i shouldve laughed but i asked if he could speak loudly english and he said „course i speak english“. We looked at each other and i realised that one of these freaks outside looked exactly like him but he was grey and the others were red. At this moment of realisation, the monsters crushed the door and swarmed the hall. One of them crawled the wall and just ripped the head of the alien guy while i was standing next to it. I started to run but didnt knew where, so i accepted my death and thought „well they got me“ but thanks to my unconscious mind, i could fly or lets say make one last jump that was high enough to teleport me through the „i dont know door“.
Now i was on a castle and the woman from back than grabbed my hand and dragged me to the castles toilett because the freaks swarmed and destroyed severall floors as well any other place. We both were pretty close to each other and i thought of rather how to get out because she was rather trying to trap me inside the toilett and run away. As i was looking at the door, she dissapeared behind me and i knew that she tried to kill me or let me be trapped there as food for the freaks.
So i jumped out of the only window and noticed that the entire castle was getting eaten and these beings were running on top of each other.. I knew that this kind of disease could never be fought with, it was way more intense than any zombie movie i had seen. As i saw the woman, she saw me and how alive i was. She didnt seemed happy, she rather looked like „fuck he didnt died“ – while she got runned over and eaten alive by the zombies.
As for me, i really thought that this would be it but i managed to jump from head to head of the freaks two times and the third time, i made a really high jump to the rest of the fourth floor and stood there..
Suddenly a menu appeared in front of me and loaded 12.000 points to my account. It seemed that i was playing a live zombie game where the last survivor would get a lot of points. Even the other three players appeared and were not happy that i won, but i didnt even knew that this was a game. So much for dreaming.
We were a team of six and our objective was to secure the house from every corner. We didnt knew with what we were dealing with and the situation seemed strange… We secured the villa inside the forest which was told to be a safe house for certain terrorist members, but after discovering that nothing […]
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In my opinion the following: You are a spiritual being who is having a human experience. You could not be a human having a spiritual experience. People die, their soul remains eternal. But the bad thing about it is, who sees himself only as a human being, often has an insanely large EGO, a false […]
Three days ago i had a pretty intense confrontation with my parents. We were living in the forest near a mountain which was inside a magic circle. This circle was there to protect us and the rest of the people but lately it started to crumble and many people left out of fear. My parents wanted to stay but i was against it and told them to move in to a different area with a stronger circle, but they refused to listen and even hit me in the face for bringing it up.
This made me really angry so i told them how i thought, took my magic spell book and left them in the hope they die painfully. I know it wasnt right but the crumbling of the circle went already a month and it was about to break. If it breakes, a giant storm appeares from nowhere and destroys everything while it cuts everything to pieces. Standing inside a storm was enough to spit blood and receive devastating damage. Once an elder of the forest told that the circle would regenerate by a certain chance but no one knew how and when. I think my parents tried to hope for that but it was no use. Their magic skills were pathetic and couldnt provide any safety from any danger. They hoped that i would stay with them for their remaining life time but thats over now.
As i moved outside of the circle, pictures of my childhood left too .. Me playing at the playground and using the magical slide with the others which beamed us upwards to the skys and back. It was really fun i thought… The hauling children eating dog was gone too. Some of the parents threw their kids towards it and they got eaten alive because they couldnt handle them.. I dont know why such a thing existed here but they had told us that its not a big deal.. All of them were gone. I guess thats life i thought but since i knew better now, i realised how disturbing this really was. The most had deserved to die.
After an hour of walking and fast sprinting with my magic spell „Whirlwind stamina“, i could see several paths but i didnt knew which way i should go since i really was never out of the circle. The only thing my parents had told me was, that i never should stay outside of the circle for more than three days and always cover myself with the coating spell to stay undetected but i never knew why. They said that either the storm would get me or „them“. With „them“ they ment monsters which were alive on different levels of magical dimensions. Once youve got detected, they would hunt you down and no spell could ever harm them because they were too strong…
I didnt really believed that crap because nothing happend for 19 years and no one ever came back injured. All were always healthy and nothing could beat our magic spells i thought. No diseases, no hunger but a lot of greed .. I knew the only thing that would kill us would be greed because there was nothing to do except gathering gold and treasures.
As you might thought that our world shouldve been peaceful and full of love, no it wasnt. Greed is always there whenever someone has not the same as someone else, or in this case, lesser intelligence.. That all is now the past!
I just went a random path from the 5 which were available and shortly i noticed that crows appeared. Crows were my friends because i once helped one of them, atleast i thought it. But these crows were strange, they started flying over me in circles like i would become prey or die. My senses rushed and i pulled my spell book to cover myself with a protection spell. The spell that was written here was at a „Disaster Level“ if i would use my blood but i always was told to never use those spells because of a curse that would appear. So i decided to use my normal level protection coating „Lightning Cube“ and it covered me enough to become a bit invisible.
Surely someone would notice me but it seemed to be enough against the crows .. right? .. Well no! They attacked me right away and i started to run again but i wasnt fast enough. I really didnt wanted to use any of the blood magic spells because i couldnt measure the power and curse which would come with it. But i had no choice, these crows took pieces of flesh from my back as i screamed in pain and blood was running already.
I really couldnt understand what kind of crows those were so i used my back dripping blood and used the disaster level destruction spell „Negative Shockwave“ while the book stated to throw my blood at the enemy.
As i called in pain „NEGATIVE SHOCKWAVE“ to the direction of the crows, a huge burst of pain accured in my body.. but in exchange.. i felt the power in my body which created a giant, red glowing shockwave which dismantled the entire area including over 200 meters of trees and grass to sand… The crows were instantly dead and the sky was clear..
What a relief.. and what power! I was shocked about the power i felt but the pain was insane. I thought i would pass out because of it.. As i wanted to use a healing spell and looked through the spell book, i noticed that my wounds were gone! That surprised me because there was no healing included in this spell.
Had i missed something ? I was looking at the spell and saw that it was glowing in red. The spell was changing into something as i watched sitting in the hot sand. The spells level had increased to „Blood Level“.. That was strange because never had any of the normal spells changed inside the books. Every child who was ready since childhood received a spell book from the elders and only the owner could read and use it but the parents could read it if the owner allows so. Since i never told them anything about it and because they never asked, i thought they knew about the disaster level spells. They mentioned it once but only the elders told always to never use them since they couldnt change the spells inside the books. Otherwise they would’ve took them out ..right?
I never knew how they made the books but a rumor told that the elders were from the outside and created those books to benefit us and than died or dissapeared. If you ask me, something wasnt right about this story..
The curse of the blood mage … what could that be ?.. Maybe it was the pain because it was too intense ? And i still didnt knew what was all about it.. As i sat there, a wind blew through the books pages. Suddenly there was something written in the empty pages about blood mages.
„Blood mage spells activated – Pain level zero“
„Whoever uses the blood spells will attain power in exchange of tremendous pain“
I didnt understood why this was appearing now but after these two sentences, another three pages appeared and stood empty.
I closed the book and walked the rest of the path down while i kept an eye on the sky for crows and touching my back to ensure that i really was fully healed. It was still surprising ..
It was surely dangerous outside here .. the normal spells couldnt do much, so what was the purpose to learn them ? As i asked the question and used the spell „Wide Eyes“ to see where i was going.
I saw a big fire when i warped my vision across the mountain terrains at a castle. I knew that i shouldnt head the way because it was empty and the fire grew to a huge tornado.. I had never seen such storms and powers inside circle .. Was this the reason why everyone fled always to a new and secure circle ? Was it this dangerous outside ?..
Too many questions but i knew i would find the answer. I changed my way and warped my vision to a different place, noticing a village and few people. I was glad to see someone out there but as i tried to look further, the villagers heads turned all towards me simultaneously and blocked me from looking.
This was my next goal.. even though i got a bit scared, with my blood spells i should be able to deal with any problem. I wont use them too often i told myself… atleast i thought so.
I started moving again but the village was still far away.
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So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland. I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again. The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there.. The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, […]
I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again. I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on […]
This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe. It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a […]
Has anyone ever saw one of these videos where someone gets an exorcism because he or she does weird stuff ? I guess many did saw some.
The problem is that these as they call „demons“ only exist because they believe in them. They believe that they exist inside of them and start to act that way too. Mostly these people are religious!
Now dont get me wrong, these things happen! BUT not in the way as they are shown in videos. They make it way to over dramatic and „scary“ for many unconscious people, so they believe its real. Another point is that they want you to believe it so you convert to their religion. Mostly these posessions „happen“ for bullshitting purposes and that is a matter of fact. Dont believe always stuff that you see in the internet!
Now whats a posession from the view of spiritualism ?
Well its when a being of a lower frequency, bounds itself to you and enjoys your low vibing energy by consuming it. This can happen if you astral travel to low level frequencys or paralell „nightmare“ dimensions. These places are worlds with own physics and rules but dont get me wrong, you wont ever see a giant monster or the devil in front of you! These are mostly smaller beings that try to snatch your godly negative energy that gets radiated from you. They get dismissed a few days or sometimes months. It all depends on yourself and how you regain yourself to higher frequency! No one except you can help you there which makes all the exorcism pretty stupid and a rather money and show business..
How do these beings bound or attach themselves to somebody ?
They sense or see your low level frequency and hop on you or stay in your area. If youre constantly angry or radiate any other „bad“ frequency, they might get easy access to you. This doesnt mean that any other high frequency being cant get angry! This doesnt mean that always snatches upon you as well. Mostly these things happen very rarely but if it happens, then the person mustve been in the lower levels for very long time. These beings cant hurt you! This should be said as well. They cant harm you but they can increase the level of sadness or in whatever bad mood you are in! The higher it gets, the more they can eat from your energy and you will feel bad.
Conclusion: Real posessions are just beings from the fourth lower dimensions which eat YOUR RADIATING negative energy and enhance them if they see an opening in your aura.
How do you realise a posession?
Well… alone this question beams you higher up, so dont worry, a person with a „posession“ doesnt ask these kind of questions but rather gets pissed at everything xD And dont forget, being mad because youre pissed about life isnt an indicator for anything, but whatever you radiate will be either eaten if its bad or enlighten the day of others.
If you want to know more about it, look inside our book! Theres way more if youre ready!
As well as you experience right now, nations are under lockdown and many have lost their work. The lockdowns affect many in our society and iam one of them, since i cant get enough bodys to kill and feast on.
My pallet is only made from the finest human flesh, but with the restrictions upfront, i cant gather too much information about my victims and neither can i stay too long outside. My entire plan got changed because of this virus. There is no virus because i would’ve got it first!! Screw this cursing government…
My next victim will be a police woman .. since there are so many out there, this could become my treasure.. The hardest kills of my legacy will be shown in my trophy room, with their heads hanging in liquid bottles. Everyone should be honored to hang there!
As you might want to know, my problems begin with finding the right timing to hunt my prey. Often i could just sit in my van and watch what the prey did for few weeks before i smashed the head in, but now… i cant watch because the police is too often around. My other collections start to rot because i cant keep up bringing more blood for my bleeding walls which keep the bodys alive. My dark rituals cant be done without fresh blood, otherwise it would kill the caster, ME!
There are many problems right now because family’s sit in their homes.. Maybe i should advertise my place so the police shows up and i trap and kill one by one.. This will be my solution! Until next time, ive got a plan to write and built and one day, you might make it to my trophy wall.
We are in the middle of war right now.. Our people get murdered, gangs emerge and steal, hunt, kill for the crystals. It happend few years ago.. a group of expeditors as they claimed, came to this land to investigate an energy source. But after what they discovered, all hell broke lose. They had found […]
It was a dark night. Our team of 34 people including civilians and fighters and including me, arrived at the market center. We didnt knew exactly what was going on but our spy team dissapeared three days ago and our mission was to secure the civilians and the rest of the team. We knew that […]
I was awake, atleast i thought so because my room seemed normal until i started hearing an unnatural moaning voice in the room next to me.
I knew there was no one in that room and thats why i started sweating and panicking. Was there someone trying to sneak in ? But who would moan like that ?
As my sweat covered my blanket i got more nervous and thought of getting up and confronting it but i was shaking in fear because i felt that an evil energy was coming from that room.
Since the room had no door, i could clearly see inside and felt horror because the room was empy, yet the moaning was still there. Is he or it hiding behing the sofa ? No it cant be, the voice was too loud to come from behind the room. As i slowly wanted to sit down on my bed, a being came running out of the room. I wanted to scream but covered myself in my blanket because i was so afraid… Im a coward .. am i ? As i slowly tried to peak at it, i noticed that it was still standing and moaning loud and disturbing.. It was like an animal would be tortured and hanged. The sound would haunt me forever i thought.
As i peaked, i saw the appearance of this thing. It was wearing a white dark robe and its hands were spikey. The face was strangely twisted inwards and blood was spilling out of its face. It really looked monstrous and creepy.
Suddenly it started running back to the room and dissapeared. As my bed was flooded with cold sweat, i stood up and slowly approached the room. The voice was gone and i needed to be sure that this thing was gone.
One step inside the room.. and the last thing i remember was that thing running at me. I mustve slipped or something and went unconscious.
Tomorrow morning i watched my security camera which covered half of the second room from my bed. I started sweating again.. because i noticed that the monster was me, fighting with myself. The only thing that stopped myself from stabbing me that night, was my sweat. I slipped because of that and dropped the knife while i fell hard on my head…
But.. what was that feeling that i felt … As i turned back from the camera, i saw it standing across the room … moaning again and sprinting in a weird manner towards me…
I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die. But i found myself in a open cell in hell.. It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because […]
Yesterday i was annoyed because of the new years celebration outside my house. I though i understand, i couldnt really sleep but this seemed to helped me out.
I wasnt even trying to get out of my body, but luckily i was laying down on my back and i realised that my body was sleeping. Loud noises out of nowhere appeared which vibrated in my head. I knew that it was a sign that i might get out but i didnt wanted to think anything because it can disrupt my body and wake me up.
So i was still until the the vibration went away and now i was trying to move with willpower because thats the way you fly out normally, you just imagine how you move and it becomes reality.
Unfortunatly it wasnt working, my body was holding on to me like it was glued together and something on my left hand began to help me out. It tried to pull me out of my body but i couldnt see what it was, but i knew it was friendly!
I saw how i left my body and how i was lying on the floor, ready to stand up and look at my sleeping body. The problem was, that while i was pulled, i went to a dream state inside my house.. That meant i didnt saw my body sleeping which caused => false awakening (The state of thinking „am i really out?“) But i forgot and went on with the dream..
Whenever you dont see your body, dont ever think „oh im just dreaming it now, damn it“ – as i did. This will disrupt your critical thinking process and through you out for good if your concentration wasnt high at all. I shouldve realised that my body was laying down the other way around in my dream, in reality i was sleeping somewhere else.
I guess it cant be helped.. it worked but i screwed it.. I shouldve let myself fall backwards from a high building instead the next time.
And right now when i told the story to my wife, she told me that she pulled someones left arm the entire dream … i dont know if she was it! xD
Zunächst einmal, ihr könnt auch sehr viel über das Thema in meinem Buch lesen. Gern auch kostenlos über Kindl. Einfach im Kindl oder auf Amazon „Glaubenssätze spirituel betrachet“ eingeben, das Buch ist von 2018 und ich bin Katja Kubiak. Es freut mich sehr, wenn meine Leser auch eine Rezension dalassen. Ich bekomme zwar sehr viel […]
A day has two purposes. The first is to either listen to the ego and do what it wants, based on the conditioning and self awareness of oneself Or Just dont give a fuck about anything and chill your soul … But lets be real, everyone wants number two.. Right?
Welcome to the world of secret society. A world in which a broke person has nothing to do. A world in which only the really rich can enter.
Today, i will tell you the beautiful art sight of this world and how we handle the doomed and useless humans in the lower parts of the pyramid.
Art is a very expensive posession in our world. The underground human art shows are the most glamorous one’s there is. Often there are slave shows with a strong variety of humans to select from. The current art is made from blond – children teenagers and adult brunette females with young skin.
The high society loves the arts of skin and bones. Most of our art lovers are high ranked politicians and like to feast on body parts made out of the finest fibers. Later on, the feasted bodys are polished and marked with numbers for the auctions. The polished bodys contain diamonds, gold and a lot more. Sometimes we get our special orders were the high rankers provide their children to be raped in front of them, and later to be sold as well. These clients get paid by us and often get a standing ovation for their efforts of such gifts. Several members are already covered in ritual uniforms and begin the show with a glass of blood and champagne.
We got our gore rooms as well. In these type of rooms, our clients can see how well we prepare the bodys and how they would like to buy them. In there, our workers cut and slice the best parts and create real art!
A small taste:
The gallery is a four miles hallway which was specially designed just for this. The clients and auctioners either drive or walk around the two floors. The art is endless and everybody will find what they want.
So if anybody is interested to join our club:
You should have a deep pocket and a fee needs to be deposited for entering. The fee is 50.000 US dollars and you will receive a three dot tattoo on your arm for identification. All else such as special finger signs in public and number positions will be taught while entering.
We talk about it more detailed, once we made contact.
Oh and dont worry about police, they are our clients as well 😉
The last few days i was smoking a bit of green grass and relaxing, asking myself what i could know that is not new because i had always the feeling that everything we see and hear wasnt new in any way. It was an ally all along and the strange things which happend to me, […]
You may think that this question sounds weird because it doesnt make sense, but let me explain what the matrix really is.
The matrix is a „cell“, a being, an organism that is placed upon a planetary biosystem. You could call it an invisible cage around everything that exists on this planet and dimension. How far it stretches and how strong it acts upon you, is decided on how much conscioussness you’ve got.
The more you know about it, the more it advances against you and lures into traps of your ego.
It doesnt only exist on earth but on several other planets as well, which are low swinging in frequency. This matrix net eats and consumes negative energy because it is the cheapest and most – energy -consuming – energy available on the planet. You could say its dirty money with no consequences to itself.
The matrix causes people, partners and whatever who is unaware about it, to get negatively fast. And by this i mean every negative emotion and thought. The only way to truly know that the thoughts you talk off your mouth are really YOURS, is to be conscious at all times. It can only manipulate if your on autopilot/ dream alike state of mind.
This being together with the ego – is a super complex system to support itselfs energy supply without your notice. Many people, and with that i mean over 90% the population, dont know about the existence and manipulations on the ethereal levels.
Since the matrix supports negative energy, it supports negative acts from everything that lives on the planet. This means that many who do harm are mostly on top positions and those who like to help and create a better world, meet their end quite fast. This is because the matrix hates love. It cant stand it and because of this fact, it will try to bring lovers apart, partners to fight and many things more. It knows when it succeeds, that its system is working and it can go on like that. But the biggest reason is the negative emotion that can be dragged out of both people who cant see each other and suffer.
When you suffer, you release emotion. When the emotion is bad, it will be consumed and advanced to get more, if your unconscious mind lets it happen. If the emotion is good, it will hurt the matrix.
This invisible thing has a giant construction of helpers on the planet which cant be seen, but be observed when the spirit is outside the body, or the mind outside the cage. In our book, we got in much more detail about it! You should check it out and know what really is out here. Once you get a hold, the world of the living becomes much more boring than usual because you wont want to know whats on your instagram or Facebook but around you! Dive in, to the secrets of your past.
So it happend again. I closed my eyes and slept straight to wonderland.
I was on an island with three people and we all wanted to take DMT again.
The island was high over the sky’s and i didnt even questioned how i got there..
The guy who would give us DMT had long hair, looked dirty and small but was aggressive, just like the guy who was a cannibal in the documentary i watched few weeks ago. I hoped that it wasnt him because he would drink his own piss and cut off other peoples tongue’s 😂.
Unfortunatly, it was a weirdo and he told us to finish three tasks he was giving. The tasks were very disgusting and disturbing and with each task, the first and second guy went home. The tasks were simple.
The first was to drink blood from an unknown source, but no one was going to it. So we told him to tell us, were he got it from. And he said from the dogs of your second task. So we drank the dog blood quick, but i only sipped it and the scene changed quick to the second task.
The second one was the most fucked up task. He brought three little puppy’s which he had ripped off the skin of each one, and they were still alive, walking in pain but no screaming. These little guys knew… we had to completely eat them… and so we did for the sake of DMT but … no we actually didnt eat them. We asked ourselves who the fuck this guy was and we didnt needed him at all. So we just threw him off the cliffs near the island were we had the „ceremony“. And since he had no helpers, no one saw nothing. I mean who was that dude and why we needed him and that stupid ceremony right?
The third task was to cut ourselves with the same knives the others had used and no one was doing that. Because i had the dream twice, it switched back and fourth and it showed me that the first time, i did everything and drank the stuff inside the black little vase which was dmt.
This time i didnt do shit and just went to the shrine, drinking it again, but the guy we thrown off was there.. holding the vase in my direction and giving it to me. I drinked …. and nothing happend .. i woke up!
There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting.. Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many […]
I just landed there.. i dont know why but as soon as i slept, my consciousness switched to that place again.
I was in town but the whole place was a mix of high developed ice cream station and old class mates outside. I was taking green and blue ice creams, spending few bucks on the old mates because ..well ..why not. The cream was tasty and i already had three of them. Besides i was surprised seing them around in such a place but it was more to it than i thought.
Later on we went outside and all hell broke loose.
Out of nowhere, mystic creatures with long nails and swords came like a swarm. They killed and cut up all of the people around. Me and a girl were on our own and had swords ourselves as it seemed. I couldnt see the girls face, neither could i tell who she was but i had a feeling that she might be my wife because she always comes in many forms in my dreams. I remembered the dream and knew that another attack was coming… As the creatures slaughtered everybody, we defended ourselves and cut few of them up as well. The cool part was, that our blades could cut the air and kill from a far distance. So i threw a few slices and got many of them and so did she. The swords were organic … it felt like they were living and the appearance changed colourfully. My two swords were red glowing with a dark background. The girl had a blue and red/dark sword, glowing as well. But we knew that they would break soon because these swords were not held by hand, but it was the hand from those creatures. We had ripped them out of their shoulders.
One creature jumped over a big wall and tried to cut me down, but because i knew the dream, i attacked her first and threw her to the ground. I thought that it might be a woman monster because of the blue appearance and long strange looking hair, but i didnt cared and cut her head along with her arm. There was no reaction, scream or else.
The girl went away, or atleast that was the last time i saw her.
I scene switch happend with a strong wind… i found myself on a mountain, chasing a woman that was running towards a castle. It really looked damn beautyful.. Big trees, the sun shine almost gone and the grass and flowers dancing in the wind, and in front of us, one road to the castle… It seemed magical… the field was shining and glittering in beauty. I really thought i might stay there and just watch, but i needed to chase the woman for a reason. It was very dangerous to just walk towards it but she knew it… The reason why i wanted to stay and watch was because i thought about me and my wife before we came here.. How much time had passed since then, or was it just a blink of an eye? I surely didnt knew.
As i chased her, she stopped and pointed with her finger towards a small mountain looking thing i thought. But it seemed to be a very fast train which lead to the castle. Big train rails were in front of us which circeled across this world. As we approached fast to the train, we noticed that it was covered in a big blanket, letting it look like a mountain. But instead it was a giant mix of a bug, a centaur and a bull. It had two big black tooth in front and it started running fast down the rails from where we came from. I knew that i was already once here and i remembered that i would be dead if i didnt had moved aside. It wouldve trampled me over i thought.
As we saw the giant thing going fast off the area, we went further towards the castle but it was shielded. Another circle ? Or was the castle just imagination? I dont know what happend to the woman but i was standing above ground, flying and looking at the castle. It seemed unreachable. Many big monsters were up ahead and i didnt knew what i was doing there in the first place…
As i looked, my vision gut blurry and i woke up unintended, knowing that its always been you and freedom, who i still chase and know to reach.
After falling asleep i found myself back in a once dreamed area with the same people. I didnt really knew who all these people were but i was sure that i needed to search my wife. We were all suddenly in a parkourish – texas chainsaw massacre movie alike place. It was a wide area […]
This is a text from the future if the globalists arent stopped. This is what happend to our planet in our universe.
It all began with the great war before the human was built and controlled to a slave. A very high intelligence species drew a plan and copied it to set earth as a prison planet. After they had created human bodies, they left few of their species on earth and another few on the moon, so they could watch and order command if something wouldnt go as planned. Please note that their plan is created in a time chamber on a different level were time passes by very slow.
After the development of their humaniod species, the modern human, they brought up a money system where one side is poor and their side is rich and wealthy. One cannot exist without the other.
The few left on earth continued the plan until every nation was enslaved and turned to a so called „grey planet“
A grey planet is a fully government controlled world were everything including nature is destroyed and replaced by metal trees and grey looking figures. The rest of the population is killed, tortured or bind to an endless control when you want to walk down the streets. No one is save anymore, everyone is aggressive and dull through the lack of vitamin D. The ones who say something out too loud, will be punished by dead or put to work in the grey mines. The system works automated on a computer and the governments dirty politicians, army, navy and the special forces are trained to take special pills which dull parts of the brain. Shortly said: you become a monkey with enough brain to obey the law, and enough stupidity to never question the law.
The police got killed by the government because they thought that many police men were already secretly against them. So instead a chip or special medication, they got a knock on their office door with poisend coffee or else.
The global population was wiped out with the phone radiation that was installed secretly by every company, which were owned by the governmental rules. They just needed to press a button so all phones either exploded in their faces or caused tumors and brain damage in a week. Sounds crazy ? They had way better tech. and the rest who stood against them got eliminated through operation „Dark Beam“. It was basically a laser with the range of 10 hectare but it only reacted with the heavy metals inside a humans body which the people had through their unhealthy livestyles and heavy chemtrails. It caused heat reaction which boiled you from the inside out… Those days were the last.
This all happend in the COVID-22 phase. Four years after the first global pandemic state. First it was fear, then it was suffer, and in the end it was death and enslavement for nearly the entire population. How did the government survive? Well they built big underground facilities. Deep down safe from radiation and the weapons.
The second waves COVID 19 + 20, were just a warm up to what was coming, trying to vaccinate everybody and kill them without suffering. But it didnt worked and they took the straight head shot but the bullet was going in slow and painful.
COVID 21 was the start of the heavy chem trail rains. They flooded the air and the sun was nearly off for weeks but because they couldnt save themselves from it, they stopped the fouth day. It covered the planet in dust and the people started shooting the cops and burning down governmental buildings. From the time of few days, half the planet was in war. Many didnt knew what to do and killed themselves or went oversee but they got followed by police forces and captured.
Iam telling you this from a base we recaptured that transmitts info to the moon. I dont have time anymore. Oh and iam not human, that is why radiation and heavy metals didnt killed us. We work against the evil forces and currently some of us are located inside an iceberg in the antarctica and inside earth.
When you got the message, burn it! When this gets to their hands, many other realities are screwed. So we hope it found the right one.
You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever. Lets cut that straight to the point. Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a […]
Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen. Das blieb so. Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben. Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, […]
I was struck by lightening.. and went straight from laughing, to lights out. It went quicker than i thought but i wasnt expecting hell nor heaven when i would die.
But i found myself in a open cell in hell..
It seemed i was alive at first but than i knew i was dead because i went down a light tunnel. The hallway was full of screams and fear. Weird noices were coming out in the end of the path.
The walls were from some kind of disgusting looking flesh that hurt you when you came close to it. It wasnt pain what was felt, but it was a horrible feeling which seemed to consume everything.
I stood up and i had no shoes on while i was walking out of my cell and feeling the worst fear you could dream of. Was this place hell? There was nothing that could describe this place, it was truly nightmarish. As i went down the hallway, i saw people screaming in their cells while the doors were open, what was going on? They couldve walked out easily but acted like they were held for eternity here.
Would i stay here forever ? I needed to find a way out and suddenly ..“WELCOME TO HELL, THIS WAY FOR THE MURDERER AND LIVE TAKER ISMAIL SHALAK“
That was my name … i was the murderer and killer of my family, but i only protected myself from these islam-fanatic bastards of a kind! They tried to sell me to a pedophile ring but i managed to escape at a night from home and when i was old enough, i would kill them for what they did. They were brainwashing me and telling me that underage sex would be for my benefit. I liked every bit of cutting their tungs and skin out while they screamed in fear and pain.
„FUCK YOU AND YOUR HELL“ i yelled while i was going backwards to my cell. The being stood there and started running at me but i couldnt move. As it stood before me, three meters high and very muscular and extremely ugly with sharp teeth and a bright smile, it spoke „YOU WILL BE JUDGED BY THE SNIFFER“. And than it hit me so hard in the face that i flew back to my cell, the door closed and i fell to sleep. Surely i would die from a hit such as this, but i only was feeling pain without injury.
As i woke up .. i heard yelling and screaming .. „HELP HEELP HEEEEEELP MEEE PLEASE IM SORRY“. The noise came from the others which were hold by a giant ugly bug that sniffed the cause of their death and which got the punishment for it. The people were held in small cages, naked and full of fear while being tormented by other beasts.
The bug – thing was terrifying itself. A dark coat with bleeding wings and again this red living flesh. The flesh was holding the sinners infront of the judge while it sniffed and told in which tormenter class they would be tortured for eternity.
I was standing on the corner while the red flesh grabbed me and i started to scream in horrible pain and fear. It covered my entire body and caused all pain at once. „THE SINNERS SOUL IS TO BE TORTURED IN THE DEMONS CHAMBER“ said the judge while it sniffed on me. The smell was disgusting and i couldnt say a word because i was screaming in pain.
After my judgement, the flesh threw me down a dark hole while i still was screaming in pain, panick and whatever bad feeling there was. This was going on forever ? Never could i do this? Why did i deserve this?. I was talking to myself while i was tightened to red flesh .. Every second was painfull enough and now these fearful beings were bringing me to the demons chamber .. what on hell was that? How could it get ever worse than this?
„YOU WILL SEE HOW BAD IT WILL GET RIGHT NOW – STUPID HUMAN“ said one being. It was hearing my thoughts ? I couldnt hide my thoughts? How did he hear me ? Or was it pure luck?
I came off the red flesh and got thrown even further down.. A simple hole of blue flesh? Just a really tiny hole made out of organs .. But it wasnt hurting at all .. What was going on? The demons left while i heard them talk something „Will he ever get it ?“.
I didnt understood a word but i needed to climb out the fuck out of here. Maybe they did a mistake and threw me to a wrong spot, this was my chance!
The blue organs were sticking to me the more i try’d to move.. fuck.. i couldnt move easily but i was going up the three meter hole i thought. But instead i was falling further in and started to feel sharp pain at my feat. The blue flesh was turning into something i knew..
It turned into some sort of fluffy hair ?? I was awake and my cat was playing with my foot.. Damn.. was that really a dream? I did kill my parents but that was all good after 30 years. That place was definetly an area to land, when i wouldnt know about it! That was surely a test of skill…? As pain was rising on my entire body ..
„Will he ever get it“ was the last thing that was heard from Ismail Shalak, while he was like the rest, held in a open cell … screaming in pain, hell.
Ursprünglich veröffentlicht auf Katjas Bauchladen: Ich werde oft gefragt: „Was ist eigentlich los mit mir? Ich fühl mich hier so fehl am Platz, was stimmt denn mit mir nicht?“ Nun eigentlich stimmt alles mit dir. Es ist nur so, dass viele von uns dieses Leben nun eben nicht zum ersten Mal leben, sondern…
Yesterday i just slept unusual 4 hours while being strongly awake until two in the morning. I had no idea why, the only thing i had taken was chilly and mint tea… Seemed to be way stronger than coffee .. And now im here .. laying down on my bed at 20:00 and nearly drowing […]
As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me. It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it. A few seconds later … my vision got […]
There was once a world before the modern day took the lights. A world before the counting..
Where animals and humans lived together, where no government was trying to restrict the movement of anybody across the country’s and no one had to fear consequences for rude behaviour.. there was no crime, no hate and many diseases were wiped out.
A free world of technology, knowledge and consciousness. A world of understandment, love and peace.
The beings during that time were not all humans but many came from different planets to develop their species and take ressources of planets because their own got once destroyed by war with a different planet.
This species was far advanced in every aspect. They had built a planet sized gravity star planet which was a planet just like earth but everything was made with a special metall that was light and very dense at the same time.
They befriended with the stupid ape planet earth and took many apes and animals to their ships. After analysation, they realised that it was possible to recreate a species that was dumb enough to never advance too far and intelligente enough to never attack their owner. However, that was all in the dark so no one knew what was coming towards them.
After the species took form, the very first humanoid and alien alike people were known as Adam and Eve in the garden of god. Better known as „human“. What Adam and Eve didnt knew, was that they got captured from a very far world outside the universe and the memory was wiped clean out.
So they were sent back to earth, told to always love their makers and to never stand against them.
Soon after Adam and Eve, many others came by and built a center of what the world was knowing soon as „Lemuria“ or ancient „Dark Snake“ and Atlantis.
The extraterrestials saw how their project grew in what they wanted, a working and slave class for a special metall on earth.
The world was shining in gold and earth was going a way full of advancement and peace. Animals were taught to behave with humans, super computers were built to identify health and brain functions and no one was working for money but for all the things they stood for. No stress was the motto.
Everything seemed perfect until.. the makers asked for what they came for..
Unknowlingly, many dissapeared and got killed by the weapons of the artificial star. They took all the gold which were collected by the humans. Many stood against their makers but it wasnt helping because they had implented many things into their bodys such as the „mine chip“. This chip would detonate when they act against their makers.
Lost legs, arms and heads came the follwing moon lights. The aliens just laughed at them because the only thing they needed to do was pressing a button and all would be gone. Since the ancient world had no interest in weapons and violence, they got wiped completely..
The aliens plundered the entire planet of their true ressources such as the giant trees, omega rocks and gold… lots of gold. They ruined the worlds history so no one would ever find out what really happend. Placing a few statues and rocks and letting the dumb minds of the weak creatures do the rest of a never ending puzzle… All for the distraction.
But before the world went down, some managed to write it down, that maybe one day, someone would read and know the missing peace of history on earth.
After one day of plundering and killing, they left a few new species and animals on earth but again, without memory and only few things to develop their brains overtime and a chip to extinguish them when the time was right to come back, plundering again.
So it happend .. the white and long finger beings went away, letting earth recover and or selfe destruct while watching them from the moon and implementing a „reincarnation – memory forget“ -machine. So if someone died unconscious, they would die and be reincarnated again in the same slave system to work their asses off again and never understand what their real purpose was after all..
„You dumb apes.. we see you soon, or maybe you all just sleep inside our ship?“ – were the last words written along the walls of the pyramids.
You might think now that we will tell you the same crap, just like many others
Telling you „You give meaning to your life and you got to find it“ or whatever.
Lets cut that straight to the point.
Youre not a human and youre not here to serve a „greater purpose“ or be a slave to the robotic system.
Your a soul who came from very very far away. And now youre trying to find a reason why youre here but you really cant. The reason for that is amnesia. You cant remember what happend and since 99% of the population dont know WHO AND WHAT they really are, they start to struggle and they either continue to play this game of feelings, missunderstandings and many more things which screw around with their mind.
Or they just dont play and kill themselves but that is a different story and within their plan.
In the end, most of us are integrated in this game and they cant really get out of there because they didnt came close enough to those questions which wouldve changed their view to this world and themselves. They would be …happy.. and the system ..this planet itself, doesnt want happy people.
The reason why youre here is to REMEMBER who you really are. Get every piece of memory back and KNOW where you have to go before you die, otherwise you will fall victim again and land here, asking and doing all the same shit over and over again until you make it.
You might think that nothing except 3D exists because no one has proven otherwise? There are many who did prove.
You can have fun and all that stuff that is available here, but always focus to remember and ask yourself questions that you cant answer because the answers are all inside you!
You just have to remember how you opened those memory parts and see it again!
I was a doctor in a nice city, had the best clients and never to worry at all. But one day, my little bitch of a girlfriend left me because i wanted to do a job further out the city. They were paying me alot more … Why didnt i listened to her? I should […]
I was with a group of 6 people. Three guys and three girls. We were walking casually around and the area seemed unfamiliar. While it was getting dark, we came across a splitting route which lead either up or to the right, down the city. The two girls and a guy went up and i […]
Es begann schon in der 5ten Klasse. Das Sprechen vor meinen Mitschülern war schwer erträglich weil sie entweder lachten oder ich es selbst tat, während ich gleichzeitig anfing zu heulen.
Das blieb so.
Bis zur 10ten Klasse war ich eine Suse wie meine Mitschüler mich beschrieben.
Aber sind wir ehrlich, kennt ihr das Gefühl nicht, wie es ist wenn man durch Menschenmassen läuft und sich unwohl dabei fühlt weil sie auf einen gucken?
Alle glotzen einen an .. aber man bildet sich das wohl ein.
Alleine Schuhe binden war auch nicht immer leicht auf der Straße, wenn sie mal auf gingen. Statt sie zuzubinden hab ich die Schnürsenkel einfach so gelassen wie sie sind. Das sah auch viel cooler aus.
Meine Eltern jammerten immer wieso ich keine Freunde habe, aber sie hatten selbst keine.
Mir passierte mal seltsames.. Ein Mädchen sprach mich auf der Straße an und fragte mich nach einer Nummer die ich nicht besaß.
Das lief ungefähr so.
Mädchen: Hey wie gehts ?
Ich: Schaue verwundert nach links und rechts und auch hinter mich um sicherzustellen, dass sie mit jemandem sprechen muss ausser mir.
„… ja?“ Und kratzte meinen Kopf.
Mädchen: super antwort, hast du lust mit uns was zu essen zu gehen ?
Ich: Nachdem ich fertig war mit umsehen zeigte ich den Finger auf mich welcher auch noch zitterte und sagte „Äh ja ok“
Und als ich gerade mitkommen wollte kam einer ihrer Freundinnen und zerrte sie am Arm mit. Danach gingen beide los und ich dachte ich laufe mit..
Freundin von Mädchen: Du lass mal gut sein, wir müssen jetzt los. Übrigens ist deine Hose beim reden runter gerutscht falls dus immernoch nicht bemerkt hast.
Das war der peinlichste Moment meiner Existenz.. Meine Hose rutschte von selbst runter ohne das ichs bemerkte.. Kein Wunder das die Leute so komisch glotzten.
Meine Nervosität war ab da unter dem Boden und jedes mal wenn ich unterwegs sein musste, überprüfte ich ob meine Hosen noch da waren. Wenn ich aber mal bei Besuch unter den Familienmitgliedern im eignen Haus war, überprüfte ich im Bad ob meine Unterhose noch da war.
Meine Probleme nahmen zu.. Ich war mir sicher das Nachts irgendwer im Haus war. Ich hörte Schritte und ein Kratzen neben meinem Zimmer aber war zu ängstlich die Tür zu öffnen. Am nächsten morgen sah ich unsere neue Hauskatze..
Did it happen again? You did your exercises and your body fell asleep, but your mind stood awake, … But you cant get out ? Whats wrong ? Well theres a possible block for you! I call it the silver wall because i saw it. Its a wall that is glued to your astral body […]
The last few days i started to dream some weird stuff … and it still holds on. My problem is that these dreams make clearly no sense and neither can i become aware of inside of them. The only thing that happens IF i become aware, is that the dream pattern and my movements, STILL […]
I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people. They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere. I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries […]
As i turned slowly around while my heart was pounding like never before, a being stood in front of me.
It had a foil over the head like a coat and i couldnt see the face. My feat were stuck of fear while i looked at it.
A few seconds later … my vision got blurry and the scene changed. Suddenly that damn thing was gone and i runned downstairs because the door was now a brick wall. I opened the door and thought that this would be the way to hell..
The hallway was full of … i dont know how to describe it.. it was full of bloody body parts that were alive. They were moving and the wall was bleeding while the shattered light bulps worked again.
The scene changed again infront of my eyes. It was like a split second… just like before… But why was this happening to me.. i just want to get the hell out of here.
The hallway seemed normal just as always and i was still panicking and hoping to find another exit.
„“CLICK – BOOOM““ – A loud explosion ? But where ? Nothing could explode here ? The generators?
My heart was racing even faster when i thought about it… but it was true.. the lights were turning off one by one. I needed to get my lighter, quickly!
I ran into my office and picked up the lighter „BAM“ – The door got closed on its own again.
Every step was fearful and something told me.. something had fun with me being afraid.
As i held my lighter and moved slowly forward, i thought about what would happen when i loose all my light resources.. The only thing left was my lighter dammit.
I opened the door and held my lighter upfront to see were i was going to. I still needed to get out of here somehow, but how when the damn door dissapeared ? ..
While i walked down the hallway, a door opened slowly .. And flash light was coming out of there.. like something making fotos in there?
As i approached the room, i saw that damn being laying down there with a coat and full of blood. I knew that this thing wasnt supposed to be here! It was laying on the metal plattform which was used to inspect the fresh dead bodys.. Was this the missing body ? I didnt cared but the camera was still flashing, i picked it up and looked through it while pressing the button… dont ask me why i did that, i thought i just needed to..
That thing suddenly was standing before me and i panicked, looking again through it and pressing the flash button. It dissapeared again and i could breath for few minutes.. How did this camera came here ? Atleast it had flash and was showing something in the darkness i thought.
So i ran through the floor with my lighter and the camera and whenever something strange appeared, i flashed it. Seemed to work so it had to work on the damn wall too!
As i ran, i heard a loud monstrous voice that was chasing me. I turned the camera around and flashed it i thought, but the scream was coming closer and closer as i approached the door.
Again i ripped open the exit door and looked through the glass, but the thing was gone.. I walked up the stairs and turned left .. There it was ..
The door was there again? .. i had enough and just in case, pointed the camera at it and pressed the button.
That damn thing was standing again in front of me..
I didnt run away.. instead i threw the camera at it and ran screaming towards it. The camera shattered … and so did my nose while i lost consciousness..
The next day ..
„HEY …HEY! what happend ? Can you hear me?“ a colleague of mine asked while i was still dizzy.
„What happend here ? Is everything okay? You didnt responded to any calls so the Headquarters called me to check“ she said.
„Iam so glad to see you jane!“ as i was standing up.
The door behind her was open and i could feel the wind.
„I quit! And you should too jane.. I would be dead now“ i said while i walked by her, outside.
„Finally fresh air oh my god.. i thought i was going to really die“ i said while i walked few meters away from the building.
„So you didnt took the pill? You saw it didnt you.. “ she said to me while she was smiling.
„You knew ? What the hell jane!?“
As she looked at me, i backed further away .. There it was .. That thing stood right behind her.
„BEHIND YOU JANE“ i screamed
She just smiled and got ripped inside while the door did shut loud… I just ran as fast as i could to my car and drove away without ever looking back..
Dear Diary, Today was another special day. I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile. You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it. The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody […]
Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was. I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but […]
The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter. As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face. It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster […]
The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down… The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here. It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head. The […]
You did your exercises and your body fell asleep, but your mind stood awake, … But you cant get out ?
Whats wrong ?
Well theres a possible block for you! I call it the silver wall because i saw it.
Its a wall that is glued to your astral body but its not a part of it. The appearance is silver, floating and quite shiny … Like looking into moving waters..
First when i saw this, i thought i may break through it but … no chance! Its way more dense and heavier than any obstacle to move through and the silver is probably a sort of lead but in the forth dimension.
Now what has lead to do in the fourth dimension where everything is moving energetically ?
I might guess something that comes into my mind from a very weird dream with aliens.
In my dream there was a two meter lead wall and the ship had nearly all doors made out of it. It was very heavy and i couldnt pass through. But there was no reason to put this huge doors infront of someone because in 3D – you could break through and open them easy – That leads me to the conclusion of being astral in some sort of place while my body was in deep sleep or i was remembering something through that.
But since i was unconscious and in dream state, i could only move the already open door, only few inches with heavy struggles.
I asked myself why there would be this kind of door and the answer was simple … It was there to hold down visitors from other dimensions (4D).
And since the aliens there had no problems moving them, i dont doubt that they found a way to create something that would seal away souls who try to stick their noses too much into someones business.
At least trapping them with something inside their bodys with a very certain trigger.. like talking too much about it .. a selve activating trap which is installed somewhere in the DNA by a pattern.
So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work! I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them. First of all, nothing is impossible, and […]
Now lets talk for real a second. If we put the people aside which got wealthy by honest and hard work, and those who got wealthy by scaming people, we might see that the majority of people get rich trough scaming! But why is it like that ? Why isnt hard and honest work not […]
Hello Diary, Today was another big day …just as always. My doll collections are ready and another joung body was just brought to me. This body was perfect for the new garden! A childrens young and juicy organs and body parts First i smashed the head in two pieces and took out the brain. The […]
We always had a door outside of town. Legends said that this door seals monsters from other dimensions and that no one is allowed to open it. Not even the police or whatever managed to simply open the door. They built a park around the door which seemed to go down a sewer or something. […]
I hate driving on the streets here.. the problem is the stupidity of people.
They dont know the rules of driving at all and cause serious crashy moments if you dont keep your eyes everywhere.
I constantly try to avoid any stupid situations because someone thinks hes important because of a bigger car and tries to take over in the middle of traffic.. fucking idiots i can tell!
Than theres the other problem.. the people who issue a drivers license to those who give them money… Since everything is possible with money, you can get your license here for around 120€ without even attempting to learn anything.
And the most fucked up part is that manny parents give their 5 year old kids a car to drive.. to learn how to drive… yes you read it right! And guess what happens when they cause a crash?
I really would like some strict rules on the streets here, the police isnt doing much ..only collecting money from some other stuffs and raids..
And when you call those idiots out on the street, they either look stupid at you or say nothing ..
Just yesterday there was a bus who stopped in the middle of the road while i was on the sidewalk after filling up gas, and that guy didnt moved.. i needed to raise my hand and the horn to check if hes picknicking or going to drive…
Trust me im not a angry driver but if someone just stops on the fucking road and parks it there, i really get pissed!
And the last part is the „Wedding Konvoy“ … the cunts drive on the opposite road and risk crashing while fifteen other cars chase it loud with sirens and and dumbass manuvers..
Trust me … this kind is one of the worst.. most of them dont even got a license and they drive like idiots .. I hope the police is busting their asses all along.. several cases of crashing to people has been reported, they even kill cows on the road because they drive 80 in a 20 road..
Well… thats that .. if you thought that you might get angry when you drive, forget it… the most would get a shock from this place and a therapy for anger issues! xD
I woke up unknowingly of my location, inside a building full of the worlds nightmares. How did i came i here? Was this even real? Why was there nobody? Did i dreamed it ? All i know is… That place showed me the world in which we live in. It was a nightmare.. A count […]
There was once a soul who was very corrupted by power and greed. This soul caused several super solar system war’s and many planets were burning.. There was a team of eight … he was one of those eight but haunted and afraid of the black dimensional beings. Through the unlimited ways of playing this […]
I managed to finish the blood skin wall. It was really messy but now i can smile.
You now its tough the ripp the human skin off the flesh, without damaging it.
The two bodys are ready for the next step and the wall is painted in bloody fresh red.
The speciality of this room is the wall itself. The skin is attached with smaller nails from the fingers of the bodys and the skins somehow became alive. But they always need blood… like a flower needing water …
It looks absolutely delicious …. i like fucking the living skin wall sometimes, because its alive, it understands my feelings… i love the rotting parts of the wall … they make it look more disgusting and creepy for our show.
When the skin is finally seperated from the flesh, it doesnt need washing but instant nailing. Every bit of the dropping blood is held in a container for the blood circulator which lets the wall look so pretty, but im sure you knew that all along dear diary 🙂
Do you wanna know what kind of bodys i nailed there ?
I mostly put up kids skin on the wall, because i hate them so much. Everytime i see kids, my blood boils and i want to smash their heads open with an axe because they look too cute! I hate it!
Gladly they died screaming and in agony… You know the pain drags several evil beings in this building and they help me with my business. But all they want is energy..
What do i get for it? Only a haunted place … sometimes i hear kids scream down the hallway …but then i remember that ive got three more of them in my underground tunnel basements.
Done with work and stressed… my back spasmed random and i thought it would break in half xD
Yesterday i took few pills to relax and slept quite well .. but something woke me up and i lost completely the location where i was.
I feel quite fucked up… i could use a break but in a country where money is rare and you make more than the most „rich“ cities, you cant resist the smell xD
The sun is unusual or am i seeing things? One day really hot, next cold and windy.. And before i forget it, i saw today some strange clouds, they were rainbow painted and highly in the air. Ive never saw something like that but i couldnt take a clear picture of it and neither is the dumbass camera showing it.
Why is all mystery and fun stuff mostly recorded bad .. is there a code in the phone system ? Lol
The second monster which appeared was the backwards sprinter.
As the name sais.. it sprints towards you with its back turned. Long arms and legs, a rather grey and dark shiny skin and a really ugly face.
It sprints after its prey and when it comes close to the kill, the back of the monster splits into two pieces with wide and sharp teeth while it runs.
Many lost their lives to it. It rather lives in the dark and likes hospitals and long dark floors. Somehow you cant hear when it sprints but feel the teeth when it bites off half of your body while running.
The last time i saw one was yesterday near the sewers of our base. That cunt was waiting for blood and flesh to be dropped down.. We throw away infected animals and these things eat them.
Whatever you do, never try to encounter one, it runs faster than you and it can eat a lot of bullets.
I would personally say that this being is rather blind and uses sound for detection .. that would explain why you dont hear when it runs..
We caught few of them to see how they behave and how their structure is built. Interestingly, it seems like an abnormal mutation to cancer cells while a virus becomes conscious to the instincts of the beasts and acts as such.. just eating everything..
Dear diary, I was on the look -out for few weeks and found out as much as i could about the swine. She had soft skin but was very dirty inside, so cleansed her… She was screaming at her friends and liked hurting animals, this was the perfect prey for my next pig doll collection […]
The first monster which appeared back in the days out of its grave was the „Scare“, after that it went all down…
The scare was and is still one of the scariest monsters out here.
It has no face, no eyes, ears or mouth. Just rotten skin and spiky metal wrapped around its head.
The rest of the body is rather skinny and tall and it can run fast!
It doesnt make a sound on its own.. but when its near .. you hear the fast footsteps very irregulary .. That is one hell of a scary sound and it lookes horrific.
The arms are covered in sharp blades and when it attacks, it hugs the prey and walks around with it until it dies.. human or animal..it doesnt matter.
Than it runs against a wall to finish it.. The disturbing part is when it eats… It.. just stands right next to its kill and waits to bleed out – suddenly a smile appears on its face and it runs after the next prey.. It seems odly that this species eats dark emotions and fear..
A really terrible monster.. scarier than the movie ghost girl..lol…
If you see it – its mostly over but if you got time, shoot it legs and its head!
The species is rather walking at night in the bushes and waits behind trees when humans approach.
If you got no gun, you WILL die!
They arent robust but agile! Make sure you dont miss!
How did it appear ? It crawled out of someone’s grave …
So, since it comes again and again under the eyes and ears and annoys me somehow discreetly, today a little educational work!
I hear again about people who believe, or about whom it is said that they are possessed by demons or that ghosts are attached to them.
First of all, nothing is impossible, and so is this. But in spite of everything, let’s be clear.
Just because it is possible, what is the probability that a ghost, a demon or any other being, will pick out a normal, mortal human being and choose him as a victim.
Why, should it do so?
It is a fact that the normal human being, who does not believe in ghosts, demons, poltergeists, narrowness or even in God and devil, is not a particularly attractive victim. Since he is in principle not seriously attackable.
If he has an extremely high energetic charisma and shines like a moth lamp, it is quite possible that he comes into the field of vision of some ghosts, but he must also be vulnerable
The magic word here is VULNERABLE.
We know that everything is frequency and vibration and to leave a loophole, or docking hole to be vulnerable or attackable, our frequency must be down.
There must be a hole through or into which the being can enter. A person who is aware of himself and his own energetic protection and environment does not become a victim as easily as someone who simply believes everything that is told to him somewhere and who, because of fear, – no longer dares to sleep in the dark at night.
Besides and most people forget this, nothing is permanent or even forever, here on this planet. A ghost only consumes energy as long as you supply it to him.
That means in plain language, if you don’t supply any, it disappears. And what many still forget, do you really believe that a spirit that feeds on your fear energy so desperately wants you to become aware of it? No!
If you consciously and openly perceive spirit activity, there is a greater chance that it is someone you know and want to communicate with you.
An energy-sucker will be much more discreet than someone who wants to draw attention to himself.
The first important step in both cases is not to be afraid, because please WHAT should or can an energy form do for you? Except make you a little bit or more afraid.
But you only have this fear because you do not see WHO is there before you. Just imagine this being as a human being and your fear will be much less and you will be able to think more clearly and deal with it!
Please also finally free yourself from the thought of wanting to send every spirit and every soul into the light. I can only tell you again and again that this is none of your business and you have neither to decide nor to determine it.
To go into the light means to incarnate directly and THAT is not what every soul or spirit that communicates or wants to communicate with you wants to expand.
Also, when you are seeking professional help, make sure that this person does not want to begin to put such a compulsion on your visitor. This can backfire!
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